Bog Miroslav Mandić Bog
You
are
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FAIRY-TALE LIKE POEM
I am Gertrude Stein
reading of Gertrude Stein’s poetry ten years ago in the Monastery of Time at 6am
I would love to read the book Science as a Fairy-Tale by Vladimir Ajdačić
I love that everything existing exists as a fair-tale
I love even more so that fairy-tale is fairy-tale
I love the most that fairy-tale is poem
through
fairy-tale-like
singing
i
sing
poem-like
fairy-tale
spring
water
white
pebble
in
the
black
soil
dew
on
the
grass
blades
like
water
buds
purple
flowers
in
the
cold
spring
because
of
something
smashed
concrete
block
thrown
into
the
grass
black
brown
fatty
rotten
last-year’s
leaves
girl
Agape
which
i
will
meet
soon
girl
Agape
which
i’ve
just
met
today I’ve mer Natalija Dabic as well
poem
of
love
in
the
name
of
love
gone
times
tenderness
in
lashes
ten years ago I was reading Gertrude Stein
I love her from my youth
same as Wittgenstein and Goddard
love which lasts more than forty years
love which repeats
through repetition restores
through restoration identifies
today I’m Gertrude Stein myself
sun rays which are spreading at this moment over my table
fairy-tale like poem
horses
running
a
horse
in
a
mare
mane
of
freedom
and
love
even
brighter
and
warmer
rays
inhale
exhale
BAD WEATHER GOOD WALKING
I’m walking with Agape strong wind is blowing wind is blowing I’m teaching Agape how to say wind is blowing we walked around the lake she was telling me about herself about her grandmas and grandpas. mother and father. older sister on the father’s side grandma and grandpa are Hungarian grandma and grandpa on the mother’s side are Greek partisans who fled Greece in 1948 to Hungary Agape are you Agape Agape is it hard to be Agape it’s easy for me Agape is going back to Budapest tomorrow we got wet in the rain weather was bad but walking was good I’m sitting at the computer in the warm room blown through my skin is burning I’m exhausted hungry I’m enjoying words my chest is painful lettuce is waiting for me I’m sleepy wet clothes are drying around the flat nine left blessings are calming me down I can’t do anything to write them just like that I’m stretching yawning I really can’t do anything to write them just like that each word is like a laid egg life of life just laid still warm egg
A HANK
I’m watching the eyes of an old dog that is lying on the asphalt of a path around the lake behind his eyes lies the same thought as behind mine I experienced that thought life I’m life says thought I’m thought says life they hugged each other kissed went down the road Life and Thought with each day writing of the Miroslav Mandic book is more and more exciting and miraculous gratitude to God God’s glory I’m filled with joyful humbleness before the thought that I will finish writing the Miroslav Mandic book that sometimes around 2018 I will write last 129600th blessing there are 44484 blessings in front of me I’m calming down before the thought that I will then read Miroslav Mandic for the first time fourteen years of everyday writing of that knit that white hank that colourful ball perfection of a ball is in its perfect unpredictability God’s certainty every ball is moving around its centre every ball is moving in harmony with centres of all balls every ball is moving in every centre all balls are moving in the centre of each ball that’s who i am heart of ball ball of one and only heart of all beings cold spring in which I’m writing today’s blessings as well ninth spring of the Miroslav Mandic book wholeness I’m singing You renewing budding
GRASS FLOWERS AND TREES HEY
clearness comes from all beings love from every being as much love that many beings that’s who i am a magpie in the grass black-white-blue it’s beautiful in the grass grass has grown there are more flowers in the grass from the flowers in the grass everything gets blue in my soul I’m thinking of trees as of tall grass grass love-kisses all these years grass has been love-kissing me yesterday’s old dog is here today as well he lies and he crossed his front paws one over the other he also experienced how beautiful is walking over the grass I didn’t think that I’ll be writing about grass today but there You go I’m singing about grass the poem about grass will never stop grass will never stop love-kissing grass – God’s glory grass – bare feet over grass grass – football on grass I wanted to write today’s blessings easily but I didn’t know it will be about grass it’s easy about grass let everything get covered in grass one of the most tender things in my early childhood was grass swallows and grass tenderness which I’ve felt within myself I’ve felt in grass as well everything was soft smooth and tender according to grass grass was everywhere it was the most beautiful where was a lot of grass it was nice playing in the grass lying in the grass drying washed laundry on the grass
IN A LITTLE POEM
in a little poem everything is tremble of a hand blink of an eye ripple of an ear wet lips swaying spine feet in motion smell of breeze tastes of childhood hand in hand tongues interweaving that there this here clear principle caressing with voice infinity in a step eternity in a hug god in god bud in rose rose in bud grass blades swallow’s wings goodness of everything beauty in everything love through loyalty little butterflies in the belly of the world universe in a nest fairy-tale of the simple simplicity of impossible sameness with rejected ones because sameness is the greatest rejection flown by life just born poem that’s who poem is that’s who i am
THAT’S WHO I AM
that great work: producing joy in this world
Diary 2003
producer of joy hey
cow’s wet muzzle
milk from grass
long slow fly of a ball
lips in singing
body in dancing
light in the air
steps in bowing
the soul in a friend’s soul
shine of goodness in the eyes of a good gigolo
radiance on the face of a runaway child
dazzle of freedom in the air on Johnny Cash’s concert in Sent Quentin Prison
fuckable in cublefu
money in neymo
smell of cows in the ellsm fo wsco
joy in oyj
ings me
ings me
gingsin
I miss You transformed into I’m loyal to You
rye bread in Your mouth
my health in Your hands
poppies by the roads will soon blossom
stranger in this world
the only host to all beings
a miracle of unrepeatability in repetition
venation
little veins
good-stream
beauty-stream
through who I am I’m not betraying You
nether myself nor You
through our relationship I’m betraying You
both myself and You
I’m twisting myself
dancer of joy
I’m swaying
singer of joy
SWALLOWS
every time I get down this path into the field of grass I feel great joy
today as well the same magpie is on the same spot in the grass
now as well it flew like last time
there are more and more yellow dandelions in the grass
trees are all white from the blossom
water of the lake is still
that I don’t know the names of the grasses
and flowers doesn’t mean that I love them less
tiny white flowers
tiny blue flowers
I crouched and I’m watching that herbal beauty in front of my eyes
I’m overwhelmed and permeated with tenderness
to be and only to be
to be worthy of everyone’s being
hey first swallows have flown in
they are flying over the surface of the lake
I’m a happy man because I’m watching the swallows
from now on swallows are also here
few days ago I didn’t know that I’ll be writing about
the grass and today I didn’t know I’ll be writing about swallows
swallow-like
they are deep-blue with whiteness on their chests
ballerina’s of air
migrators
I am a poet of swallows
swallow poem
the very swallow
they whisk their wings when the touch the water
with great speed they fly upwards
they fall down with even greater speed
with incomprehensible speed and they’re unexpectedly changing the path of their fly
I’m imagining swallows flying in my belly and chests
on my way back I don’t see a single swallow over the water
where are the swallows now
forever in my heart
MY HEALER
last night and the night before I felt strong pain in my fatty tissue on the back yesterday Mirjana Violeta and Ivana wrote a letter which they will send on few places with intention of finding me a doctor who won’t charge Dear Sir/Madam… I’m addressing you wishing and hoping that I will find a doctor in your clinic for Miroslav Mandic – poet, artist, walker. About poetry, art and walking of Miroslav Mandic you can get detailed information on the web site www.miroslavmandic.name In order to completely dedicate himself to the each moment of everyday creation, Miroslav Mandic has decided, in his twenties, in the beginning of seventies of the last century, to live without health or social insurance, with no property, salary or affiliation with any association or organisation. For a year now Miroslav Mandic has pains in the area of stomach, chests and back. My wish is to find him a doctor who would understand and like his work and his way of life, a doctor who would enable Miroslav Mandic to carry on and finish his work with his free treatment. With hope that this letter and the website www.miroslavmandic.name will resonate with you I wish you success in your work and I cordially greet you (signed by one of us) last night I asked Mirjana to look up on the internet where and how I could go one of these days on surgical removal of fatty tissue on Sunday I’ve finished the system My Healer which I hope will help me and lead me in God’s grace with confidence in You and all beings I’m singing it to God You and all beings My Healer I’m sixty three I’m getting old that’s unknown to me the same way every period and each year in my life have been unknown to me regardless of health issues and all other difficulties of living life is more and more just more everything and all all beings more beautiful more miraculous more immortal God-like God I don’t have health insurance nor money for treatment and I don’t believe in health service http://www.nybooks.com/blogs/nyrblog/2013/apr/02/new-american-sadism/ I belive in You whether You’re a doctor nurse healer or the most simple only salvatory You I’m singing You this document about healing with which I would love to inspire You for Your health and Your ability to heal Yourself as well as nurse and heal the other the history of my self-healing my first aware self-healing has occurred on the Second Walking for Poetry, when I experienced: an illness comes and goes October 1987 a treatment of my knee on distance with Dule bioenergetics practitioner on the Second Walking for Poetry and Carefulness which I’ve discovered on that walking October 1987 miraculous experience with Vladica Milosavljevic when I had stiffness in my lower back summer 1989 it carried on when I was fifty three with decisions: 1 I don’t seek medical treatments because that’s my faith in God and health 2 I would love to live long 88-89 years 3 I would love to be ready to die every moment 4 I would love that nobody greaves over my death, but to bring joy to everyone 5 I would love my ashes to be scattered in the wind, water, soil, sun spring 2002 healing joyful to discover that healing is reviving-going away-resurrection in the wholeness 2007-2008 making the list of my troubles and illnesses 2010 system of healing My Healer in which I believe 2013 list of all my troubles and illnesses children’s diseases all teeth all my life my teeth were hurting me now that I’m 63 years old I have only one tooth in upper jaw and five in lower and upper and lower dentures eyes-forehead pressure in my eyes and forehead which I feel my whole life before sleeping, so I hold my hand on my forehead like a conductor left elbow cracked right hand elbow when I was 8 years old left foot cracked lower leg bone when I was 10 years old back fear which I was feeling on my back in childhood and adolescence below the neck vertebra jumped in the water but hit the bottom and broke my teeth and hurt my vertebra a bit when I was 16 years old nose broken nose cartilage when I was 20 years old smoking started smoking when I was twenty and sloked from 20-31 years old from 32-39 years old from 45-49 years old I would always stop because I was having problems with my chests meniscus my left meniscus ruptured when I was 23 years old liver jaundice which I got when I was 32 years old forced thoughts and deadly fears after the jaundice when I was 32 years old psychosomatics I’m afraid of death since I was 33 years old and I don’t like listening about illnesses because I’m thinking about them and I feel them stopped donating blood I gave my blood twenty five times and I’m really sorry that I couldn’t carry on heart sometimes twinges, it started when I was 32 years old after the jaundice, because of my fear of dying lungs spasm in my lungs from love sufferings because of the break up with Ksena and Vesna when I was 35 years old knee swelling and pain in my left knee when I was 38 back feeling of a downfall when lying on my back from being overexposed during the work Man Who Writes when I was 38 years old lower back periodical difficulties, sciatica from being thirty years old, real big problem which twisted me when I was 39 years old eyes dioptre, spectacles, I started wearing them when I was 36-37. now, when I’m 61 years old, for three years now I’m wearing: for distance and for watching TV: od + 1,5 os +1,5 +0,5 cylinder 140° pupil distance 60 for reading: od +3,5 os +3,5 +0,5 cylinder 140° pupil distance 58 for computer: od +2,75 os +2,75 +0,5 cylinder 140° pupil distance 58 everything went up when I turned 63 for half of a measure drinking I wasn’t drinking, but I would sometimes drink strong drinks from my 42nd year I started drinking white wine from my 52nd I was ritually drinking on Saturdays and Sundays at the working table with music on. I was enjoying immensely in that creative celebration from my 62nd I reduced it and almost completely stopped unlike smoking which I cannot even try because I’ll start smoking I can drink and not carry on my experiences with hashish are small, couple of times in my youth fatty tissue fatty tissue on my back which hurts me from time to time appeared in Timisoara when I was 43 years old stomach for the first time I felt pain in Hungary when I was 44 from too much coffee nape occasional pain in the left side of my nape, first time I felt it when I was 44 in sauna in Budapest prostate it hurts me occasionally, night urinations, first prostate pain I felt when I was 45 Achilles’ tendons pain in my Achilles’ tendon from being 45 years old, and from being 60 mild pain in both cold feet I’ve noticed that after being 50 ears my hearing is poorer on my right ear, I’ve noticed that when I was 52 occasional pain in my ears and sensitivity from my 59th nose sensitivity, I’ve started feeling that after having a flue when I was 57 chests pain in my chests from incenses when I was 58 losing consciousness occasional losing consciousness from alcohol when I was 59 mental mild forgetting and losing mental strength started around 60 top of my head crusts or dandruff whatever that is which started appearing when I was 60 heels difficulties and pain which I felt when I was 61 left heel calcaneus from January 2011 when I was 61 tongue burning sensation on my tongue started when I was 61 stomach difficulties with my stomach during the Cultivating of the Bud when I was 62 chests difficulties with my chests during the Cultivating of the Bud when I was 62 back in the area of my chests difficulties with my back in the area of my chests during the Cultivating of the Bud in February when I was 62 years old ribs I fell down in the bathroom and squashed my ribs when I was 62 a lot of things are hurting me a lot of things in life are hurting me but above all: crimes of people towards other beings lie and evil of human society mindlessness of my beloved ones but much much more from what’s hurting me is what rejoices me is God You all beings singing creating walking what I’m doing and what would I love to do in the glory of God You and all beings with joy of existing every day I’m doing: One Man – now forty two years old work till the end of my life Red Notebook – now forty two years old miracle till the end of my life 86400 – 86400 moments and works every day or immaterial art I am God – everyday writing of the poem I am God to the end of my life Miroslav Mandic – everyday work on fourteen years long book Blue Roses – everyday work on decennial picture Blue Film – everyday work on decennial film 64 Buds – everyday work on sixty four decennial pictures Bud of Walking – walking 13 km every day Bud of the Face – taking photo of my face every day Bud of a Day – everyday photo of a day Good Walker – everyday drawing miroslavmandic.name – everyday work on the web site Bud of All Beings – everyday definitions of the Bud of All Beings Coffees of Courage – everyday work with money … I would love regardless of difficulties or any other temptation to sing create walk to the last moment of this life of mine I would love to die when God wants me to to die in my boots in the fervour and tranquillity of singing creating and walking to die being loyal and dear to God You and all beings with a smile on my face my current difficulties spasm in my chests and pain in my stomach and back in the chests area February 2012 do something your life is in danger 25th July 2012 I dreamt this sentence present difficulties: in the stomach, pain in the chests pin of the fatty tissue which is on my back in the area of chests 6th April 2013 system of curing and healing in which I believe God. healing. self-healing You cure me. You be healthy support me and encourage to carry on singing creating walking help me be braver and live more and more for God You and all beings do everything to accept from love and immortality from me join me in working on immortality talk to me about my fears and mistakes recognise what I need – and give me that recognise what bothers me – and discard that for me foresee so I can avoid the danger which I don’t need foresee the danger which is salvific for me and encourage me to get into it agreement. massage. elixirs. syrups. fruit salads. vegetable mashes pray for me let me be and rejoice that I am ill. let me and rejoice when I die find me my free of charge doctor rejoice rejoice rejoice
EVERYONE IN ONE VOICE
there is no end to infinity
there is no beginning without a beginning
nobeginning
circling
butter from milk
blossoming from wind
humus from sorrow
straight road
constantly in circling
on the road together Nobeginning and Infinity
there’s no end
says Nobeginning to Infinity
there is no beginning
says Infinity to Nobeginning
I enjoy in you
says Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
me too
says Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
I also enjoy in you
says Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
everybody enjoys
says Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
everyone is everything to everybody
says Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
all of us enjoy in everything and that’s why we are everything to everyone
says Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
that’s how all of it is true
says Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
mild truth which permeates us all
says Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
it permeates us and makes us
says Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
we are all in one and one is in everything
says Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
it’s one poem
says the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
one singing and dancing
says Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
the dance of dandelions in the grass
says Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
poem of poppies by the road
says Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
light is within us
says Kiss and Bud to the Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
we are God’s poem
says Shy-One-She and Frostbitten-One-He to the Kiss and Bud to the Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
God is with us
says Snuggling and Nestling to the Shy-One-She and Frostbitten-One-He to the Kiss and Bud to the Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
God is within us
says Insouciance and Unreasonableness to the Snuggling and Nestling to the Shy-One-She and Frostbitten-One-He to the Kiss and Bud to the Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
we are God
says Same-Thinking and Same-Fucking to the Insouciance and Unreasonableness to the Snuggling and Nestling to the Shy-One-She and Frostbitten-One-He to the Kiss and Bud to the Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
we are God to God
says Carefulness and Care to the Same-Thinking and Same-Fucking to the Insouciance and Unreasonableness to the Snuggling and Nestling to the Shy-One-She and Frostbitten-One-He to the Kiss and Bud to the Serving and Love-Kissing to the Runaway-Child and Good-Child to the Approval and Agreement to the Freckled-One-She and Runaway-He to the Life and Thought to the Hey-Go and Let’s-Go to the Whirlpool and Whirlwind to the Shame-He and Shame-She to Everyone and Everything to the Sparrow-In-Fly to the Grass By The Road to the Circling to the Rose to the Path to the Nobeginning and Infinity
God
says You and I
God says everybody in one voice
I LOVE-KISS YOU MY NURTURING
I’m going to meet Miroslav Rabasovic
seventy years old walker. I’ll give him the set of the Rose of Wandering
yesterday I’ve removed the fatty tissue on my back
it’s really big and deep – said doctor Helena
intervention lasted almost an hour
I suffered pain
I paid hundred and forty euros
sun is shining
fruit trees are blossoming
nourishing of mine I love-kiss You
I’m crying
I’m compassionate with the boy within me
he collected a lot of effort and pain
I feel discomfort in my chest
I love-kiss You my boy
I love-kiss You every boy
I love-kiss You every girl
I love-kiss You every being
Sava has flooded the quay
I’m walking over the railroad
lizards are coming out underneath the
rail threshold and running over the sunny rail tracks
train is coming behind my back
it’s passed noon
I’m going to sleep a bit
I’m nourishing You my nourishing
wow how pleasant it was in the bed
disappearing into the dream
into the warmth
into the softness
into the fragility
bread mayonnaise and lettuce are waiting for me now
poem
out
of
nothing
sings
to
everything
next step
next
step
in
the
next
step
already
is
ROUTE 533
poem
is
a
path
rose
of
a
path
path
into
rose
I adore path
path has deified me
beauty of path lights me up
path is handwriting which spreads through the landscape
everything that surrounds path rose is
rose of the very life
path
is
a
bloodstream
through
the
very
life
path beauty
rose goodness
path and rose are one beauty
path and rose are one goodness
dithyrambs
everything what are quivers to shivers that are shivers to quivers
one in the other path and rose are pulsating
everything is path
one and only rose
I love all paths
a path from word to word
a path from step to step
a path from inhale to exhale
a path from lips to lips
a path from gratitude to gift
a path from unemployment to employment
a path from employment to freedom
a path from freedom to submission
a path from submission to transformation
a path from path to rose
a path from rose to God
a path from God to God
with god
to god
god
REFLECTION OF THE SUN LIGHT ON THE METALLIC BLUE SWALLOW’S WINGS
I was on bandaging
after the removal of fatty tissue the wound is still inflamed
I’m going again for a check-up on Tuesday
when the inflammation goes away we will
have to make another intervention – said doctor Elena
grass has grown
it’s up until my knees
grass rejoices me
rain drops are shimmering on the grass blades
everyone’s life serves the life
I live so that life could live
I live so that life would live-kiss
I live so that love would live
I’m walking a bit and slowly
a bit is a lot
slowly is very fast
next to the walking path a grass path is greening
in the greenery of grass yellow flowers are yellowing
I’m stopping because of the pain in my chests
and watching. I’m enjoying the colours of flowers
life is paid by life
love with love
peace with peace
with the sun glare on the dark blue wings of a swallow
all of a sudden I feel great tenderness for fish
all species are yearning to talk to other species
to swim together in the river of life
to fly together in the sky of fair-tale
to be in poem
swim fishes swim
glide through water
into the depths of rivers lakes and seas descend
bathe for all other beings
we are the same my fishes
bathed in tears of love
HOLLY BETRAYAL
I am Robert Walser
reading of Robert Walser’s poetry ten years ago in the Monastery of Time at 7 am
today is hundred and thirty fifth birthday of Robert Walser
yesterday was thirty fifth birthday of my Varadinac Dragana
interweaving
dear-she to dear-he
roes in the air
interflow one into the other
a friend loyal to a friend
so that I don’t betray anybody especially not a friend
a woman-companion
a man who shares my thinking
childhood
boyhood
youth
I’ve surrendered all of it to God
to fishes
to dandelions
to shells
everything begins with death
rejecting I don’t reject anybody
the
one
who
loves
heart
of
god
is
the
one
who
hugs
god
is
the
one
who
love-kisses
god
is
to
god
don’t hold me to my word but dance with it
don’t hold me to my word but kiss with it
don’t hold me to my word but transform with it
so that I don’t betray anybody
especially not a friend
a woman-companion
a man who shares my thinking
childhood
boyhood
youth
I’ve surrendered all of it to God
FOURTEENTH NUMBER IN THE FIBONACCI SEQUENCE
right now I will count fourteenth number in the Fibonacci sequence first number 1 second number 1 third number 2 fourth number 3 fifth number 5 sixth number 8 seventh number 13 eighth number 21 ninth number 34 tenth number 55 eleventh number 89 twelfth number 144 thirteenth number 233 fourteenth number 377 I’ve been working and I am working with number one I’ve been working and I am working with number two I’ve been working and I’m working with number three I’ve been working and I am working with number five I’ve been working and I am working with number eight with number thirteen I’ve been working a bit with number twenty one I’ve also been working a bit with number thirty four I haven’t been working with number fifty five I have been working with number eighty nine I haven’t been working I’ve been working and I’m working with number hundred and forty four with number two hundred thirty three I haven’t been working also with number three hundred seventy seven I haven’t been working being sixty four years old I’ve counted for the first time fourteenth number in the Fibonacci sequence sixty fourth number in the Fibonacci sequence is 10610209857723 there is no end to infinity numbers are grass uncountable numbers are budding and blossoming buds and flowers are counting kisses are number’s kisses with kisses numbers are not counting but only kissing kisses are counting with numbers buds are not budding but only kissing numbers are budding the nature of mathematics is in the mathematics of nature two eyes one watching two ears one hearing two hands one hug two feet one dance a pair of lips one kiss and one singing
MAGNOLIAS LILACS WEB-SITE
every day one life of mine is finished it’s no-beginning of no-ending every day one new life of mine begins it’s no-ending of no-beginning through rhythm through melody through harmony one two three two one poem loyal to beauty singing left to goodness I’m off to the sunshine to the sun wow magnolias lilacs everything is budding from magnolias sexiness of magnolias is unexcelled I’ve been working in the morning on two new links for the site Ivana was helping me yay Zoltan is coming on Friday we will be working on the site on Saturday and Sunday I’m rejoicing I’ll be enjoying while taking a shower a while ago a wonderful idea about the texts for the site came to me I immediately started went patience heel me modesty invigorate me calmness refine me hey magnolia hey lilac hey miroslavmandic.name we are one
VEGETARIANISM
today I’m going to see the cardiologist the wound on the place of the fatty tissue is still bleeding I’m rejoicing as much as I can in the spring forty years ago I became a vegetarian that was one of the most important decisions in my life old within me has died new was conceived narrow path towards all beings rose of love for all beings I couldn’t live without quitting eating meet meet is animals’ life I love-kiss you animals I love-kiss you plants I love-kiss you minerals I could write a lot about vegetarianism veganism that’s why only a low bow and one child-like sunlit with sun blown through with air bathed with water filled with soil thank You thank You to everyone who lives thank You to words which are celebrating all beings thank You to words who are love-kissing every being steps of joy towards joy in everybody’s steps with hands of warmth towards the warmth of everybody’s hands with voice of grace towards the grace in everybody’s voice don’t worry all of us are worrying about you so you don’t have to said Sun to me after the free of charge check up at the cardiologist in Grocka
ON THE ROAD
yearning
for the road I’m accomplishing through being on the road of words which are spreading through the whiteness of the screen and leading me into the unknown parts of infinity from which each word feels good to be a rose on the road of primeval language and p r i m e v a l b u d
ZOLTAN VARADY AND THE SITE MIROSLAVMANDIC.NAME
Zoltan is sitting at the other desk at which I draw the Blue Rose and the 64 Buds
he’s installing the programme Drupal 7
I really love computer and internet
I really love open source
Violeta Ivana and Mirjana are coming soon so I will talk to Zoltan and them about the site
I will start with reading these blessings
I’ll carry on with the beginning with which I’ve started the site
it’s consisted of two basic things
creating and affirmation
I am creation
as God I am actually now eternally created child
I am affirmation
as a man being 3.333.333 years old I am the oldest human being
all people who have ever existed and who are existing now are my children
I’ll be telling them about the site miroslavmandic.name
as of a house a yard and surrounding
site as a house is poem
site as a yard is a fair-tale-museum
site as surrounding are Universe and Internet
three ways are leading from the poem-house through
the fairy-tale-museum and through Universe and Internet
God’s path to God
Your path to Yourself
a path of all beings to all beings
I was talking for an hour enthusiastically
whenever I’m talking my speech opens up for me and leads me
it reveals to me and reveals me
one is the revelation
afterwards I went for a walk
I took off my shirt and sunbathed my skin
I felt like a young man
if it only didn’t hurt me from time to time in my chests…
Zoltan is still sitting at the other desk
an exciting day is in front of us
tomorrow’s Sunday even more so
he already installed Mac OS X 10.8
he will be telling me about responsive design
about archive.org
about photoswap
hey
CLARITY
I’ve spent two days in the world of computers and internet
Zoltan has fixed little mistakes on the site
I was enjoying in his knowledge of IT language
everything on the site is centred everything is therefore clearer and more direct
I love clarity
clarity comes from clear I
as much as I is clear clarity is clearer and clearer
I love connection between I and clarity
I love connection between thoughts heart and words
I’ve washed my linen
it’s drying in the sun and wind
I’m going to change the dressing on the wound on my back
difficulties in my chests are not ceasing
life is wandering
rose of wandering
wandering from birth to death
joy of life
God’s glory
Rose of Wondering
everything from my site is backing up on CrashPlan Central
it will last for ten days or so
it will be saved somewhere in the sky clouds
I’m off onto the sun
in shorts and short sleeve shirt I feel like a boy
the smell of dust after the first drops of rain
radishes
new photos of the Universe on my desktop and screen saver are beautiful
blueness of the planet Earth
incandescent glare and beauty of galaxies
are constantly moving on my desk
God is God of presence
Meister Eckhart
linen has dried up
freshness smells beautifully
LIFE SCAR
I took off my shirt to sunbath the scar on my back
life scar
sun health
white butterflies are flying
white tree fluffs are also flying
I always rejoice when I see that new shoots of life are sprouting from a stump
I just saw how a fly flew in front of my face
before that I saw how something that looks like a dragonfly was flying
and now this little bug which has passed between my feet
I’m tenderly thinking of all little animals
about their mission in this world
each being has its mission
each being is the most important for the existence
my mission is to sing every being’s mission
to sing a poem out of everything that exists
to do everything I’m creating for the first time
to walk and spread joy in the heart of every being
to sing create and walk all missions as one and only mission
the mission of three mentioned little animals was also to remind me of my mission
three and four year old Gypsy girls are wading in the water of the lake
on my way back I saw them playing washing and drying laundry
in childhood life goes by in game
in old age game goes by in life
I love game when it’s more than game
when the game is the very life
I love life when it’s more than life
when the life is the very game
mere game and mere life don’t attract me
I love game from misunderstanding to agreeing
game from complexity to simplicity
from vagueness to clarity
red geraniums on the terrace
a rhino bug has spread its wings and carried on walking over the asphalt
I’m watching to see an ant
after fifty meters or so here is one solitary ant. it’s walking here and there
there is a second one as well… and third and
fourth and fifth and there are more and more of them
this little ant is pushing a dead fly
the vine leaves are shooting out full force on the fence of my building