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    I AM 3…

    3039. day
    27th April 2013

     

    I am a third I Am… photo by Miroslav Mandic

     

    I am a third I of the countless I of I Am… love

     

    I am a third day of the I Am… path who leads into the infinity of timelessness

     

    I Am… is the path from I to I Am

    hey

     

     

    i

    am

    the

    path

    from

    i

    to

    i

    am

     

     

    I is only a rose – I am is already a path

    c’mon

     

     

    i

    is

    only

    a

    rose

    i

    am

    is

    already

    a

    path

     

     

    I am a rose on the I am path

    fuck

     

     

    i

    am

    a

    rose

    on

    the

    i

    am

    path

     

     

    from 1:30pm till 4:45pm I was working on the web with Kaja Ana Ivana and Dragana.

    it was wonderful. miroslav mandic 36 layers of blue

    or one year of tranquillity on the internet

    Diary 2003

     

    in front of Kaja Ana Ivana and Dragana I drew

    a little drawing made out of thirty six layers of blue

     

    that little drawing is the foundation of the idea one year of tranquillity on the internet

     

    thirty six layers of blue like thirty six righteous men who are

    guarding this world and some of them don’t even know they are doing it

     

    on the 1st January 2004 web page miroslav mandic 36 layers of blue

    or one year of tranquillity on the internet was put on the internet for a year

     

    that is the fact all the rest is history

     

    tranquillity is the other name for love

     

    one and only love in the one and only tranquillity

     

    through tranquillity all died loves resurrect

     

    that little drawing after ten years is the I of today’s photo of the I Am… path

     

    not only that everything is intertwined and linked

    but everything consists of one another

     

    I’m going to shave myself out of joy

     

    the surgical intervention on the fatty tissue was repeated yesterday

     

    on Monday I’m going to do the ultrasound scan of my heart

     

    next week I will be transcribing first three chapters of the Bible in the Miroslav Mandic

     

    I’m rejoicing that transcribing

     

    experiencing creating the genesis

     

    I’m rejoicing one moment in the genesis which waits for me to do it

     

     

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    Miroslav Mandic

    God’s glory

    God’s love

    God’s poem

    is

     

    Miroslav Mandic

    God’s glory

    God’s love

    God’s poem

    is

     

    miroslavmandic.name

    God’s glory

    God’s love

    God’s poem

    is

     

    GOOD MORNING SUN

    3041. day
    29th April 2013

     

    good morning

     

    gratitude only gratitude

     

    this morning I was awakened by pain which also made me sweat

     

    gratitude only gratitude

     

    down the Boulevard

     

    slowly

     

    it’s hurting me and I have to stop from time to time

     

    I’m coming back from the medical check-up in Grocka

     

    many thanks to doctor Zagorka Basta who did

    last time ECG and this time ultrasound of my heart for free

     

    free-of-charge is healing

     

    ECG is good

     

    heart is healthy

     

    blood count is good

     

    now I have to check-up my stomach

     

    I’m thankful to my hardship

     

    great number of people love to be sick

     

    they love to surrender to sickness and to drag others into the sickness

     

    health is harder than the sickness

     

    freedom is harder than the slavery

     

    love is harder than the hatred

     

    I’m walking for Your health

     

    I’m walking for Your freedom

     

    I’m walking for Your love

     

    pain has eased and my joy is indescribable

     

    soon I’m going to change the dressing on the wound on my back

     

    I would love to close my eyes at least for five minutes

     

    to let go

     

    to bow to the heart

     

    beat my heart for all beings

     

    I just remembered the heart that I made during the Rose of Wandering

     

    it was during the Second Bowing which lasted one hundred and one day

    and was dedicated to Ernst Jünger and patriarchs of life

     

    it was the heart which contained blood of all people on the planet Earth

     

     

    and

    this

    beginning

    is

    of the new heart which will pump out and in the blood of all beings

     

    FAIRY-TALE 4

    3042. day
    30th April 2013

     

    this is how I went through April

     

    I got from

    Tibika Varady 21000 dinars

    Vera Varady 16660 dinars

    Ivana Djokic-Saunderson 12617 dinars

    Zoltan Varady 11100 dinars

    Art Sombaty 11100 dinars

    Mirjana Lukic 10578 dinars

    Violeta Jovanovic 2920 dinars

    Maja Klisinski 2250 dinars

    Sun Mandic 2000 dinars

    Petar Miloradovic 1120 dinars

     

    I’ve spent

    three flat breads 75 dinars

    bread 13 kg 1540 dinars

    five bannocks 150 dinars

    six pastries 254 dinars

    Serbian bun 0,25 kg 43 dinars

    six bags of peanut sticks 148 dinars

     

    Coca-Cola 1,1 l 145 dinars

    three effervescent mineral tablets 401 dinars

    mineral water 16 l 650 dinars

     

    oil 1 l 148 dinars

    mustard 0,25 kg 69 dinars

    peanuts 0,35 kg 337 dinars

    five instant soups 149 dinars

    herbal cheese 0,11 kg 50 dinars

    soya crème cheese 123 dinars

    mayonnaise 3,35 kg 1207 dinars

    two soya pates 166 dinars

    olive oil 0,5 l 400 dinars

     

    horse-radishes 40 dinars

    parsnip 0,28 kg 34 dinars

    carrots 0,24 kg 14 dinars

    potatoes 0,8 kg 43 dinars

    parsley root 0,24 kg 30 dinars

    twenty seven lettuces 1445 dinars

     

    lemon 0,45 kg 41 dinars

    apples 3,5 kg 212 dinars

    bananas 4,47 kg 439 dinars

    oranges 3,5 kg 255 dinars

     

    biscuits 3,33 kg 1025 dinars

    eleven bags of hot chocolate 346 dinars

     

    sponge 65 dinars

    toilet paper 76 dinars

    shampoo 438 dinars

    two soaps 132 dinars

    three toothpastes 290 dinars

     

    vitamin C 76 dinars

    ibuprofen 172 dinars

    antibiotics 623 dinars

    medication Controloc 337 dinars

    tea bags 56 dinars

    two hawthorn tinctures 418 dinars

    st. John’s Worth tincture 237 dinars

    Cardiopirin tablets 240 dinars

    blood and urine analysis 1760 dinars

    fatty tissue removal 15000 dinars

    five packages of hawthorn tea 627 dinars

    four packages of prostate tea 1629 dinars

     

    three short sleeves shirts 1550 dinars

     

    elastic 60 dinars

    folders 220 dinars

    sticky tape 165 dinars

    three white temperas 180 dinars

    bus plus tickets 788 dinars

    two tapes for the Blue Film 700 dinars

    mobile phone 670 dinars

     

    I got altogether 91345 dinars

     

    I’ve spent 67072 dinars

    for rent and living expenses 30575 dinars

    for care and hygiene 22176 dinars

    for material and work 2783 dinars

    for clothing 1550 dinars

    for food 10588 dinars

     

    I gave to others 3830 dinars

     

    ouch

     

    this counting got crazy

     

    it made me really tired

     

    fairy-tale is hard

     

    I’m not sure if I’m counting well

     

    sometimes I notice that I didn’t write down something small

     

    that I forgot to write somebody who gave me money

     

    litres kilos pieces numbers check-ups intervention dinars euros

     

    I cannot handle it any more

     

    I’m getting up from the table

     

    I would love to write all twelve fairy-tales till the end of the year

     

    the heroes of April fairy-tale are

    Sun Mandic

    Art Sombaty

    Vera Varady

    Tibika Varady

    Maja Klisinski

    Zoltan Varady

    Mirjana Lukic

    Violeta Jovanovic

    Petar Miloradovic

    Ivana Djokic-Saunderson

     

    their money

    1120 dinars

    200 dinars

    2250 dinars

    2920 dinars

    11100 dinars

    11100 dinars

    10578 dinars

    12617 dinars

    16660 dinars

    21000 dinars

     

    abstraction which is drunk eaten heeled dressed up…

     

    doctor Zagorka Basta who did two free medical check-ups

     

    twenty seven lettuces

     

    ibuprofen which was easing my pain after two intervention on my back

     

    three second hand short sleeve shirts with pockets

    gratitude only gratitude

     


     

    GOD SPEAKS

    3043. day
    1st May 2013

     

    I am John Cage

    reading of John Cage’s poetry ten years ago in the Monastery of Time at 8 am

     

    today I will rewrite thirty one line from the first chapter

    of the Genesis. from my childhood I was experiencing the Bible

    but today I’m living it as a God’s book and that’s why I will rewrite it in first person

     

    In the beginning I created the heavens and the earth.

     

    The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of

    the deep. And my Spirit was hovering over the face of the waters.

     

    Then I said: Let there be light; and there was light.

     

    And I saw the light, that it was good; and I divided the light from the darkness.

     

    I called the light Day, and the darkness He called Night.

    So the evening and the morning were the first day.

     

    Then I said: Let there be a firmament in the midst of the waters, and let it divide the waters from the waters.

     

    Thus I made the firmament, and divided the waters which were under

    the firmament from the waters which were above the firmament; and it was so.

     

    And I called the firmament Heaven.

    So the evening and the morning were the second day.

     

    Then I said: Let the waters under the heavens be gathered

    together into one place, and let the dry land appear; and it was so.

     

    And I called the dry land Earth, and the gathering

    together of the waters I called Seas. And I saw that it was good.

     

    Then I said: Let the earth bring forth grass, the herb that yields seed, and the fruit tree that

     yields fruit according to its kind, whose seed is in itself, on the earth; and it was so.

     

    And the earth brought forth grass, the herb that yields

    seed according to its kind, and the tree that yields fruit, whose

    seed is in itself according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.

     

    So the evening and the morning were the third day.

     

    Then I said: Let there be lights in the firmament of the heavens to divide the day

    from the night; and let them be for signs and seasons, and for days and years;

     

    and let them be for lights in the firmament

    of the heavens to give light on the earth; and it was so.

     

    Then I made two great lights: the greater light to rule the day,

    and the lesser light to rule the night. I made the stars also.

     

    I set them in the firmament of the heavens to give light on the earth,

     

    and to rule over the day and over the night, and to

    divide the light from the darkness. And I saw that it was good.

     

    So the evening and the morning were the fourth day.

     

    Then I said: Let the waters abound with an abundance of living creatures,

    and let birds fly above the earth across the face of the firmament of the heavens.

     

    So I created great sea creatures and every living thing that

    moves, with which the waters abounded, according to their kind,

    and every winged bird according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.

     

    And I blessed them, saying: Be fruitful and multiply,

    and fill the waters in the seas, and let birds multiply on the earth.

     

    So the evening and the morning were the fifth day.

     

    Then I said: Let the earth bring forth the living creature according to its kind: cattle

    and creeping thing and beast of the earth, each according to its kind; and it was so.

     

    And I made the beast of the earth according to its kind, cattle according to its kind, and

    everything that creeps on the earth according to its kind. And I saw that it was good.

     

    Then I said: Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness;

    let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and

    over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth.

     

    So I created man in my own image;

    in my image I created him; male and female I created them.

     

    Then God blessed them, and God said to them: Be fruitful and multiply;

    fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over

    the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth.

     

    And I said: See, I have given you every herb that yields seed which is on the face

    of all the earth, and every tree whose fruit yields seed; to you it shall be for food.

     

    Also, to every beast of the earth, to every bird of the air, and to everything that creeps on the

    earth, in which there is life, I have given every green herb for food; and it was so.

     

    Then I saw everything that I had made, and indeed it was very good.

    So the evening and the morning were the sixth day.


     

    GOD SPEAKS 2

    3044. day
    2nd May 2013

     

    I love-kiss everyone who aims

    I love-kiss you Heather Mimi Bebe and Laurie – thank you Nicholas Nixon

     

    the time will come when our silence will be

    more powerful than the voices you strangle today

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    aim my beauty

     

    aim aim my goodness aim

     

    I’m carrying on with rewriting of goodness through which God created world

     

    I’m carrying on with rewriting of beauty which God created from the bone of goodness

     

    I’m carrying on with rewriting of love which is consisted in rewriting

     

    love which I’m repeating through goodness and beauty

     

    Thus the heavens and the earth, and all the host of them, were finished.

     

    And on the seventh day I ended My work which I had done,

    and I rested on the seventh day from all My work which I had done.

     

    Then I blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because

    in it I rested from all My work which I had created and made.

     

    This is the history of the heavens and the earth when they were created,

    in the day that I made the earth and the heavens,

     

    before any plant of the field was

    in the earth and before any herb of the field had grown.

    For I had not caused it to rain on the earth, and there was no man to till the ground;

     

    but a mist went up from the earth and watered the whole face of the ground.

     

    And I formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed

    into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.

     

    I planted a garden eastward in Eden, and there I put the man whom I had formed.

     

    And out of the ground I made every tree grow

    that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. The tree of life was

    also in the midst of the garden, and the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

     

    Now a river went out of Eden to water the garden,

    and from there it parted and became four riverheads.

     

    The name of the first is Pishon; it is the one

    which skirts the whole land of Havilah, where there is gold.

     

    And the gold of that land is good. Bdellium and the onyx stone are there.

     

    The name of the second river is Gihon;

    it is the one which goes around the whole land of Cush.

     

    The name of the third river is Hiddekel; it is the one

    which goes toward the east of Assyria. The fourth river is the Euphrates.

     

    Then I took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to tend and keep it.

     

    And I commanded the man, saying: Of every tree of the garden you may freely eat;

     

    but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil

    you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die.

     

    And I said: It is not good that man should be alone;

    I will make him a helper comparable to him.

     

    Out of the ground I formed every beast of the field

    and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he

    would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name.

     

    So Adam gave names to all cattle, to the birds of the air, and to every

    beast of the field. But for Adam there was not found a helper comparable to him.

     

    And I caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept;

    and I took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place.

     

    Then the rib which I had taken from man

    I made into a woman, and I brought her to the man.

     

    And Adam said: This is now bone of my bones
    And flesh of my flesh;
    She shall be called Woman,
    Because she was taken out of Man.

     

    Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother

    and be joined to his wife, and they shall become one flesh.

     

    And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.

     


     

    MIROSLAV SAYS

    3045. day
    3rd May 2013

     

    there

     

    exactly

     

    exactly that

     

    there exactly that

     

    Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field I had made. And he said

    to the woman: Has God indeed said, ‘You shall not eat of every tree of the garden’?

     

    And the woman said to the serpent: We may eat the fruit of the trees of the garden;

     

    but of the fruit of the tree which is in the midst of the garden,

    God has said, ‘You shall not eat it, nor shall you touch it, lest you die.’

     

    Then the serpent said to the woman: You will not surely die.

     

    For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes

    will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.

     

    So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food,

    that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise,

    she took of its fruit and ate. She also gave to her husband with her, and he ate.

     

    Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they knew that they

    were naked; and they sewed fig leaves together and made themselves coverings.

     

    And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking

    in the garden in the cool of the day, and Adam and his wife hid

    themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden.

     

    Then the Lord God called to Adam and said to him: Where are you?

     

    So he said: I heard Your voice in the garden,

    and I was afraid because I was naked; and I hid myself.

     

    And He said: Who told you that you were naked?

    Have you eaten from the tree of which I commanded you that you should not eat?

     

    And Miroslav said: I have. I’m guilty, I have not listened to You my God.

     

    Forgive me my Lord. Forgive me

     

    And God forgave Miroslav and through Miroslav he forgave

    Adam’s sin and the sin of all his offspring from which all people became.

     

    there

     

    it happened

     

    the new beginning has started

     

    simple

     

    innocent

     

    everything is the same like in the very beginning in which

    God created the heavens and the earth and in which God said:

    let there be light and there was light and in which God saw that light is good

     

    everything is clear

     

    forgive me forgives

     

    forgive me

     

    I forgive You

     

    miracle of simplicity happened in 85976th blessing of Miroslav Mandic’s poem

     

    of the three thousand forty fourth day of the book Miroslav Mandic

     

    after almost forty years from my decision to go towards the heavens

     

    dear God

     

    God

     


     

    DEER WITHIN ME

    3046. day
    4th May 2013

     

    God

     

    dear God

     

    one

     

    simplicity

     

     

    simplicity

    is

    the

    child

    of

    one

     

     

    grace

     

    plain

     

    acacia is blossoming

     

    everything is clear

     

    wind in leaves

     

    everything is clear

     

    leaves in wind

     

    deer within me is sniffing the air

     

    words within me are

     

    Universe is stretching and spreading within me

     

    acacia is sweet in mouth

     

    in every moment eternity is spreading

     

    on each place infinity is running

     

    I’m bathing in grass

     

    I’m enjoying in Your enjoyment in Your prairie

     

    this old willow which I’m passing by is quite powerful

     

    beauty of everything is taking my breath away

     

    when he lies to me I believe everything,

    when he’s telling me truth I don’t believe anything

    she said to me yesterday

     

    mind of goodness is within goodness of mind

     

    soul of beauty is within beauty of soul

     

    body of one is within one body

     

    I looked down the road and smiled at it

     

    up the stairs in the shade by the rock I see cobweb trembling in the wind

     

    up the stairs in the shade wind is fluttering over all the herbs

     

    up the stairs in the shade I’m getting out on the sun which is shining over the vine

     

    two sparrows in front of the entrance doors are humouring my heart

     

    I’m thinking about the beautiful Gypsy who

    I saw for the first time begging on the crossroads

     

    grounded peanuts and parsnip with lettuce and bread

     

    WHICH ARE SINGING ME

    3048. day
    6th May 2013

     

    fullness of creation is in fullness of being which is manifested in creation

    which transforms… being always the same, everywhere the same. when that’s

    not the case then small lies are creeping in, as well as working on one’s style, rather

    than on simplicity which everything is consisted of

    Diary 2003

     

    a pigeon has flew onto my window

     

    two breadcrumbs are left on a plate

     

    second pigeon has flew on the window as well

     

    life through body lasts a couple thousand years

     

    life through soul lasts a couple hundred thousand years

     

    life through spirit lasts about ten million years

     

    as well body as soul and spirit live through the moment of eternity

     

    eyes to eyes

     

    through touch

     

    it’s wonderful to me to write about things I have no idea of

     

    which I sense

     

    which are talking to me

     

    which are singing me

     

    discovered through love

     

    confirmed through faith

     

    heart in a landscape

     

    heat on a palm

     

    heart in a heart

     

    miracle of poem is in everything

     

     

    while my gaze is

    going over the prairie

    I feel summer

    in the spring

    Indian Anishinaabe Spring Poem

     

     

    a horse in love with its mare a poem is

     

    a deer who is speaking out in human language a poem is

     

    anybody in a landscape a poem is

     

    a miracle that everything a poem is

     

    a river current in a wide bend a poem is

     

    contrition a poem is

     

    soft skin of grannies a poem is

     

    cracked tree bark of an old trunk a poem is

     

    cracked hands of children working from being five six years old are poem

     

    affirmation of life by death a poem is

     

    thousand years body is loyal to the hundred

    thousand years soul which is love-kissing ten million years mind

     

    thousand years body hundred thousand years soul ten million years mind a poem are

     


     

    INEXPLICABLE GOODNESS OF SLOWNESS

    3049. day
    7th May 2013

     

    I’m standing

     

    I’m happy because I’m unreasonably happy

     

    wind is blowing through my pants

     

    whenever I see the wind in leaves or grass I’m alive forever

     

    I’m standing

    drawing the Good Walker

     

    wind is carrying my hear

     

    I feel joy of other beings and I’m happy

     

    I am a poppy

     

    sprinkled poppies over the slope covered with grass I am

     

    all grass I am

     

    all trees I am

     

    all hair on Your body I am

     

    purple in greenery I am

     

    yellow in greenery I am

     

    red in greenery I am

     

    white jasmine in greenery I am

     

    white butterfly in greenery I am

     

    purple flowers in red poppies in greenery

     

    white blossomed acacia in greenery of leaves

     

    I’m standing

    I’m watching a white snail on the asphalt seamlessly moving

     

    wind is carrying white petals

     

    everything is so mild

     

    I’m standing

    I’m watching another snail. there is a third one as well…

     

    it was raining last night so there is a lot of snails in the grass and on the path

     

    I’m recognising five kinds of snails

     

    all snails are very beautiful

     

    everything is born out of beauty

     

    a flock of snails is flying with unexplainable goodness of slowness

     

    I took photo of a big snail. it’s rocking like

    a big ship on the rough sea. it’s rearing like a deer

     

    wind I love-kiss You

     

    I’m standing

    again I’m watching a snail slowly moving

     

    slowness of snails is godly

     

    I’m standing slowness

    greatest speeds are nullifying one another. existence seems like eternal

    blueness which is not moving but rather lives in peace and harmony of cosmic snails

     

    I’M TRUDGING WITH POEM THROUGH WHICH EVERYBODY IS SINGING

    3050. day
    8th May 2013

     

    while washing my bath tub I thought to myself why has life appeared in my form

     

    which story it intends to tell within me

     

    which fairy-tale to live within me it decided

     

    which poem to sing with me it wished

     

    the only life

     

    life loves when I call it one and only

     

    life in everything and everybody one and only life is

     

    the same in stars and worms

     

    the same in cosmic rains and rain which is drumming in the gutter

     

    same in a woman who says my soul and that same soul which is everything

     

    then the phone rang

     

    a woman rang a wrong number and with deep warm voice she said I’m sorry my soul

     

    I’m not in pain at the moment and it feels good

     

    last night and the night before it hurt me a lot

     

    I hope there will be cure and that it will go away

     

    life is sevdah of life

     

    snow fell over blossoms and fruit

     

    she unbuttoned white bosoms to the sun

    and she’s cooling them with the well water

    she’s ripping my heart from my chests

     

    I never feel like sleeping

     

    words bathed with tears

     

    words open buds

     

    words melodies of immortality

     

    my heart get on your white feet and go to the birds under the clouds

     

    my heart get on your white feet and rejoice with poems life in hearts

     

    my heart get on your white feet and trudge over mounting in godly plain

     

    trudge me love

     

    trudge me freedom

     

    trudge me path my only rose

     

    I’m trudging trudging with feet of unreasonableness

     

    I’m trudging trudging with thighs of insouciance

     

    I’m trudging trudging with hips of no-beginning

     

    I’m trudging trudging with chests of endlessness

     

    I’m trudging with spirit of the life itself

    Information

    3050. day
    8th May 2013

    Information
    for You
    for the visitor-bud of the web-site
    In next few days blessings won't be put on the site
    since Miroslav Mandic was admitted to the hospital
    because of the pain in his chests
    that he was feeling for a while now,
    and he will have a heart surgery.
    Until the blessings start flowing again
    You can get the information about Miroslav Mandic from
    Violeta Jovanovic - 063/590553mastovita@gmail.com

    10. MAY 2013. 2:30

    3052. day
    10th May 2013

     

     

    these are the words 33 hours after the operation

    they are not written as blessings

    even though they are blessings

    they are the words of life

    the words of life about the life itself

    for real – life is alive while it’s alive

    while there is life there is a cure said a nurse to me who saw me off to the ambulance

    and that amused me

    I didn’t have an idea what was going on for 20 years now

    nor I was afraid from the moment doctor Aleksandar Stanojevic who I went to see for the check-up told me that they will keep me in the hospital because the process was underway

    I just let myself go

    my chests are cut open

    part of the vein is taken out of my leg

    I have 3 bypasses

    and all of that is saying as always about swallows

    about grass

    horses

    poppies

    about perfect beauty and goodness of life itself

    I don’t like to be under great temptation but if I survive them I’m endlessly grateful

    since from now on life is more beautiful and more good

    I don’t know if I will be writing blessings tomorrow but I will on the first occasion

     

    I love You

     

    text edited and translated by Ivana Djokic-Saunderson not by Miroslav Mandic

     

    THIRD DAY

    3053. day
    11th May 2013

     

    today is the third day of my recovery

    I feel even better than yesterday

    but now the preparation for the long recovery are beginning

    I wasn't counting on that

    therefore I'm sad

    today I'm more sad than I was yesterday

    apart from the wounds my vertebra is pinched and it hurts me

    that's the comedian life

    never to betray swallows and grass. sparrows. lizards. Universe

    and never to betray all beings

    isn't it so


     

    HUNDRED AND FIVE HOURS AFTER OPERATION

    3055. day
    13th May 2013

     

    tomorrow I'm going to the First House of All Beings

    I'm rejoicing as always

    always and forever the joy itself

    I'm nothing else but God's glory

    isn't it so

     

     

    THE BEAUTY AND TODAY’S FIVE HUNDRED AND SECOND PHOTO OF THE ONE MAN

    3056. day
    14th May 2013

     

    it was nice when I breathed fresh air for the first time on my way out of the hospital

     

    Sun drove me to the First House of All Beings

     

    we went through Kneza Milosa Street. Topcider Roundabout

    drove up on Banovo Brdo and went down the Valjevska Street

     

    I went that rout many times on foot

     

    everything was familiar but also unknown

     

    I was recognising everything and I wasn’t recognising a thing

     

    entering the building was the same recognition and no recognising

     

    in the First House of All Beings the same

     

    every excess of information was making me tired

     

    I couldn’t look anything around the house

     

    all those loyal things which were touchingly serving me are alive and full of my emotions

     

    two close persons were with me. those who were caring about me a lot these days

     

    and then amazement

     

    I was really amazed

     

    I couldn’t believe in such quantity of amazement

     

    that amount of bad life between us

     

    why a man kills a man

     

    because he is afraid of loving him

     

    and because he is fighting for his own life

     

    I was exhausted

     

    amazement only amazement

     

    I couldn’t believe that it will hit me

     

    afterwards I was sleeping several times

     

    at one moment when I heard rockabilly singer singing

    twist with me my darling to the close person who saw me

    trembling and crying I said that’s what I live for and that’s what I live of

     

    and not for miserable human life in which people don’t dance with each other

    but they get stiff from selfishness and self-importance and killing each other

    twist with me my darling

     

    and then she came

     

    a beauty

     

    miraculously beautiful iPhone 5

     

    that smart thing which dances information and not only informing through them

     

    the beauty which Vera Varady bought me

     

    tears are pouring down my face


     

    TOMORROW WILL WORRY ABOUT ITS OWN THINGS

    3057. day
    15th May 2013

     

    while talking last night over the phone with a friend

     

    I got a bit stiff in my upper vertebra because of the new bed which wasn’t good

     

    stiffness was mild but I couldn’t get rid of it during the night

     

    I got up with mild pain at 7am hoping I will be able to get at the computer

     

    but I couldn’t

     

    I sat in the armchair

     

    when Ivana and Mirjana came they massaged around the stiff spot

     

    and then they tried to put me back to bed

     

    but while getting down at one point I jerked

     

    and indescribable pain in my ribs which I injured in October last year started tearing me apart

     

    it lasted for twenty or so minutes

     

    each contraction made greater and greater pain

     

    I was constantly howling

     

    at one point I thought I was going to die from pain

     

    when the pain got a bit easier I remained stationary for two hours

     

    afterwards the pain killer tablets managed to put me back into a bit better life

     

    it’s seven in the evening

     

    I can’t get out of the bed

     

    when I breath in a bit stronger or I start coughing pain in the ribs is unbearable

     

    when there is no pain feels good even though I cannot do anything else but lie motionlessly

     

    God’s glory

     

    sufficient for the day is its own trouble

     


    FORGIVE ME MY HEART

    3058. day
    16th May 2013

     

    until I was lifted up on my feet this morning spasm that was preventing

    the pain in my ribs wasn’t stopping and it was making me motionless for twenty four hours

     

    since then I’m again on my feet and independent

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one heart

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one path

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one rose

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one swallow

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one sparrow

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one horse

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one tree

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are one firebrand

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are Kemalj Kemana Edi Sebastijan Robert Ferdi Ersan Ljilji Fatima Elison Sona Milena Jasmin Vidan Jasmina Sinad Danijel

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are all of those who have broken heart

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are all of those who are rejoicing

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are all of those who have helped me not to die

     

    forgive me my heart

    we are God’s poem

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     

    forgive me my heart forgive me

     


    WELL THAT’S ENOUGH

    3059. day
    17th May 2013

     

    WELL THAT’S ENOUGH

     

     

    today I walked for the first time down the paths through the woods

     

    only seven-eight hundred meters

     

    big ones

     

    afterwards Mirjana took me for an ice-cream

     

    I was throwing French fries to pigeons and sparrows

     

    I crossed the street

     

    saw people

     

    afterwards we were sitting in the cars while it was pouring with rain

     

    thundering

     

    pattering of rain while being in a shelter

    is one of the most beautiful things in life for me

     

    I felt the strength of trees which were getting wet in the rain and which

    will absorb all that water in them and will grow into the skies of life under the clouds

     

    I felt that because of the trees death doesn’t exist

     

    I asked Mirjana to open the window

     

    she covered me with blanket so that I don’t get wet

     

    and I was surrendering to the freshness of the air after the rain

     

    BRIDGING

    3060. day
    18th May 2013

     

    ninth of May 2013 in the Miroslav Mandic book

    will be consisted only of 33 numbers from one to 33

     

    that day good doctor Djordjevic and his team have operated my heart

     

    the next day I dictated not complete blessings in the hospital

     

    that’s how it lasted until today

     

    today I’m writing them for the first time on my own

     

    what a joy

     

    sunflower is growing

     

    a boy Sergej is learning how to ride a bike

     

    struggle for freedom of Nadezhda Tolokonnikova and Julian Assange is carrying on

     

    flowers are on my table

     

    festivity of live is in the life itself

     

    I still don’t have strength to draw the Blue Rose and record the Blue Film

     

    I don’t even have strength to draw the 64 Buds

     

    I don’t even have strength to read

     

    slowly

     

    I have both love and strength for slowly

     

     

    if

    you

    see

    someone

    on

    this

    road

    that’s

    me

     

     

    greenery is thriving

     

    dust by the road has fell onto the grass as well

     

    with each step I’m God’s glory

     

     

    through

    the

    throat

    of

    my

    poem

    swallows

    are

    flying

     

     

    i

    was

    born

    so

    that

    everyone

    would

    feel

    that

    they’re

    loved

     

     

    i

    was

    born

    so

    that

    everyone

    would

    love-kiss

    me

     

     

    i

    was

    born

    so

    that

    from

    my

    hips

    which

    i’m

    shaking

    at

    the

    moment

    all

    beings

    would

    dance

    to

    the

    joy

    of

    glory

    in

    god’s

    life

     

     

    I admire everybody who is spreading joy for all beings around them

     

    I’m hugging You Unknown-He

     

    I’m love-kissing You Unknown-She

     

    indescribable joy which fulfils me now is spreading through infinity and timelessness

     

    thank You for reading these words

     

    thank You for existing

     

    thank You for living what is worth living for

     

    we are socialising through our feet

     

    the earth we are walking over finds us joyful

     

    BUD

    3062. day
    20th May 2013

     

    I went to change the wound dressing

     

    many people in the hospital

     

    a lot of trees in the circle of hospitals

     

    music really heals me

     

    I immediately start jigging

     

    music is flower amongst the sounds

     

    in the evening I’ll go to Kosutnjak for a walk

     

    I will take my shirt off

     

    I’m sleeping and working

     

    as soon as I get tired I go to bed and I sleep

     

    the absence of consciousness feels good

     

    as soon as I wake up I go back to the table music and work

     

    the presence of consciousness feels good now

     

    rhythm in the change of rhythm

     

    today I was reading for the first time

     

    I’m imagining life forms without any aggression

     

    only consciousness of all-love

     

    music in the veins of all beings

     

    I am the one and only monk of all-life

     

    I am the one and only nun of all-love

     

    we are one

     

    one word

     

    the two of us love one word

     

    through one word we are one

     

    we love words

     

    we live for words

     

    we trust words

     

    the monastery of all-life is Universe

     

    the monastery of all-love is eternity

     

    we are walking

     

    insouciant

     

    reasonless

     

    bud

     


     

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