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I AM 3…
I am a third I Am… photo by Miroslav Mandic
I am a third I of the countless I of I Am… love
I am a third day of the I Am… path who leads into the infinity of timelessness
I Am… is the path from I to I Am
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I is only a rose – I am is already a path
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from 1:30pm till 4:45pm I was working on the web with Kaja Ana Ivana and Dragana.
it was wonderful. miroslav mandic 36 layers of blue
or one year of tranquillity on the internet
Diary 2003
in front of Kaja Ana Ivana and Dragana I drew
a little drawing made out of thirty six layers of blue
that little drawing is the foundation of the idea one year of tranquillity on the internet
thirty six layers of blue like thirty six righteous men who are
guarding this world and some of them don’t even know they are doing it
on the 1st January 2004 web page miroslav mandic 36 layers of blue
or one year of tranquillity on the internet was put on the internet for a year
that is the fact all the rest is history
tranquillity is the other name for love
one and only love in the one and only tranquillity
through tranquillity all died loves resurrect
that little drawing after ten years is the I of today’s photo of the I Am… path
not only that everything is intertwined and linked
but everything consists of one another
I’m going to shave myself out of joy
the surgical intervention on the fatty tissue was repeated yesterday
on Monday I’m going to do the ultrasound scan of my heart
next week I will be transcribing first three chapters of the Bible in the Miroslav Mandic
I’m rejoicing that transcribing
experiencing creating the genesis
I’m rejoicing one moment in the genesis which waits for me to do it
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God’s glory
God’s love
God’s poem
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God’s love
God’s poem
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GOOD MORNING SUN
gratitude only gratitude
this morning I was awakened by pain which also made me sweat
gratitude only gratitude
down the Boulevard
slowly
it’s hurting me and I have to stop from time to time
I’m coming back from the medical check-up in Grocka
many thanks to doctor Zagorka Basta who did
last time ECG and this time ultrasound of my heart for free
free-of-charge is healing
ECG is good
heart is healthy
blood count is good
now I have to check-up my stomach
I’m thankful to my hardship
great number of people love to be sick
they love to surrender to sickness and to drag others into the sickness
health is harder than the sickness
freedom is harder than the slavery
love is harder than the hatred
I’m walking for Your health
I’m walking for Your freedom
I’m walking for Your love
pain has eased and my joy is indescribable
soon I’m going to change the dressing on the wound on my back
I would love to close my eyes at least for five minutes
to let go
to bow to the heart
beat my heart for all beings
I just remembered the heart that I made during the Rose of Wandering
it was during the Second Bowing which lasted one hundred and one day
and was dedicated to Ernst Jünger and patriarchs of life
it was the heart which contained blood of all people on the planet Earth
and
this
beginning
is
of the new heart which will pump out and in the blood of all beings
FAIRY-TALE 4
this is how I went through April
I got from
Tibika Varady 21000 dinars
Vera Varady 16660 dinars
Ivana Djokic-Saunderson 12617 dinars
Zoltan Varady 11100 dinars
Art Sombaty 11100 dinars
Mirjana Lukic 10578 dinars
Violeta Jovanovic 2920 dinars
Maja Klisinski 2250 dinars
Sun Mandic 2000 dinars
Petar Miloradovic 1120 dinars
I’ve spent
three flat breads 75 dinars
bread 13 kg 1540 dinars
five bannocks 150 dinars
six pastries 254 dinars
Serbian bun 0,25 kg 43 dinars
six bags of peanut sticks 148 dinars
Coca-Cola 1,1 l 145 dinars
three effervescent mineral tablets 401 dinars
mineral water 16 l 650 dinars
oil 1 l 148 dinars
mustard 0,25 kg 69 dinars
peanuts 0,35 kg 337 dinars
five instant soups 149 dinars
herbal cheese 0,11 kg 50 dinars
soya crème cheese 123 dinars
mayonnaise 3,35 kg 1207 dinars
two soya pates 166 dinars
olive oil 0,5 l 400 dinars
horse-radishes 40 dinars
parsnip 0,28 kg 34 dinars
carrots 0,24 kg 14 dinars
potatoes 0,8 kg 43 dinars
parsley root 0,24 kg 30 dinars
twenty seven lettuces 1445 dinars
lemon 0,45 kg 41 dinars
apples 3,5 kg 212 dinars
bananas 4,47 kg 439 dinars
oranges 3,5 kg 255 dinars
biscuits 3,33 kg 1025 dinars
eleven bags of hot chocolate 346 dinars
sponge 65 dinars
toilet paper 76 dinars
shampoo 438 dinars
two soaps 132 dinars
three toothpastes 290 dinars
vitamin C 76 dinars
ibuprofen 172 dinars
antibiotics 623 dinars
medication Controloc 337 dinars
tea bags 56 dinars
two hawthorn tinctures 418 dinars
st. John’s Worth tincture 237 dinars
Cardiopirin tablets 240 dinars
blood and urine analysis 1760 dinars
fatty tissue removal 15000 dinars
five packages of hawthorn tea 627 dinars
four packages of prostate tea 1629 dinars
three short sleeves shirts 1550 dinars
elastic 60 dinars
folders 220 dinars
sticky tape 165 dinars
three white temperas 180 dinars
bus plus tickets 788 dinars
two tapes for the Blue Film 700 dinars
mobile phone 670 dinars
I got altogether 91345 dinars
I’ve spent 67072 dinars
for rent and living expenses 30575 dinars
for care and hygiene 22176 dinars
for material and work 2783 dinars
for clothing 1550 dinars
for food 10588 dinars
I gave to others 3830 dinars
ouch
this counting got crazy
it made me really tired
fairy-tale is hard
I’m not sure if I’m counting well
sometimes I notice that I didn’t write down something small
that I forgot to write somebody who gave me money
litres kilos pieces numbers check-ups intervention dinars euros
I cannot handle it any more
I’m getting up from the table
I would love to write all twelve fairy-tales till the end of the year
the heroes of April fairy-tale are
Sun Mandic
Art Sombaty
Vera Varady
Tibika Varady
Maja Klisinski
Zoltan Varady
Mirjana Lukic
Violeta Jovanovic
Petar Miloradovic
Ivana Djokic-Saunderson
their money
1120 dinars
200 dinars
2250 dinars
2920 dinars
11100 dinars
11100 dinars
10578 dinars
12617 dinars
16660 dinars
21000 dinars
abstraction which is drunk eaten heeled dressed up…
doctor Zagorka Basta who did two free medical check-ups
twenty seven lettuces
ibuprofen which was easing my pain after two intervention on my back
three second hand short sleeve shirts with pockets
gratitude only gratitude
GOD SPEAKS
I am John Cage
reading of John Cage’s poetry ten years ago in the Monastery of Time at 8 am
today I will rewrite thirty one line from the first chapter
of the Genesis. from my childhood I was experiencing the Bible
but today I’m living it as a God’s book and that’s why I will rewrite it in first person
In the beginning I created the heavens and the earth.
The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of
the deep. And my Spirit was hovering over the face of the waters.
Then I said: Let there be light; and there was light.
And I saw the light, that it was good; and I divided the light from the darkness.
I called the light Day, and the darkness He called Night.
So the evening and the morning were the first day.
Then I said: Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.
Thus I made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under
the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament; and it was so.
And I called the firmament Heaven.
So the evening and the morning were the second day.
Then I said: Let the waters under the heavens be gathered
together into one place, and let the dry land appear; and it was so.
And I called the dry land Earth, and the gathering
together of the waters I called Seas. And I saw that it was good.
Then I said: Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb that yields seed, and the fruit tree that
yields fruit according to its kind, whose seed is in itself, on the earth; and it was so.
And the earth brought forth grass, the herb that yields
seed according to its kind, and the tree that yields fruit, whose
seed is in itself according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.
So the evening and the morning were the third day.
Then I said: Let there be lights in the firmament of the heavens to divide the day
from the night; and let them be for signs and seasons, and for days and years;
and let them be for lights in the firmament
of the heavens to give light on the earth; and it was so.
Then I made two great lights: the greater light to rule the day,
and the lesser light to rule the night. I made the stars also.
I set them in the firmament of the heavens to give light on the earth,
and to rule over the day and over the night, and to
divide the light from the darkness. And I saw that it was good.
So the evening and the morning were the fourth day.
Then I said: Let the waters abound with an abundance of living creatures,
and let birds fly above the earth across the face of the firmament of the heavens.
So I created great sea creatures and every living thing that
moves, with which the waters abounded, according to their kind,
and every winged bird according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.
And I blessed them, saying: Be fruitful and multiply,
and fill the waters in the seas, and let birds multiply on the earth.
So the evening and the morning were the fifth day.
Then I said: Let the earth bring forth the living creature according to its kind: cattle
and creeping thing and beast of the earth, each according to its kind; and it was so.
And I made the beast of the earth according to its kind, cattle according to its kind, and
everything that creeps on the earth according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.
Then I said: Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness;
let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and
over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.
So I created man in my own image;
in my image I created him; male and female I created them.
Then God blessed them, and God said to them: Be fruitful and multiply;
fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over
the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth.
And I said: See, I have given you every herb that yields seed which is on the face
of all the earth, and every tree whose fruit yields seed; to you it shall be for food.
Also, to every beast of the earth, to every bird of the air, and to everything that creeps on the
earth, in which there is life, I have given every green herb for food; and it was so.
Then I saw everything that I had made, and indeed it was very good.
So the evening and the morning were the sixth day.
GOD SPEAKS 2
I love-kiss you Heather Mimi Bebe and Laurie – thank you Nicholas Nixon
the time will come when our silence will be
more powerful than the voices you strangle today
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aim my beauty
aim aim my goodness aim
I’m carrying on with rewriting of goodness through which God created world
I’m carrying on with rewriting of beauty which God created from the bone of goodness
I’m carrying on with rewriting of love which is consisted in rewriting
love which I’m repeating through goodness and beauty
Thus the heavens and the earth, and all the host of them, were finished.
And on the seventh day I ended My work which I had done,
and I rested on the seventh day from all My work which I had done.
Then I blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because
in it I rested from all My work which I had created and made.
This is the history of the heavens and the earth when they were created,
in the day that I made the earth and the heavens,
before any plant of the field was
in the earth and before any herb of the field had grown.
For I had not caused it to rain on the earth, and there was no man to till the ground;
but a mist went up from the earth and watered the whole face of the ground.
And I formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed
into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.
I planted a garden eastward in Eden, and there I put the man whom I had formed.
And out of the ground I made every tree grow
that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. The tree of life was
also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.
Now a river went out of Eden to water the garden,
and from there it parted and became four riverheads.
The name of the first is Pishon; it is the one
which skirts the whole land of Havilah, where there is gold.
And the gold of that land is good. Bdellium and the onyx stone are there.
The name of the second river is Gihon;
it is the one which goes around the whole land of Cush.
The name of the third river is Hiddekel; it is the one
which goes toward the east of Assyria. The fourth river is the Euphrates.
Then I took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to tend and keep it.
And I commanded the man, saying: Of every tree of the garden you may freely eat;
but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil
you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.
And I said: It is not good that man should be alone;
I will make him a helper comparable to him.
Out of the ground I formed every beast of the field
and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he
would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name.
So Adam gave names to all cattle, to the birds of the air, and to every
beast of the field. But for Adam there was not found a helper comparable to him.
And I caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept;
and I took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place.
Then the rib which I had taken from man
I made into a woman, and I brought her to the man.
And Adam said: This is now bone of my bones
And flesh of my flesh;
She shall be called Woman,
Because she was taken out of Man.
Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother
and be joined to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.
And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.
MIROSLAV SAYS
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exactly that
there exactly that
Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field I had made. And he said
to the woman: Has God indeed said, ‘You shall not eat of every tree of the garden’?
And the woman said to the serpent: We may eat the fruit of the trees of the garden;
but of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden,
God has said, ‘You shall not eat it, nor shall you touch it, lest you die.’
Then the serpent said to the woman: You will not surely die.
For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes
will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.
So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food,
that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise,
she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate.
Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they knew that they
were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves coverings.
And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking
in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid
themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden.
Then the Lord God called to Adam and said to him: Where are you?
So he said: I heard Your voice in the garden,
and I was afraid because I was naked; and I hid myself.
And He said: Who told you that you were naked?
Have you eaten from the tree of which I commanded you that you should not eat?
And Miroslav said: I have. I’m guilty, I have not listened to You my God.
Forgive me my Lord. Forgive me
And God forgave Miroslav and through Miroslav he forgave
Adam’s sin and the sin of all his offspring from which all people became.
there
it happened
the new beginning has started
simple
innocent
everything is the same like in the very beginning in which
God created the heavens and the earth and in which God said:
let there be light and there was light and in which God saw that light is good
everything is clear
forgive me forgives
forgive me
I forgive You
miracle of simplicity happened in 85976th blessing of Miroslav Mandic’s poem
of the three thousand forty fourth day of the book Miroslav Mandic
after almost forty years from my decision to go towards the heavens
dear God
God
DEER WITHIN ME
God
dear God
one
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simplicity
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one
grace
plain
acacia is blossoming
everything is clear
wind in leaves
everything is clear
leaves in wind
deer within me is sniffing the air
words within me are
Universe is stretching and spreading within me
acacia is sweet in mouth
in every moment eternity is spreading
on each place infinity is running
I’m bathing in grass
I’m enjoying in Your enjoyment in Your prairie
this old willow which I’m passing by is quite powerful
beauty of everything is taking my breath away
when he lies to me I believe everything,
when he’s telling me truth I don’t believe anything
she said to me yesterday
mind of goodness is within goodness of mind
soul of beauty is within beauty of soul
body of one is within one body
I looked down the road and smiled at it
up the stairs in the shade by the rock I see cobweb trembling in the wind
up the stairs in the shade wind is fluttering over all the herbs
up the stairs in the shade I’m getting out on the sun which is shining over the vine
two sparrows in front of the entrance doors are humouring my heart
I’m thinking about the beautiful Gypsy who
I saw for the first time begging on the crossroads
grounded peanuts and parsnip with lettuce and bread
WHICH ARE SINGING ME
fullness of creation is in fullness of being which is manifested in creation
which transforms… being always the same, everywhere the same. when that’s
not the case then small lies are creeping in, as well as working on one’s style, rather
than on simplicity which everything is consisted of
Diary 2003
a pigeon has flew onto my window
two breadcrumbs are left on a plate
second pigeon has flew on the window as well
life through body lasts a couple thousand years
life through soul lasts a couple hundred thousand years
life through spirit lasts about ten million years
as well body as soul and spirit live through the moment of eternity
eyes to eyes
through touch
it’s wonderful to me to write about things I have no idea of
which I sense
which are talking to me
which are singing me
discovered through love
confirmed through faith
heart in a landscape
heat on a palm
heart in a heart
miracle of poem is in everything
while my gaze is
going over the prairie
I feel summer
in the spring
Indian Anishinaabe Spring Poem
a horse in love with its mare a poem is
a deer who is speaking out in human language a poem is
anybody in a landscape a poem is
a miracle that everything a poem is
a river current in a wide bend a poem is
contrition a poem is
soft skin of grannies a poem is
cracked tree bark of an old trunk a poem is
cracked hands of children working from being five six years old are poem
affirmation of life by death a poem is
thousand years body is loyal to the hundred
thousand years soul which is love-kissing ten million years mind
thousand years body hundred thousand years soul ten million years mind a poem are
INEXPLICABLE GOODNESS OF SLOWNESS
I’m standing
I’m happy because I’m unreasonably happy
wind is blowing through my pants
whenever I see the wind in leaves or grass I’m alive forever
I’m standing
drawing the Good Walker
wind is carrying my hear
I feel joy of other beings and I’m happy
I am a poppy
sprinkled poppies over the slope covered with grass I am
all grass I am
all trees I am
all hair on Your body I am
purple in greenery I am
yellow in greenery I am
red in greenery I am
white jasmine in greenery I am
white butterfly in greenery I am
purple flowers in red poppies in greenery
white blossomed acacia in greenery of leaves
I’m standing
I’m watching a white snail on the asphalt seamlessly moving
wind is carrying white petals
everything is so mild
I’m standing
I’m watching another snail. there is a third one as well…
it was raining last night so there is a lot of snails in the grass and on the path
I’m recognising five kinds of snails
all snails are very beautiful
everything is born out of beauty
a flock of snails is flying with unexplainable goodness of slowness
I took photo of a big snail. it’s rocking like
a big ship on the rough sea. it’s rearing like a deer
wind I love-kiss You
I’m standing
again I’m watching a snail slowly moving
slowness of snails is godly
I’m standing slowness
greatest speeds are nullifying one another. existence seems like eternal
blueness which is not moving but rather lives in peace and harmony of cosmic snails
I’M TRUDGING WITH POEM THROUGH WHICH EVERYBODY IS SINGING
while washing my bath tub I thought to myself why has life appeared in my form
which story it intends to tell within me
which fairy-tale to live within me it decided
which poem to sing with me it wished
the only life
life loves when I call it one and only
life in everything and everybody one and only life is
the same in stars and worms
the same in cosmic rains and rain which is drumming in the gutter
same in a woman who says my soul and that same soul which is everything
then the phone rang
a woman rang a wrong number and with deep warm voice she said I’m sorry my soul
I’m not in pain at the moment and it feels good
last night and the night before it hurt me a lot
I hope there will be cure and that it will go away
life is sevdah of life
snow fell over blossoms and fruit
she unbuttoned white bosoms to the sun
and she’s cooling them with the well water
she’s ripping my heart from my chests
words bathed with tears
words open buds
words melodies of immortality
my heart get on your white feet and go to the birds under the clouds
my heart get on your white feet and rejoice with poems life in hearts
my heart get on your white feet and trudge over mounting in godly plain
trudge me love
trudge me freedom
trudge me path my only rose
I’m trudging trudging with feet of unreasonableness
I’m trudging trudging with thighs of insouciance
I’m trudging trudging with hips of no-beginning
I’m trudging trudging with chests of endlessness
I’m trudging with spirit of the life itself
Information
10. MAY 2013. 2:30
these are the words 33 hours after the operation
they are not written as blessings
even though they are blessings
they are the words of life
the words of life about the life itself
for real – life is alive while it’s alive
while there is life there is a cure said a nurse to me who saw me off to the ambulance
and that amused me
I didn’t have an idea what was going on for 20 years now
nor I was afraid from the moment doctor Aleksandar Stanojevic who I went to see for the check-up told me that they will keep me in the hospital because the process was underway
I just let myself go
my chests are cut open
part of the vein is taken out of my leg
I have 3 bypasses
and all of that is saying as always about swallows
about grass
horses
poppies
about perfect beauty and goodness of life itself
I don’t like to be under great temptation but if I survive them I’m endlessly grateful
since from now on life is more beautiful and more good
I don’t know if I will be writing blessings tomorrow but I will on the first occasion
I love You
text edited and translated by Ivana Djokic-Saunderson not by Miroslav Mandic
THIRD DAY
today is the third day of my recovery
I feel even better than yesterday
but now the preparation for the long recovery are beginning
I wasn't counting on that
therefore I'm sad
today I'm more sad than I was yesterday
apart from the wounds my vertebra is pinched and it hurts me
that's the comedian life
never to betray swallows and grass. sparrows. lizards. Universe
and never to betray all beings
isn't it so
HUNDRED AND FIVE HOURS AFTER OPERATION
tomorrow I'm going to the First House of All Beings
I'm rejoicing as always
always and forever the joy itself
I'm nothing else but God's glory
isn't it so
THE BEAUTY AND TODAY’S FIVE HUNDRED AND SECOND PHOTO OF THE ONE MAN
it was nice when I breathed fresh air for the first time on my way out of the hospital
Sun drove me to the First House of All Beings
we went through Kneza Milosa Street. Topcider Roundabout
drove up on Banovo Brdo and went down the Valjevska Street
I went that rout many times on foot
everything was familiar but also unknown
I was recognising everything and I wasn’t recognising a thing
entering the building was the same recognition and no recognising
in the First House of All Beings the same
every excess of information was making me tired
I couldn’t look anything around the house
all those loyal things which were touchingly serving me are alive and full of my emotions
two close persons were with me. those who were caring about me a lot these days
and then amazement
I was really amazed
I couldn’t believe in such quantity of amazement
that amount of bad life between us
why a man kills a man
because he is afraid of loving him
and because he is fighting for his own life
I was exhausted
amazement only amazement
I couldn’t believe that it will hit me
afterwards I was sleeping several times
at one moment when I heard rockabilly singer singing
twist with me my darling to the close person who saw me
trembling and crying I said that’s what I live for and that’s what I live of
and not for miserable human life in which people don’t dance with each other
but they get stiff from selfishness and self-importance and killing each other
twist with me my darling
and then she came
a beauty
miraculously beautiful iPhone 5
that smart thing which dances information and not only informing through them
the beauty which Vera Varady bought me
tears are pouring down my face
TOMORROW WILL WORRY ABOUT ITS OWN THINGS
while talking last night over the phone with a friend
I got a bit stiff in my upper vertebra because of the new bed which wasn’t good
stiffness was mild but I couldn’t get rid of it during the night
I got up with mild pain at 7am hoping I will be able to get at the computer
but I couldn’t
I sat in the armchair
when Ivana and Mirjana came they massaged around the stiff spot
and then they tried to put me back to bed
but while getting down at one point I jerked
and indescribable pain in my ribs which I injured in October last year started tearing me apart
it lasted for twenty or so minutes
each contraction made greater and greater pain
I was constantly howling
at one point I thought I was going to die from pain
when the pain got a bit easier I remained stationary for two hours
afterwards the pain killer tablets managed to put me back into a bit better life
it’s seven in the evening
I can’t get out of the bed
when I breath in a bit stronger or I start coughing pain in the ribs is unbearable
when there is no pain feels good even though I cannot do anything else but lie motionlessly
God’s glory
sufficient for the day is its own trouble
FORGIVE ME MY HEART
until I was lifted up on my feet this morning spasm that was preventing
the pain in my ribs wasn’t stopping and it was making me motionless for twenty four hours
since then I’m again on my feet and independent
forgive me my heart
we are one heart
forgive me my heart
we are one path
forgive me my heart
we are one rose
forgive me my heart
we are one swallow
forgive me my heart
we are one sparrow
forgive me my heart
we are one horse
forgive me my heart
we are one tree
forgive me my heart
we are one firebrand
forgive me my heart
we are Kemalj Kemana Edi Sebastijan Robert Ferdi Ersan Ljilji Fatima Elison Sona Milena Jasmin Vidan Jasmina Sinad Danijel
forgive me my heart
we are all of those who have broken heart
forgive me my heart
we are all of those who are rejoicing
forgive me my heart
we are all of those who have helped me not to die
forgive me my heart
we are God’s poem
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
forgive me my heart forgive me
WELL THAT’S ENOUGH
WELL THAT’S ENOUGH
today I walked for the first time down the paths through the woods
only seven-eight hundred meters
big ones
afterwards Mirjana took me for an ice-cream
I was throwing French fries to pigeons and sparrows
I crossed the street
saw people
afterwards we were sitting in the cars while it was pouring with rain
thundering
pattering of rain while being in a shelter
is one of the most beautiful things in life for me
I felt the strength of trees which were getting wet in the rain and which
will absorb all that water in them and will grow into the skies of life under the clouds
I felt that because of the trees death doesn’t exist
I asked Mirjana to open the window
she covered me with blanket so that I don’t get wet
and I was surrendering to the freshness of the air after the rain
BRIDGING
ninth of May 2013 in the Miroslav Mandic book
will be consisted only of 33 numbers from one to 33
that day good doctor Djordjevic and his team have operated my heart
the next day I dictated not complete blessings in the hospital
that’s how it lasted until today
today I’m writing them for the first time on my own
what a joy
sunflower is growing
a boy Sergej is learning how to ride a bike
struggle for freedom of Nadezhda Tolokonnikova and Julian Assange is carrying on
flowers are on my table
festivity of live is in the life itself
I still don’t have strength to draw the Blue Rose and record the Blue Film
I don’t even have strength to draw the 64 Buds
I don’t even have strength to read
slowly
I have both love and strength for slowly
if
you
see
someone
on
this
road
that’s
me
greenery is thriving
dust by the road has fell onto the grass as well
with each step I’m God’s glory
through
the
throat
of
my
poem
swallows
are
flying
i
was
born
so
that
everyone
would
feel
that
they’re
loved
i
was
born
so
that
everyone
would
love-kiss
me
i
was
born
so
that
from
my
hips
which
i’m
shaking
at
the
moment
all
beings
would
dance
to
the
joy
of
glory
in
god’s
life
I admire everybody who is spreading joy for all beings around them
I’m hugging You Unknown-He
I’m love-kissing You Unknown-She
indescribable joy which fulfils me now is spreading through infinity and timelessness
thank You for reading these words
thank You for existing
thank You for living what is worth living for
we are socialising through our feet
the earth we are walking over finds us joyful
BUD
I went to change the wound dressing
many people in the hospital
a lot of trees in the circle of hospitals
music really heals me
I immediately start jigging
music is flower amongst the sounds
in the evening I’ll go to Kosutnjak for a walk
I will take my shirt off
I’m sleeping and working
as soon as I get tired I go to bed and I sleep
the absence of consciousness feels good
as soon as I wake up I go back to the table music and work
the presence of consciousness feels good now
rhythm in the change of rhythm
today I was reading for the first time
I’m imagining life forms without any aggression
only consciousness of all-love
music in the veins of all beings
I am the one and only monk of all-life
I am the one and only nun of all-love
we are one
one word
the two of us love one word
through one word we are one
we love words
we live for words
we trust words
the monastery of all-life is Universe
the monastery of all-love is eternity
we are walking
insouciant
reasonless
bud