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    BUDDING

    2223. day
    1st February 2011

    after the midday love bells

     

    silence

     

    lake

     

    coldness

     

    croaking of the crows

     

    take-off of the pigeons

     

    towards the frosting

     

    same walkers on the lake

     

    I’m rubbing my nose in order to warm it up

     

    better dressed than yesterday I’m walking more relaxed

     

    I’m rubbing my nose again

     

    there is no wind hence only coldness can be felt

     

    I feel the coldness in my shoulders

     

    the coldness is cold so it’s getting into the bones

     

    I’m surrounded by the shades of white

     

    the word generous is warming me up

     

    in Kirovljeva street somebody is crossing the street towards me

     

    Anja Covic

     

    you look like Robert de Nero – said Anja

     

    when written culture prevailed the oral culture

    the oral culture was accusing the written culture for being slutty

     

    now when media culture is prevailing the written culture

    the written culture is accusing the media culture for being slutty

     

    when media culture prevails the mind culture

    the media culture will be accusing the mind culture for being slutty

     

    constant plunder

     

    if I wasn’t the one I am I would have been You

     

    if I wasn’t singing the way I’m singing I would have been singing like You

     

    if I wasn’t creating the way I’m creating I would have been creating like You

     

    if I wasn’t walking the way I’m walking I would have been walking like You

     

    if I wasn’t dedicated to myself-God I would be dedicated to You

     

    if I wasn’t dedicated to my work-Bud of All Beings I would be dedicated to Your work

     

    I drank tea

     

    I’m drinking a bit of brandy

     

    aivar margarine and bread are waiting for me

     

    l

    i

    v

    e

     

    BRAVE MAN TO THE BRAVE WOMAN

    2224. day
    2nd February 2011

    thirty third day of the year

     

    the bells of midday love are ringing and I’m just leaving now

     

    lake – I’m coming

     

    fine sleet pervades the air above the lake

     

    I’m walking

     

    pure mysticism

     

    mysticism of walking

     

    I’m walking

     

    the art of walking

     

    the walking of walking

     

    I circled the lake

     

    I’m going to the Nest

     

    tiny snow is falling

     

    I climbed to the Pozeska Street

     

    I slowed down

     

    from time to time I’m closing my eyes

     

    I’m wandering

     

    through pleasure

     

    I’m thinking of harmony

     

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

    h      a     r    m    o     n      y

     

    I’m rejoicing the blessings that are waiting for me at the desk

     

    light

     

    birds

     

    cane

     

    tendons of the neck

     

    mystical light of the screen on which I’m writing mystical light

    of the screen on which I’m writing

     

    somewhere somebody

     

    brave man

     

    to the brave woman

     

    brave woman

     

    to the brave man

     

    mysticism of the mystical

     

    beauty

    god’s

    plainness

     

    WALKING FROM ONE TO THE OTHER MAIL FOR YOUR TOUCHING WORDS

    2225. day
    3rd February 2011

    I’d love to be able to send you the money more often. The reason is

    that the hour of my work is paid minimally of what can be paid according to the

    laws of this state and I do work hard dirty and difficult job with only four days of

    in a month. But I am doing my best to be even better. I stopped eating meat

    and I quit smoking. The reason behind it is not to care for my own health

    but to care for others. I’ll do my best not to spend all the money and

    to send it to you soon. Be healthy.

    this morning’s first e-mail

     

    I live and I work from the money other people give me

     

    the fairest way for me

     

    it helps me dedicate myself to creating singing and walking

     

    that is a small quantity of money

     

    small quantity great love

     

    everyone that is giving me will get

     

    sometimes I worry because I have just enough money

     

    it seems it’s going to be even less of it

     

    it upsets me

     

    scares me

     

    but

    there is also salvific but

     

    consider the lilies of the fields

     

    gives me back the strength and joy

     

    the

    eros of

    creating

    to the other

     

    consciousness

    of creating

    to all

    beings

     

    conscience

    of singing

    to the rejected

     

    when I read first e-mail I decided to buy a book about

    Isaac Newton actually because I don’t have money for it

     

    the words in the second e-mail have given me the strength

    because I felt the awakened conscience

     

    I went downtown to meet up with Jelena

     

    Jelena bought me a book My Life by Lou Andreas-Salome

     

    the cost of Lou Andreas-Salome was like my food for two days

     

    Newton for four days

     

    Billie Holiday

    just singing

     

    Lou

     

    Isaac

     

    Billie

     

    there

     

    is

     

    money

     

    the money for all beings

     

    love is the money – money is love

     

    I don’t have to add for my share for February. I will see if I can

    somehow gather it by the end of the month. I’m really in *** situation.

    It would be the fairest, regardless of my trying to keep on giving you the money,

    to change the name of the Bud with my name – there is no point like this

    I don’t deserve it (I wasn’t giving enough so far as it is).

    this morning’s second e-mail

     

    THAT’S WHAT I WAS TELLING YOU ABOUT LAST NIGHT

    2226. day
    4th February 2011

    said in numbers

     

    one

     

    two two

     

    three three three

     

    four four four four

     

    five five five five five

     

    six six six six six six

     

    seven seven seven seven seven seven seven

     

    eight eight eight eight eight eight eight eight

     

    nine nine nine nine nine nine nine nine nine

     

    ten ten ten ten ten ten ten ten ten ten

     

    eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven eleven

     

    in other words

     

    1

     

    2 2

     

    3 3 3

     

    4 4 4 4

     

    5 5 5 5 5

     

    6 6 6 6 6 6

     

    7 7 7 7 7 7 7

     

    8 8 8 8 8 8 8 8

     

    9 9 9 9 9 9 9 9 9

     

    10 10 10 10 10 10 10 10 10 10

     

    11 11 11 11 11 11 11 11 11 11 11

     

    and then this beauty

     

    1 + 2 +3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 = 45

     

    1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 = 55

     

    1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 = 66

     

    I hope this will be new sixty six pictures

     

    Numbers – Tree of Life – thirty six year after – Leaves – Tree of Life

     

    I hope I’ll start doing them in month or two

     

    I am the love to all beings

     

    I am the money of all beings

     

    DRUNKENNESS BY CREATING

    2227. day
    5th February 2011

    forty four days to the beginning of writing the fourth part of the book I am You are Him

     

    that captivates me these days

     

    I was writing I am You are Him every day thirty years ago

     

    I was writing Kaja every day twenty years ago

     

    I was writing I Name every day ten years ago

     

    I’m beginning to write I am You are I in forty four days on the day of spring

     

    origin of picture

     

    origin of word

     

    the spring of I

     

    the bud of now

     

    I of spring

     

    I of a bud

     

    I of every I

     

    I of the I itself

     

    I singing of the I

     

    I God I

     

    serving the beauty

     

    living through beauty

     

    innocence of writing

     

    loyalty of living

     

    I am nothing which confirms everything

     

    I am nothing God’s poem

     

    I love-kiss the I of every being

     

    hey days

     

    hey years

     

    joy of the body that radiates within these words

     

    a moment within this moment

     

    in this moment I’m changing the name of the third book I Name into Mile

     

    I am You are Him

    Kaja

    Mile

    I am You are I

     

    share my joy with somebody

     

    touch

    1 1 1

     

    caress

    1

    1

    1

     

    kiss

    1

    1 1 1

    1


     

    WALKER’S SYNDICATE

    2229. day
    7th February 2011

    I’m getting going

     

    that’s the most important

     

    everything else joins

     

    rushes towards the joining

     

    herds of ideas are surviving on the edges

     

    shepherd

     

    stick

     

    dog

     

    donkey

     

    soil

     

    sky

     

    everything is good

     

    beautiful to everything

     

    child’s heart in the chest

     

    joy of the links

     

    I’m going

     

    that’s even more important

     

    they are surrendering to each other through freedom

     

    a shepherd to a stick

     

    a stick to a dog

     

    a dog to a donkey

     

    soil to the sky

     

    goodness to beauty

     

    child’s heart to the mind of existence

     

    going everything is going

     

    everything is good to everything

     

    beautiful is beautiful to everything

     

    and

     

    I

     

    that

     

    is

     

    actually

     

    me

     

    PLEASE SERIES

    2230. day
    8th February 2011

    today I’ve smelled the grass scent for the first time this year

     

    violets are blooming in spring – sais one blooming woman

     

    this morning I was enjoying the Fibonacci series

     

    0, 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, 8, 13, 21, 34, 55, 89, 144, 233, 377, 610, 987, 1597, 2584...

     

    each consecutive number is the sum of the previous two

     

    when any of the numbers from Fibonacci series is divided by

    the previous number we get 1.618. the phi number. the number of the golden ratio

     

    palms that caress palms

     

    love from the belly

     

    embrace of the sides

     

    mental beauty

     

    everything

     

    light

     

    light of everything in the heart of every being

     

    I said bread

     

    without second thoughts

     

    through the colour of beetroot

     

    through plentiful hips

     

    being imbued with goodness

     

    being baptised with beauty

     

    number embraces word

     

    word love-kisses number

     

    everything is here just You are not around

    buy us the book Great Mathematicians by Ranko Risojevic

     

    the beauty of words is surrendering to the goodness of numbers

     

    the beauty of numbers is surrendering to the goodness of music

     

    the beauty of music is surrendering to the goodness of walking

     

    the beauty of walking is surrendering to the goodness of creating

     

    hit it mama

     

    the goodness of anything celebrates the beauty of everything

     

    the goodness of grass celebrates the beauty of violets

     

    the goodness of computers celebrates every being on the internet

     

    the goodness of the penis head celebrates the beauty of clitoris

     

    hit

     

    peace

    peace

    peace

    peace peace peace peace peace peace

    peace

    peace

    peace

    peace

    peace

    peace

    peace

     

     

    PUSSY BIRD

    2231. day
    9th February 2011

    I’ve always loved shades

     

    overflow

     

    overflow by overflow

     

    supervention

     

    one-shade-ness

     

    imperceptible

     

    change in the end changes me

     

    obvious beauty

     

    mesmerises right away

     

    minimalism

     

    loyalty of loyalty

     

    gentle to oneself

     

    to bare – not to hurt

     

    I’m leaving

     

    shading

     

    I’m walking

     

    walking is a type of shading

     

    step by step

     

    oncoming of the distance

     

    presence of the presence

     

    presence of the otherworldly

     

    word

     

    word of the word

     

    word of a word to the words

     

    irresistible modesty

     

    I’m enjoying the writing

     

    I’m surfing through the shades

     

    I’m waving the sameness with the same waves

     

    I’m shading

     

    with caressing

     

    pleasure

     

    through budding

     

    God 

     

    BYE BYE BY BYE BYE

    2232. day
    10th February 2011

    word by word

     

    number by number

     

    picture by picture

     

    step by step

     

    one by one

     

    touch by touch

     

    joy by joy

     

    blessing by blessing

     

    sip by sip

     

    bite by bite

     

    girl by girl

     

    boy by boy

     

    grammar by grammar

     

    mathematics by mathematics

     

    freedom by freedom

     

    kiss by kiss

     

    prayer by prayer

     

    oath by oath

     

    beauty by beauty

     

    goodness by goodness

     

    analogy by analogy

     

    being by being

     

    dinar by dinar

     

    rhythm by rhythm

     

    thread by thread

     

    I by I

     

    a by a

     

    and by and

     

    that too by that too

     

    poem by poem

     

    bud by bud

     

    Bud of All Beings

     

    God

     

    WHITE LUNCH

    2233. day
    11th February 2011

    couple of months ago I invited Maja Klisinski to lunch

     

    a month ago Maja said she will make lunch for me

     

    white lunch from all sorts of white foodstuff and different white things

     

    here this is that day for the white lunch

     

    Maja is making it merrily

     

    hey whiteys have a good appetite

    Maja’s friend Sanja just sent this text message

     

    Maja also wrote an ode to the white

     

    whether it was white

    or it will be white

    whiteness is white

    it’s whitening with whiteness of white

    whether the white is pain

    or if the white hurts

    whiteness is getting white through pain

    reveals its whiteness

    whitening through kiss

    whether she ghost was white

    or that the pulse of a soul is white

    whiteness will be whitening

    make it white through the white of the eye

    and of the white of an egg white

    on the white-magnificent white-ball of whiteness

    through the white-pebble of whitishness

    through the cloud of white-bodiment

    through the white membrane

    through the white-beautiful obelisk

    whiteness will be whitening

    love-kissing everything

    with the whiteness of a blessing

    of the white of the whiteness

     

    while making the white lunch Maja is sipping white brandy

     

    I’m drinking white wine

     

    white lunch is dedicated to You my he friend which I’m constantly thinking of

     

    white lunch is dedicated to You my she friend which I’m constantly love-kissing

     

    white lunch is dedicated to You my Goddess which I’m married to always and forever

     

    white lunch white fucking

     

    whiteness is without a censorship

     

    Maja’s white lunch consists of

     

    white bouquet of white flowers tied with white thread

     

    white candle and white spark plugs

     

    white Socrates of Athens made out of stone

     

    white plates. white dishes and white cutlery

     

    white clothes we are going to wear at the white lunch

     

    at this moment Maja is serving cone shaped white rice on a white plastic plate

     

    on the white tablecloth she already set white delicatessens

     

    middle of white bread balls

     

    white cheeses and cream from Zlatibor

     

    white radishes. white onion rings and garlic cloves

     

    white pasta in white sauce

     

    white celery in white sour-cream

     

    white cauliflower with white mayonnaise and white horseradish

     

    white popcorns and white expanded rice

     

    white gurabias. white raffaello balls. white Turkish delights

    white mints and white sugar cubes

     

    white pears. white apples. rings of white bananas in white whipped cream

    with white vanilla sugar and white coconut flour

    with music of Eric Satie who was eating just white food

     

    we are beginning the white lunch in fifteen minutes my he friend she friend and Goddess

    by Maja Klisinski

    EIGHTY EIGHT MINUTES

    2234. day
    12th February 2011

    12:14 pm

    poignancy of time

     

    freedom of a moment

     

    2:20 pm

    six minutes are gone forever

     

    2:32 pm

    I drew today’s blue rose

     

    another twelve minutes are gone irretrievably

     

    love is one

     

    space twines into time

     

    time opens up to eternity

     

    singing to the infinity

     

    conscience of young people is inexhaustible

     

    2:47 pm

    I’m dancing in all beings

     

    with the brain

     

    unity

     

    immortality

     

    glands of love in every girl

     

    juices of freedom in every boy

     

    dawn

     

    heart

     

    pulsing

     

    wedding

     

    loves and freedoms

     

    street

     

    I’m a bastard

     

    innocence of rebellion

     

    ravishing loyalty

     

    3:20 pm

    fuck me

    Universe is whispering to me

     

    I will

     

    whispering creates worlds

     

    I will my love I will

     

    you are in me

    Universe is humming

     

    I am

     

    one

    sighs Universe

     

    3:42 pm

    u

    n

    i

    u n i verse u n i

    i

    n

    u

     

    LITTLE TREE

    2236. day
    14th February 2011

    this

     

    little tree

     

    exists

     

    only

     

    through these

     

    words

     

    tiny

     

    incidental

     

    consolation to a runaway child

     

    straw of salvation for baby-god

     

    earthworm

     

    renouncements

     

    devotions

     

    sacrifices

     

    transformations

     

    dances

     

    little tree

     

    searches

     

    quests

     

    wanderings

     

    singings

     

    little tree

     

    fucks

     

    sometimes fucking is nothing else but waiting

     

    sometimes fucking is nothing else but loyalty

     

    sometimes fucking is nothing else but virginity

     

    sometimes fucking is nothing else but one and only girl fucker

     

    sometimes fucking is nothing else but boy fucker who is rejoicing every fucker

     

    sometimes fucking is nothing else but love through which I permeate all beings

     

    little tree

     

    of timeless and limitless

     

    loyalty

     

    magnificent

    t o  t h e  m a g n i f i c e n t

    t  o   t  h  e   m  a  g  n  i  f  i  c  e  n  t

    t   o    t   h   e    m   a   g   n   i   f   i   c   e   n   t

    t    o     t    h    e     m    a    g    n    i    f    i    c    e    n    t

    t     o      t     h     e      m     a     g     n     i     f     i     c     e     n     t

    t      o       t      h      e       m      a      g      n      i      f      i      c      e      n      t

     

    TOGETHER FOR ONE

    2237. day
    15th February 2011

    together for one through the wholeness

     

    together for one through You

     

    together for one through oneself

     

    I stopped and I’m watching how young man in gumboots is training

    young hunting dog. he shows him with both his hands to get down and he also

    tells him get down. then he moves away from him and makes big circle showing from

    time to time the gesture with hands and saying get down and wait. the dog is peacefully

    laying and waiting. in the end he got to him and gave him a treat saying well done girl

    well done girl. the dog got up and with great joy started to jump on his owner.

    when he finished the exercise young man looked in my direction. I lifted

    my thumb and shouted well done. he responded with his thumb up

     

    a boy is running down the street stomping real hard so as not to fall

     

    smoke from her cigarette is flapping towards me

     

    bus starts blinking with the left indicator light

     

    gray headed man is bringing out the table and chairs in front of his store

     

    liberating through words – I sympathise with words

     

    takeaway for takeaway

     

    walking for walking

     

    thinking for thinking

     

    love-kissing for love-kissing

     

    third stage

     

    third stage of God’s love

     

    God

    gam

     

    only the alone one is everything

     

    I’

    m

    a

    I’ m a l o n e

    o

    n

    e

     

     

    I’

    m

    a

    I’ m a l o n e

    o

    n

    e

     

    I’

    m

    a

    I’ m a l o n e

    o

    n

    e

     

    I’m absorbing the beauty

     

    I’m befriending nouns

     

    I’m befriending pronouns

     

    I’m befriending adjectives

     

    I’m befriending verbs

     

    I’m befriending numbers

     

    I’m befriending adverbs

     

    I’m befriending prepositions

     

    I’m befriending conjunctions

     

    I’m befriending exclamations

     

    I’m befriending particles

     

    mathematics of language is within the language of music

     

    g

    a

    m

    g  a  m  e  m  a  g

    m

    a

    g

     

    EVERYTHING IS ONE AND IT’S ALL THE SAME IS ONE

    2238. day
    16th February 2011

    it’s all the same – I’m alive God — is alive

     

    it’s all the same what I’m writing I’m writing one

     

    it’s all the same who I am – I am God

     

    whichever way You want it’s really all the same

     

    all is beautiful

     

    all is good

     

    small is small. small is big. small is both small and big

     

    big is big. big is small. big is both big and small

     

    summit is summit. summit is down. summit is the middle

     

    down is down. down is up. down is the middle

     

    past is past. past is now. past is future

     

    now is now. now is past. now is future

     

    future is future. future is past. future is now

     

    all is continuing concatenating and permeating

     

    third condition has been created

    yesterday I’ve mentioned it for the first time

    (yesterday was translated as ‘third stage’, but today’s translation is more appropriate;

    also, in Serbian ‘pregnancy’ is referred to as ‘second condition’, prim. prev.)

     

    grace sets free from existing pictures of the world

     

    good cannot be ruled over because good doesn’t rule

     

    death is resurrection

     

    poem is all and all is poem

    that all is one and that it’s all the same condition speaks about it I’ve experienced

    and revived for the first time on the Second Walking for Poetry twenty four years ago

     

    all words are love

     

    everything depends only from me

    despite the last night’s pain

     

    love doesn’t die and it doesn’t end it just transforms into love

     

    all is constantly transforming into the same

     

    everything is constantly reviving each other

     

    everything is constantly transforming each other

     

    all new and newest elements of an atom make and lead towards the one and only atom

     

    all new and newest Universes make and lead towards the one and only Universe

     

    discovering more and more of different is nothing but

    confirmation and celebration of anything of the same

     

    I’m not afraid even when I am afraid it’s all the same anyways

     

    I don’t worry even when I’m worried since all as well as one is all the same

     

    God

    I don’t give a fuck about God who I care for the most since I only affirm Him anyways

    whatever I might be thinking saying or doing I only love-kiss Him because God is love and He love-kisses me

     

     

    from

    this

    poem

    of mine

    beautiful

    your

    eyes

    are

     

     

    it’s all the same – God is alive – I’m alive

     

     

    A HUG

    2239. day
    17th February 2011

    a moment ago I hugged God for the first time

     

    I squeezed Him like a child and I started to cry from His presence

     

    I was thinking about seven lights

     

    God

     

    God’s light

     

    light of I

     

    singing light

     

    creating light

     

    walking light

     

    sun light

     

    I was exercising for a little while in the Nest and then I went towards the lake

     

    joy is joy of all beings

     

    health is health of all beings

     

    freedom is freedom of all beings

     

    transformation is transformation of all beings

     

    loyalty is loyalty of all beings

     

    love is love of all beings

     

    success is success of all beings

     

    in spite of theocide anthropocide fascistocide

    communistocide God is alive love is alive and all beings are alive

     

    I’m enjoying the wind

     

    I’m surrendering to the whistling

     

    with joy in my heart and smile on my face I said out twenty times

    I love-kiss You... and the name of one of the twenty people that have hurt me in my life

     

    identical yes. same type no

     

    through abhorrence of myself I unrooting liberating and transforming myself

     

    abhorrence is digging of love

     

    abhorrence of myself has saved me

    from self pity melancholy and depression

     

    abhorrence of myself has saved me

    from preaching teaching and moralising

     

    abhorrence of myself is saving me

    from low self-esteem and too high self-esteem

     

    abhorrence of myself separates me

    from best ones and identifies me with the best one

     

    the only one whom I sometimes abhor more them myself is actually You

     

    learning proving and inheritance are distancing us from God

     

    not learning but admiring

    not proving but love-kissing

    not inheriting but identifying with

     

    quitting the learning proving and inheriting is death or God

     

    3333 STEPS FOR SIX PETITIONS

    2240. day
    18th February 2011

    I’m inviting all beings and You to help me with Your presence

    next Friday in creating 66 pictures Numbers – Tree of Life

    give me a call to arrange the time of Your coming to the Nest

     

    this is the only invitation and I won’t tell it to anybody

    because it’s addressed to everybody

     

    will somebody call

     

    will somebody be present at the beginning of the Numbers – Tree of Life

     

    game

     

     

    f

    a

    r

    f  a  i  r  y  t  a  l  e

    t

    a

    l

    e

     

     

    humour

     

    nothing is bigger than small and nothing is smaller than big

     

    few days ago I’ve read that greatest military powers are not any more spending

    most money on weapons for killing but on creating indifference towards killing

     

    I adore women who are giving birth to love rather than children

     

    I adore men who are taking care of all beings rather than their kids

     

    it’s been said that the wind will stop today

     

    I’m preparing for the walking and counting 3333 steps for all those that are

    abused and killed by authority church and state ever since the beginning of time

     

    1, 2, 3...

     

    ... 3331, 3332, 3333

     

    ah

     

    it was exciting – the rhythm of steps – the rhythm of counting

     

    prayer through steps and numbers

     

    while I was counting I was thinking of my hands and what I’ve managed to do with them

     

    I was thinking of petitions

     

    petitions are very important. people who initiate and sign them are very brave

     

    I’ve never signed any petition because I was never close enough to any of them and

    because I always wanted to sign all petitions but for 99% of them I’ve never heard of

     

    that’s why for these six petitions that make 3333 steps I’m not asking anybody

    to sign them but whoever wants they can sign them in their hearts and minds

     

    3333 – petition to stop state and authority abuse and torture

     

    3333 – petition to stop weapon production and legal killings

     

    3333 – petition to stop animal cruelty and killing

     

    3333 – petition to stop plant killing

     

    3333 – petition to stop killing the minerals of soil water air and light

     

    3333 – petition to stop abuse and killing of Earth and its environment

     

    33333333

     

    my love

     

    my immortality

     

    I invite You once again to grace with Your presence

    the beginning of creating 66 pictures Numbers – Tree of Life

     

    THREE HOURS OF WALKING AND GETTING WET FROM RAIN

    2241. day
    19th February 2011

    we’re

    going

    poem

    and

    I

     

    little

    poem

     

    imperceptible

     

    unnoticed

     

    poe

    in

    everything

     

    in the rain that is falling

     

    mild eyes of the man

     

    plucked carnation flower on the wet asphalt

     

    pat... pat...

     

    patters the rain on my hood

     

    I’m catching bubbles in the water that is pouring down the roadside

     

    I’m a child

     

     

    poem

    child

     

     

    child

    of

    all

    beings

     

     

    one

    and

    only

    child

     

     

    a

    child

    of

    all

    life

     

     

    a

    child

    of

    immortal

    life

    of

    all

    beings

     

     

    ...great-great-grandsons great-grandsons grandsons and children are redeeming

    the evils of their fathers grandfathers great-grandfathers and great-great-grandfathers...

    dedicated to all victims of concentration camps that are kept secret in

    all times and all regions hence in these times and regions as well

     

    for the second time now I see how an old granny lets her old dog to go out of her

    house and sends it to poo in front of her neighbours’ houses across the street

     

     

    a poem

    despite

     

     

    sings flow

     

    sorrow is turning on

     

    innocence is immortality

     

    younglings of all beings are lovers to all beings

     

    all younglings are guarding every child

     

     

    a

    child

    is

    giving

    birth

    to

    a

    poem

     

     

    god

    is

    saddest

    when

    my-his

    singing

    isn’t

    god

     

     

    God finds it most painful when I hurt somebody with my love to God

     

    God

     

     

    y

    o

    u

     

     

    You make my I

     

    Your words are within me

     

    You are my You-I

     

    I YEARN FOR THE PLEASURE OF INNOCENCE

    2243. day
    21st February 2011

     

    God has not only created everything but he immediately handed it over to everybody

     

    I accept everything from God and I offer and give everything to everyone and everybody

     

    I haven’t met anybody who wants everything

     

    nobody wants everything

     

    and everybody is afraid of nothing

     

    some are proclaiming 89% as everything – fascists

     

    some are proclaiming 49% as everything – liberals

     

    some are proclaiming 9% as everything – communists

     

    some say that 100% is not possible

     

    some are afraid of 100% so they stop at 99% so they are just enlarging 99.99999...%

     

    some say that they will be giving 30% because that’s their

    100% then they again give just 30% from those 30%

     

    nobody wants but they want to live long

     

    Marko Sudac called me again yesterday because he would like to make

    an interview with me as well as with Tomaz Salamun Marko Pogacnik

    and Slavko Bogdanovic for the exhibition about banned and

    locked down artists that he will make on the Galeb boat

     

    I answered again that I reject everybody since in this civilisation I

    haven’t yet met anybody who wants and accepts the wholeness

    instead the part is rather presented as the wholeness

     

    I always feel painful after saying I don’t want and after rejecting because I do want

     

    everything

     

    everything to the one who wants everything

     

    and nothing to those who don’t want everything

    because without everything I myself am nothing

     

    here’s

    everything

    for

    you

     

    without a secret

     

    I

     

    pub

     

    public of all beings

     

    from yesterday’s rejection I declare all my no as an

    art work and I’m adding it to the wholeness of my work which is yes

    thank you everybody who I rejected and said no to since now they are also my yes

     

    I was never close to any of techniques

     

    from those physical soul mental spiritual magical ones to the technological techniques

     

    techniques lead to perfection but they digress from God and they are not the perfection

     

    techniques are proclaiming perfection as God

     

    I always wanted and I want to be perfect like God

     

    that my work would be perfect like God’s work

     

    perfect through God

     

    I love-kiss God’s perfection

    no to the perfection of any and whoever’s technique 

     

    through my hungry love first snowflakes are falling

     

     

     

     

     

     

    68TH TIME 33 DAYS

    2244. day
    22nd February 2011

    I love agreeing

     

    68 times 33 days is 2244 days of singing

     

    agreeing – singing it’s not only that it’s dear to God but that it’s God itself

     

    agreeing makes me excited and leads to singing

     

    through singing I’m surrendering to the Bud of All Beings

     

    to the God’s rose

     

    singing is agreeing

    creating is agreeing

    walking is agreeing

     

    not-agreeing leads to

    domination

    vanity

    misunderstanding

    quarrel

    hatred

    conflict

    war

     

    that’s when first victims are words

     

    that’s when I every time become silent in order to save words

     

    I’m leaving a relationship and getting into the state of love so that I would

    save the love in a relationship as well

     

    when love within a relationship is not transformed into the state of love

    then within a relationship it disappears into indifference or hatred

     

    when life is not transformed into the art-immortality-God life disappears in death

     

    when after agreeing comes to disagreeing I feel miserable and I’m ashamed

     

    I’m nothing

    a poet a child the only fool

     

    loneliness

     

    Zeljka

     

    through loneliness I’m renewing

    goodness

    beauty

    love

     

    girl

    of

    mine

     

    you

    are

    creating

    me

     

    miraculous

     

    godly

     

    all-existing

     

    super-surrendering

     

    braver

    than

    all

    creatures

     

    loyal

    to

    all

    beings

     

    I beg You through language to fuck with me

     

    I beg You through cowardice to love-kiss me

     

    I beg You through agreeing to come together

     

    while watching each other into the eyes

     

    one eyes

     

    God’s

     

    may it be Your will

     

    I’M ASKING FROM YOU

    2245. day
    23rd February 2011

    to You

    instead of words

     

    morning

     

    notebook

     

    a drawing and a poem

     

    palms and feet

     

    Billie Holiday

     

    to be worthy of Billie Holiday

     

    of the mellow

     

    slow

     

    meandering

     

    surrendering

     

    budding

     

    Bud of All Beings

    yesterday I experienced for the first time Bud of All Beings as God’s rose

     

    Bud of All Beings is eternity of a being

     

    Bud of All Beings is eternity of a being within every being

     

    Bud of All Beings is a being of eternity within the moment of every being

     

    Bud of All Beings is a being within a bud

     

    the fact that Bora Dragas my friend from sixth and seventh grade of primary school

    has a birthday today helped a me lot and rejoiced me this morning

     

    thank You everyone who hurt me and opened me up for the

    singing

    creating

    walking

     

    for

    God

    Goddess

    just born God’s child

    oldest human being

    I

    you

    the best

    the one and only artist

    the eternal art

    the poet of all beings

    the walker of the one

    the most beautiful thing in this world is to be with Miroslav Mandic

     

    in the eyes of this dog I felt that he’s lacking love

     

    for human survival their love for animals is crucial

     

    the love that I got from the dog I’m spreading to all beings

     

    it’s in Your interest to work towards my interest

     

    when I ask something from somebody it’s in the interest and glory

    of that somebody who I’m asking

     

    when I ask something from somebody I’m looking for God

    in that what I’m asking from somebody

     

    no – to the half

    yes – to the wholeness

    yes yes yes – to God

     

    g

    g       o      d

    d

     

    when God love-kisses me diminishes and disappears within me

    that I would want to become I through Him

     

    when God guards me He enlarges and embraces and guards all existing for me

     

    I made twenty snowballs and I put them on the street poles

     

    transient and yet eternal

     

    on the way back from the lake not a single snowball was left on the poles

     

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