Testament

    You
    are

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    bud

    THIS TO YOU

    I’m singing the testament

    to

    God

    You

    All Beings

     

     

     

    1

     

    after the heart surgery in May 2013 several times I felt some problems. in

    August I realised that my biggest problem was that there is nobody whom I could

    leave my work to and say my last wish. that’s when I decided to write the testament

     

    the testament which is going to

    help me find You or help You discover me

     

    You

     

    who I will hand over my body to and who will scatter my ashes to All Beings

    who I will hand over my work to which I call the Bud

    and who will hand over the Bud to All Beings

    and

    You with whom before I die I will finish the Bud

     

    the testament This to You is a continuation of A Legacy to Sun Mandic

     

    Sun

    I am God

    sings I

    sings God

    sings poem

    my soul sings to You Sun

    that is my legacy to You my dear Sun

    all my works are my children

    they belong to God and all beings

    my work will be taken care of the best by those who

    will be dedicate to it with God’s heart

    my work is not a subject nor it belongs

    to the existing human customs and laws

    especially not blood related

    I’m writing to You with joy because I know that You understand this and agree with me

    when I die my Sun I would like You to feel joy

    as well You as everyone I knew

    because I live work and create in glory of all beings

    I’m immortal

    mortality confirms my immortality

    one life

    one joy

    one love

    in Lyon – Belgrade 21st December 2009

     

     

    2

     

    I would like to leave this world with a smile

     

    if by that moment You are not around then I’m asking You

    that my organs are donated to who needs them

    that my body is cremated

    and sent off as modest as possible

    without church or any other rituals or speeches

    only with joy and God’s glory

     

    that my ashes are scattered

    from the Titel Hill where I have walked around the planet Earth

    and started walking the Universe

    in the Danube from the railway bridge in Novi Sad

    in the Sava from Branko’s Bridge

     

     

    3

     

    I

    Miroslav Mandic

    address  IN YOUR HEART

    nationality  LIFE OF ALL BEINGS

    state  UNIVERSE

    marital status  HUSBAND TO ALL BEINGS

    children  ALL YOUNGLINGS

    religion  GOD

    membership  ALONE FOR ALL

    attribute  GOD’S CHILD

    profession  POET ARTIST WALKER

     

    born from the blood of Katica Oprin and Milomir Mandic

    Miroslav Mandic who has transformed into Miroslav Mandic

    Miroslav Mandic First Poet

    Miroslav Mandic One And Only Artist

    Miroslav Mandic Greatest Walker

    Miroslav Mandic Of All Beings

    Miroslav Mandic I

    Miroslav Mandic God

    Your Miroslav Mandic

    at

    this 

    moment

    I’m leaving

    the Bud

    to You

     

    if I didn’t name it the Bud I would have called it a

    pebble

    roe

    baby

    chip

    bit

    Lordy

     

    Bud

    poem

    work

    walking

     

    Bud

    God

    You

    All Beings

     

    Bud

    material

    immaterial

    spiritual

    one

     

    Bud

    independence from the existing system

    the system of one and only system

    constant creation

    transformation

    renovation

     

    Bud

    is supporting You to be

    the first

    the one and only

    the best

     

    Bud

    is encouraging You to help

    the first one

    the one and only

    the best one

     

     

    4

     

    BUD – MATERIAL WORK

     

    1969-1979

    works with the group Code – ideas and concepts

    Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother – a sentence

    One Man – photographs

    Red Notebook – notebook

    Poem About Film – text

    texts for nothing – texts

    Leaves – Tree of Live – drawings

    Absolute Drawing – drawings

     

    1979-1989

    I am the Asphalt and the Grass – text

    Poems on Poems – work with poems

    I Drew Three Lines Never Drown Before – tree lines

    A Line Every Day – drawings

    12 Mountains – pictures

    12 Trees – pictures

    I Am You Are Him – a book

    Dripping – performance and paintings

    A Trip to America – performance

    Commending-Lectures – commending-lectures

    Warsaw – a book

    First Walking for Poetry – walking

    12 Rewritten Novels – pictures

    My Name is Miroslav Mandic – poems

    Music Stack – performance

    No, I Don’t Believe This Sentence Cannot Be Heard – a book

    Subotica’s Poem – performance

    Second Walking for Poetry – walking

    A Man Who is Writing – performance and texts

    Third Walking for Poetry – walking

    Letter to Friends – a letter

    Public Toilet Cleaning in Banjaluka – performance

    diaries

     

    1989-1999

    Punishment and Freedom – video

    Fourth Walking for Poetry – walking

    Kaja – a book

    Rose of Wandering – ten year project

    Rose of Wandering – ten year walking

    Rose of Wandering 1-10 – ten year book

    Grass – ten year picture

    All Villages – a book

    A Moment – photographs

    36 Days in Portugal – Three Bridges – a concept

     

    1999-2009

    Gerda, Thank You for Your Tenderness – a work on new money

    Blue Roses – a picture of the blue rose in the Universe

    I Name – a book

    Cosmic Rose Garden – drawings

    Miroslav Mandic – reflecting upon myself

    Monastery of Time – one year performance

    Blue Web – a website

    Consider the Lilies of the Field – commending-lectures

    Poem About Eternal Art – theory

    Meetings with My Own Beauty – sculpture

    Miroslav Mandic – a book

    Blue Roses – third ten year picture

    Blue Film – ten year film

    Crumpled Because of Love – a work

    On the Bridge at Dusk – three year performance

    miroslavmandic.name – a website

    Solemn Sunday Lunches – video

    Autobiography – short autobiography for the website miroslavmandic.name

    Bud – my complete work

     

    2009-

    Bud of Walking – first time second ten year walking

    Second First Step – a step

    Good Walker – drawings

    The Face of Walking – photographs

    Bud of a Day – photographs

    64 Buds are Singing to the Bud of All Beings – drawings

    Numbers – drawings

    86400 – two pictures

    miroslavmandic.name – new website

    I am You are I am God – a book

    God By God To God God – a book

    I am God – poems

    Coffees of Courage – a work on new money

    tattoos

     

    I have saved everything

    this list also contains hundred or so little works

    all my works are one work

    my work is confirming that there is only

    one work

    one love

    one poem

    all my works should stay together forever

     

    idea

    concept

    sentence

    photograph

    text

    picture

    performance

    work

    book

    commending-lecture

    walking

    letter

    diary

    video

    project

    money

    reflecting upon myself

    website

    theory

    sculpture

    film

    piece

    tattoo

    autobiography

    are

    the

    same

     

    neighing of a horse in the landscape

    theory of everything

    God’s smile

    constantly amending and carrying on this list

     

     

    5

     

    BUD – IMMATERIAL WORK

     

    1964-1969

    breakaway from male society and army – decision

    breakaway from social status – decision

    effort in taste – process

    decision for art – decision

    art has flown into me – experience

     

    1969-1979

    radiance by art – discovery

    systems – work

    sensibility – sophistication

    idea – idea

    invisible – revelation

    tautology – theory

    rebellions through art – undertakings

    rebellions within art – transformations

    proclamation – poetics

    self-proclamation – poem

    discovery of I – revelation

    I of the art – sophistication

    I within the art – sophistication

    breakaway from art – sacrifice

    fallouts – sacrifice

    I headed after my genius – obedience

    Great Work of Art from Nothing – vision

    Miraculous Work – vision

    Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother – revelation

    now – sophistication

    face – undertaking

    buds – lecture

    poetry in everything – sophistication

    renditions – punishment

    withstandings – punishment

    Lifted Hand in Prison – sophistication

    decisions I made in prison – decision

    vegetarianism – solidarity

    non-violence – transformation

    not getting a job – decision

    shortening the step – decision

    being quiet – decision

    not talking in language of educated people – decision

    not possessing – decision

    giving books away – decision

    homelessness – decision

    poverty – decision

    modesty – decision

    being patient – decision

    not attending cultural manifestations – decision

    being disobedient towards police and secret societies – decision

    being on the side of the rejected and being compassionate towards them – decision

    not watching myself in the mirror – decision

    Sky – revelation

    work on decisions – persistence

    jail decisions have become a work – transformation

    admirations – sophistication

    trees – sophistication

    desert years – persistence

    yearning for creation – sacrifice

    unrecorded films – sacrifice

    relinquishments – sacrifice

    rooting out – sophistication

    suggestive talk – enthusiasm

    mystical talk – enthusiasm

    conscience – appeasement

    consciousness – appeasement

    vows – vow

     

    1979-1989

    art again – revelation

    work with Zelimir Zilnik – experience

    decision about walking – being

    path – sameness

    not giving biological birth – giving spiritual birth – decision

    carefulness – experience

    loneliness – experience

    tenderness – sophistication

    unprotectedness – sophistication

    not-knowing – cognition

    goodness – sameness

    personality – poem

    beauty – sameness

    unimportant – sophistication

    rhythm – experience

    slowness – experience

    non-human – cognition

    courage – obedience

    renunciation of tenancy rights – decision

     

    1989-1999

    no offspring

    no property

    no health insurance

    no work experience

    no bank account

    no advocates

    no membership

    no awards

    no public

    no police

    no army

    no market

    no funds

    no reviews

    no critics

    no gallerist

    no publisher

    no mainstream

    no weapons

    no tools

    no salary

    no secrets

    no lies

     

    poet

    artist

    fool

    wanderer

    monk

    philosopher

    beggar

    gardener

    walker

    lover

    mystic

    miner

    shepherd

    hero

    dancer

    musician

    mathematician

    rebel

    pacifist-activist

    anarchist-economist

    runaway child-good child-boy child

     

    rose – sameness

    wandering – sameness

    circling – sameness

    Monuments to Anonymous Forces of Love – monuments

    you – experience

    myth – experience

    fairy-tale – experience

    performances during the Rose of Wandering – sophistications

    breakaway from the public – decision

    rejections – decision

    One Man is More Than All People Together – revelation

    100 Steps – revelation

    God – God

     

    1999-2009

    failures and the list of failures – loneliness

    Fifth Art – loneliness

    tears – loneliness

    The Most Beautiful Thing in This World is Being With Miroslav Mandic – experience

    I wasn’t working for family – every man works for family – solidarity

    I wasn’t working for nation – every other man works for nation – solidarity

    I wasn’t working for the police – every third man works for the police – solidarity

    I wasn’t a member of any organization society or

    party – every fourth man is a member of something – solidarity

    I am proud I never had a house and family – solidarity

    identity card – sameness

    I of the public – work

    I of the market – work

    Miroslav Mandic – love

    Virgin Kaja-Virgin Mary – love

    just born God’s child – love

    God-life-art – one

    names of other people – companionships

    making names – performances

    All Beings – revelation

    Bud of All Beings – non-material creation

    poem – love

    circle – love

    bud – love

    Eternal Art – one

    love-kissing the passers-by and celebration of their faces – experience

    Miroslav Mandic is Everybody’s Mother – revelation

    I want the greatest success – success after the success of each and All Beings – revelation

     

    You and I

    SameShe and SameHe

    Everything and Everyone

    You-I and I-You

    Whirlwind and Whirlpool

    Rose and Path

    ShamedShe and ShameHe

    I’ll-Go and I’m-Gone

    Good and Beautiful

    Life and Thought

    Pussy and Cock

    Eternal-He and Eternal-She

    Please and Thank-You

    Hey-Ho and Let’s-Go

    Heroine and Hero

    Clitoris and Glans

    Tramp and Wanderer

    Nearness and Farness

    Music and Mystic

    Strong and Tender

    Being and Fucking

    Freckled-She and Runaway-He

    Tranquillity and Appeasement

    Poet and Artist

    Mote-She and Moment-He

    Doing and Being

    Dancing and Singing

    Innocence and Loyalty

    Thoughtfulness and Care

    To Love and To Be Loved

    Shamed-She and Frostbitten-He

    Creation and Singing

    Kiss and Bud

    Serving and Kissing

    Patience and Endurance

    No-Beginning and No-End

    Innocent-Hearing and Golden-Spoken

    Considering and Acting

    Approval and Concurrence

    Snuggling and Nuzzling

    Runaway Child and Good Child

    Insouciance and Unreasonableness

    Same-Thinking and Same-Fucking

     

    first poet – experience

    one and only artist – experience

    the best walker – experience

    the oldest human being – experience

    Goddess – experience

     

    2009-

    The Bud is Miroslav Mandic Dancing-Walking Singing Creating Every Moment

    Everywhere and to Everything Love Eternal Art in the Poem of All Beings – principle

    86400 Moments of Art in Each Day – poetics

    Bud of All Beings – revelation

    immortality – experience

    Little Brotherhood of Andre Williams – companionships

    The Monument of Love to Etela Merk – a monument

    I-Am-You-Are-Him – process

    I-Am-You-Are-I – process

    I-Am-You-Are-I-Am-Gog – process

    Gigolo’s Rates – passings

    non-teaming – gesture

    grass – I

    poppies – I

    trees – I

    swallows – I

    robin – I

    horse – I

    repetition – I

    first of June – I

    resurrection – I

    anything – I

    I love-kiss You love-kiss You – tattoo

    The Art That Arises on Its Own – poetics

    The Art of Broken Heart – poetics

    The Art of Testament – poetics

    how I was becoming and become God – process

    with the poetics of the other

    with the poetics of living

    with the poetics of nakedness

    with the poetics of I exist

    with the poetics of I

    with the poetics of I am

    with the poetics of ordinariness

    with the poetics of a miracle without a miracle

    with the poetics of a secret without a secret

    with the poetics of notoriety without notoriety

     

    all these works have been creating me

    I love-kiss you I love-kiss you

    changing me

    changed I would do new works

    new works would change me so that changed I would discover sameness in everything

    sameness in all my works

    sameness would lead me to loyalty

    loyalty to innocence

    innocence to love-kissing

    love-kissing to fucking

    fucking to singing

    singing to poem

    poem to You

    You to God

    God to God

     

    I’m contemplating whether my work should be kept and shown at all

    whether what man creates should be kept and preserved. and what should it be

    I would love to be engaged in this especially while I’m alive

     

    many of my works I haven’t marked down

    this list should be constantly amended and continued

     

     

    6

     

    BUD – SPIRITUAL SINGING

     

    Bud is consisted of

    about 69% of spiritual singing

    about 23% nonmaterial creation

    about 8% of material creation

     

    Poem

    spiritual singing and systems which I’m creating and singing

    which are singing and creating me and All Beings

    I always loved to be engaged in them

    they are my solace

    my childhood

    my world

    fairy-tale

    paradise

     

    I’m doing them ever since I can remember

    they are independent from each other

    each confirms the whole

    together they are the very wholeness

    they are not connected to space or time

    they are not defined by genre by style formally or in any other way

    I’m not writing down either moment or place of their occurrence

     

    *

    Miroslav Mandic

    God’s name

    man’s name

    name of all names

     

    *

    I was born in present system

    I was raised in the system of subaudition

    through art I have rebelled against the system

    I got out of the system

    I have lived and created outside of the system

    I have created a lot bigger system

    one and only system

    system of All Beings

    I call it a fairy-tale

    I live fairy-tale

     

    *

    I love-kiss – I am the first poet of All Beings

    I create – I am the one and only artist of the one and only art

    I walk – I am the best walker of the one and only God

     

    *

    everything that only one man can

    my poem

     

    everything that everyone can

    my art

     

    everything that can be done anyways

    my walking

     

    *

    poetics yes

    politics no

     

    *

    by living I have the experience of God

    by walking I am touching God

    by creating I live God

    by singing I am God

     

    *

    Life

    1950-1960

    Transformation

    1960-1970

    Breakaway

    1970-1980

    Art

    1980-1990

    Rose of Wandering

    1990-2000

    Eternal Art

    2000-2010

    Miroslav Mandic

    2010-2020

    Bud

    2020-2030

    God

    2030-2040

     

    *

    I want to be God

    I want You and me to be one

    I want that this poem becomes the poem of All Beings

     

    *

    Miroslav whenever you’re walking you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever you’re swimming you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever you’re listening to music you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever you’re praying you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever you’re stretching out you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever you’re crying you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever you’re fucking you’re doing good

    Miroslav whenever…

     

    *

    1

    miroslav mandic art

    2

    eternal art

    3

    anonymous art

    4

    ingenious art

    5

    talented art

    6

    academic art

    2

    national art

     

    *

    anyone who is for state is fascist

    anyone who is for city is communist

    anyone who is for roads is liberal

     

    mothers are communists

    fathers fascists

    children liberals

     

    root is communism

    trunk is liberalism

    treetop is fascism

     

    *

    joy of being

     

    *

    art of living

     

    *

    godliness of creation

     

    *

    lips of constant love-kissing

     

    *

    mind of constant self-appeasement

     

    *

    slow outflow of day which celebrates God

     

    *

    rebirth in exhaustion

     

    *

    unstoppableness and carefulness

     

    *

    Your Life is More Important to Me than Mine

     

    *

    crumpling because of love

     

    *

    rhythm of sudden change

     

    *

    tautology and analogy

     

    *

    humbleness and touchedness

     

    *

    exhilaration and admiration

     

    *

    rhythm of repetition

     

    *

    duty to love-kiss

     

    *

    belly of coalescence

     

    *

    tenderness of skin

     

    *

    throat of a poem

     

    *

    eros of grannies

     

    *

    planet of enjoyment and enjoyment in the Planet

     

    *

    love for Fyodorov’s common world and regulation of the Universe and its museum

     

    *

    Levinas’s love for the other which is above love for oneself

     

    *

    experience of God’s love

     

    *

    everyone who shares God with others is God

     

    *

    everything and everything can be said only with words

     

    *

    everything I got from God

     

    *

    Kosovac Ljubica

     

    *

    Wittgenstein

    Jean-Luc Godard

    Jeanne Moreau

    Stephane Audran

    Jean Seberg

    Lee Marvin

    Ulrike Meinhof

    Gudrun Ensslin

    Billie Holiday

    Diogenes

    Mani

    Zarathustra

    and all those who I admired and who the book Days of My Life will consist of

     

    *

    brave ones

     

    *

    guarding the other from oneself

     

    *

    moments of waiting the desired person

     

    *

    desired person

     

    *

    impertinence to be humble and humbleness to be impertinent

     

    *

    miracle of rejectedness

     

    *

    pleasure that is the only left goodness of this world

     

    *

    looking at any word is like looking at God’s face

     

    *

    number one with which God can be called any given moment

     

    *

    the institution of the best friend – Slobodan Tisma

     

    *

    the institution of reasonlessly happiest man in the world – Miroslav Mandic

     

    *

    every moment

     

    *

    every inch

     

    *

    every letter

     

    *

    winking

     

    *

    beauty of my handwriting

     

    *

    love through which I was love-kissing

     

    *

    dancing through which I’ve experienced infinity

     

    *

    fucking through which I’ve been celebrating love of every being

     

    *

    greatest quantity of love which ever existed

    which exists and which will ever exist in one being

     

    *

    all words in one word

     

    *

    all colours in all colours

     

    *

    all touches in each touch

     

    *

    all thoughts in every thought

     

    *

    all sacrifices in each sacrifice

     

    *

    all anythings in each anything

     

    *

    alone

     

    *

    alone for everything

     

    *

    I’m leaving everything and everything to everyone

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Poem from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Art from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Walking from Miroslav Mandic

     

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Sex from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Money from Miroslav Mandic

     

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic I from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic You from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Path from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Rose from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Freedom from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Of All Beings from Miroslav Mandic

     

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic The First One from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic One And Only from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic The Best One from Miroslav Mandic

    who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic God from Miroslav Mandic

     

    I’m leaving You Kaja and Milomir

    Kaja’s grave on the New Cemetery in Novi Sad. Milomir’s on the Alasko Cemetery in Novi Sad

     

    wow how much of the unwritten there is

    it excites me to write all that down

    to sing it

    this list should be constantly amended and continued

     

    7

     

    I don’t own anything except for the Bud which I created

    I don’t have any property or money

    whole my life I’ve been living and working from the money my friends were giving me

     

    presently I live and work in the rented apartment in which the Bud is situated

    the Bud is packed in large and small folders

    large folders are on the floor and small ones are placed on three metal shelves

     

    I would love if You

    who are reading these words

    would take the Bud and hand it over to All Beings

     

    no matter that You are not around I live with You every moment

    You are my work. You are my poem

    You are someone who shares same thoughts. You are the sameness

    You are everyone who has helped me in my life

    You are the one who the Bud and all my undertakings belong to

     

    in case I die before we meet

    I beg You to keep the Bud two-three months in the apartment I lived in

    i order to find during that time according to my Testament one of the three solutions

     

    Opening

    Waiting

    Destroying

     

    Opening – affirmation and nurturing of the Bud for God You and All Beings

     

    Waiting – packing of the Bud for ten hundred or thousand years until You appear

     

    Destroying – destroying my work in glory of Miroslav Mandic of the Bud and God

     

    yet

    I want You to know that I loved You all my life

    that I lived that I live and that I will forever live for You

    I want You to know that You are immortal

    I want You to know that I have tried every day to stop the war

    I want You to know that each smile was more powerful than any horror

    that God was more present than anyone or anything

     

    and

    that for me the most important in the Testament is

    that

    Miroslav Mandic

    and

    the Bud

    belong to

    earth

    water

    air

    light

    minerals

    plants

    animals

    spirits of nature

    people

    higher intelligence

    eternal art

    one and only language of All Beings

    All Beings

    You

    God

    non-plundering

    non-teaming

    non-violence

    and

    that

    they

    don’t

    belong to

    blood

    family

    nation

    state

    humankind

    civilisation

    professions

    culture

    laws

    knowledge

    languages

    ravishment

    teaming

    violence

     

     

    8

     

    poem

    is

    god

     

     

    i

    poet

    artist

    walker

    sing

    all

    beings

    you

    universe

    god

     

     

    poem

    is

    the

    only

    law

    i

    trust

    and

    belong

    to

     

     

    poem

    is

    the

    only

    state

     

     

    poem

    is

    the

    only

    nation

     

     

    poem

    is

    the

    only

    family

     

     

    poem

    of

    all-love

    to

    each

    being

     

     

    poem

    of

    freedom

    of

    all

    beings

     

     

    I would love to live and work for a long time to come

    I would love to work joyfully every day

    I would love to work with enthusiasm to my last moment in life

    I would love to be ready to die every day

    help me in all of that

    that is the zero wish of my Testament

     

    creation of my work depends on God and me

    everything else depends on You

     

     

    my

    immortality

    is

    in

    the

    eyes

    of

    Yours

     

     

    in the Cukarica’s Hillside in the Universe on January 19th 2014