Testament

You
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bud

THIS TO YOU

I’m singing the testament

to

God

You

All Beings

 

 

 

1

 

after the heart surgery in May 2013 several times I felt some problems. in

August I realised that my biggest problem was that there is nobody whom I could

leave my work to and say my last wish. that’s when I decided to write the testament

 

the testament which is going to

help me find You or help You discover me

 

You

 

who I will hand over my body to and who will scatter my ashes to All Beings

who I will hand over my work to which I call the Bud

and who will hand over the Bud to All Beings

and

You with whom before I die I will finish the Bud

 

the testament This to You is a continuation of A Legacy to Sun Mandic

 

Sun

I am God

sings I

sings God

sings poem

my soul sings to You Sun

that is my legacy to You my dear Sun

all my works are my children

they belong to God and all beings

my work will be taken care of the best by those who

will be dedicate to it with God’s heart

my work is not a subject nor it belongs

to the existing human customs and laws

especially not blood related

I’m writing to You with joy because I know that You understand this and agree with me

when I die my Sun I would like You to feel joy

as well You as everyone I knew

because I live work and create in glory of all beings

I’m immortal

mortality confirms my immortality

one life

one joy

one love

in Lyon – Belgrade 21st December 2009

 

 

2

 

I would like to leave this world with a smile

 

if by that moment You are not around then I’m asking You

that my organs are donated to who needs them

that my body is cremated

and sent off as modest as possible

without church or any other rituals or speeches

only with joy and God’s glory

 

that my ashes are scattered

from the Titel Hill where I have walked around the planet Earth

and started walking the Universe

in the Danube from the railway bridge in Novi Sad

in the Sava from Branko’s Bridge

 

 

3

 

I

Miroslav Mandic

address  IN YOUR HEART

nationality  LIFE OF ALL BEINGS

state  UNIVERSE

marital status  HUSBAND TO ALL BEINGS

children  ALL YOUNGLINGS

religion  GOD

membership  ALONE FOR ALL

attribute  GOD’S CHILD

profession  POET ARTIST WALKER

 

born from the blood of Katica Oprin and Milomir Mandic

Miroslav Mandic who has transformed into Miroslav Mandic

Miroslav Mandic First Poet

Miroslav Mandic One And Only Artist

Miroslav Mandic Greatest Walker

Miroslav Mandic Of All Beings

Miroslav Mandic I

Miroslav Mandic God

Your Miroslav Mandic

at

this 

moment

I’m leaving

the Bud

to You

 

if I didn’t name it the Bud I would have called it a

pebble

roe

baby

chip

bit

Lordy

 

Bud

poem

work

walking

 

Bud

God

You

All Beings

 

Bud

material

immaterial

spiritual

one

 

Bud

independence from the existing system

the system of one and only system

constant creation

transformation

renovation

 

Bud

is supporting You to be

the first

the one and only

the best

 

Bud

is encouraging You to help

the first one

the one and only

the best one

 

 

4

 

BUD – MATERIAL WORK

 

1969-1979

works with the group Code – ideas and concepts

Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother – a sentence

One Man – photographs

Red Notebook – notebook

Poem About Film – text

texts for nothing – texts

Leaves – Tree of Live – drawings

Absolute Drawing – drawings

 

1979-1989

I am the Asphalt and the Grass – text

Poems on Poems – work with poems

I Drew Three Lines Never Drown Before – tree lines

A Line Every Day – drawings

12 Mountains – pictures

12 Trees – pictures

I Am You Are Him – a book

Dripping – performance and paintings

A Trip to America – performance

Commending-Lectures – commending-lectures

Warsaw – a book

First Walking for Poetry – walking

12 Rewritten Novels – pictures

My Name is Miroslav Mandic – poems

Music Stack – performance

No, I Don’t Believe This Sentence Cannot Be Heard – a book

Subotica’s Poem – performance

Second Walking for Poetry – walking

A Man Who is Writing – performance and texts

Third Walking for Poetry – walking

Letter to Friends – a letter

Public Toilet Cleaning in Banjaluka – performance

diaries

 

1989-1999

Punishment and Freedom – video

Fourth Walking for Poetry – walking

Kaja – a book

Rose of Wandering – ten year project

Rose of Wandering – ten year walking

Rose of Wandering 1-10 – ten year book

Grass – ten year picture

All Villages – a book

A Moment – photographs

36 Days in Portugal – Three Bridges – a concept

 

1999-2009

Gerda, Thank You for Your Tenderness – a work on new money

Blue Roses – a picture of the blue rose in the Universe

I Name – a book

Cosmic Rose Garden – drawings

Miroslav Mandic – reflecting upon myself

Monastery of Time – one year performance

Blue Web – a website

Consider the Lilies of the Field – commending-lectures

Poem About Eternal Art – theory

Meetings with My Own Beauty – sculpture

Miroslav Mandic – a book

Blue Roses – third ten year picture

Blue Film – ten year film

Crumpled Because of Love – a work

On the Bridge at Dusk – three year performance

miroslavmandic.name – a website

Solemn Sunday Lunches – video

Autobiography – short autobiography for the website miroslavmandic.name

Bud – my complete work

 

2009-

Bud of Walking – first time second ten year walking

Second First Step – a step

Good Walker – drawings

The Face of Walking – photographs

Bud of a Day – photographs

64 Buds are Singing to the Bud of All Beings – drawings

Numbers – drawings

86400 – two pictures

miroslavmandic.name – new website

I am You are I am God – a book

God By God To God God – a book

I am God – poems

Coffees of Courage – a work on new money

tattoos

 

I have saved everything

this list also contains hundred or so little works

all my works are one work

my work is confirming that there is only

one work

one love

one poem

all my works should stay together forever

 

idea

concept

sentence

photograph

text

picture

performance

work

book

commending-lecture

walking

letter

diary

video

project

money

reflecting upon myself

website

theory

sculpture

film

piece

tattoo

autobiography

are

the

same

 

neighing of a horse in the landscape

theory of everything

God’s smile

constantly amending and carrying on this list

 

 

5

 

BUD – IMMATERIAL WORK

 

1964-1969

breakaway from male society and army – decision

breakaway from social status – decision

effort in taste – process

decision for art – decision

art has flown into me – experience

 

1969-1979

radiance by art – discovery

systems – work

sensibility – sophistication

idea – idea

invisible – revelation

tautology – theory

rebellions through art – undertakings

rebellions within art – transformations

proclamation – poetics

self-proclamation – poem

discovery of I – revelation

I of the art – sophistication

I within the art – sophistication

breakaway from art – sacrifice

fallouts – sacrifice

I headed after my genius – obedience

Great Work of Art from Nothing – vision

Miraculous Work – vision

Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother – revelation

now – sophistication

face – undertaking

buds – lecture

poetry in everything – sophistication

renditions – punishment

withstandings – punishment

Lifted Hand in Prison – sophistication

decisions I made in prison – decision

vegetarianism – solidarity

non-violence – transformation

not getting a job – decision

shortening the step – decision

being quiet – decision

not talking in language of educated people – decision

not possessing – decision

giving books away – decision

homelessness – decision

poverty – decision

modesty – decision

being patient – decision

not attending cultural manifestations – decision

being disobedient towards police and secret societies – decision

being on the side of the rejected and being compassionate towards them – decision

not watching myself in the mirror – decision

Sky – revelation

work on decisions – persistence

jail decisions have become a work – transformation

admirations – sophistication

trees – sophistication

desert years – persistence

yearning for creation – sacrifice

unrecorded films – sacrifice

relinquishments – sacrifice

rooting out – sophistication

suggestive talk – enthusiasm

mystical talk – enthusiasm

conscience – appeasement

consciousness – appeasement

vows – vow

 

1979-1989

art again – revelation

work with Zelimir Zilnik – experience

decision about walking – being

path – sameness

not giving biological birth – giving spiritual birth – decision

carefulness – experience

loneliness – experience

tenderness – sophistication

unprotectedness – sophistication

not-knowing – cognition

goodness – sameness

personality – poem

beauty – sameness

unimportant – sophistication

rhythm – experience

slowness – experience

non-human – cognition

courage – obedience

renunciation of tenancy rights – decision

 

1989-1999

no offspring

no property

no health insurance

no work experience

no bank account

no advocates

no membership

no awards

no public

no police

no army

no market

no funds

no reviews

no critics

no gallerist

no publisher

no mainstream

no weapons

no tools

no salary

no secrets

no lies

 

poet

artist

fool

wanderer

monk

philosopher

beggar

gardener

walker

lover

mystic

miner

shepherd

hero

dancer

musician

mathematician

rebel

pacifist-activist

anarchist-economist

runaway child-good child-boy child

 

rose – sameness

wandering – sameness

circling – sameness

Monuments to Anonymous Forces of Love – monuments

you – experience

myth – experience

fairy-tale – experience

performances during the Rose of Wandering – sophistications

breakaway from the public – decision

rejections – decision

One Man is More Than All People Together – revelation

100 Steps – revelation

God – God

 

1999-2009

failures and the list of failures – loneliness

Fifth Art – loneliness

tears – loneliness

The Most Beautiful Thing in This World is Being With Miroslav Mandic – experience

I wasn’t working for family – every man works for family – solidarity

I wasn’t working for nation – every other man works for nation – solidarity

I wasn’t working for the police – every third man works for the police – solidarity

I wasn’t a member of any organization society or

party – every fourth man is a member of something – solidarity

I am proud I never had a house and family – solidarity

identity card – sameness

I of the public – work

I of the market – work

Miroslav Mandic – love

Virgin Kaja-Virgin Mary – love

just born God’s child – love

God-life-art – one

names of other people – companionships

making names – performances

All Beings – revelation

Bud of All Beings – non-material creation

poem – love

circle – love

bud – love

Eternal Art – one

love-kissing the passers-by and celebration of their faces – experience

Miroslav Mandic is Everybody’s Mother – revelation

I want the greatest success – success after the success of each and All Beings – revelation

 

You and I

SameShe and SameHe

Everything and Everyone

You-I and I-You

Whirlwind and Whirlpool

Rose and Path

ShamedShe and ShameHe

I’ll-Go and I’m-Gone

Good and Beautiful

Life and Thought

Pussy and Cock

Eternal-He and Eternal-She

Please and Thank-You

Hey-Ho and Let’s-Go

Heroine and Hero

Clitoris and Glans

Tramp and Wanderer

Nearness and Farness

Music and Mystic

Strong and Tender

Being and Fucking

Freckled-She and Runaway-He

Tranquillity and Appeasement

Poet and Artist

Mote-She and Moment-He

Doing and Being

Dancing and Singing

Innocence and Loyalty

Thoughtfulness and Care

To Love and To Be Loved

Shamed-She and Frostbitten-He

Creation and Singing

Kiss and Bud

Serving and Kissing

Patience and Endurance

No-Beginning and No-End

Innocent-Hearing and Golden-Spoken

Considering and Acting

Approval and Concurrence

Snuggling and Nuzzling

Runaway Child and Good Child

Insouciance and Unreasonableness

Same-Thinking and Same-Fucking

 

first poet – experience

one and only artist – experience

the best walker – experience

the oldest human being – experience

Goddess – experience

 

2009-

The Bud is Miroslav Mandic Dancing-Walking Singing Creating Every Moment

Everywhere and to Everything Love Eternal Art in the Poem of All Beings – principle

86400 Moments of Art in Each Day – poetics

Bud of All Beings – revelation

immortality – experience

Little Brotherhood of Andre Williams – companionships

The Monument of Love to Etela Merk – a monument

I-Am-You-Are-Him – process

I-Am-You-Are-I – process

I-Am-You-Are-I-Am-Gog – process

Gigolo’s Rates – passings

non-teaming – gesture

grass – I

poppies – I

trees – I

swallows – I

robin – I

horse – I

repetition – I

first of June – I

resurrection – I

anything – I

I love-kiss You love-kiss You – tattoo

The Art That Arises on Its Own – poetics

The Art of Broken Heart – poetics

The Art of Testament – poetics

how I was becoming and become God – process

with the poetics of the other

with the poetics of living

with the poetics of nakedness

with the poetics of I exist

with the poetics of I

with the poetics of I am

with the poetics of ordinariness

with the poetics of a miracle without a miracle

with the poetics of a secret without a secret

with the poetics of notoriety without notoriety

 

all these works have been creating me

I love-kiss you I love-kiss you

changing me

changed I would do new works

new works would change me so that changed I would discover sameness in everything

sameness in all my works

sameness would lead me to loyalty

loyalty to innocence

innocence to love-kissing

love-kissing to fucking

fucking to singing

singing to poem

poem to You

You to God

God to God

 

I’m contemplating whether my work should be kept and shown at all

whether what man creates should be kept and preserved. and what should it be

I would love to be engaged in this especially while I’m alive

 

many of my works I haven’t marked down

this list should be constantly amended and continued

 

 

6

 

BUD – SPIRITUAL SINGING

 

Bud is consisted of

about 69% of spiritual singing

about 23% nonmaterial creation

about 8% of material creation

 

Poem

spiritual singing and systems which I’m creating and singing

which are singing and creating me and All Beings

I always loved to be engaged in them

they are my solace

my childhood

my world

fairy-tale

paradise

 

I’m doing them ever since I can remember

they are independent from each other

each confirms the whole

together they are the very wholeness

they are not connected to space or time

they are not defined by genre by style formally or in any other way

I’m not writing down either moment or place of their occurrence

 

*

Miroslav Mandic

God’s name

man’s name

name of all names

 

*

I was born in present system

I was raised in the system of subaudition

through art I have rebelled against the system

I got out of the system

I have lived and created outside of the system

I have created a lot bigger system

one and only system

system of All Beings

I call it a fairy-tale

I live fairy-tale

 

*

I love-kiss – I am the first poet of All Beings

I create – I am the one and only artist of the one and only art

I walk – I am the best walker of the one and only God

 

*

everything that only one man can

my poem

 

everything that everyone can

my art

 

everything that can be done anyways

my walking

 

*

poetics yes

politics no

 

*

by living I have the experience of God

by walking I am touching God

by creating I live God

by singing I am God

 

*

Life

1950-1960

Transformation

1960-1970

Breakaway

1970-1980

Art

1980-1990

Rose of Wandering

1990-2000

Eternal Art

2000-2010

Miroslav Mandic

2010-2020

Bud

2020-2030

God

2030-2040

 

*

I want to be God

I want You and me to be one

I want that this poem becomes the poem of All Beings

 

*

Miroslav whenever you’re walking you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever you’re swimming you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever you’re listening to music you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever you’re praying you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever you’re stretching out you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever you’re crying you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever you’re fucking you’re doing good

Miroslav whenever…

 

*

1

miroslav mandic art

2

eternal art

3

anonymous art

4

ingenious art

5

talented art

6

academic art

2

national art

 

*

anyone who is for state is fascist

anyone who is for city is communist

anyone who is for roads is liberal

 

mothers are communists

fathers fascists

children liberals

 

root is communism

trunk is liberalism

treetop is fascism

 

*

joy of being

 

*

art of living

 

*

godliness of creation

 

*

lips of constant love-kissing

 

*

mind of constant self-appeasement

 

*

slow outflow of day which celebrates God

 

*

rebirth in exhaustion

 

*

unstoppableness and carefulness

 

*

Your Life is More Important to Me than Mine

 

*

crumpling because of love

 

*

rhythm of sudden change

 

*

tautology and analogy

 

*

humbleness and touchedness

 

*

exhilaration and admiration

 

*

rhythm of repetition

 

*

duty to love-kiss

 

*

belly of coalescence

 

*

tenderness of skin

 

*

throat of a poem

 

*

eros of grannies

 

*

planet of enjoyment and enjoyment in the Planet

 

*

love for Fyodorov’s common world and regulation of the Universe and its museum

 

*

Levinas’s love for the other which is above love for oneself

 

*

experience of God’s love

 

*

everyone who shares God with others is God

 

*

everything and everything can be said only with words

 

*

everything I got from God

 

*

Kosovac Ljubica

 

*

Wittgenstein

Jean-Luc Godard

Jeanne Moreau

Stephane Audran

Jean Seberg

Lee Marvin

Ulrike Meinhof

Gudrun Ensslin

Billie Holiday

Diogenes

Mani

Zarathustra

and all those who I admired and who the book Days of My Life will consist of

 

*

brave ones

 

*

guarding the other from oneself

 

*

moments of waiting the desired person

 

*

desired person

 

*

impertinence to be humble and humbleness to be impertinent

 

*

miracle of rejectedness

 

*

pleasure that is the only left goodness of this world

 

*

looking at any word is like looking at God’s face

 

*

number one with which God can be called any given moment

 

*

the institution of the best friend – Slobodan Tisma

 

*

the institution of reasonlessly happiest man in the world – Miroslav Mandic

 

*

every moment

 

*

every inch

 

*

every letter

 

*

winking

 

*

beauty of my handwriting

 

*

love through which I was love-kissing

 

*

dancing through which I’ve experienced infinity

 

*

fucking through which I’ve been celebrating love of every being

 

*

greatest quantity of love which ever existed

which exists and which will ever exist in one being

 

*

all words in one word

 

*

all colours in all colours

 

*

all touches in each touch

 

*

all thoughts in every thought

 

*

all sacrifices in each sacrifice

 

*

all anythings in each anything

 

*

alone

 

*

alone for everything

 

*

I’m leaving everything and everything to everyone

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Poem from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Art from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Walking from Miroslav Mandic

 

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Sex from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Money from Miroslav Mandic

 

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic I from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic You from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Path from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Rose from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Freedom from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Of All Beings from Miroslav Mandic

 

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic The First One from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic One And Only from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic The Best One from Miroslav Mandic

who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic God from Miroslav Mandic

 

I’m leaving You Kaja and Milomir

Kaja’s grave on the New Cemetery in Novi Sad. Milomir’s on the Alasko Cemetery in Novi Sad

 

wow how much of the unwritten there is

it excites me to write all that down

to sing it

this list should be constantly amended and continued

 

7

 

I don’t own anything except for the Bud which I created

I don’t have any property or money

whole my life I’ve been living and working from the money my friends were giving me

 

presently I live and work in the rented apartment in which the Bud is situated

the Bud is packed in large and small folders

large folders are on the floor and small ones are placed on three metal shelves

 

I would love if You

who are reading these words

would take the Bud and hand it over to All Beings

 

no matter that You are not around I live with You every moment

You are my work. You are my poem

You are someone who shares same thoughts. You are the sameness

You are everyone who has helped me in my life

You are the one who the Bud and all my undertakings belong to

 

in case I die before we meet

I beg You to keep the Bud two-three months in the apartment I lived in

i order to find during that time according to my Testament one of the three solutions

 

Opening

Waiting

Destroying

 

Opening – affirmation and nurturing of the Bud for God You and All Beings

 

Waiting – packing of the Bud for ten hundred or thousand years until You appear

 

Destroying – destroying my work in glory of Miroslav Mandic of the Bud and God

 

yet

I want You to know that I loved You all my life

that I lived that I live and that I will forever live for You

I want You to know that You are immortal

I want You to know that I have tried every day to stop the war

I want You to know that each smile was more powerful than any horror

that God was more present than anyone or anything

 

and

that for me the most important in the Testament is

that

Miroslav Mandic

and

the Bud

belong to

earth

water

air

light

minerals

plants

animals

spirits of nature

people

higher intelligence

eternal art

one and only language of All Beings

All Beings

You

God

non-plundering

non-teaming

non-violence

and

that

they

don’t

belong to

blood

family

nation

state

humankind

civilisation

professions

culture

laws

knowledge

languages

ravishment

teaming

violence

 

 

8

 

poem

is

god

 

 

i

poet

artist

walker

sing

all

beings

you

universe

god

 

 

poem

is

the

only

law

i

trust

and

belong

to

 

 

poem

is

the

only

state

 

 

poem

is

the

only

nation

 

 

poem

is

the

only

family

 

 

poem

of

all-love

to

each

being

 

 

poem

of

freedom

of

all

beings

 

 

I would love to live and work for a long time to come

I would love to work joyfully every day

I would love to work with enthusiasm to my last moment in life

I would love to be ready to die every day

help me in all of that

that is the zero wish of my Testament

 

creation of my work depends on God and me

everything else depends on You

 

 

my

immortality

is

in

the

eyes

of

Yours

 

 

in the Cukarica’s Hillside in the Universe on January 19th 2014