Bog Miroslav Mandić Bog
You
are
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bud
MY WORST OPTION OF MOVING I LOVE-KISS YOU
yesterday I moved out
moving lasted from 10 am to 2 pm twelve car rounds were needed for the Bud to be moved from the Nest into the First House of All Beings Bud was moved by Sun Mandic Nebojsa Rikanovic Mirjana Lukic Violeta Jovanovic Maja Klisinski Ivana Djokic-Saunderson and Nemanja Radovic afterwards from 2 pm to 4 pm Violeta Jovanovic Mirjana Lukic Maja Klisinski and Ivana Djokic-Saunderson have washed and cleaned the Nest I came to the First House of All Beings around 5 pm. I was the loneliest man in this world but also the most joyous being in all worlds sound health of compassion everything on the table was the same even more the same after so many years at the table I love life at the table ever since I was a little boy music words on the screen things on the table yellow daffodils smell of hyacinth first duty of the First House of All Beings is to smell of flowers remember everything connected to the First House of All Beings and with that memory be my guide everything around me was different light space water taps I didn’t know where my things were TV wasn’t working because of the cable I was exhausted like every child in the end of the day I still managed on 1st April 2012 as well to thank all the people who are giving me the new money Bud of Money through which I live work walk create and sing I spoke over the phone with Ivana Violeta and Mirjana cloths we threw away are the best cloths I said to Mirjana over the phone the pain in my chest back and stomach didn’t appear I was getting up several times during the night and only towards the morning was hurting me a bit out of all options of moving this is the worst one and that’s why all I have to do is to make a miracle out of it poor ones are saving the world sex poor ones have always been saving the world sex poor ones are love-kissing the world forever sex poverty is the only richness of this world sex
BOTTOMS UP SEX
sex of dawn love-kisses the sex of dusk
sex of noon love-kisses the sex of midnight sex of understanding love-kisses the sex of misunderstanding sex of fear love-kisses the sex of trust sex of Ivana Hadzi Popovic love-kisses the sex of playing sex of a little path love-kisses the wasteland budded tits of just grown up girls love-kiss the lips of all boys of this world who are already dead poetry of joy love-kisses the poetics of horror architecture of labia love-kisses the determination of homelessness legs in the air love-kiss the extremity of upstreamity sex of crossed hands love-kisses the sex of coming feet from the distance sex of all beings love-kisses the sex of one and only being sex of loneliness love-kisses the sex of disappointed ones sex of strength love-kisses the sex of an oath sex love-kisses sex today I saw fifteen year old prostitute working on the road second duty of the First House of All Beings is that all beings always find place in my heart third duty of the First House of All Beings are Seven Pictures which are yearning for me to draw them fourth duty of the First House of All Beings are Coffees of Courage which I will be giving to all beings sex of rejected ones regenerates the sex of overprotected ones sex of the blessings nurtures all other moments in every day writing nurturing word buds through the sex of floral words all words are floral uplifting sex of taking-off gives itself to the sex of melancholic ones sex of unexpected protects the sex of unprotected ones sex of the beginning is the only sex that never stops sex of pain trembles on the sex of grace sex of every boy is in the sex of this blessing sex of every girl is in the sex of each blessing sex of every youngling is the sex of any word that celebrates the sex of every youngling sex of the poem is the sex of singing sex of tenderness yields to and surrenders to the very sex through which everything is bottom up sex
NERVE
fifth duty of the First House of All Beings is
to leave the First House of All Beings to somebody sixth duty of the First House of All Beings is to become the Bud of All Beings duty is exciting it makes aware it eroticise the conscience another 54700 blessings are in front of me I enjoy admiring I despise manipulative admiring I love previous afterwards is despicable philosophy as philosophy is my philosophy philosophy as fiction is shit I bow down to autobiographies romanced biographies are kitsch of the kitsch it looks as if you can see the whole world Srdjan Valjarevic wrote to me about the photos of sunset taken from the balcony of the First House of All Beings seventh duty of the First House of All Beings is to constantly repeat without a doubt and tirelessly on the Solemn Sunday Lunches that all of that is happening in the First House of All Beings repetition is the mother of mothers of repetition warm sun is shining I just felt the fragrance of Your skin greenery of the spine I’m having great time with the flowers on my working table bring me a little bouquet and You won’t make mistake with that I’m slowly calming down and getting into the life and work in the First House of All Beings I should carry on drawing the Numbers now I’m drawing fifty sixth picture with which I started working on the first picture for the number eleven I’m left with another ten pictures I started working on them on 25th February 2011 maybe I could finish them before the beginning of summer hey and to solemnly show them to somebody on the first day of summer – the day of beggars let’s go my patience I just thought that I should shave off my hair good job small courage is the greatest courage a hug of Cosmos I am a woman of the brave and oversensitive ones courage is sometimes the only oversensitivity just like oversensitivity always is courage
REJOICE REJOICE
last night I had that strong pain again
stomach back chest my forehead was covered with sweat from the pain when the pain stopped I felt incredible grace instead of coffee I’m drinking tea I lost the strength boiler got broken as well I’m waiting for the landlord to call me in fifteen minutes he didn’t call in next two hours I only have enough willpower to go and cut my hair I feel a bit better because of the hairdresser woman who remembers my tattoos and where is that yellow one – she asked she says she remembers them from last summer when she cut my hair her watchfulness has encouraged and strengthened me conceived me like many others this day as well is made out of leftovers just that it doesn’t hurt absence of pain is greatest solemnity so that nobody hurts wow how I easily fall like a dandelion I’m drinking wine in order to get up there is no joy within me I admit – but how wonderful that confession rejoices me I’m helpless I admit that I’m helpless and that opens me up to the immortal sophistication I’m caressing You roughness I hope that in the evening I will have the strength to walk that the evening will go away without the pain that my cells will feel nice in this world that the Bud of All Beings will keep on budding within me Bud of All Beings is the God’s Rose I already wrote this but it’s my duty to repeat that as well bring me roses roses bring me sister daughter mother wife of mine only when it hurts do I feel how life constantly loves me I’m imagining that I’m in the water rejoice rejoice my beloved
TEN CLOCKS PRECISE LIKE TIME
today I made ten thousandth photo with my new camera
it started counting them again from one every day I take forty or so photos out of which I choose two the rest of them I erase one for the Face of Walking second for the Bud of the Day everything that exists exists so that everything would exist smile of an orange smile of the setting sun I am the art of dusk I am the art of midnight I am the art of daybreak I am the art of noon the art of circling art in each moment and each point of circling sexuality of point sexuality of moment point me my moment moment me my point everything is sexual sexuality is a child of everything I love to draw with words I love to sing through words I love to caress with words I’m watching the clock on the wall and the second hand which is sliding and circling now I have two wall clocks I would love to have one on each wall I hope I’ll soon have them since they are not expensive but they are beautiful and precise ten clocks ten clocks precise like time Ten Clocks Precise Like Time – first work of art made in the First House of All beings time of love eternity eternity of the first kiss eternity of everyday kiss
YOU ARE MY ONLY POEM
I’ve
been searching for this poem several times poem is searching for a poem poem is finding a poem poem is searching for a poet who will live and sing the poem poem is blood which never fails poem is loyal poem is a loved one poem is god’s blood indistinct repetition of repetition Ten Clocks Precise Like Time I’m more and more absorbed by the work Ten Clocks Precise Like Time in honour of Ten Clocks Precise Like Time I will read famous One Thousand and One Nights I feel tenderness for the time Berdyaev said is vanity Berdyaev also said loneliness is always sexual loneliness everything somebody said somebody else already said from the great depth of time words are blossoming sex is wholeness sex is attracting halves of sexes because it is the wholeness of the whole sex of the whole is immortal sex sex of the sexes is mortal sex on the table where untill recently was the Twelfth Table Picture on which I was writing poems I am You are I for a year now is the Thirteenth Table Picture on which is the sketch of the picture Setting Sun or Seven Pictures in the First House of All Beings gratitude of gratitude whoever gives gained you are great giving and even greater you are word yes whoever give to me gains a lot more whoever gives to God gains everything i’m everything to you i’m enjoying you god you are the light of my joy i’m singing you god i’m singing you god you are my poem i’m singing you god you are my poem through your words sing miroslav mandic poem of all beings you are my only poem
WHEN YOU SEE WHERE RIVER BENTS YOU SAW EVERYTHING
Eros and Agape – yes
Eros and Thanatos – no path to a path rose of a rose hey truths all my secrets are in this blessing in which there are no secrets be quiet but don’t have secrets I’m yearning for You and that could be my only secret the secret of the beginning of this poem is in every poem poem of a throat I thought how it would be nice to tattoo the word poem on my throat do it for me it got cold. I came back after only five kilometres of walking I’m warming myself up with a bit of brandy I’m sleepy therefore the blessings will be drowsy as well blessings of the street dogs who are lying in the sun my eyes are shutting down I’m surrendering to the surrendering spring waters are taking everything down when you see where river bends you saw everything I love-kiss You childhood of these moments I love-kiss You the childhood of all childhoods I love-kiss You the childhood of all younglings childhood of these moments is embracing the childhood of eternity childhood of eternity is the only childhood and the only eternity I woke up a bit just enough to say that I’m just enough sad tenderly with corrugated waving of the grass with plain young man while he’s watching big motorcycle with admiration with erected nipples with backs of horses donkeys camels elephants tender sadness nurtures the back of all beings which are ridden by some other beings tender sadness doesn’t sadden anybody tender sadness is a kind of quiet joy
HEART GOD
open heart is God closed heart is man open heart is one and only heart heart beating in all beings heart beating in all words heart of a fool heart of a wanderer crazy heart wanderer-like heart I’m on Kaja’s grave in my heart and mind I’m on Milomir’s grave in my mind and heart peace open sky one clear and positive thought has greater power than any feat Elder Paisios the Athonite goodness and beauty to everyone yesterday evening I was walking on the road to Obrenovac today as well I’m on it sun is shining but air is still cold I’m walking towards the vehicles and it seems as if I’m walking upstream air is warmer. I took off my red cap I’m happy on this narrow and winding path through the field I feel beautiful here between fourteen rail tracks as well I’m absorbing little yellow flowers in this slope me on the road – a crow in the grass white butterflies are flying by the white fruit trees how it must be hard for your heart god after thirteen and half kilometres of walking my calcaneus and my left toe nail are hurting a smell of cooking that is coming from somewhere into the First House of All Beings made me sad as well I wanted everything to smell of flowers and it smells of cooking wow how I find difficult to live like people are living I always found it hard I love-kiss you wanderers you are the only ones who are love-kissing this world like their house
GYPSY TO THE ROMA
only
just
but
it
is
a
poem
somewhere
some
other
beings
are
singing
in
this
poem
as
well
beings which are crossing miles and miles
beings
are
singing
through
being
itself
through freckles on the chest
through music in the distance
through tingling of the nerve ends
through the expansion of peripheral blood vessels
through the smell of a deer balls
through the horizon behind a curve
through stepping into the cold water
through drying the hair in the sun
through caressing of the wind with bare skin
through constant exposing to the elements
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y
woman who I’m buying lettuce from makes me feel good
I love how Roma people are steeling electricity for their settlements
they get connected through the power pole. they dig a thin line in the asphalt for the
wire. then cover that with bitumen or an old rug and bring electricity into their nobility
I have a lot of respect for those people
they are cleaners of suppressed human evil
I love them and I admire them
Roma children are a miracle of beauty itself
life in all its glory
Roma people are honorary members among all beings
they sing fucking good
they embrace the world with their voice
they are unbelievably honest
few days ago I saw an old Roma crossing the road with his little grandson
an icon of life
yesterday I saw twelve year old Roma driving a cultivator with a trailer
in which he is collecting carton from the streets with his two peers. grandpa
was sitting next to him as twelve year Roma yawned while slowly getting out of
his settlement on the road
an icon of work
I am a Gypsy to all Roma
joy of hear in the heart of every being
ROBIN TO ROBINS
with new voice recorder and same words the field of dandelions is yellow tall young invalid man is moving slowly with the crutch the voice recorder fits nicely in my hand street dog is watching left and right and then crossing the street my happiness I saw a robin singing on the branch I haven’t seen him for a long time. I recognise his singing I’m watching him fascinated he’s positioned high. if he was lower I would have come close to him voice recorder recorded his singing I see him opening his beak while singing life is so beautiful why are people committing such crimes every child which is born comes into the world of crimes humanity is crime one spider is walking over my hand so terribly and so much killings. even more creepy is to be silent about and not admitting to anything but making heroism out of it that’s what human history is I’m walking calmly and slowly so that tearing the blood and hatred would stop yellow dandelion fields are everywhere from last year I’m walking in socks and sandals nobleness of pleasure four young man in front of me are talking about cars and they are constantly saying hey man hey man hey man it lost its old romantic aspect – an old lady is saying those lanterns I will never forget – an old gentleman is adding here are first people who are sunbathing on the lake I’m walking. closing my eyes. imagining to fly air is moving me throwing and carrying through the space air fills me. I turn myself into the air an instructor on the rollers is teaching little boy how to ride a bike another little boy is holding his father’s hand and constantly talking something. father is doing his hair and he’s not listening him at all I already taught myself to write and to enjoy with new voice recorder a crow bathed itself in the lake water. it shook of the water. it flew away spring sun is warm like in heavens I bought a mosquito net yesterday. today I bought another two. the nets are superb. a strip is glued to the window and very thin net with Velcro is sealed up to the strip I typed in everything from the voice recorder and learned how to erase all I’m sad because I don’t have an understanding with almost anybody that’s the way it is and I should even more so sing to everybody t o y o u m y b a b y
MY NAME IS ALLEVERYTHINGEVERYBODY
I really love the word all
only all
last night being half asleep I was thinking of the word all
I got up and wrote down and all and everything and everybody
alleverythingeverybody
wow how good is that
I am Alleverythingeverybody
in honour of the name Alleverythingeverybody I’m going to buy one wall clock
I bought two
I’m guarding everything with all
all is always and forever
all is inhale of everything and exhale in everybody
each river is all-river
each mother is all-mother
each carrot is all-carrot
each love is all-love
if there was no walking I wouldn’t comprehend all
if there was no withholding I wouldn’t live all
if there was no You I wouldn’t love-kiss all
my voice recorder yearns for writing
all seeks all
may it always be just all
only all is loyal
all seconds make all minutes. all minutes
make all hours. all hours make all twenty four hours
circle is a picture of all
ball is a body of all
dot is all
all is world
all is consciousness
only all creates consciousness and only consciousness is all
poems
of
mind
love-kiss
poems
of
heart
poems
of
heart
hug
poems
of
mind
I took off my shoes
for the first time this year I’m walking barefooted
my heel is hurting me a lot. I’m yearning for barefootedness
MY NAME IS NOBODY IS ALONE
pains are making me sad
I’m drinking so that pains also rejoice I’m thankful to the pains as well to endure to be patient I wiped the floor tonight is Easter I love Easter it’s very important to be alone to a lonely woman to all beings to changes to the beauty of writing to the words’ magic magic word word amber alive path down the path with the rose to the path to the rose to the constant wedding of all beings to the First House of All Beings in the end of the city the art of solitude sings solitude live everything is live everyone is live nobody is alone my name is Nobody Is Alone me Alleverythingeverybody and me Nobody Is Alone and there it is Miroslav Mandic Saturday love-kisses Sunday Sunday love-kisses all days and nights
SAVA SILIC
the legend of Podbara died last night. Sava Silic
Bora Dragas let me know through sms few years older boy than me from my street 19 Patriarch Carnojevic Street the legend of Podbara how he was eating grapes how live was he the truth of my childhood a teddy older boy death celebrates life when you pass uncle Pera’s. Terefina’s. Perifa’s. Obrad’s house. there was Drockal’s house 29 Patriarch Carnojevic Street Sava Laza Ase Perif they were playing cards over there in the blockhouse they were playing ferbl that’s where Sava was eating grapes he endeared it for me forever God only knows why but Sava was the chief he was spreading danger around him danger of childhood even though everything was innocent all day long playing thieves and cops leapfrog climbing and chasing each other and then playing with sticks that we would throw in order to hit the can cugara – I remembered the term then pigeons and pigeon fancying hanovers tipplers szegediners fishing and plunging dancing twist in Tekelija Street next to the big swing on the mulberry first lifted collars that’s all the same one and only goodness bulrush and sedge water grass and water lilies eternal life of Sava Silic
GREEN
every day from today until twenty fourth of May I will be taking only photos of grass green greenery of the greens for ten years I was drawing Grass now I will be taking photos of them for thirty three days I’m enjoying the trees and greenness of the leaves last week’s pain in my stomach – which spreads on chest and back and that lasts from February – and the pain in my heel have exhausted me I would love if you would do something so that the pain in my heel lessens and stops I will I hope the stomach will calm down as well it will just patiently and slowly calmly and with calmness ecstasy is there anyway and it also never betrays the greenness of joy also as well as the enjoyment in greenness are here it’s cold and wet so everything is green and it’s a dark iron greenness an old tall gentleman with his hands on the back is walking slowly and calmly whistling good spirit of the lake who whistles spreads the peace around them waves are carrying a thin line of foam onto the pebbly lake shore I like this coldness while walking while waiting for the green light on the pedestrian crossing it gives me pleasure to thinking about the warm shower which is waiting for me a bit of brandy. a lot of music. finishing the blessings I’m thinking of the grass which I will be taking photo of in following days of the dew on grass blades I love-kiss You frailness each blessing is a pilgrimage hey pilgrimage to blessings wow I love when a lot of thoughts end up in a blessing like this I love when deep thinking ends up in the flow of cold air around my face wind is swinging lilac braches a dove and a pigeon are cooing on the red car roof I would love if You would take me to my magnolia in the Botanical Garden one of these days brandy and music are making me warm greenness of the future photos of grass is making me warm I could be taking photos of them every day till the end of my life grass and sparrows repeating of repetition love-kissing
BLADES
I’m taking photos of grass in rain
I’m watching them
absorbing
grass is everywhere
I’m enjoying watching them
they are getting wet
grass is drinking the rain
both wheat and rice are some kind of grass
violet magnolia leaves fallen over the green grass
one is never alone with grass
nobody is ever alone with grass
my
poems
are
blades
to
the
grass
that
is
that
that
that
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I feel more and more beautiful with grass and words
game
I’m playing it
it’s playing me
game
is
poem
of
singing
poem
is
game
of
playing
all answers are in the madhouse
all questions in the infinity of goodness
infinity always makes me overwhelmed with tenderness of being
tenderness of being is infinity of closeness through which beings are breathing
breathing is breastfeeding through closeness
breastfeeding is breathing through infinity
everything
is
within
one
beauty
dear
to
goodness
goodness
dear
to
beauty
dear
blade
of
mine
is
I’M ONLY YOURS
my
beloved
blade
of
mine
blade yourself blade
simplicity
you
are
my
water
and
food
light of the screen is a humus of these just sprouted words
words are shining like today’s grass
You don’t even know what is so green from all that greenery
nor You know what is so bright from all that light
watery lights
blades full of water and light
everything receives everything into itself
light enters everyone
light immerses into the light
light of a word into the light of the screen
light of a word into the light of the screen
light of a word into the light of the screen
light of a word into the light of the screen
light of a word into the light of the screen
light of a word into the light of the screen
light of the light
light itself
disappearing through beauty
disappearing in beauty
who love-kisses light is
who light is freedom is as well
freedom love-kisses light
light love-kisses love-kissing
love-kissing love-kisses singing
singing love-kisses creating
creating love-kisses walking
I’m walking You walk me
music serves the mucus of saliva of each kiss
music serves the stamping of horses
music is also in the whiz of anyone’s tail
I am Miroslav Mandic and I am Johnny Cash and I’m starting to sing
greetings to Hank Williams
Johnny Cash sings on the Crazy Horse
deep bow down to the Indians
deep admiration for the Roma people
I’m only Yours whoever You are
I’m greeting you Whoever You Are
ask me to tell You about the beauty which I just experienced
with a ten year old girl from the fifth floor from the next building
PORNOGRAPHY OF FRIDAY
here I am and that’s all a moment peak unity peak is unity peak is everything remedy every blessing is a remedy remedy is gratitude to poem poem is singing of remedy open You organs my beloved today I visited porno sites pure love like the Pirate Party which is spreading in all countries if I was living on planet Earth I would have been a member of the Pirate Party I am in the party of all beings of the Universe party of grass and sparrows party of good thoughts how pure is love of those beautiful people on porno sites repairmen have been and changed the water heater boiler when I came back from a short walk I saw that the scale’s battery was run down last night I made holes in the insoles so that heels would hurt me less last night during the walk a banana settled down the pain in my stomach in the morning a bolt came out of my working chair so I screwed it back again every thirty days or so it comes out cloths on the balcony haven’t dried off yet after yesterday’s heavy rain I really enjoy writing about these plain porno things as I was getting out on the balcony yesterday before the storm I thought of drawing on two walls of the balcony as well drawings in the series of paintings which I called Falling Sun it’s important that I’m patient to finish another eight paintings of the Numbers to put in order digital archive on the external hard disk to start the Gigolo even if there are some offers or not and then to start with the Falling Sun Falling Sun and Ten Clocks Precise Like Time I’m not talking about You because You are not around and without You this is hardly feasible here I am and that’s all
ALL FEET ALL PATHS ALL WORDS
every moment somebody is creating love for all beings sometimes it’s a cloud sometimes a drop sometimes some of the children begging on the crossroads I’m not in quite good mood but here Carl Perkins is lifting me up I hug You strongly and kiss You tenderly Strongly and Tenderly are going hand in hand path is white grass is green sky is blue Strongly makes Tenderly feel good Tenderly makes Strongly feel good Silence makes Talking feel good Talking makes Silence feel good there is no end to the path path disappears in the pathlessness I’m thinking of those who are crazy about feet and who are excited the most by feet they had good reason to be born feet are making paths all feet are leading to God all paths are led by God all feet all paths all words are the same beauty in front of our eyes goodness in our cells head on the groins hand in hand lap in lap f l f l y l f l f Strongly makes Tenderly feel good Tenderly makes Strongly feel good Silence makes Talking feel good Talking makes Silence feel good there is no end to budding budding disappears in the infinity
FREEDOM
g
l o v e
d
fall apart from pleasure – transform Yourself within sense
poem
opens
up
every
being
singing
is
opening
up
Distance opens up Closeness
Closeness opens up Distance
who
feels
that
i
am
addressing
only
him
or
her
is
a
grass
blade
in
the
wind
my
poem
is
I am a gigolo without a job
a smile in Your belly
tenderness over Your back
health in each cell of Yours
a sharp sound
joy at the door
The tree of grace is flowering in gold
Georg Trakl
Stef Lamza
fuck it everything that is good is good
fire to fire
throat to throat
yesterday I thought of tattooing on the bottom of my nape the word freedom
good thoughts are good
they are free
they are expeditions
I also thought that I could continue this summer to swim down the Danube
expeditions of love
from Belegis to Stari Banovci
swimming of God’s heaven
a temple of life in the middle of river
the life of water is becoming a great story about the water of life
water of life creates yearning for life
yearning for life is protecting water
soil
water
air
light
are
one
g
o
f r e e d o m
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MIROSLAV BOOK
whoever felt the love of beggars shares my thoughts whoever got scared but didn’t give up is my ally whoever made a cure out of any wholeness is my heeler whoever made a poem out of whoever is my poem whoever dared and headed for is my companion whoever feels this tenderness is my tenderness whoever is a sea is a sea whoever transforms each what into who is my teacher whoever is nothing is my everything whoever is god is my i sex of happiness is within the happiness of all beings happiness of sex is within every being joy of sun joy of gravity I bow down to You the Force of gravity I bow down to the fingers that are writing I bow down to the beggars I bow down to knee-bow-down to the miracle of goodness to the beginning of work of the second version of the eight book Miroslav Mandic which is called Miroslav followed by Miroslav M Miroslav Ma Miroslav Man Miroslav Mand Miroslav Mandi Miroslav Mandic my name is I’m Waiting For You my name is Light Year my name is I’m Begging You On My Knees Don’t Give Up My Beloved just imagine it beautiful and harmonious every day and celebratory nobody’s and everybody’s Force of Gravity being obedient to the Force of the Universal Gravity harmony is serving the wholeness tranquillity is love-kissing the tiniest piece ecstasy is wedding of Serving and Love-Kissing walking rose poem bud little-path