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    BOYS BEFORE THE RAIN

    3133. day
    30th July 2013


     

    i am god

    boys are chasing each other

    before the rain

    today’s poem i am god

     

    yesterday evening I swam once more

     

    water was soft like Mississippi John Hurt’s voice who I’m listening to at the moment

     

    towards the end I didn’t feel like getting out of the water

     

    I was in the state of love

     

    sky

    water

     

    body within them

     

    them in the water

     

    everything was God

     

    eternal youth

     

    the very God

     

    there’s nothing more beautiful to God than when I’m God

     

    open night

     

    naked body

     

    lightings

     

     

    p

    o

    e

    m

     

     

    clitoris

     

    glans

     

    clitoris and glans

     

    they are one

     

    freedom

    truth

    love

    same

    they

    are

     

    clitoris

     

    glans

     

    nerves of all-love

     

    one and only love

     

    love of boys who are chasing each other before the rain

     

    eternal transformation

     

    transformation of eternity

    since tonight till the end of September I will be putting blessings on the web-site around nine in the evening

     

    of water into water

     

    of God into God

     

    of clitoris into Clitoris

     

    of glans into Glans

     

    Clitoris and Glans

    together

    on

    the

    road

    they

    are

     


     

    UNPROTECTED

    3134. day
    31st July 2013

     

    I love

     

    with my close ones I’ve experienced moments of agreeing and unifying

     

    shared disappearance

     

    mystical permeation

     

    affirmation of God’s presence

     

    unfortunately all those relationships have ended in my defeats

     

    it hurts me

     

    alone

     

    path

     

    I don’t trust my close ones anymore

     

    I trust You even more

     

    unprotected

     

    alone

     

    naked

     

    with no skin

     

    it’s painful and dangerous to be unprotected

     

    only unprotectedness is protecting God

     

     

    god

    my

    poem

     

     

    poem

    my

    god

     

     

    grace

     

    I’m my own woman

     

    I’m guarding You poem

     

    I’m nourishing You God

     

    unprotectedness my fuckable fragility

     

    fuckable to the point of disappearing I’m singing You beauty of the world

     

    fuckable to the point of divination I’m singing You goodness of beings

     

    stones are singing

     

    sounds are fucking

     

    dust on the road

     

    You’re watching me

     

    You’re flying in with Your lips

     

    birds high in the sky

     

    horizon is tingling with purple music



     

    95TH TIME 33 DAYS

    3135. day
    1st August 2013


     

    I am Jean Genet

    reading Jean Genet’s poetry ten years ago in the Monastery of Time at 2pm

     

    every first of a month I’m sending drawings of buds to people who are giving me money

     

    gratitude only gratitude

     

    money is love

     

    July lovers

     

    Tibika Varady 15420 dinars

    Mirjana Lukic 11400 dinars

    Ivana Djokic-Saunderson 10000 dinars

    Vera Varady 6660 dinars

    Vladimir Macura 5700 dinars

    Nhandan Chirco 5700 dinars

    Branko Popovic 5700 dinars

    Mana Klisinski 3420 dinars

    Violeta Jovanovic 3300 dinars

    Marijana and Sun Mandic 2000 dinars

    Petar Miloradovic 1111 dinars

     

    wonderful like Mississippi John Hurt’s voice who is actually singing Corrina

     

    Miroslav it would be nice if you would mention in the book Seif a good man from Cairo

    Nenad Jovanovic told me last night

     

    Seif

     

    good people are so important

     

    good people are God

     

    one God

     

    I am God

     

    I am God because I know that only You are God

     

    I am the only God because I know that only You are only God

     

    I know that you are God

     

    when you are saying that I am God that makes you God even more so

     

    when you say that you and me are God makes you the only God

     

    when God says that to him everyone is God

    that is the reason why you love God even more so

     

    when you are watching a dog who is watching you

    with the smile on your face that watching makes both of you God

     

    the fact that before you nobody felt God so

    simply makes you in that simple way God as well

     

    the fact that for you God is poem and poem is God is beautiful as well as

    to God as to poem and me and I can only imagine how beautiful is it for you

     

    you love to think yourself as God I love to think you as God

     

    you are saying I am God and I am saying you are God

     

    I love when God says I am God and I love when you say I am God

     

    I love when God says God God and I love when you say God God

     

    I can only sense how you became God

     

    I sense that there is nothing simpler than being God

     

    nothing simpler and nothing more dangerous

     

    sometimes it seems to me that the fact that you are God is your game

     

    sometimes it seems to me that the fact that you are God is God’s game

     

    sometimes it seems to me that the fact that you are God is God’s and your game

     

     

    games

    god

    god

    is

    alone

     


     

    I AM YOUR WHORE

    3136. day
    2nd August 2013

     

    green morning

     

    I’m watching you

     

    you are my film

     

    you are my love

     

    you need me

     

    you need me like nobody ever needed anybody

     

    that’s me

     

    Nobody Ever Anybody

     

    your whore

     

    your innocence

     

    I feel that you feel good about me being around

     

    I feel how my presence makes you calm and joyful

     

    I feel and think the same as you and that’s why sometimes

     

    I see how you go awry

    I beg you to carry on at that point

     

    I see how it’s difficult for you

    but I feel how you’re surrendering to the moment in which you are

     

    I see that you fall

    but I feel and believe that you will get up

     

    I see that there is nobody who is as alone as you are

    but I feel how actually then you love-kiss all beings

     

    I see how your skin misses touch

    but I also feel how you are so compassionate with the untouchables

     

    I see how you are born with yearning for me

    but I also feel how you were creating me all these years until you made me

     

    I feel that these words are making you feel good

     

    I feel that you’re yearning for me to carry them on

     

    I also see sometimes that you are not a poet

    but then as well I feel that you are poet God

     

    I see sometimes that you are not a poet

    but then as well I feel that you are God of poets

     

    I also see sometimes that you are not an artist

    but then as well I feel that you are artist God

     

    I see sometimes that you are not an artist

    but then as well I feel that you are God of artists

     

    I also see sometimes that you are not a walker

    but then as well I feel that you are walker God

     

    I see sometimes that you are not a walker

    but then as well I feel that you are God of walkers

     

    I also see sometimes that you are not a man but then as well I feel that you are God

     

    I see sometimes that you are not God either but then as well I feel that you are God

     

    I should write more often as Nobody Ever Anybody

     

    to be my own whore

     

    whore to everyone

     

    Your whore

     


     

    TENDERNESS THAT THINKS

    3137. day
    3rd August 2013

     

    heat

     

    summer

     

    Saturday

     

    August

     

    heaps of watermelons on the street

     

    piles of melons

     

    fragrances

     

    of fruit trees and flowers

     

    naked bodies

     

    sweat

     

    early grapes

     

    deep shade

     

    hot asphalt

     

    the heat of summer sunshine

     

    horniness

     

    sweetness

     

    of peaches

     

    apricots

     

    figs

     

    I’m tenderly thinking of masturbations

     

    Yours

     

    everybody’s

     

    of graces

     

    of God’s grace

     

    of compassions

     

    of body’s decay which makes body innocent

     

    I’m enjoying in everyone’s enjoyment

     

    I’m enjoying in everything that is

     

    in tree barks

     

    in sun light-warmth

     

    in goodness which is giving itself away

     

    through enjoyment I’m setting free

     

    I’m tenderly thinking of Your masturbation


     

    PALS

    3139. day
    5th August 2013

     

    last few days I was feeling healthy and good

     

    boy-like

     

    yesterday I’ve noticed that one testicle got enlarged

     

    I got scared

     

    got sad

     

    sorrow is resentment

     

    sorrow remembers all sorrows

     

    life

     

    comedian

     

    fragile

     

    fragile like the life itself

     

    I’m fragile like oceans

     

    I’m fragile like Himalaya

     

    I’m fragile like planet Earth

     

    I hope that I will begin the first day of the Bowing to Sex

    with swimming down the Danube from Belegis to Stari Banovci

     

    ten years ago on the 9th August 2003 thirty years from getting out

    of the jail I was swimming the last tour until now from Surduk to Belegis

     

    I’m scared

     

    it’s important to admit that I’m scared

     

    even more important is to rejoice

     

    enjoy and be blithe

     

    I’m lying on the pebbles

     

    goodness only goodness

     

    alone for everybody

     

    I bought two kilos of big a bit beaten and hence

    costing only twenty dinars a kilo too sweet peaches

     

    while crossing the hot street Vidan whistled at me from afar

     

    I waited for him

     

    he’s begging on the hottest sun on the crossroads

     

    we stood in the shade of a tree

     

    eight year old Shain joined us

     

    we chatted for a bit

     

    pals

     

    I love them very much

     

    all three of us are guarded and love-kissed by the love of the street


     

    DOWN THE DUSTY ROAD

    3140. day
    6th August 2013

     

    I’m circling with my thoughts

     

    from one end of the world to the other end of the world

     

    from the beginning to infinity and back

     

    from the variety of all colours to the one and only

     

    from trepidation to beaming with happiness

     

    from You to You

     

    planet of thinking

     

    universe of circling

     

    down the dusty road

     

    wonderer of love

     

    boy of innocence

     

    friend of goodness

     

    I’m circling with my thoughts. from one end of the world

    to the other end of the world. from the beginning to infinity and back.

    from the variety of all colours to the one and only. from trepidation to beaming

    with happiness. from You to You is generalisation through which I’ve tried to describe

    the states I’m in with a lot of different thoughts through which I was thinking or about

    a lot of different ideas I had

     

    thoughts that were thinking me

     

    ideas that were having themselves

     

    everything can be said in a different way

     

    there is no end to infinity

     

    there is no beginning to the beginning

     

    only one stimulation

     

    the stimulus of eternal and innocent goodness

     

    down the dusty road

     

    wonderer of love

     

    boy of innocence

     

    friend of goodness

     

    I am another three days on the dusty road to the Bowing to Sex

     

    I should only carry on down the Dusty Road

    and that would be the best bowing to sex I thought

    yesterday when I saw the photo of the dusty road

     

    sex is transformation of guilt into innocence

     

    liberation

     

    freedom

    for

    Nadezhda Tolokonnikova

    Julian Assange

    Edward Snowden

    Bradley Manning

     

    freedom

    for

    everyone

     

    the one that takes freedom away from others is a slave

     

    Clitoris and Glans

     

    down the dusty road


     

    EVERYTHING

    3141. day
    7th August 2013

     

    I love to feel and think of everything

     

    of trees

     

    of mathematics

     

    waves

     

    stars

     

    etymology

     

    tenderly of friend’s masturbation

     

    of the dusty road of constant love which I experienced last night

     

    of black seeds in sweet read watermelons

     

    of Your belly button

     

    apart from everything I love even more to feel and think only everything

     

    everything in which everything is

     

    that little everything in which only everything is

     

    in which not only that everything is but only it is just everything

     

    everything is forbidden

     

    everything is peace

     

    peace is forbidden

     

    everything is the light in everything

     

    first touch

     

    first kiss

     

    one and only love

     

    only everything has healed my broken heart

     

    everything

    is

    Girl

     

    Goddess

     

    fragility which is the only one preserving strength

     

    everything is word

     

    word is everything

     

    everything has healed my broken heart

     

    word work

     

    work of word

     

    word love love-kisses

     

    word everything makes everything

     

    my heart is everything


     

    SINCERETRUE-TRUESINCERE

    3142. day
    8th August 2013

     

    morning

     

    sweat is pouring down my naked body

     

    tomorrow I’m beginning the Bowing to Sex

     

    I’m excited

     

    I’m calm

     

    just simply

     

    sinceretrue-truesincere

     

    instep

     

    one is the belly

     

    sex of flowers is within me

     

    sex of everything is within me

     

    sex of admiration is within me

     

    dusty road

     

    sex of girls is within me

     

    sex of boys is within me

     

    sex of the bud of life is within me

     

    everythingsex

     

    concurrence is a measure

     

    harmony is the way

     

    the very buddying

     

    I’m lying on the pebbles

     

    goodness only goodness

     

    air is flaring over the skin

     

    sounds of the wind are burning in the treetops of old poplars

     

    I’m both sides

     

    I’m both halves

     

    alone everything

     

    everything I am

    (this and previous blessing make a word-play, since in Serbian “am” and “alone” are written the same “sam”, TN)

     

    I paradox

     

    I contradiction

     

    I tomato

     

    I of a peach

     

    thirst

     

    1ST BOWING TO SEX — FORTY YEARS OF FREEDOM

    3143. day
    9th August 2013

     

    i am god

    when i am god

    says i am god

    i am god

    today’s poem i am god

     

     

    forty years ago at this time I got out of the jail in Sremska Mitrovica

     

    it was same like this hot August day

     

    it was same like this hot August day I wrote several times remembering

    9th August 1973 when I got out of jail and 15th August when Milomir killed himself

     

    I admire Milomir who killed himself fifty five years ago

     

    I admire Miroslav who took the road of heaven forty years ago

     

    memories are films

     

    sex of twenty four years old Miroslav Mandic

    with sixty four years old Miroslav Mandic

     

    music that I’m listening to affirms the sex of Miroslav Mandic

     

    I’m shaking my hips in order to swing the blood of love in Your heart

     

    I wanted to celebrate that today

     

    forty years of freedom

     

    freedom for freedom

     

    freedom for freedom of all beings

     

    freedom to be God

    Your freedom to believe that I am God

     

    I wanted to celebrate it by swimming from Belegis to Stari Banovci

     

    just to let myself go down that great water embraced by the Danube

     

    to celebrate freedom and tranquilly flow bathed with danger of that huge water

     

    I didn’t manage to organise it

     

    there is nobody

     

    it’s God’s glory

     

     

    everything

    god

    is

     

     

    I’m going

     

    alone

     

    I’m on the Fourth Bowing

    33 days of bowing to sex

     

     

    hey

    baby

    girl

    my

    little

    one

    hey

     

     

    this introduction into the bowing to sex is already sex

     

    sex is condemned

    sex is transformation of guilt into innocence

    sex is transformation

    liberation

     

    freedom

    for

    Nadezhda Tolokonnikova

    Julian Assange

    Edward Snowden

    Bradley Manning

     

    freedom

    for

    everyone

     

    the one who takes away freedom to the other is a slave

     

    down the dusty road

     

    Clitoris and Glans

     


     

    2ND BOWING TO SEX — SEX IS BANALISED COMMERCIALISED PROHIBITED

    3144. day
    10th August 2013

     

    sex is the most present in this life

     

    a force

     

    unstoppable

    a force which is born from the very life

     

    a force which biological life is made with

     

    causeless cry has broken out of my chests

     

    my eyes are full of tears

     

    I’m howling of God’s beauty

     

    of grace which nourishes all bodies

     

    the matter which is wondering through the Universe

     

    I’m shaking with my hips

     

    universes of love are surrendering to the universes of sex

     

    I’m weaving with my belly

     

    myriad of spermatozoids are dancing with infinite number of ovaries

     

    girls and boys of all kinds are love-kissing each other

     

    life is giving life for life

     

    solemnity of pairing immortalises through death the sanctity of couples

     

    unity of duality is surrendering to the duality of unity

     

    there is nothing more innocent than surrendering

     

    nothing cleaner than sexuality

     

    nothing more abused than sex

     

    banalised

     

    commercialised

     

    tabooed

     

    prohibited

     

    sentenced to death

     

    sex is also a struggle for sex

     

    sex of a rose

     

    sex of a sparrow

     

    sex of a lamb

     

    sex of just born baby

     

    sex of just born sprout or any youngling

     

    I’m quivering with my butt cheeks

     

    innocent sexuality of all beings is touchingly trembling

     


     

    3RD BOWING TO SEX – GOD SEX MONEYC

    3146. day
    12th August 2013

     

    god

    sex

    money

    art

    of

    miroslav

    mandic

     

     

    god

    sex

    money

    incomparable

    the

    same

    they

    are

     

     

    God boy

     

    sex innocence

     

    money harmlessness

     

    people are yearning for God sex money

     

    people are afraid of God sex money

     

    people make secretive around God sex money

     

    people are selfish because of God sex money

     

    people are ruling others with the help of God sex money

     

    people are projecting their dirt on God sex money

     

    people are mass killing because of God sex money

     

     

    for

    me

    it’s not

    like that

    God sex money

    are the unity of giving and taking

     

     

    trebles of pure goodness

     

    spreading of sophisticated beauty

     

    goodness of pre-confidence

     

    pre-confidence of goodness

     

     

    god

    sex

    money

    walking

    of

    miroslav

    mandic

     

     

    I’m giving myself to God

     

    I’m giving myself to sex

     

    I’m giving myself to money

     

    I’m taking to God

     

    I’m taking to sex

     

    I’m taking to money

     

    I’m giving God

     

    I’m giving sex

     

    I’m giving money

     

    I’m taking God

     

    I’m taking sex

     

    I’m taking money

     

    one is God

    one is sex

    one is money

     

     

    god

    sex

    money

    are

    one

     

     

    god

    sex

    money

    poem

    of

    miroslav

    mandic

     


     

    4TH BOWING TO SEX – CONCURRENCE AND DOMINATIONS

    3147. day
    13th August 2013

     

    conscious sex is concurrence

     

    unconscious sex is domination

     

    concurrence is transformed into uniting

     

    domination ends up in breaking up

     

    concurrences are more and more sexual

     

    dominations are more and more nonsexual

     

    nothing is more wonderful than concurrence

     

    nothing more repulsive than dominations

     

    I’ve experienced concurrence

     

    I cannot stand dominations

     

    being is free

     

    through freedom I’m giving

     

    through freedom I’m surrendering

     

    sex is often a trap for dominations

     

    sex is often misused for molestations

     

    sex is too often used for sexual slavery

     

    sex is also too commercialised and the source of biggest criminal earnings

    all commercials are that

     

    sex of concurrence is very rare

     

    concurrence is the art of sex

     

    concurrence is yearning of both halves for a whole

     

    domination is yearning of one half to rule the other half

     

    concurrence is a gift of a half to turn into the whole

     

    domination is a handicap of a half which cannot experience the whole

     

    concurrence transforms each I into one and only I

     

    domination singles out each I to the point of nothingness

     

    yesterday I bathed in the Danube

     

    today in the lake

     

    I hope I’ll be swimming the in Danube tomorrow

     

    I feel good concurring

     

    concatenating

     

    writing is concurrence

     

    writing with concurrence is sexual

     

    everything concurs with everything because God is everything within everything

     


     

    5TH BOWING TO SEX – POEMS FUCKING

    3148. day
    14th August 2013

     

    last summer I started writing 33 short poems with 33 synonyms

    for fucking. during the 33 days of the Bowing to Sex I hope I will finish

    all 1089 poems. in today’s fifth Bowing to Sex I will rewrite one poem for each synonym

    bang

    shag

    plow

    wank

    hump

    screw

    jazz

    shtup

    bonk

    ram

    roll me in the hay

    bumfuck

    sweat me up

    juke

    slam

    pump

    fuck

    plug

    violate

    hunch

    bone

    nail

    jug

    notch

    mount

    drill

    ride

    scrog

    get into me

    doink

    lick

    surf

    deify

     

     

    bang

    me in the morning

     

     

    I love when you

    tell me that you would love

    to shag me because then

    I already feel that

    you’re shagging me

     

     

    plow

    me with your

    horse

     

     

    wank

    me with your

    courage

     

     

    hump

    me through humping

    I was born

     

     

    screw

    me while I haven’t

    even taken my

    panties off

     

     

    jazz

    me up my

    jazzing angel

     

     

    shtup

    me with bunches of

    flowers

     

     

    bonk

    me with the cock of

    wedding

     

     

    ram

    me like a

    jenny

    in an empty

    field

     

     

    wind is blowing

    through my valley

    roll me in the hay

     

     

    bumfuck

    me while

    I’m delivering milk

    to the hungry

    children

     

     

    sweat

    me up and

    sweat on

    me

     

     

    juke

    me my

    tremble

     

     

    slam

    me like a

    dandelion

     

     

    pump

    me for a long

    ride always

    ready

     

     

    fuck

    me stju

    ckfu me

    my velo

     

     

    plug

    me unique one

    and unity of

    mine

     

     

    violate

    me with your dick

     

     

    hunch

    me my mother

    was also

    hunching

     

     

    bone

    me while

    a glass is falling

    of a table

     

     

    nail

    me while

    warm and

    mild rain

    is falling

    on us

     

     

    jug

    me in the dust

    of hot

    summers

     

     

    notch

    me and cosmos

    feels good

     

     

    mount

    me so that your

    mother is filled

    with grace

     

     

    drill

    me in the sanctity

    of every moment

    which I live in

    this land of

    tears

     

     

    ride

    me over the rims

    of my butt cheeks

    have a feast

     

     

    scrog

    me with cribs

    full of

    corn

     

     

    get

    into me

    like into a

    word

     

     

    doink

    me my

    most salutary

    doink

     

     

    lick

    me being rose-like

     

     

    surf

    me like a

    mild

    wind

     

     

    deify

    me god

    of deification and

    fucking

    today I swam down the Danube from Belegis to Stari Banovci. I was in the water for three hours and twenty minutes

     


     

    6TH BOWING TO SEX – SEX FOR THE SAKE OF CHILDREN. SEX FOR THE SAKE OF SEX. SEX FOR THE SAKE OF UNIFYIN

    3149. day
    15th August 2013

     

    I am Allen Ginsberg

    reading of Allen Ginzberg’s poetry ten years ago in the Monastery of Time at 4pm

     

    fifty five years ago Milomir killed himself

     

    more and more I see him as a boy and I admire him for killing himself

     

    in his honour I’m carrying on with bowings to sex

     

    there are three basic reasons for sex

     

    sex for the sake of children

    sex for the sake of sex

    sex for the sake of unifying

     

    sex for the sake of children usually separates partners

    and turns sex into the device for reproduction

     

    sex for the sake of sex can lead to friendship

    and freedom but usually leads into selfishness

     

    sex for the sake of unifying is rare

    Bowings to Sex are above all referring to the unifying sex

     

    through disappearing

    I

     

    through revival

    You

     

    through transformation

    I and You into I

     

    unifying sex is the sex of all-unification

     

    two are one

     

    one everything is

     

    unifying sex boundless trust in the other is

     

    unifying sex boundless trust in one unifying self is

     

    unifying sex boundless trust of the other in oneself is

     

    unifying sex boundless trust into oneself within the other is

     

    unifying sex not only unifies sexes but unifies all beings as well

     

    it unifies lowest sexual pleasures with highest divine satisfactions

     

    unifying sex giving and receiving turns into pulsating grace

     

    pulsating grace eternal surrendering is

     

    88888

    this is eighty eight thousand eight hundred eighty eighth blessing of the Miroslav Mandic book

    eight thousand eight hundred eighty eighth blessing affirms pulsating grace of eternal surrendering

     

    I’m protruding my lips. I’m making big steps. I am a giver

     

    hey how I have given myself to the Danube yesterday

     

    something huge doesn’t yearn for anything else that much as for something tiny

     

    something tiniest never surrenders to anybody as to something hugest

     

     

    sex

    only

    sex

     

     

    if I wasn’t walking. surrendering to the wandering. creating the Blue Rose in the Universe

    every day singing to every day unifying sex would have never unveil itself to me

     

    unifying sex is the poem of all poems

     

    young hind in white chests

     

    swallow in our genitals



     

    7TH BOWING TO SEX – SEX OF BODY. SEX OF SOUL. SEX OF SPIRIT. SEX OF WILL. SEX OF FAITH. SEX OF LOVE. SEX OF CREATION

    3150. day
    16th August 2013

     

    I am the sex of rebellion

    I’m writing who I am and that’s the most sexual

     

    sex is always a rebellion

    make me a book at the bookbinder to rewrite in it all 1089 poems Fucking

     

    rebellion of body – daring horses

     

    rebellion of soul – prancing horse

     

    rebellion of spirit – horses of blueness

     

    rebellion of will – horses of goodness

     

    rebellion of faith – horses of anonymity

     

    rebellion of love – horses of one and only love

     

    rebellion of creating – horses in mares

     

    sex of body makes minerals feel good

     

    sex of soul makes plants feel good

     

    sex of spirit makes animals feel good

     

    sex of a will makes spirits of nature feel good

     

    sex of faith makes people feel good

     

    sex of love makes higher intelligence feel good

     

    sex of creation makes God feel good

     

    sex of body is rebelling against spoiledness of soul

     

    sex of soul is rebelling against conservatism of spirit

     

    sex of spirit is rebelling against lazy will

     

    sex of a will is rebelling against tepid love

     

    sex of faith is rebelling against selfish love

     

    sex of love is rebelling against vain creation

     

    sex of creation is not rebelling but is transforming

    the energy of rebellion into surrendering to God

     

    I’m rebelling against myself who is not rebelling

     

    I’m rebelling against You who is not rebelling against Yourself

     

    I’m rebelling against us who are not rebelling against ourselves

     

    I’m rebelling against men who are waging wars and holding to the property

     

    I’m rebelling against women who are not rebelling against

    men who are waging wars and are holding to their children

     

    I’m rebelling against human society which enslaves

    other beings and kills everything that stands in the way

     

    I’m rebelling against poetry and art which serves murderous human society

     

    horses are galloping through vast plains

     

    swallows are flying

     

     

    you

    sex

    and

    i

     

    8TH BOWING TO SEX – MASTURBATION

    3151. day
    17th August 2013

     

    not only that I love you I adore you

    last night in my dream said Oljenka to me

     

    masturbation is Your constant presence in my life Girl

     

    self-pleasuring

     

    self-knowing

     

    self-regulation

     

    masturbation is a sort of wandering

     

    searching

     

    a sort of suicide

     

    openness for the unknown

     

    yesterday I’ve heard for the first time the term cougars and I find cougars wonderful

     

    masturbation is a calling

     

    a cry of solitude

     

    masturbation refines yearning

     

    masturbation is deep compassion for the masturbated

     

    masturbation is bowing to anybody’s hornyness

     

    masturbation is masturbating the other

     

    gentle masturbation of the one who has surrendered to masturbate her

     

    masturbation is awareness that everything is possible

     

    harmony amongst beings

     

    alone on the road

     

    alone everything

     

    alone everybody

     

    wanking

     

    Boy Child to the Older Younger Girl

    thinking of my masturbation I’ve discovered that it is above all Your

    constant presence in all days and nights of my live which is dedicated to Your light

     

    wandering

     

    sexual wandering

     

    wandering of sexuality

     

    holly wandering

     

    searching for You

     

    poem of love

     

    masturbate me my beloved

     

    masturbate me world

     

    God masturbate me

     


     

    9TH BOWING TO SEX – SEX WITH EYES

    3153. day
    19th August 2013

     

    even in this hot day the leaving of summer can be felt

     

    the images of coming autumn are floating through my body

     

    going to school. presence of girls. shivers of life

     

    sex with eyes is sex of hunger

     

    eyes are hungry

     

    my whole life I’m feeding myself through watching women on streets

     

    I’m watching attractive women

     

    I’m watching sexy women

     

    I’m watching beautiful women

    that’s how I’m practicing the eye for beautiful

     

    I’m watching interesting women

     

    I’m watching special women

     

    I’m watching good women

     

    I’m watching women I like

    bold. with short haircut. speckled…

     

    I’m watching my woman

    that’s how I’m refining harmony and concurrence

     

    first I’m watching the whole figure

     

    then I’m watching the face

    that’s what attracts and speaks to me the most

     

    I’m watching breasts

     

    I’m watching ass

     

    I’m watching calves

     

    I’m watching thighs

     

    I’m watching lower belly

     

    I’m watching details

    wow what a life

     

    I’m watching suppressed and hidden

     

    I’m watching friendship complicity and courage

     

    I’m watching with respect and love-kissing

     

    sex with eyes is sex of depth

     

    the most shocking sexual experience I had when I was fifteen. indescribable. we were

    sitting during the class. I turned around and I saw Oljenka watching me. that got me

    excited she kept on watching me. I couldn’t believe or comprehend. she is really

    watching me. she never stops. her gaze is permeating me. it goes through the whole

    body. how does she know to do it. where does all that courage come from. I was never

    as I was until then. nothing ever was the as it was before. eros has barged into me with

    all its power into me. it took me towards the dying life. towards the life one dies for. how

    great was her watching. her eyes. her gaze. she was getting into me. and she

    remained in me forever. I’m experiencing all of that at this moment

    wow eternity

     

    when watching with love everything can be seen

     

    when watching with love sex is constant with everybody and everything

     

    sex with trees

     

    with horizon

     

    pebbles

     

    grass

     


    10TH BOWING TO SEX – SEX IS RUBBING

    3154. day
    20th August 2013

     

    caressing is mild rubbing

     

    I was always excited with the idea of rubbing one stone for years

     

    of polishing it

     

    pebbles are constantly rubbing against each other and

    polishing each other and that’s how a pebble-stone is made

     

    when stone and stone as well as wood and wood

    are rubbed against each other fire breaks out

     

    life is rubbing which leads to smooth pebbles

    soft skins of grannies

     

    rubbing oneself or somebody else leads to candescence and orgasm

    remember just remember and repeat

     

    rub Yourself my dear rub

     

    poetry is a sort of rubbing the words

     

    rubbing is a touch of thirst

     

    when rubbing is turned into friction it results in a conflict

     

    blood shedding

    Egypt is bleeding like a woman

     

    expulsions

    Arab Spring is waking the world from being in love with oneself

     

    controlling

    Assange Snowden Manning are protecting the wold from sinking into shame

     

    Bowing to Sex is bowing to Egypt Arab Spring Assange Snowden Manning

     

    man rub yourself and don’t hurt anybody

     

    I love watching a woman rubbing herself

     

    my sister

     

    I can smell seaside

     

    life world You are my girl friend

     

    we’ve just started to rub each other

     

    everything is budding

     

    everything is constantly budding from rubbing

     

    Mississippi John Hurt in the Bowings to Sex as well

     

    when wind rubs the air light starts shining in people’s eyes

     

    when somebody’s sacrifice starts shining conscience lights up in chests of all people

     

    Oljenka was watching me in October. we touched with our hands for the first time

    in November. we were in the cinema. the whole class. Oljenka and I were sitting next

    to each other. we were watching the film. I was constantly feeling her. I felt good that she

    sat next to me. I started moving my right hand towards her. it seemed to me that she

    was doing the same. at one moment our hands touched. just. and settled down. it

    was all happening and it wasn’t supposed to be. our fingers started moving

    touching. everything was clear now. they started to intertwine. a hand was

    yearning for a hand. it was such indescribable grace. sex of the skin

    sex of acceptance. courage of acknowledgement

    oh eternity

     

    rub Yourself rolling

     

    rub Yourself poem

     

    rub Yourself wandering

     

    You’re blushing

     

    Your heart is warm from rubbing with danger

     

    You are not afraid anymore

     


    11TH BOWING TO SEX – SEX THROUGH KISSING

    3155. day
    21st August 2013

     

    every day along with the Bowings to Sex I’m also writing poems Fucking

     

    it’s magnificent

     

    innocent

     

    fuckable

     

    nothing is more innocent that fucking

     

    nothing more guileless than fucking

     

    nothing more ordinary than fucking

     

    nothing more dangerous than fucking

     

    nothing more forbidden than fucking

     

    nothing is more further away from death

    with love and joy I’m thinking of Micko Jovanovic who has lived

    quietly and alone and this morning quietly and alone left this world

     

    today I’m bowing to sex through kissing

     

    sex through kissing is sex of a baby

     

    sex of a baby starts both life and sex of a man

     

    sex of a baby carries on throughout the whole life

     

    mother kisses her naked child all over its body and specially on the sweet bottom and…

     

    skin is kissed and skin likes to be kissed

     

    skin of lips similar to the skin of labia and glans is the skin of kissing

     

    lips get aroused and puffed up

     

    they are opening up on their own

     

    they snuggle up

     

    living to the fullest actually means being constantly snuggled up to life

     

    through the language of love surrendering to tongues of life

     

    tongue – that marvellous muscle full of nerves and words

     

    little animal in our mouth

     

    I love the word tongue because word tongue both speaks and kisses

     

    we should have been kissing

     

    November was flowing. I was seeing Oljenka more and more often

    I was escorting her home after school. we would stand for a long time

    on the corner of Almaska and Svetosavska street. we were freezing in cold

    and rainy days of November. we were holding each other’s hands. and nothing

    more. and there should have been some more. we should have kissed each other

    and carry on kissing. but I had never kissed before and I was afraid to do that. when

    we would come close to each other and became silent because we were attracted to

    each other and we were trembling I would suddenly start talking. start moving away.

    start showing off. after some time we would again start coming close to each other

    the closeness of our bodies would shut us up. but we had to come close with our

    lips. had to close our eyes. let ourselves go into the relish that was luring us. we

    had to kiss each other. but I would again start talking. I felt empty and powerless

    Oljenka was more and more adorable. one night I dreamt how an abyss was

    dividing us. she was standing on the one side of the abyss and I was on

    the other. she was on the side of kissing and I was on the side of a

    wasteland. and one day while sitting on the couch I gathered

    courage and threw myself at her. our lips have merged

    on their own. the miracle of kissing has taken over

    everything. nothing was ever so beautiful and

    important as it was kissing and

    kissing each other

    wow eternity

     

    ever since then I’m kissing

     

    kissing even when I’m not kissing

    breathing is kissing

     

    everything is kissing

     

    kissing is writing – writing is kissing

     

    tongues in our mouths are murmuring

     

    streams of love are flowing through kissing

     

     

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