Bog Miroslav Mandić Bog

    You
    are

    408000

    bud

    MY WORST OPTION OF MOVING I LOVE-KISS YOU

    2649. day
    2nd April 2012

    yesterday I moved out

     

    moving lasted from 10 am to 2 pm

     

    twelve car rounds were needed for the Bud to be

    moved from the Nest into the First House of All Beings

     

    Bud was moved by Sun Mandic Nebojsa Rikanovic Mirjana Lukic

    Violeta Jovanovic Maja Klisinski Ivana Djokic-Saunderson and Nemanja Radovic

     

    afterwards from 2 pm to 4 pm Violeta Jovanovic Mirjana Lukic

    Maja Klisinski and Ivana Djokic-Saunderson have washed and cleaned the Nest

     

    I came to the First House of All Beings around 5 pm. I was

    the loneliest man in this world but also the most joyous being in all worlds

     

    sound

     

    health of compassion

     

    everything on the table was the same

     

    even more the same after so many years at the table

    I love life at the table ever since I was a little boy

     

    music

     

    words on the screen

     

    things on the table

     

    yellow daffodils

     

    smell of hyacinth

     

    first duty of the First House of All Beings is to smell of flowers

    remember everything connected to the First House of All Beings and with that memory be my guide

     

    everything around me was different

     

    light

     

    space

     

    water taps

     

    I didn’t know where my things were

     

    TV wasn’t working because of the cable

     

    I was exhausted like every child in the end of the day

     

    I still managed on 1st April 2012 as well

    to thank all the people who are giving me the new money

     

    Bud of Money through which I live work walk create and sing

     

    I spoke over the phone with Ivana Violeta and Mirjana

     

    cloths we threw away are the best cloths

    I said to Mirjana over the phone

     

    the pain in my chest back and stomach didn’t appear

    I was getting up several times during the night and only towards the morning was hurting me a bit

     

    out of all options of moving this is the worst one

    and that’s why all I have to do is to make a miracle out of it

     

    poor ones are saving the world

    sex

     

    poor ones have always been saving the world

    sex

     

    poor ones are love-kissing the world forever

    sex

     

    poverty is the only richness of this world

    sex

     


     

    BOTTOMS UP SEX

    2650. day
    3rd April 2012

    sex of dawn love-kisses the sex of dusk

     

    sex of noon love-kisses the sex of midnight

     

    sex of understanding love-kisses the sex of misunderstanding

     

    sex of fear love-kisses the sex of trust

     

    sex of Ivana Hadzi Popovic love-kisses the sex of playing

     

    sex of a little path love-kisses the wasteland

     

    budded tits of just grown up girls love-kiss

    the lips of all boys of this world who are already dead

     

    poetry of joy love-kisses the poetics of horror

     

    architecture of labia love-kisses the determination of homelessness

     

    legs in the air love-kiss the extremity of upstreamity

     

    sex of crossed hands love-kisses the sex of coming feet from the distance

     

    sex of all beings love-kisses the sex of one and only being

     

    sex of loneliness love-kisses the sex of disappointed ones

     

    sex of strength love-kisses the sex of an oath

     

    sex love-kisses sex

     

    today I saw fifteen year old prostitute working on the road

     

    second duty of the First House of All Beings

    is that all beings always find place in my heart

     

    third duty of the First House of All Beings are

    Seven Pictures which are yearning for me to draw them

     

    fourth duty of the First House of All Beings

    are Coffees of Courage which I will be giving to all beings

     

    sex of rejected ones regenerates the sex of overprotected ones

     

    sex of the blessings nurtures all other moments in every day

     

    writing nurturing

     

    word buds through the sex of floral words

    all words are floral

    uplifting

     

    sex of taking-off gives itself to the sex of melancholic ones

     

    sex of unexpected protects the sex of unprotected ones

     

    sex of the beginning is the only sex that never stops

     

    sex of pain trembles on the sex of grace

     

    sex of every boy is in the sex of this blessing

     

    sex of every girl is in the sex of each blessing

     

    sex of every youngling is the sex of any word that celebrates the sex of every youngling

     

    sex

    of

    the

    poem

    is

    the

    sex

    of

    singing

     

    sex

    of

    tenderness

    yields

    to

    and

    surrenders

    to

    the

    very

    sex

    through

    which

    everything

    is

    bottom

    up

    sex

     


     

    NERVE

    2651. day
    4th April 2012

    fifth duty of the First House of All Beings is

    to leave the First House of All Beings to somebody

     

    sixth duty of the First House of All Beings is to become the Bud of All Beings

     

    duty is exciting

     

    it makes aware

     

    it eroticise the conscience

    another 54700 blessings are in front of me

     

    I enjoy admiring

     

    I despise manipulative admiring

     

    I love previous

     

    afterwards is despicable

     

    philosophy as philosophy is my philosophy

     

    philosophy as fiction is shit

     

    I bow down to autobiographies

     

    romanced biographies are kitsch of the kitsch

     

    it looks as if you can see the whole world

    Srdjan Valjarevic wrote to me about the photos of sunset taken from the balcony of the First House of All Beings

     

    seventh duty of the First House of All Beings is

    to constantly repeat without a doubt and tirelessly on the

    Solemn Sunday Lunches that all of that is happening in the First House of All Beings

     

    repetition is the mother of mothers of repetition

     

    warm sun is shining

     

    I just felt the fragrance of Your skin

     

    greenery of the spine

     

    I’m having great time with the flowers on my working table

    bring me a little bouquet and You won’t make mistake with that

     

    I’m slowly calming down and getting into

    the life and work in the First House of All Beings

     

    I should carry on drawing the Numbers

     

    now I’m drawing fifty sixth picture with which I

    started working on the first picture for the number eleven

     

    I’m left with another ten pictures

     

    I started working on them on 25th February 2011

     

    maybe I could finish them before the beginning of summer

     

    hey

    and to solemnly show them to somebody on the first day of summer – the day of beggars

     

    let’s go my patience

     

    I just thought that I should shave off my hair

    good job

     

    small courage is the greatest courage

     

    a hug of Cosmos

     

    I am a woman of the brave and oversensitive ones

     

    courage is sometimes the only oversensitivity

    just like oversensitivity always is courage

     

    REJOICE REJOICE

    2652. day
    5th April 2012

    last night I had that strong pain again

     

    stomach

    back

    chest

     

    my forehead was covered with sweat from the pain

     

    when the pain stopped I felt incredible grace

     

    instead of coffee I’m drinking tea

     

    I lost the strength

     

    boiler got broken as well

     

    I’m waiting for the landlord to call me in fifteen minutes

    he didn’t call in next two hours

     

    I only have enough willpower to go and cut my hair

     

    I feel a bit better because of the hairdresser woman who remembers my tattoos

     

    and where is that yellow one – she asked

     

    she says she remembers them from last summer when she cut my hair

     

    her watchfulness has encouraged and strengthened me

    conceived me

     

    like many others this day as well is made out of leftovers

     

    just that it doesn’t hurt

    absence of pain is greatest solemnity

     

    so that nobody hurts

     

    wow how I easily fall

     

    like a dandelion

     

    I’m drinking wine in order to get up

     

    there is no joy within me

    I admit – but how wonderful that confession rejoices me

     

    I’m helpless

    I admit that I’m helpless and that opens me up to the immortal sophistication

     

    I’m caressing You roughness

     

    I hope that in the evening I will have the strength to walk

     

    that the evening will go away without the pain

     

    that my cells will feel nice in this world

     

    that the Bud of All Beings will keep on budding within me

     

    Bud of All Beings is the God’s Rose

    I already wrote this but it’s my duty to repeat that as well

     

    bring me roses

     

    roses bring me

     

    sister daughter mother wife of mine

     

    only when it hurts do I feel how life constantly loves me

     

    I’m imagining that I’m in the water

     

    rejoice

    rejoice

    my

    beloved

     


     

    TEN CLOCKS PRECISE LIKE TIME

    2653. day
    6th April 2012

    today I made ten thousandth photo with my new camera

     

    it started counting them again from one

     

    every day I take forty or so photos out of which I choose two

     

    the rest of them I erase

     

    one for the Face of Walking

     

    second for the Bud of the Day

     

    everything that exists exists so that everything would exist

     

    smile of an orange

     

    smile of the setting sun

     

    I am the art of dusk

     

    I am the art of midnight

     

    I am the art of daybreak

     

    I am the art of noon

     

    the art of circling

     

    art in each moment and each point of circling

     

    sexuality of point

     

    sexuality of moment

     

    point me my moment

     

    moment me my point

     

    everything is sexual

     

    sexuality is a child of everything

     

    I love to draw with words

     

    I love to sing through words

     

    I love to caress with words

     

    I’m watching the clock on the wall and the second hand which is sliding and circling

     

    now I have two wall clocks

     

    I would love to have one on each wall

    I hope I’ll soon have them since they are not expensive but they are beautiful and precise

     

    ten clocks

     

    ten clocks precise like time

    Ten Clocks Precise Like Time – first work of art made in the First House of All beings

     

    time of love

     

    eternity

     

    eternity of the first kiss

     

    eternity of everyday kiss

     


     

    YOU ARE MY ONLY POEM

    2654. day
    7th April 2012

    I’ve

    been

    searching

    for

    this

    poem

    several

    times

     

    poem

    is

    searching

    for

    a

    poem

     

    poem

    is

    finding

    a

    poem

     

    poem

    is

    searching

    for

    a

    poet

    who

    will

    live

    and

    sing

    the

    poem

     

    poem

    is

    blood

    which

    never

    fails

     

    here’s

    a

    poem

     

    poem is loyal

     

    poem is a loved one

     

    poem

    is

    god’s

    blood

     

    indistinct repetition of repetition

     

    Ten Clocks Precise Like Time

     

    I’m more and more absorbed by the work Ten Clocks Precise Like Time

     

    in honour of Ten Clocks Precise Like Time

    I will read famous One Thousand and One Nights

     

    I feel tenderness for the time Berdyaev said is vanity

     

    Berdyaev also said loneliness is always sexual loneliness

     

    everything somebody said somebody else already said

     

    from the great depth of time words are blossoming

     

    sex is wholeness

     

    sex is attracting halves of sexes because it is the wholeness of the whole

     

    sex of the whole is immortal sex

     

    sex of the sexes is mortal sex

     

    on the table where untill recently was the Twelfth Table Picture

    on which I was writing poems I am You are I for a year now is the

    Thirteenth Table Picture on which is the sketch of the picture

    Setting Sun or Seven Pictures in the First House of All Beings

     

    gratitude of gratitude

     

    whoever gives gained

    you are great giving and even greater you are word yes

     

    whoever give to me gains a lot more

     

    whoever gives to God gains everything

     

    i’m

    everything

    to

    you

     

    i’m

    enjoying

    you

    god

     

    you

    are

    the

    light

    of

    my

    joy

     

    i’m

    singing

    you

    god

     

    i’m

    singing

    you

    god

    you

    are

    my

    poem

     

    i’m

    singing

    you

    god

    you

    are

    my

    poem

    through

    your

    words

     

    sing

    miroslav

    mandic

    poem

    of

    all

    beings

    you

    are

    my

    only

    poem

     


     

    WHEN YOU SEE WHERE RIVER BENTS YOU SAW EVERYTHING

    2656. day
    9th April 2012

    Eros and Agape – yes

     

    Eros and Thanatos – no

     

    path

    to

    a

    path

     

    rose

    of

    a

    rose

     

    hey

    truths

     

    all my secrets are in this blessing in which there are no secrets

     

    be quiet but don’t have secrets

     

    I’m yearning for You and that could be my only secret

     

    the

    secret

    of

    the

    beginning

    of

    this

    poem

    is

    in

    every

    poem

     

    poem

    of

    a

    throat

     

    I thought how it would be nice to tattoo the word poem on my throat

    do it for me

     

    it got cold. I came back after only five kilometres of walking

     

    I’m warming myself up with a bit of brandy

     

    I’m sleepy therefore the blessings will be drowsy as well

     

    blessings of the street dogs who are lying in the sun

     

    my eyes are shutting down

     

    I’m surrendering to the surrendering

     

    spring waters are taking everything down

     

    when you see where river bends you saw everything

     

    I love-kiss You childhood of these moments

     

    I love-kiss You the childhood of all childhoods

     

    I love-kiss You the childhood of all younglings

     

    childhood of these moments is embracing the childhood of eternity

     

    childhood of eternity is the only childhood and the only eternity

     

    I woke up a bit just enough to say that I’m just enough sad

     

    tenderly

     

    with corrugated waving of the grass

     

    with plain young man while he’s watching big motorcycle with admiration

     

    with erected nipples

     

    with backs of horses donkeys camels elephants

     

    tender sadness nurtures the back of all beings which are ridden by some other beings

     

    tender sadness doesn’t sadden anybody

     

    tender sadness is a kind of quiet joy

     


     

    HEART GOD

    2657. day
    10th April 2012

     

    open heart is God

     

    closed heart is man

     

    open heart is one and only heart

     

    heart beating in all beings

     

    heart beating in all words

     

    heart of a fool

     

    heart of a wanderer

     

    crazy heart

     

    wanderer-like heart

     

    I’m on Kaja’s grave

    in my heart and mind

     

    I’m on Milomir’s grave

    in my mind and heart

     

    peace

     

    open sky

     

    one clear and positive thought has greater power than any feat

    Elder Paisios the Athonite

     

    goodness and beauty to everyone

     

    yesterday evening I was walking on the road to Obrenovac

     

    today as well I’m on it

     

    sun is shining but air is still cold

     

    I’m walking towards the vehicles and it seems as if I’m walking upstream

     

    air is warmer. I took off my red cap

     

    I’m happy on this narrow and winding path through the field

     

    I feel beautiful here between fourteen rail tracks as well

     

    I’m absorbing little yellow flowers in this slope

     

    me on the road – a crow in the grass

     

    white butterflies are flying by the white fruit trees

     

    how

    it

    must

    be

    hard

    for

    your

    heart

    god

     

    after thirteen and half kilometres of walking my calcaneus and my left toe nail are hurting

     

    a smell of cooking that is coming from somewhere

    into the First House of All Beings made me sad as well

     

    I wanted everything to smell of flowers and it smells of cooking

     

    wow how I find difficult to live like people are living

     

    I always found it hard

     

    I love-kiss you wanderers

     

    you are the only ones who are love-kissing this world like their house

     


     

    GYPSY TO THE ROMA

    2658. day
    11th April 2012

     

    only

    just

    but

    it

    is

    a

    poem

     

    somewhere

    some

    other

    beings

    are

    singing

    in

    this

    poem

    as

    well

     

    beings which are crossing miles and miles

     

    beings

    are

    singing

    through

    being

    itself

     

    through freckles on the chest

     

    through music in the distance

     

    through tingling of the nerve ends

     

    through the expansion of peripheral blood vessels

     

    through the smell of a deer balls

     

    through the horizon behind a curve

     

    through stepping into the cold water

     

    through drying the hair in the sun

     

    through caressing of the wind with bare skin

     

    through constant exposing to the elements

     

    o

    n

    j  u  s  t

    l

    y

     

    woman who I’m buying lettuce from makes me feel good

     

    I love how Roma people are steeling electricity for their settlements

     

    they get connected through the power pole. they dig a thin line in the asphalt for the

    wire. then cover that with bitumen or an old rug and bring electricity into their nobility

     

    I have a lot of respect for those people

     

    they are cleaners of suppressed human evil

     

    I love them and I admire them

     

    Roma children are a miracle of beauty itself

     

    life in all its glory

     

    Roma people are honorary members among all beings

     

    they sing fucking good

     

    they embrace the world with their voice

     

    they are unbelievably honest

     

    few days ago I saw an old Roma crossing the road with his little grandson

     

    an icon of life

     

    yesterday I saw twelve year old Roma driving a cultivator with a trailer

    in which he is collecting carton from the streets with his two peers. grandpa

    was sitting next to him as twelve year Roma yawned while slowly getting out of

    his settlement on the road

     

    an icon of work

     

    I am a Gypsy to all Roma

     

    joy of hear in the heart of every being

     


    ROBIN TO ROBINS

    2659. day
    12th April 2012


    with new voice recorder and same words

     

    the field of dandelions is yellow

     

    tall young invalid man is moving slowly with the crutch

     

    the voice recorder fits nicely in my hand

     

    street dog is watching left and right and then crossing the street

     

    my happiness

    I saw a robin singing on the branch

     

    I haven’t seen him for a long time. I recognise his singing

    I’m watching him fascinated

     

    he’s positioned high. if he was lower I would have come close to him

    voice recorder recorded his singing

     

    I see him opening his beak while singing

     

    life is so beautiful

    why are people committing such crimes

     

    every child which is born comes into the world of crimes

    humanity is crime

     

    one spider is walking over my hand

     

    so terribly and so much killings. even more creepy is to be silent about and

    not admitting to anything but making heroism out of it that’s what human history is

     

    I’m walking calmly and slowly so that tearing the blood and hatred would stop

     

    yellow dandelion fields are everywhere

     

    from last year I’m walking in socks and sandals

    nobleness of pleasure

     

    four young man in front of me are talking about

    cars and they are constantly saying hey man hey man hey man

     

    it lost its old romantic aspect – an old lady is saying

    those lanterns I will never forget – an old gentleman is adding

     

    here are first people who are sunbathing on the lake

     

    I’m walking. closing my eyes. imagining to fly

     

    air is moving me throwing and carrying through the space

     

    air fills me. I turn myself into the air

     

    an instructor on the rollers is teaching little boy how to ride a bike

     

    another little boy is holding his father’s hand and constantly

    talking something. father is doing his hair and he’s not listening him at all

     

    I already taught myself to write and to enjoy with new voice recorder

     

    a crow bathed itself in the lake water. it shook of the water. it flew away

     

    spring sun is warm like in heavens

     

    I bought a mosquito net yesterday. today I bought

    another two. the nets are superb. a strip is glued to the

    window and very thin net with Velcro is sealed up to the strip

     

    I typed in everything from the voice recorder and learned how to erase all

     

    I’m sad because I don’t have an understanding with almost anybody

     

    that’s

    the

    way

    it

    is

    and

    I

    should

    even

    more

    so

    sing

    to

    everybody

     

    t

    o

    y

    o

    u

     

    m

    y

    b

    a

    b

    y

     


    MY NAME IS ALLEVERYTHINGEVERYBODY

    2660. day
    13th April 2012

     

    I really love the word all

     

    only all

     

    last night being half asleep I was thinking of the word all

     

    I got up and wrote down and all and everything and everybody

     

    alleverythingeverybody

     

    wow how good is that

     

    I am Alleverythingeverybody

     

    in honour of the name Alleverythingeverybody I’m going to buy one wall clock

    I bought two

     

    I’m guarding everything with all

     

    all is always and forever

     

    all is inhale of everything and exhale in everybody

     

    each river is all-river

     

    each mother is all-mother

     

    each carrot is all-carrot

     

    each love is all-love

     

    if there was no walking I wouldn’t comprehend all

     

    if there was no withholding I wouldn’t live all

     

    if there was no You I wouldn’t love-kiss all

     

    my voice recorder yearns for writing

     

    all seeks all

     

    may it always be just all

     

    only all is loyal

     

    all seconds make all minutes. all minutes

    make all hours. all hours make all twenty four hours

     

    circle is a picture of all

     

    ball is a body of all

     

    dot is all

     

    all is world

     

    all is consciousness

     

    only all creates consciousness and only consciousness is all

     

    poems

    of

    mind

    love-kiss

    poems

    of

    heart

     

    poems

    of

    heart

    hug

    poems

    of

    mind

     

    I took off my shoes

     

    for the first time this year I’m walking barefooted

    my heel is hurting me a lot. I’m yearning for barefootedness


     

    MY NAME IS NOBODY IS ALONE

    2661. day
    14th April 2012

     

    pains are making me sad

     

    I’m drinking so that pains also rejoice

     

    I’m thankful to the pains as well

     

    to endure

    to be patient

     

    I wiped the floor

     

    tonight is Easter

     

    I love Easter

     

    it’s very important to be alone

     

    to a lonely woman

     

    to all beings

     

    to changes

     

    to transformations

     

    to the beauty of writing

     

    to the words’ magic

     

    magic word

     

    word amber

     

    alive

     

    path

     

    down the path

     

    with the rose

     

    to the path

     

    to the rose

     

    to the constant wedding of all beings

     

    to the First House of All Beings in the end of the city

     

    the

    art

    of

    solitude

    sings

    solitude

     

    live

     

    everything

    is

    live

     

    everyone is live

     

    nobody is alone

     

    my name is Nobody Is Alone

     

    me Alleverythingeverybody and me Nobody Is Alone and there it is Miroslav Mandic

     

    Saturday love-kisses Sunday

     

    Sunday love-kisses all days and nights

     


     

    SAVA SILIC

    2663. day
    16th April 2012

     

    the legend of Podbara died last night. Sava Silic

    Bora Dragas let me know through sms

     

    few years older boy than me from my street

    19 Patriarch Carnojevic Street

     

    the legend of Podbara

     

    how he was eating grapes

     

    how live was he

     

    the truth of my childhood

     

    a teddy

     

    older boy

     

    death celebrates life

     

    when you pass uncle Pera’s. Terefina’s.

    Perifa’s. Obrad’s house. there was Drockal’s house

    29 Patriarch Carnojevic Street

     

    Sava Laza Ase Perif

     

    they were playing cards over there in the blockhouse

     

    they were playing ferbl

     

    that’s where Sava was eating grapes

     

    he endeared it for me forever

     

    God only knows why but Sava was the chief

     

    he was spreading danger around him

    danger of childhood even though everything was innocent

     

    all day long playing

     

    thieves and cops

     

    leapfrog

     

    climbing and chasing each other

     

    and then playing with sticks that we would throw in order to hit the can

    cugara – I remembered the term

     

    then pigeons and pigeon fancying

     

    hanovers tipplers szegediners

     

    fishing and plunging

     

    dancing twist in Tekelija Street next to the big swing on the mulberry

     

    first lifted collars

     

    Sava is the same as Julian

     

    that’s all the same

     

    one and only goodness

     

    bulrush and sedge

     

    water grass and water lilies

     

    eternal

    life

    of

    Sava

    Silic

     


     

    GREEN

    2664. day
    17th April 2012


    every day from today until twenty fourth of May I will be taking only photos of grass

     

    green greenery of the greens

     

    for ten years I was drawing Grass now

    I will be taking photos of them for thirty three days

     

    I’m enjoying the trees and greenness of the leaves

     

    last week’s pain in my stomach – which spreads on chest and back

    and that lasts from February – and the pain in my heel have exhausted me

     

    I would love if you would do something so that the pain in my heel lessens and stops

    I will

     

    I hope the stomach will calm down as well

    it will

     

    just patiently and slowly

    calmly and with calmness

     

    ecstasy is there anyway and it also never betrays

     

    the greenness of joy also as well as the enjoyment in greenness are here

     

    it’s cold and wet so everything is green and it’s a dark iron greenness

     

    an old tall gentleman with his hands on the back is walking slowly and calmly whistling

    good spirit of the lake

     

    who whistles spreads the peace around them

     

    waves are carrying a thin line of foam onto the pebbly lake shore

     

    I like this coldness while walking

     

    while waiting for the green light on the pedestrian crossing it gives

    me pleasure to thinking about the warm shower which is waiting for me

     

    a bit of brandy. a lot of music. finishing the blessings

     

    I’m thinking of the grass which I will be taking photo of in following days

     

    of the dew on grass blades

     

    I love-kiss You frailness

     

    each blessing is a pilgrimage

    hey

     

    pilgrimage to blessings

    wow

     

    I love when a lot of thoughts end up in a blessing like this

     

    I love when deep thinking ends up in the flow of cold air around my face

     

    wind is swinging lilac braches

     

    a dove and a pigeon are cooing on the red car roof

     

    I would love if You would take me to my

    magnolia in the Botanical Garden one of these days

     

    brandy and music are making me warm

     

    greenness of the future photos of grass is making me warm

     

    I could be taking photos of them every day till the end of my life

     

    grass and sparrows

     

    repeating of repetition

     

    love-kissing

     

    BLADES

    2665. day
    18th April 2012


    I’m taking photos of grass in rain

     

    I’m watching them

     

    absorbing

     

    grass is everywhere

     

    I’m enjoying watching them

     

    they are getting wet

     

    grass is drinking the rain

     

    both wheat and rice are some kind of grass

     

    violet magnolia leaves fallen over the green grass

     

    one is never alone with grass

     

    nobody is ever alone with grass

     

     

    my

    poems

    are

    blades

    to

    the

    grass

     

     

    that

    is

    that

     

     

    that

    that

     

     

    t

    h

    a

    t

    t

    h

    a

    t

     

     

    t

    h

    a

    t

    v

    e

    r

    y

    s

    a

    m

    e

     

     

    g

    r

    a

    s

    s

    b

    l

    a

    d

    e

     

     

    I feel more and more beautiful with grass and words

     

    game

     

    I’m playing it

     

    it’s playing me

     

     

    game

    is

    poem

    of

    singing

     

     

    poem

    is

    game

    of

    playing

     

     

    all answers are in the madhouse

     

    all questions in the infinity of goodness

     

    infinity always makes me overwhelmed with tenderness of being

     

    tenderness of being is infinity of closeness through which beings are breathing

     

    breathing is breastfeeding through closeness

     

    breastfeeding is breathing through infinity

     

     

    everything

    is

    within

    one

     

     

    beauty

    dear

    to

    goodness

     

     

    goodness

    dear

    to

    beauty

     

     

    dear

    blade

    of

    mine

    is

     


     

    I’M ONLY YOURS

    2666. day
    19th April 2012


    my

    beloved

    blade

    of

    mine

     

     

    blade yourself blade

     

     

    simplicity

    you

    are

    my

    water

    and

    food

     

     

    light of the screen is a humus of these just sprouted words

     

    words are shining like today’s grass

     

    You don’t even know what is so green from all that greenery

     

    nor You know what is so bright from all that light

     

    watery lights

     

    blades full of water and light

     

    everything receives everything into itself

     

    light enters everyone

     

    light immerses into the light

     

    light of a word into the light of the screen

    light of a word into the light of the screen

    light of a word into the light of the screen

    light of a word into the light of the screen

    light of a word into the light of the screen

    light of a word into the light of the screen

     

    light of the light

     

    light itself

     

    disappearing through beauty

     

    disappearing in beauty

     

    who love-kisses light is

     

    who light is freedom is as well

     

    freedom love-kisses light

     

    light love-kisses love-kissing

     

    love-kissing love-kisses singing

     

    singing love-kisses creating

     

    creating love-kisses walking

     

    I’m walking You walk me

     

    music serves the mucus of saliva of each kiss

     

    music serves the stamping of horses

     

    music is also in the whiz of anyone’s tail

     

    I am Miroslav Mandic and I am Johnny Cash and I’m starting to sing

    greetings to Hank Williams

     

    Johnny Cash sings on the Crazy Horse

     

    deep bow down to the Indians

     

    deep admiration for the Roma people

     

    I’m only Yours whoever You are

    I’m greeting you Whoever You Are

    ask me to tell You about the beauty which I just experienced

    with a ten year old girl from the fifth floor from the next building

     


     

    PORNOGRAPHY OF FRIDAY

    2667. day
    20th April 2012

     

    here I am and that’s all

     

    a moment

     

    peak

     

    unity

     

    peak is unity

     

    peak is everything

     

    remedy

    every blessing is a remedy

     

     

    remedy

    is

    gratitude

    to

    poem

     

     

    poem

    is

    singing

    of

    remedy

     

     

    open You organs my beloved

     

    today I visited porno sites

     

    pure love

     

    like the Pirate Party which is spreading in all countries

     

    if I was living on planet Earth I would have been a member of the Pirate Party

     

    I am in the party of all beings of the Universe

     

    party of grass and sparrows

     

    party of good thoughts

     

    how pure is love of those beautiful people on porno sites

     

    repairmen have been and changed the water heater boiler

     

    when I came back from a short walk I saw that the scale’s battery was run down

     

    last night I made holes in the insoles so that heels would hurt me less

     

    last night during the walk a banana settled down the pain in my stomach

     

    in the morning a bolt came out of my working chair so I screwed it back again

    every thirty days or so it comes out

     

    cloths on the balcony haven’t dried off yet after yesterday’s heavy rain

     

    I really enjoy writing about these plain porno things

     

    as I was getting out on the balcony yesterday before

    the storm I thought of drawing on two walls of the balcony as

    well drawings in the series of paintings which I called Falling Sun

     

    it’s important that I’m patient

     

    to finish another eight paintings of the Numbers

     

    to put in order digital archive on the external hard disk

     

    to start the Gigolo even if there are some offers or not

     

    and then to start with the Falling Sun

    Falling Sun and Ten Clocks Precise Like Time

     

    I’m not talking about You because You are

    not around and without You this is hardly feasible

     

     

    here

    I

    am

    and

    that’s

    all

     



     

    ALL FEET ALL PATHS ALL WORDS

    2668. day
    21st April 2012


    every moment somebody is creating love for all beings

     

    sometimes it’s a cloud

     

    sometimes a drop

     

    sometimes some of the children begging on the crossroads

     

    I’m not in quite good mood but here Carl Perkins is lifting me up

     

    I hug You strongly and kiss You tenderly

     

    Strongly and Tenderly are going hand in hand

     

    path is white

     

    grass is green

     

    sky is blue

     

    Strongly makes Tenderly feel good

     

    Tenderly makes Strongly feel good

     

    Silence makes Talking feel good

     

    Talking makes Silence feel good

     

    there is no end to the path

     

    path disappears in the pathlessness

     

    I’m thinking of those who are crazy about feet and who are excited the most by feet

    they had good reason to be born

     

    feet are making paths

     

    all feet are leading to God

     

    all paths are led by God

     

     

    all

    feet

    all paths

    all words

    are the

    same

     

     

    beauty in front of our eyes

     

    goodness in our cells

     

    head on the groins

     

    hand in hand

     

    lap in lap

     

     

    f

    l

    f  l  y  l  f

    l

    f

     

     

    Strongly makes Tenderly feel good

     

    Tenderly makes Strongly feel good

     

    Silence makes Talking feel good

     

    Talking makes Silence feel good

     

    there is no end to budding

     

    budding disappears in the infinity


     

    FREEDOM

    2670. day
    23rd April 2012

     

    g

    l       o  v  e

    d

     

     

    fall apart from pleasure – transform Yourself within sense

     

    poem

    opens

    up

    every

    being

     

     

    singing

    is

    opening

    up

     

     

    Distance opens up Closeness

     

    Closeness opens up Distance

     

     

    who

    feels

    that

    i

    am

    addressing

    only

    him

    or

    her

    is

    a

    grass

    blade

    in

    the

    wind

    my

    poem

    is

     

     

    I am a gigolo without a job

     

    a smile in Your belly

     

    tenderness over Your back

     

    health in each cell of Yours

     

    a sharp sound

     

    joy at the door

     

    The tree of grace is flowering in gold

     

    Georg Trakl

     

    Stef Lamza

     

    fuck it everything that is good is good

     

    fire to fire

     

    throat to throat

     

    yesterday I thought of tattooing on the bottom of my nape the word freedom

     

    good thoughts are good

     

    they are free

     

    they are expeditions

     

    I also thought that I could continue this summer to swim down the Danube

     

    expeditions of love

     

    from Belegis to Stari Banovci

     

    swimming of God’s heaven

     

    a temple of life in the middle of river

     

    the life of water is becoming a great story about the water of life

     

    water of life creates yearning for life

     

    yearning for life is protecting water

     

     

    soil

    water

    air

    light

    are

    one

     

     

    g

    o

    f r e e d  o   m

    o

    d

     


     

    MIROSLAV BOOK

    2671. day
    24th April 2012


    whoever felt the love of beggars shares my thoughts

     

    whoever got scared but didn’t give up is my ally

     

    whoever made a cure out of any wholeness is my heeler

     

    whoever made a poem out of whoever is my poem

     

    whoever dared and headed for is my companion

     

    whoever feels this tenderness is my tenderness

     

    whoever is a sea is a sea

     

    whoever transforms each what into who is my teacher

     

    whoever is nothing is my everything

     

     

    whoever

    is

    god

    is

    my

    i

     

     

    sex of happiness is within the happiness of all beings

     

    happiness of sex is within every being

     

    joy of sun

     

    joy of gravity

     

    I bow down to You the Force of gravity

     

    I bow down to the fingers that are writing

     

    I bow down to the beggars

     

    I bow down to knee-bow-down

     

    to the miracle of goodness

     

    to the beginning of work of the second version

    of the eight book Miroslav Mandic which is called Miroslav

    followed by

    Miroslav M

    Miroslav Ma

    Miroslav Man

    Miroslav Mand

    Miroslav Mandi

    Miroslav Mandic

     

    my name is I’m Waiting For You

     

    my name is Light Year

     

    my name is I’m Begging You On My Knees Don’t Give Up My Beloved

     

    just imagine it

     

    beautiful and harmonious

     

    every day and celebratory

     

    nobody’s and everybody’s

     

    Force of Gravity being obedient to the Force of the Universal Gravity

     

    harmony is serving the wholeness

     

    tranquillity is love-kissing the tiniest piece

     

    ecstasy is wedding of Serving and Love-Kissing

    walking

     

    rose

    poem

     

    bud

    little-path


     

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