Bog Miroslav Mandić Bog

when pain stops grace is spreading

 

last night my stomach was hurting me

a moment ago as well. passed several days as well

 

anyhow

 

I’m going

 

my name is I-Am-Going

 

me I-Am-Going I’m going

 

I’m going and enjoying in street dogs

 

I’m going through the name

 

I’m going and I’m thinking

 

I’m going and I’m writing

 

I’m going just going

 

I’m writing just writing

 

I’m going and I go away

 

whenever I go away I meet I-Go-Away

 

the two of us are one

 

 

one

on

the

road

walking

rose

 

 

we are going and salute a pigeon which is watching us bending his neck

 

I-Am-Going is going – celebrating I-Go-Away

 

I-Go-Away goes away – I-Am-Going waits for him

 

I’m going through the Savska Street towards

the city and I’m enjoying in I-Am-Going and I-Go-Away

 

I find their names beautiful

 

I deeply respect what they are doing

 

I-Am-Going is simply going

 

I-Go-Away simply goes away

 

hey if everybody would be like I-Am-Going and I-Go-Away

 

I-Am-Going I-Go-Away and me are accompanied by the slight rain

 

last and the night before it was raining

 

soothed the thirst just a little bit

 

today is stuffy

 

it’s wonderful when I-Am-Going takes care of I-Go-Away and I-Go-Away of I-Am-Going

 

I’m going I’m going I’m going and in the end I go away

 

I go away and in the end again I’m going I’m going I’m going

 

let’s go You and me like I-Am-Going and I-Go-Away

 

 

 

I’m walking through the woods

 

rain is rustling in the leaves

 

it’s thundering

 

after a thunder air gets colder

 

wind is starting to blow

 

water of the lake is rippling

 

it’s beginning to pour with rain

 

it’s pouring

 

I hid under the eaves and I’m watching

 

freshness in my nostrils

 

it’s pouring heavier and heavier

 

it’s beautiful

 

I’m a bit cold

 

I’m watching one tree and I can’t stop wondering how beautiful it is

 

rain is indescribably beautiful

 

it’s pattering over my eaves

 

I’m enjoying the music of the rain

 

I’m slumbering

 

rain makes You drowsy

 

I curled up in order to warm myself up

 

from time to time a drop or two fall onto my bare skin and make me even colder

 

through the pattering of rain I could daydream for days

 

constantly calling all deceased

 

I moved under a better eaves of a restaurant and lolled into cushions

 

I’m slumbering like a big animal

 

I’m enjoying like in a purple womb of eternity

 

I’m thinking about enjoyment

 

particles are harmonising and enjoying in each other

 

rain is stopping

 

sun is appearing

 

sun is glowing over the sill wet asphalt

 

sun is shining more and more

 

stuffiness is even greater

 

 

 

powerless

 

last night my stomach was hurting a lot

 

I don’t know how to help myself

 

I’ll shave myself

 

I’m going on the road

 

I’m on the road

I’ll be walking and hitchhiking

 

there is Sava down there

 

I’m crying from beauty to be on the road

 

 

the

road

is

traveling

towards

the

rose

 

 

the essence of the road is in the rose

 

the essence of the rose is in the road

 

a woman and two men are traveling on their bikes

 

I’m on the road to Banjani right now

 

somewhere on that road Mirjana will come with her car to meet me

 

I’m on the levee of and old Obrenovac road

 

I love levees a lot

 

they are soft for walking

 

this levee is guarding Serbia from floods

 

I love Vojvodina levees next to which wooden posts are traveling

 

I’m sitting at the computer

 

bathed

 

rosemary is smelling good on the desk

 

I was on the Obrenovac market

I bought Branko’s bread

 

I drank hot chocolate in the city pub in Obrenovac

 

I swam across the Sava two kilometres away from Ostruznica Bridge

 

Sava is tame

 

slow

 

warm

 

on the Vojvodina side I walked a bit upstream and swam back

 

it’s wonderful being in the middle of the river

 

connecting two banks with swimming

 

with body

 

with the tiny one

 

I’m going to Smederevo

 

I’m walking

 

Sathurday in Smederevo

 

being in a day is gratitude and bowing to a day

 

it’s exciting to be on several places in one day like on one place

 

I picked up two warm and big plums in Grocka

 

I’ve never been to Grocka

 

I love to be somewhere where I’ve never been before

 

being anywhere means always being

in the centre which is everywhere and periphery which is nowhere

 

somewhere where I’ve never been reminds me of childhood

 

yards are full of fruit

 

wherever I am I’m here

 

whenever I am here I’m everywhere

 

I’m happy for the fruit

 

I’m walking through Grocka and think through rose

 

I love when thinking opens up with all its rose-like petals

 

 

through

myself

everyone

everything

 

 

there is the Danube as well on the left side of the road

 

I find it beautiful when the whole world is under my hand

 

I am a descendant of wild horses

one and only tame horse the horse that wanders through the universes of hearts of all beings

 

I love the beauty of the road and freedom of

being on the road even though I don’t like to travel

 

I was never in Smederevo but soon I will walk into it

 

I’m entering Smederevo

Danube and shipyard are waiting for me

 

it reminds me of how I used to walk into big European cities

 

there was no shade on the Smederevo

road so I was walking all the time in the hot sun

 

how do my walking shoes feel

 

little yellow bird has flew on the fence and it made my heart flicker

 

I’m in Smederevo

 

I’m walking down the Smederevo jetty

 

several boys and girls are jumping from one raft and having their eternal bathing

 

after Smederevo I was bathing as well in the cold Danube in Jugovo

 

one guy in Sathurday

very tired I’m walking through the Boulevard

 

 

happy

I

love-kiss

you

with

your

happiness

 

 

a waitress in the café Kica in Belegis said yesterday that the water in Danube

was twenty seven degrees up until few days ago and that it is twenty one right now

 

bread is like sun

said one guy from Belegis for bread in Belegis

 

summer swallows were circling above the church tower in Belegis

 

a huge young man appeared as well – a village fool obviously

 

two three young men who looked like stars

of a local football team have passed by as well

 

big black dog was gentlemanly crossing the centre of Belegis

 

we went through the dust to the Belegis beach

 

we went pass the landslide

 

birds were flying in and out of the nests they made in the hard land escarpment

 

swallows were tremulously flying over the Danube water

 

families were crossing over with boats to the Belegis sand river island for bathing

 

the two of us went into the water as well

hung on a tree the bread like sun mayonnaise tomatoes and cardinal grapes were waiting for us

 

we were walking upstream over the land and in the shallow water

 

the more we go upstream the longer we will be in the water

Danube has a strong current and it’s the best to swim downstream

 

she was walking behind me with her flip-flops hung on the swimming suit

 

I was enjoying walking through the shallow water

 

it was like in my youth on the Danube

 

at one moment I slipped over the wet slippery clay

 

we were passing by the willow trees and tied boats

 

Danube was flowing from infinity towards infinity

 

world was indescribably beautiful

that’s how it is always and forever

 

then she screamed

 

I turned around and saw that her hand wad dangling

 

she slipped and fell down

 

the elbow joint of her right arm popped out

 

pain was unbearable

 

nine hour struggle with pain has begun

 

only just before midnight the joint was back in its place

 

elbow was put in the cast

 

heart was calming down without pain

 

now it’s Monday

 

Monday should be celebrated

 

surrendered to the humble joy

 

 

I’m going to the lake but slowly

 

I was eating before the walking

from today I will try to eat five times a day

 

struggle with my misery is constant

 

slowness I love-kiss You

 

white-yellow seared grass only after the rain is beginning to get a bit of green colour

 

I’m snoozing while walking

 

everything is dear

 

it caresses dearly

 

I am a tender touch which caresses all beings in each being

 

I’m inhaling the water and sky to wash me from within

 

I’m still tired from her Sunday pain I was the witness of

 

I’m lying on the warm pebbles

 

wind is in flames

 

leaves are murmuring

 

planes are flying over

 

I really am I-Am

 

I’m spreading my nostrils

 

I’m puffing up my belly

 

exhaling for a long time

 

I nearly fell asleep

 

I’m enjoying like mountains and crocodiles

 

through waves of wind I’m getting in and out of sleep

 

have a rest and refresh through my enjoyment

 

though enjoyment I’m affirming everything that is

 

enjoyment through everything that is it’s a great task

 

being through everything that is it’s a great mission

 

being is experience of heavens

 

life is serving the life

 

 

poem

is

singing

of

poem

 

 

while I was slowly immersing myself in the water I carried on snoozing

 

I’m snoozing even now while walking

 

I’m closing my eyes and enjoying

 

I’m levitating

surrendered I’m identifying myself with the wind