Bog Miroslav Mandić Bog

 

I’m sleepy

 

I was walking and will walk some more

 

the wind has blew me through a bit

 

warmth is making me sleepy

 

I would love to go down town and buy new New Testament

 

I will be reading it more often

 

maybe even every day

 

other spiritual literature I will reduce

 

apart from beloved mystics

 

I’m reducing all other things as well

 

I care more and more about grass

 

sparrows

 

God’s Gypsy kids

 

crows which I’m watching every day

 

lizards which will soon appear

 

I care more and more about Julian Assange and Nadezhda Tolokonnikova

 

about poem in the eyes of every being

 

I’m thinking about animals whose eyes I saw

 

beloved flies

 

I was in bed

 

sleeping for half an hour

 

wow how pleasant it was

 

I laid down dressed up so I was even warmer

 

I curled up

 

disappeared

 

I turned down the iTunes so blues was also lulling me

 

appeasement helped my heart which was yearning for sleep

 

each moment spent in tranquillity and without pain is paradise

 

grace

 

gratitude

 

modesty bathe me and don’t leave me

 

enjoy in my heart

 

let’s welcome swallows with a smile

 

 

twenty one years ago Kaja passed away

 

in the book Days of My Life today is the Day When Mothers are Passing Away

 

Kaja is the mother of all beings

 

Kaja – joy which exists

 

it’s snowing

 

it’s snowing in Kaja’s glory

 

in Kaja’s glory today I wrote a letter to Violeta Ivana and Mirjana

 

they are closest to me in my everyday life and work

 

Violeta is editing and correcting blessings of the Miroslav Mandic book every day

 

Ivana is translating blessings of the Miroslav Mandic book to English every day

 

Mirjana is showing the most enthusiasm and gives the most money

 

everything else that should be done is on hold

 

apart from everyday work I cannot get into any of the work

that is on hold since then the things I’m singing are going to snap

 

I don’t know what to do

I hope I will never stop singing

 

there is nobody to get the advice from about the problems I’m troubled with

 

there is nobody who I could tell the God’s miracle I feel and live

 

there is nobody with whom I could share the miracle of singing creating and walking

 

it’s God’s glory

 

it’s snowing

 

today I’ll start to think about what to do and how to work if on the first of June

I break up working with Ivana and Violeta and if I break up working on the web site

 

I will be thinking in glory of all imprisoned ones

 

in glory of Nadezhda Tolokonnikova

 

Julian Assange

 

Mohamed Bouazizi

 

Jan Palach

 

Christ

 

crucified

 

resurrected

 

constantly resurrecting

 

in anyone’s brave heart

 

resurrecting through the love of the immortal ones

 

sing

them

 

just

sing

them

miroslav

and

don’t

give

up

don’t

ever

give

up

miroslav

sing

them

and

love-kiss

them

through

tears

of

freedom

and

in

all

beings

resurrect

m

i

r

o

s

l

a

v

 

 

 

 

light snow is falling

 

yesterday I was thinking about the first of June this year

 

should I break up or carry on

 

whatever it is what’s the most important is that it is dear to God

 

dear

to

God

You

all being

 

three ways

 

first way – to stop doing everything I’m working on for one year

 

second way – to stop working with Violeta Ivana and working with the web site

 

third way – to carry on with everything

 

since December when I started thinking about break up

in order to improve my work I was thinking about breaking up

with Violeta’s editing Ivana’s translating and working with the web site

 

yesterday I felt that if I’m breaking up it would

be good to break up with everything for one year

 

I felt that I could do that and I felt great relief in that

 

I took on walking a little paper accordion with everything I’m working with

 

One Man – now forty two years old work till the end of my life

Red Notebook – now forty two years old miracle till the end of my life

86400 – 86400 moments and works every day or immaterial art

I am God – everyday writing of the poem I am God to the end of my life

Miroslav Mandic – everyday work on fourteen years long book

Blue Roses – everyday work on decennial picture

Blue Film – everyday work on decennial film

64 Buds – everyday work on sixty four decennial pictures

Bud of Walking – walking 13 km every day

Bud of the Face – taking photo of my face every day

Bud of a Day – everyday photo of a day

Good Walker – everyday drawing

miroslavmandic.name – everyday work on the web site

Bud of All Beings – everyday definitions of the Bud of All Beings

Coffees of Courage – everyday work with money

 

I was looking at the little drawing on the little paper accordion which represents each

of these works and while walking I was thinking whether I can and could this be stopped

 

I felt I could stop and with God’s will after one year carry on

 

on each of the works would be left with a trace of the one year of void and break up

 

painful

salvific

 

when I felt that it is possible I felt great relief

 

I was thinking that I would love to disappear somewhere

 

not somewhere God knows where since that is impossible for me because I don’t want

to cross state borders and by doing so confirm them and use

the passport in which I don’t believe

 

but somewhere

 

here

 

close by which is sometimes the most remote

 

somewhere in some motel in Vojvodina

 

to be silent and to forget about everything

 

to freshen up

 

only to surrender to God

 

to hug and love-kiss Him

 

more free and joyful

 

it’s snowing harder

 

pain in the chest is lessening

 

snowflakes first bounce of the asphalt and then they melt immediately

 

 

 

second way

breaking up with the work with Violeta and Ivana and work on the web-site

 

the second way would be to stop working with Violeta with Ivana

I would also stop working on the web-site. stop socialising with Mirjana

love is forever

 

I would carry on with

 

One Man

now forty two years old work till the end of my life

Red Notebook

now forty two years old miracle till the end of my life

86400

86400 moments and works every day or immaterial art

I am God

everyday writing of the poem I am God to the end of my life

Miroslav Mandic

everyday work on fourteen years long book

Blue Roses

everyday work on decennial picture

Blue Film

everyday work on decennial film

64 Buds

everyday work on sixty four decennial pictures

Bud of Walking

walking 13 km every day

Bud of the Face

taking photo of my face every day

Bud of a Day

everyday photo of a day

Good Walker

everyday drawing

Bud of All Beings

everyday definitions of the Bud of All Beings

Coffees of Courage

everyday work with money

 

a lot and a lot of times I was telling Violeta Ivana and Mirjana things

which they didn’t do and now all of that has become a bug in our relationship

 

Violeta says that I should break up with her

 

because I haven’t improved and made the work on checking blessings better

 

because I haven’t implemented a lot of your suggestions which I wanted and accepted

 

because I’m not undertaking and I’m late

there you go I’m also late with great exciting gift-project Them which you gave me

 

because it is a betrayal of art which you are creating

and values which you are living and singing every day which I

feel and which I admire and which I don’t support with my own life

 

Ivana says that I should break up with her

 

because there is no devotion and admiration

 

because I’m fantasising a lot concerning you and your work

 

because some wonderful things in those fantasies I don’t implement at all

 

because I’m reserved and distanced and not getting in with all my being

 

because I’m stuck to myself and my parents

 

Mirjana says that I should break up with her

 

I’m not a zero and that’s why I cannot receive you who are hundred percent

 

because you’re dealing with me too much and because I’m insisting on my ways

 

because I’m in the system and because it drags me off even

though I surrender to You and enjoy and yearn to live only like that

 

because I’m arguing with you and I don’t live externally everything I agree with internally

 

because of the minuses I made and I never corrected them

 

because I don’t know the art of Miroslav Mandic

I’m not working on the system of values through which I could work with you

 

because I don’t have the sameness on

emotional mental volitional level of consciousness with you

and through physical level my need to tie you only with me shoots out

 

I have to stop because there is no end and that’s why we

should break up because there are more bad than good things with me

 

if I stop everyday work on the web-site that is because there are mistakes in it

which I cannot eliminate and because without Zoltan I cannot improve my web-site

 

I would be very sorry to stop all of that because

twenty or so people are visiting the site every day

 

each break up is very dangerous

but it can also be salvific

 

if I break up with Violeta Ivana Mirjana and web-site the most important is to

carry on with everything else and to live and work in God’s Yours and all beings’ grace

 

to magnify through my life and work hope faith and love for new one and new persons

new persons are unknown people or the ones I know in case they change and become new

 

new person of mine I love-kiss You

 

new person of mine I’m waiting for You

 

come

 

third way

to carry on with everything

 

there are three ways within the third way

 

the old way – with misery cubed

 

in change – with more work agreement and identification

 

in new way – with new person

 

all three ways are good because they are unknown to me

 

three ways can be reduced to two

 

first way – the old way

 

second way – in change and in new way

 

it’s important to go one of the two ways and not to hesitate or go between them

 

today is Mohamed Bouazizi’s birthday

may everything I live work and sing be also in glory of Mohamed Bouazizi

 

it’s important to give in and surrender myself on the way I’m going to carry on

 

on the first way I would be even more alone

 

alone – for all beings

 

alone – a poem to each being

 

alone – in glory of all lone ones

 

second way is with the other

 

with the other – loyal to others

 

with the other – identical other

 

with the other – dedicated other

 

with Goddess – eternal poem of all beings

 

with Goddess – eternal wedding with all beings

 

with Goddess – eternal glory of one and only God

 

the most important is to sing create and

live each moment dear to God You and all beings

 

each moment of the 86400 moments each day

 

only goodness

 

only beauty

 

only love

 

only immortality

 

everyone has succeeded within me already

 

everyone is already joy within me

 

everyone is already love-kissed within me

 

everyone is immortal within me

 

this is how I went through March

 

I got from

Mirjana Lukic 155 euros

Vladimir Macura 100 euros

Ivana Djokic-Saunderson 63 euros

Vera Varady 60 euros

Sun Mandic 18 euros

Violeta Jovanovic 10 euros

Petar Miloradovic 10 euros

 

I’ve spent

twist roll 18 dinars

zwieback 45 dinars

three rolls 62 dinars

Serbian bun 43 dinars

pasta 0.4 kg 55 dinars

eight pastries 299 dinars

bread 5.2 kg 1042 dinars

five bannocks 155 dinars

smoki peanuts 0.7 kg 90 dinars

five bags of peanut sticks 120 dinars

 

mineral water 15l 431 dinars

effervescent mineral tablets 449 dinars

 

tofu chees 123 dinars

mustard 0.3 kg 81 dinars

mayonnaise 2.55 kg 801 dinars

herbal cheese 0.3 kg 114 dinars

 

instant soup 23 dinars

olives 0.15 kg 85 dinars

four lettuces 198 dinars

carrots 0.52 kg 29 dinars

potatoes 0.8 kg 59 dinars

beetroot 1.13 kg 65 dinars

 

parsley 0.22 kg 26 dinars

frozen vegetables 0.8 kg 174 dinars

 

apples 3.91 kg 174 dinars

bananas 5.1 kg 572 dinars

oranges 5.52 kg 401 dinars

 

sweets 40 dinars

two creams 324 dinars

biscuits 2.5 kg 721 dinars

five bags of hot chocolate 134 dinars

 

cranberry tea 114 dinars

two bags of prostate tea 415 dinars

two boxes of hawthorn tea 290 dinars

 

multivitamins 372 dinars

hawthorn tincture 1302 dinars

 

toilet paper 86 dinars

four soaps 415 dinars

paper tissues 18 dinars

fabric softener 417 dinars

three toothpastes 309 dinars

dishwashing liquid 99 dinars

 

plastic foils 200 dinars

bus plus ticket 436 dinars

two mini dv tapes for Blue Film 700 dinars

 

I got altogether 415 euros

 

I’ve spent 384 euros

for material and work 12 euros

for rent and bills 275 euros

for hygiene 18 euros

for food 79 euros

 

gave to others 62 euros

 

31 euros minus I compensated from the money I have left from last year

 

this month Vesna Milovic as well gave me money but I don’t

know how much because Nada haven’t given them to me yet

Vesna’s money I will put into the Fairy-Tale 4 for April

 

I would always love to give to others more than 33% of money I spend for myself

money for material and work I don’t count as well as rent money

and bills because that is the space for my works in which I live and work

 

I’ve spent on myself 97 euros

18 euros for hygiene and 79 for food

 

I’ve spent 97 euros and gave 62 euros

 

I gave 64% from what I’ve spent on myself

God it’s Your glory

 

numbers of litres kilograms bags boxes and number of dinars or euros are kisses of life

 

love-kissing with gratitude

 

love-kissing with thoughtfulness

 

love-kissing with modesty

 

love-kissing with calmness

 

twist roll 18 dinars hey

tofu chees 123 dinars hey

four soaps 415 dinars hey

two creams 324 dinars hey

multivitamins 372 dinars hey

parsley 0.22 kg 26 dinars hey

bus plus ticket 436 dinars hey

two boxes of hawthorn tea 290 dinars hey

 

Sun Mandic 18 euros hey hey hey

Vera Varady 60 euros hey hey hey

Mirjana Lukic 155 euros hey hey hey

Vladimir Macura 100 euros hey hey hey

Petar Miloradovic 10 euros hey hey hey

Violeta Jovanovic 10 euros hey hey hey

Ivana Djokic-Saunderson 63 euros hey hey hey

 

may each bite be compassion with hungry ones

 

may everything I buy be encouragement for those who cannot buy

anything so that they have money and so that they can buy something

 

I would love if these lists fairy-tales trigger a smile

 

smile can do everything

 

isn’t it so