Bog Miroslav Mandić Bog

poem
the poem of one name
the name of a man
the name of god
the name of a poem
i wrote it i sang it
from january 6th 2005 to july 24th 2017
i sang it every day except sunday
33 poems a day
i call them blessings
198 blessings per week
129600 blessings for twelve and a half years
129600 (360×360) blessings have formed a ball book
universe
universe of poem
each day is marked with day number and date of singing
first three books have been published
fourth and fifth book are in my computer
last eight books are on the website
i hope that everything will soon be together on the website

You
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bud

WITH LASER

1873. day
16th February 2010

goodbye cactus

I said to cactus while leaving the Nest

 

now three hours of walking for 33 blessings

it was 3 hours15 minutes and 13.47 km

 

actually because everything depends only on me I know that nothing depends on me

 

actually because nothing depends on me everything depends only on me

 

yesterday lemon was agreeing with me a lot

 

now everyday sowing of the money

 

it is a little white envelope on which is written

a bud to you

if you find it somewhere and open it you find 50 dinars in it and text

to unknown person

health

happiness

love

and

bud of new money

from unknown person

 

it’s a bit warmer so I don’t have a scarf over my nose and mouth

but from time to time I blow warm air through the nose to keep it warm

 

I’m walking – I’m not travelling – everything within me is travelling

 

yesterday Ivana translated the title Heel Fairytale...

as if it is was fifth fairytale and I meant heel fairytale

(“fifth” and “heel” in Serbian is the same: “peta”, comment by Ivana)

 

few days ago Ivana translated that Miroslav Mandic book

is fairytale for everybody and I wrote that it is for all beings

I wink at Ivana

 

I’m in middle. I’m going back. downhill. so far it was

uphill so I was sweating a lot and worrying too much only about the walking

 

it’s a bit easier to walk downhill

 

everything is friend and friendship

 

everything doesn’t know the enemy and hostility

 

everything is constant creation of everything

 

everything is constant kissing of everything

 

of tails and wings

 

of flappers and winds

 

of books and meadows

 

of lasers and streams

 

of trout and mature water

 

three magpies in the branches

 

I bow down to everyone who doesn’t have enemies

 

I wink at the shells

 

always when I wink I feel how I’m also winked at

 

in some places where the snow wasn’t cleaned

one walks like walking over little children’s mountains

 

uphill to the Cvetko’s market. sweating again

 

slowly for the health of my lungs

 

from Cvetko a slight downhill slope. collecting and gathering

 

three hours of walking. not a lot. not a little. it’s eternal

 

I am Your glory

 

hallo cactus thank You for waiting for me

I said to cactus as soon as I got into the Nest

 

HUGGER-SINGER

1874. day
17th February 2010

little is so little exactly as much as big is big

 

incomprehensible

 

the biggest is yearning for the smallest

 

the smallest is yearning for the biggest

 

everything that is is constant wedding of the biggest and smallest

 

one step for the biggest one step for the smallest

 

biggest wouldn’t exist without the smallest

 

nowhere the biggest isn’t feeling so good like in the biggest

 

I’m gently holding my hand on Your belly

 

I write with love – I write to love

 

art of the chestnut

 

it’s getting warmer – sparrows are flying again

 

I wink at the flees

 

I winked at the flees because I’m thinking all the time about the sense

 

just now I felt the sense of today’s walking

 

I’m walking so as to hug the Universe

 

shall we go there to cheat the people

one young boy says to another near Vuk monument

 

Universe couldn’t exist if nobody was hugging it

 

infinity of existence

 

genesis is the only happening

 

within the genesis everybody has its own place

 

everybody exists only through genesis

 

I hug everybody who hugs

 

good throat sings beautifully

 

when body hair stands up from the joy the world is always saved

 

I’m still holding my hand on Your belly

 

everything I am doing is cosmic work

 

street works in the Universe

 

under the light of the public of all beings

 

EPOS

1875. day
18th February 2010

beggars are the spout and delta of goodness

 

while I’m walking I lift myself a bit with my foot

of the right leg and that’s enough for the eternal art

 

I wink at Ignacy Witkiewicz

dedicated to Vera Varady’s Czeslaw Milosz

 

I finished reading of Mahabharata. I don’t want to

hurt anybody but world of warriors and wars is not my world

 

all big epics that are talking about war and war waging are not mine

 

I live on new not yet written epics

 

on epos about patient observation

 

epos about lofty non- action

 

epos about not opposing the evil

 

epos about a horse who is contemplating over man

 

epos about glorious bacteria and viruses

 

epos about grass and hay

 

epos about the centre that is everywhere and periphery that is nowhere

 

epos about love for every particle

 

epos about big singing of small songs

 

epos about the Bud of All Beings

 

epos about a child which is resurrecting all creatures

 

epos about the eyes of this woman who is crossing the pedestrian crossing

 

epos not about the theory of everything but about love for everything

 

epos about anonymous forces of love

 

Jelena Besir and I had coffee at the half way point

of her 2/33 Walking for the Bud of All Beings

 

epos of loneliness

 

epos of the rain – warm rain is starting

 

epos of thinking

 

epos ball

 

eposgame

 

epos of care-freeness

 

epos of groundless heroism and heroism of groundlessness

 

epos of the root and fruit of words

 

epos about the best one – poem is telling the best one

unlike the ancient epics that are telling about the best ones

 

biggest epos ever written – epos about anything

 

I-epos

 

by epos-ohm

by

ohm

p

o

e

m

 

 

WINKER

1876. day
19th February 2010

it’s so beautiful that I’m walking slowly from the beginning

 

heavenly. harmless. innocent

 

I also took off my sweat-shirt I’m just in my shirt

 

near the main Post Office I think of snowdrops

 

the wind is getting stronger. it’s colder. I feel cold for a while

 

just to say sorry for slagging you at the writer’s forum

approached me and told… who I haven’t seen for twenty years

 

I can only imagine how people some people are slagging me

 

to be slagged is good for calming down

 

I’m holding my palm around my throat. all my attention is going towards

keeping myself from coldness

 

when I got going I thought how good it was that I put on such a light clothes

now I’m thinking quite the opposite that it’s not so good I put on such light clothes

 

I was hoping that on the Bulevard’s uphill I’ll come across a leeward spot

but I didn’t

 

my palm around my neck and just as soon as possible to get to the Nest

 

I’m thinking about a lot of situations in which beings are hiding

themselves in shelters

 

under the eaves running away from the rain

 

into the leeward spot from wind

 

into the warm to keep away from the cold

 

coming into the nest

 

crawling into the pits and holes

 

entering the cities

 

getting to the wood

 

running away into the basements from bombs

 

running away from tyranny all the way until they reach free territory

 

if I’m already freezing and worrying may at least the blessings stay

 

if I’m already slagged off may there at least be blessings about slagging

 

if I was better dressed it would have been a different tune

but instead it’s this blown through one

 

older gentleman with his hand on his back is peacefully whistling

 

I drank a warm tee

 

I had a warm shower

 

I drank lemonade

 

I already changed the sweaty undershirt

 

I’m drinking a bit of brandy

 

I wink at the one who has slagged me on the writer’s forum

 

I wink at winking

 

 

LUMBERJACK OF LOVE

1877. day
20th February 2010

I will be drawing little circles for every plane tree on the Boulevard in Belgrade

 

it’s been said that they are eighty to ninety years old but soon in spite of their

beauty and incredible importance for life and culture of Belgrade they will be

cold-bloodedly cut down

 

by the circle-wholeness I will heal me-You and all beings from helplessness

because I can’t prevent evils that are constantly happening in the world

who is – what kind of a being – is developing financing and producing

weapons that are used for killing

 

it’s starting to rain slightly. will I manage to draw all the little circles

 

people are terribly cruel – unsurpassed killers

 

but good deeds of rare beings are surpassing evil doings of people

 

as I pass the plane tree I draw a little circle

 

I drew all plane trees from Cvetko’s Market to the main Post Office

 

I’m getting a cramp in my left hand in which I was holding a pad and crayons

 

I continued to Kalemegdan in order to cover today’s mileage

 

I’m starting to draw little circles for every plane tree

across the road from the main Post Office to the Cvetko’s Market

 

I finished – all the plane trees are now alive forever

although man will soon commit the slaughter

 

slaughter-man

 

slaughter-man transform yourself into the healer

 

man – don’t take the life of the other beings

 

man – clean your evils and sins in the oceans of tears of other beings

 

man – may Your chest tremble with love cry for all beings

 

man – you can’t live or survive if you kill any other being

 

man – have you ever seen the beauty of the green moss on the trees

 

man – have you ever seen an apple on the tree branches

 

man – have you ever been saved from coldness by a tree

 

man – have you ever found better method of thinking than the

picture of tree

 

man – give birth to the nursery plants

 

man – quiet down within trees

 

man – find your survival in the lungs of trees

 

man – you are just a servant to the dignity of trees

 

man – trees are the blue roses in the universe

 

man

personal religion is the religion solely of God

God alone

God of all beings

all big religions are just private religions

 

man

conscience is knowledge

knowledge itself

knowledge of all beings

all big universities are just the interest of private knowledge

 

man

giving your life to the other is the only economy

profit itself

harmony of all beings

all big corporations and banks are just death and sorrow of private ownership

 

man

Your beauty is the beauty of God

beauty itself

beauty of all beings

all big fashions in everything and also in art are just private and old fashioned

 

only-I-you

lumberjack

healer

calmer

waiter

 

FIRST 33 BOW-DOWNS

1879. day
22nd February 2010

I bow down to Your face

 

I bow down to the grass which is swaying in the snow

 

I bow down to the nostrils and pine needles

 

I bow down to the bow-downs of all pilgrims

 

I bow down to the openness

 

I bow down to the walk while walking

 

bow down is freedom with which free people are kissing the un-free

 

I bow down to all hugs

 

I bow down because I enjoy bowing down

 

I bow down to flowers that smell nice

 

I bow down to the road that leads everyone to everybody

 

I bow down to the easiness of bowing down

 

I bow down to the hand on the chest

 

I bow down to the lips on the groin

 

wow how bowing down is healing

 

everything gathers in the bow-down

 

I stop anywhere and I just bow down – I call that wise

 

I bow down to the seriousness of bowing down

 

I bow down to the tenderness of bowing down

 

I bow down to the particle that is trotting through

the heart of the Universe for millions of years

 

I bow down to the dog in the city in which there is not even a mad dog

 

I bow down to the fingers of my hands that folded up in the prayer for prayer

 

I bow down to the heart that is kissing the lonely hearts

 

I bow down to the heroism of those who have

endured the pain of love and not hurting anybody

 

I bow down to everyone who brings peace to somebody else

 

I bow down to the mystery of the soil

 

I bow down to the holy scriptures that are talking about the one and about simplicity

 

I bow down to the yearning that is giving You birth within me

 

I bow down to the warm and dry long legged boots on my legs

thanks to Vesna Milovic who gave them to me couple of years ago

 

I bow down to the inexhaustibility of repeating the unrepeatable

 

only repeating is singing the unrepeatable and that’s why I bow down again

 

I bow down to the bud of Your belly button

 

I bow down to the bud of Your heart

 

GODLY LOYALTY PERMEATES ME

1880. day
23rd February 2010

a battle of all beings for all beings has started

 

I kiss my mortality – it is an eternal immortality

 

rose of blaze

 

blazing rose

 

if I’d known in my youth that I will be so alone

in my life I probably wouldn’t dared to go this way

 

that way I neither wanted nor I cloud have went

 

if I didn’t go this way I would have barely existed or I would have killed myself

 

thank God I went this way

 

I am alone so as to really be with somebody

 

I am alone so as to really be with everybody

 

I am alone because all beings are alone

 

only when a being is alone a being is with all beings

 

alone is everything

 

why don’t you learn how to make medicinal tinctures

 

I’m walking the planet – I’m circling in the heart of all beings

 

ocean of loneliness – ocean of permeating

 

kings are disgusting – presidents are boring

said the king of all kings to the president of all presidents

 

kings are killers – presidents are mass killers

said the king of a king to the president of a president

 

by walking loneliness turns into the bud

 

by walking and writing loneliness turns into the Bud of All Beings

 

oh how this yellow butterfly rejoiced me

 

one can’t know everything but one can love everything

 

knowing is lesser than loving

 

I am precedes everything and creates everything

 

I couldn’t bare the loneliness if I didn’t see the yellow butterfly

 

I couldn’t bare the loneliness if I don’t feel all beings

 

I couldn’t bare the loneliness if I don’t live for You even though

You are not around

 

I couldn’t bare the loneliness if there weren’t those

who are alone and who bared it and are enlarging love of all beings

 

mother instinct of alone ones is the instinct for all beings

and not for the one’s own beings

 

alone ones are not at war – they don’t steal nor kill

 

alone ones don’t write history – alone ones are dancing and singing

 

loneliness is disappearing with merging of the couple or togetherness of all beings

 

merging of two people lasts briefly and togetherness of all beings doesn’t exist yet

 

 

57TH TIME 33 DAYS

1881. day
24th February 2010

there are twenty three million people in this world who live like sex slaves

 

warm and sunny day. I’ve been thinking for already an hour about violence

and evil that are done to sex slaves. I thought of this and that and in the

moment when I asked myself what could I do now for them I caught

the sight of this tree and I felt that’s that what I should have done

 

to look at and take the photo of the tree that is saving white slaves

 

actually because there is nothing cleaner more noble and innocent

in this world than sex – sex is abused the most

 

seventy percent of biological life is based on sex

seventy percent of business comes from sex

 

birth – sex – death

 

I threw a ball into the air 33 times so as there was no abuse of birth sex and death

in order to turn seventy percent of business that comes from sex into the life for all beings

 

birth gives birth to illusions as well

 

sex is being manipulated and traded with

 

death is being threatened with as well as it’s been used for making life senseless

 

the smell of the grass agrees with me – it liberates me from feeling guilty

for 23 million people who are now molested through sexual violence

 

that girl who is running really slow has reminded me of the art of slow running

 

yesterday and today I have been collecting little stones for the cactus

 

I’m getting old

 

every day I notice how I’m getting old

 

getting old is unknown to me

 

it is unknown to me as any period of life was unknown

 

it is unknown to me like life after death is unknown

 

will I go around the Planet in ten years

 

will I be creating Bud of All Beings every day

 

will I be the Art of Miroslav Mandic every moment

 

I skip for the success of all beings

 

I skip for Your success

 

I skip for success of the Eternal Art of Miroslav Mandic

 

since I have sixty years of experience in unknown

it would be good to use it for getting old as well

and to create while getting old what can

only be sung while getting old

 

the art of getting old is creating immortality

 

just

art

 

just

poem

 

I have to admit that I couldn’t grasp from the site what are you doing now

a friend who I met by chance in the end of today’s walking told me

 

will you catch it

I asked eight year old boy and threw him the ball

 

he caught it with smile. my hero and first

unknown person in the Bud who I threw the ball to

 

today is 1881st day of Miroslav Mandic book and pedometer

showed me that I have walked 18881 step today

 

hey beauty of numbers – goodness of unknown – hey boy hero – one and only love – we are one

 

 

I’M GOING TOWARDS YELLOW

1882. day
25th February 2010

the moment I started to go I was filled with joy from big boots

 

I’m going to see the yellow colour that I saw by chance yesterday

 

is it somebody’s art work or was the railroad house painted in it just like that

 

I’m going to see that yellow since it seemed to me

as the most important thing that can be done today in this world

 

most important since it is unimportant

 

unimportance is important because it’s not corrupted

 

everything that is important is invalid because it’s corrupted

 

science will be celebrated only when it starts being engaged in the unimportant

 

towards yellow

 

maybe it is some important art work but I don’t know that

 

for me that yellow is a great art work

 

whenever something is expensive it is corrupted and

therefore it can’t be a great art work no matter how much

the corrupted ones have been declaring it as such

 

I’m taking one metre long steps in order that none of my

thoughts would be judgement or condemnation but free thought

 

when I say that there is much more music in yellow of

the railroad house than in the city philharmonics I didn’t say anything

bad about the philharmonics but I said good about the yellow

 

when I say that everything important is corrupted and unimportant

uncorrupted I’m not accusing important but celebrate unimportant

 

I create eternal art for all beings and that means also

for philharmonics and science and corrupted beings

 

11:10am

two more kilometres to the yellow

 

yellow is only half way up. the upper half is some gray-white colour

 

yellow is spattered from the cars that are passing by

and that’s how it’s even more beautiful that yellow

 

I forgot about everything and I just walked – that was in glory of yellow

 

Bud of All Beings is the struggle of all beings for all beings

 

I believe that human beings as well are living for

all beings and that’s why I believe that human beings have

the need to free themselves from human restraints and society

 

Bud of All Beings is setting free human beings from human

society that enslaves them so as they would enslave other beings

 

freedom is love for all beings and not only for some beings

 

love for all beings is not destroying but just kisses all beings

 

I’m on Sava. spring waters are carrying everything in front of it

 

I’m going to see the yellow and tomorrow I will come to see

this grass mixed with moss

 

river say to everybody that I’m going to see the yellow colour on the railroad house

I said quietly to river Sava

 

I lifted up three little stones the size of a thumb

nail. richness – from today I will be gathering stones

 

I’m heading to see the yellow and I’m immensely enjoying this rain by the river

 

here it is – here I am. yellow is yellowing and confirming itself

even in this greyness of the rain

6.96 km to the yellow. I made 36 photos of the yellow

 

in the end one man approached me and drove me away because I’m not

allowed to take photos of yellow. I told him thank you and he told me

thank you is worth nothing

 

cactus – happiness of all beings

I said to cactus when I got into the Nest

 

 

THE SUN IS SHINING – I’M FILLED WITH MOSS

1883. day
26th February 2010

today I’ll go to see the grass mixed with moss

 

it’s on the docks

 

grown around some metal bar

 

I haven’t even drank one sip of coffee and I’m already thinking of the grass and moss

 

walking towards the sun

 

it’s bitter. strong and gentle. first sip. of nescafe

 

I’m finishing the drawing of the Solemn Sunday Lunch of All Beings

 

sun is shining

 

while I was drawing little circles on the drawing I was thinking with excitement

about the sentence sun is shining

 

it’s raining. wind is blowing. it’s snowing. sun is shining

 

what is shining and how the sun shines

 

sun is shining

 

wow how sun is shining is nicely said sentence

 

I’m watching the day through the window

 

it shines

 

light is still young and it smells of morning

 

sun is shining hey

 

life shines

 

God shines

 

I shines

I shines in the word sh-I-nes

 

shines the word shines

 

by shining of the sun every word shines

 

shining sowing

(in Serbian very similar: “sijanje” “sejanje”)

 

ing – God’s light

 

light is the body of all beings

 

light is the food and love of all beings

 

light is home – homeland of all beings

 

light – road that I will take to the grass and moss

 

they are cutting the plane trees

 

when a feeling of pleasure permeates me

that’s some good being somewhere caresses all beings

 

here are first snowdrops on the street. a lot of hearts

trembles when first snowdrops appear in town

 

may God give you to always have and always give

an old woman told me in Svetogorska street

 

I’m caressing grass and moss

 

 

WITH HEART

1884. day
27th February 2010

if there was no God I wouldn’t be a poet

 

fawn

 

doe

 

countless sexes of the one and only love

 

countless loves of the one and only sex

 

everything lives just from Your love

 

your

breath

my

breath

one

breath

 

I am a body of all metaphors

 

who dares doesn’t judge

 

melancholy of birth giving gives birth to the eternal melancholy

 

joy of the creation creates the eternal joy

 

nonviolence is the one and only love

 

I’m outside – I sing through God – air

 

I am peace of all beings in my heart

 

it’s raining – sun is not shining – sun is shining

 

the best one is fighting on the side of the winners just until they win

 

the best ones are on the side of the winners after the win

 

the best one liberates people from tyranny and criminal of the best ones

dedicated to Vladimir Macura

 

cut plane trees – horrible sight – apocalypse

 

everyone who feels every moment that many beings

are experiencing apocalypse will save all beings from apocalypse

 

little sister – joyful tears

 

the best one is admiring the best one

for best ones it goes without saying that others admire them

 

only the lone one kisses everything

 

if couple don’t transform into one they kiss just halves

 

through thinking everything – everything is and sings

through thinking everything – everything thinks and kisses me

through thinking everything – I’m kissing the thought that thinks everything

 

this is the blessing in which like in every poem one can take out word by word

until you come to your word from which you will live with all beings

always and forever

 

love love love I cheer You

I spoke out while I was drawing Good Walker

 

I’m going back through the Boulevard. again deterrent sounds of a saw and

horrible sights of massacre

 

in my heart I’m sawing the seed of all beings

in my mind I’m sawing the seed of not yet created beings

 

only

from

nothing

everything

 

by

the

same

poem

first

time

 

by

the

same

poem

again

 

by

the

same

poem

god

 

if I wasn’t a poet I wouldn’t have been God

 

 

I’M KISSING YOU SUNDAY’S LONELINESS – COSMIC LONELINESS

1886. day
1st March 2010

I’M KISSING YOU SUNDAY’S LONELINESS – COSMIC LONELINESS

 

definitely – let’s definitely

 

I definitely need a bit louder speakers I thought yesterday

 

I would definitely like to draw on the screen

 

I would definitely like you to come over

 

pornography is definitely body of platonic love

 

sex is definitely homeland of eternity

 

body definitely feeds the soul

 

soul definitely feeds the spirit

 

spirit is definitely God of small things

 

it’s definitely nice walking on grass

 

it’s definitely nice to hear the voice that is calling me

 

statistic is definitely a gentile friend

 

on a big woman’s forehead is definitely laying the foundation of the future church

 

through the beauty of Goddess God has definitely been creating snow

 

Solemn Sunday Lunch of All Beings is definitely

most tasty lunch from time immemorial to eradicating of hunger of all beings

 

Milica is definitely a girl that gives birth to all beings

 

joy is definitely noble

 

I-go is definitely an I-dea

 

the fact that there is nobody around is definitely Your presence and Your glory

 

Bud of the New Money is definitely an answer

 

scarf is definitely caressing a neck and not strangling it

to the dancers

 

singing is definitely unstoppable and dancing regenerating

 

Your breasts are definitely my lungs

 

Your cock is definitely my tranquillity

 

Your pussy is definitely my creation

 

gratitude is definitely most intense fucking

 

self censorship is definitely most morbid death

 

my heart is definitely grafted to Yours

 

bees are definitely flying through the Universe

 

science serving war goals is definitely ending

 

state serving violence is definitely ending

 

giving birth as means of extending the kind is definitely ending

 

definitely only God is telling me Miroslav dance and sing

 

IMMORTAL LIFE IS PRECONDITION OF THE LIFE OF ALL BEINGS

1887. day
2nd March 2010

IMMORTAL LIFE IS PRECONDITION OF THE LIFE OF ALL BEINGS

 

I can no longer live if I don’t die with butchered plane trees

 

I can no longer live if I don’t die every second

with all killed beings anywhere in the Universe

 

I can no longer live if I don’t die every day with beings that are dying

 

I can no longer love if I’m not compassionate with unloved ones

 

I can no longer give birth if every second I don’t scream

through screaming of a newborn ones

 

I can no longer create if I don’t identify

with the ones for whom creating has been forbidden

 

it’s really nice how much I know you. I don’t know when exactly it happened

that I have learned you. but I know a lot about you and it feels really pleasant. there

is certainly a lot I don’t know about you but you are one of the people I know the

most of. you are actually the only one. I know more about you and your history

than about any other man

Branka Zgonjanin wrote me while we were chatting

 

I would love if you’d known everything about me. I would love that everybody knew

everything about me

I answered Branka

 

one is open

 

only the one is open

 

open is immortal

 

freedom is open

 

fears are in secrets

 

the weapon that is used for ruling others reigns within the secrets

 

openness is the nest of all beings

 

woman in Zaplanjska street is sitting on the steps in front

of the shop. she is smoking a cigarette. cleaning the knees of her pants and cries

 

you are like ones you are with – I am with all beings

 

I cooked the beetroot

 

I am a constant petition through which

the beauty of every being and goodness of all beings is supported

 

Miroslav Mandic is handwriting of all beings

 

when I write Miroslav Mandic I wrote Your name

 

when anybody writes their name they wrote Miroslav Mandic

 

thunders are guarding tender beings

 

all beings are tender

 

all beings are guarding thunders

 

I will give You my scarf

 

I caress Your toe nails

 

I caress all beings within You

 

You who kiss life I caress Your brave decision that You have just come to

 

I caress Your tenderness that You need to carry out Your decision

 

I constantly think of You

 

You are my thought

 

I am Your path-life-love

 

MIROSLAVEY (from “odyssey”)

1888. day
3rd March 2010

when I get money I will buy 129600 millimetres of white wool. for every

blessing one millimetre. I will wind in a ball all blessings written until then

 

then I will wind every week 198 millimetres

of white wool – 198 blessings written that week

 

white ball of wool

 

bud of love

 

that white ball of wool is this book

 

a ball

 

writing through balling – balling through writing

 

a ball is circling by stillness

 

Miroslavness

 

Miroslavey of creating

 

Odyssey of Odysseus

 

Miroslavey of Miroslav

 

there are no halves. there are no compass points

 

therE arE no boundariEs of time but just the energy of love

 

only one I of every I

 

everything is in one

 

white geese are taking off from the water

 

soul is flying

 

fire is creating

 

air is kissing

 

water is transforming

 

earth exists

 

down is up – up is down

 

there is here – here is there

 

soft is hard – hard is soft

 

white is white – white is white

 

Miroslavics of all beings

 

Miroslavics of wedding of all beings with all beings

 

Miroslavey of humbleness and tameness

 

Miroslavey of loyalty and simplicity

 

Miroslavey of God

 

Miroslavey of creating is creating of Miroslav Mandic and singing of Miroslav Mandic

 

geese are flying

 

 

BUSINESS MORNING

1889. day
4th March 2010

I’m running the water

 

all beings sing within me

 

Buds are asking me when will Ana come to draw us again

I sent e-mail yesterday to Ana Djordjevic-Petrovic

 

well that’s true, a Garden sometimes needs a female hand. tell them I’m

coming soon... I think it will be Tuesday 9th March around 11:30 but

I must confirm that... because my grandma has a birthday that day

and I’m not sure if she will live till then... let it then be as it must be

Ana answered me

 

I hope I will soon start drawing 33 Pictures of Eternal Life

 

God is creating within me

 

when I’m happy I’m always also happy for all beings

 

this is unbearably good-beautiful idea for You

 

read me better than I am writing

 

I am writing better than anybody can read me

 

why didn’t I approach her

 

marry me – I am married to You

 

I kiss You loyally but get out of my sight if You don’t feel why I resent you

 

I admire Rousseau for leaving his five kids in a children’s home

 

I admire Teresa Levasseur Rousseau’s wife for enduring Rousseau’s decisions

 

this that flickers flickers in glory of flickering

 

Van Gogh’s paintings are just a hint of Van Gogh Christ

 

thus how and where from has come thus

 

only a nostalgia for this moment is live nostalgia

 

the fact that sometimes I don’t want to say anything

says more than if I have said anything

 

every blade of grass

 

any sparrow

 

what a cows

 

tree in mud is not rotting

 

sun’s ember – heart of the planet Earth

 

when I’m happy I’m always happy for Fernando Pessoa as well

 

just look at this beauty of a sentence

 

smell of cows

 

why didn’t you approach me

 

I love less and less football but I love more and more football ball

 

word

underneath

a

word

is

a

poem

 

word next to a word is a story

 

word in a circle is a poem and fairytale of the Bud of All Beings

in the book these words should be arranged in a circle

 

 

I LOVE

1890. day
5th March 2010

I am http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carmen_Herrera

 

I am http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Howard_Zinn

 

I am is love that identifies

 

I am snow

 

I love to draw fine lines with ink and pen

 

I love to write words on top of the words

 

I love not yet existing law by which the acquired wealth

during the life can’t be inherited but just transferred to all beings

 

everyone that ever existed is now me

 

everything that ever existed is now me

 

all water

 

all stones

 

all light

 

a friend tells me that she got all money from the state budget for the film

I don’t know how to make films but I know how to ask for and get the money for them

I made this up

 

I put hand cream on my feet as well as calf length boots and here I am on the snow

 

when I was sixteen I wrote first poem about black and white snow

 

first poem I saved is when I was twenty and it’s called Nevenka

 

first two-three hundred poems I burnt in a trash can when I was twenty one

 

I bought an elastic band for a green jogging suit that I found on the street

three-four months ago

 

I am a theory of theory – You are theory of theory

 

I create theories – You are a practical theory

 

I love the same in each letter – You love differences in each letter

I love Woody Guthrie You Bob Dylan

 

important is thought through well only if it is thought a little bit and short

 

an un important is not thought through but one rather exists

 

for all of that what is not important and is not unimportant all thoughts

are being and are spent

 

I love to think like a child

 

I love to think like a rock that ibex/Alpine mountain goats are climbing over

 

I also love to think like today’s wind over the river

 

everyone who endangers the weaker is already dead

 

state is already dead

 

institutions are already dead

 

big corporations are already dead

 

who at least once has experienced one will always love and be one

 

I love when world is beautiful like eyes of this woman who looked at me

as she was passing by

 

 

THREE DAYS IN PRISON

1891. day
6th March 2010

oh joy

 

oh-joy

 

joy work joy

 

You’ll be breath taken from beauty and love of

Miroslav Mandic when You open up to him

 

I live whole my life in order to write this in this exact way

 

sun is shining it’s really cold

 

Miroslav Mandic – first poet of all beings

 

Miroslav Mandic – first artist of all beings

 

Miroslav Mandic – first walker of all beings

 

Miroslav Mandic – first fight in which nobody

fights against anybody but everybody fights for everybody

 

who believes me believes themselves

 

rejoice me – believe me

 

touch – it’s touching

 

I

opened

up

to

you

and

you

are

immortal

 

wind is blowing like crazy and it’s pretty cold – a man said to somebody

over the phone

 

I am a juicy peach of language

 

Nietzsche constantly Nietzsche – Nietzsche constantly sprouts

(Serbian “sprout” is written and pronounced the same as name Nietzsche)

 

the more objective it is the more false it is – the more public the more secretive it is

 

Nikolai Fyodorov

 

when I got into the Nest I took out the money and I saw

that this week I have saved 300 dinars. but I also noticed that

I have lost the batteries for my dictaphone that cost 600 dinars

 

my heart is full because after a long time I saw my beggar

Ruzica and her seven year old daughter Sanja. they were happy

to see me. that makes me happy and proud although Ruzica said

she has been in prison for three days because of beggary

 

this man and his civilization with these kind of

laws are dead because he locks up god’s creatures

 

I love You Sanja – I love You Ruzica

 

once more

 

I love You even more Sanja – I love You even more Ruzica

 

art of pillow case

I give this idea to Jelena Besir as a present

 

 

I miss reeds

 

I’m hungry. I’m tired. I’m sleepy

 

news of the day is that the day is the news

 

only news of every day is actually that the day is the only news

 

last night in Kalenic café I met seventy year old beautiful

woman who is coming into the Kalenic café for 33 years

dedicated to the art of 33

 

we are the heart of all beings

 

BEAUTY OF YOUR SHIT

1893. day
8th March 2010

four in the afternoon

 

yesterday I had a thought that I can hardly wait to wake up and write You

 

I got up at half seven but there was no water

 

Jelena Besir didn’t call to tell me if she is coming to

take photos of 64 Buds are Singing to the Bud of All Beings

 

the telephone rang and Violeta asked me is your mobile phone not working

 

I realised that I didn’t take it out of my jacket yesterday and I didn’t hear it ringing

 

Violeta asked me to ask Ivana to check the blessings in Serbian

since today and tomorrow as well as maybe for the rest of the week

she won’t have the access to the internet

 

on the mobile phone I saw that Jelena has already left

and that she phoned me several times

 

I called Jelena to tell her to stop by somewhere to the toilet since

mine was full of the material that didn’t go for the lack of water

 

Jelena bought water so we made coffee

 

I drew all 64 Buds and Jelena took photos of them

 

I drew Blue Rose and Jelena recorded Blue Film

 

I gave to Jelena a little stone from the Saturday

photo and the idea that is called The Art of the Pillow Case

 

I walked with Jelena to Branko’s bridge. we met

Ana and saw a group of women who were protesting on the

occasion of 8th of March guarded by a large group of policemen

 

on my way back I walked on my own so as to walk through the coldness

 

I didn’t write anything I just walked and protecting my nose and mouth from cold air

 

I bought the batteries for dictaphone

 

I bought portfolio and hundred cases for the Blue Roses

 

I bought tartar sauce

 

when I got to the Nest I got last year’s bill for utilities

for April last year that I paid already and that put me

down and confirmed that state institutions are criminal

 

I washed my hands and face with half a glass of water

 

in water that Jelena bought me I cooked leek carrot and a bit of cabbage

 

I’m withholding myself from being afflicted by the

fucking carelessness and greed of people serving the state

 

water will come soon and will take away the material

 

I say material and not shit just to make a joke to the delight of humour

 

not to be disgusted by shit is very important

 

to feel the goodness of shit is even more important

 

to see the beauty of the shit of others is the art of the beauty itself

 

scientists are trying for centuries to find the theory of everything

 

the problem is that the theory of everything can’t be found if it isn’t for everything

 

wherever everything is there the formulae for everything abides

 

only the one that is everything if the theory of everything

 

lunch is waiting for You

 

FOR NEW CLEAN BEGINNING

1894. day
9th March 2010

when I heard yesterday a respectable man saying that is what Einstein

said… I immediately thought out another Einstein’s sentence what Einstein has said

is one more thing that is being said for that I have said it and I haven’t said it

 

science is a question – I am questioned

 

I am questioned about everything – everything depends on me

 

religion is an answer – I am responsible for a response

 

twenty or so people holding packages are waiting in front of

the gate of the District Jail to visit their loved ones

 

I am happy because I’ve been in jail

 

I am happy for seeing this tree

 

I am watching it for all locked up people

 

what are you doing – a woman that came out of the yard asked me

I find this tree beautiful so I’m taking a picture of it – I answered her

it could build a house. we thought of cutting it down but let it stay – she said

 

a man is washing his hands in a little bit of snow that is left on the car

 

it is good to learn about beauty from the beauty of the stones

 

this is not a lot but it is everything

 

minimal needs are making maximal love

 

maximal needs give birth to nothingness

 

I am on Miroslav Mandic – most remote star in the Universe

 

the most remote star is now and here

 

now within now

 

here within here

 

I within I

 

love within love

 

I within love – love within I

 

I within heart of goodness

 

I within heart of beauty

 

I within heart of new and clean beginning

 

begin me

 

Miroslav Mandic is Everybody’s Mother

 

this is not a lot but it is even a bit more than everything

 

now of the lips

 

here of the agreement

 

I of cranberry

 

I just remembered that I have forgotten something

but I still can’t remember what that is

 

little stones

 

lie is betrayed regret

(in Serbian “regret” is anagram of “lie”: “laž” “žal”)

 

 

ONLY THE LIFE OF ALL BEINGS WITHIN ME CONSTITUTES MY LIFE

1895. day
10th March 2010

 did you read Hey Little Man – by Wilhelm Reich

did you read School of Atheism – by Aleksandar Tisma

that is what I couldn’t remember yesterday and I did remember tonight

 

snow dust is snowing

 

green football pitch is white again

 

time plays are not stopping and are constantly changing

 

are we gonna walk Miroslav – I say to myself

 

we are walking and hanging around with all beings – I keep on encouraging myself

 

all beings are in every heart

 

only the life of all beings within me constitutes my life

amen

 

all beings are snowing

 

white wool of alllife is winding

 

because the roots of the trees are interfering with waste pipes water pipes

electrical and telephone wires in the ground man has thought out to plant the

trees in enclosed space. some kind of big pots but actually cages

 

soil belongs first to trees and only then to man

 

man has stolen the soil from the trees

 

man doesn’t understand that in that way he himself is in the cage of his own idiotism

 

to be a man is something most disgusting that can happen to a being

 

only among all beings there is a hope for the most disgusting ones

 

they are rejoicing – snowing more and more – all beings

 

I hug unimportance for You – I kiss You in unimportance

I sent an e-mail to Branka Zgonjanin

 

if you didn’t get going just to tell you that strong wind

is blowing. take double scarf. dress well. I kiss you

Jelena Besir sent me an sms

 

kisses are taking care of kisses

 

I am outside. it’s not cold. but when it starts blowing...

 

man like any other being is not disgusting but what man is

doing to other beings is disgusting and that makes him disgusting

man will free himself from the man

 

I think of the beauty of Arabic writing

 

all symbols are live love

 

cross is love

swastika is love

circle is love

wheel is love

crescent moon is love

pentagram is love

hexagon is love

...

 

mind in heart. heart in goodness of pussy and cock that are creating beauty of love

 

I let one old woman pass on a snowy path and she smiled at me

I felt how her heart warmed up. in her smile all beings are enjoying now

 

I wink at lambs

 

I wink at man so as he wouldn’t butcher the lambs

 

millions of years are behind me. millions of years are in front

of me and just one and only now within which all millions are

 

all beings have lived until now so as I would write this blessing

 

while this wind by the river is blowing through me I think that

all I do is nothing else but just music of hope for all beings

 

music of budding

 

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