Testament
You
are
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bud
THIS TO YOU
I’m singing the testament
to
God
You
All Beings
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after the heart surgery in May 2013 several times I felt some problems. in
August I realised that my biggest problem was that there is nobody whom I could
leave my work to and say my last wish. that’s when I decided to write the testament
the testament which is going to
help me find You or help You discover me
You
who I will hand over my body to and who will scatter my ashes to All Beings
who I will hand over my work to which I call the Bud
and who will hand over the Bud to All Beings
and
You with whom before I die I will finish the Bud
the testament This to You is a continuation of A Legacy to Sun Mandic
Sun
I am God
sings I
sings God
sings poem
my soul sings to You Sun
that is my legacy to You my dear Sun
all my works are my children
they belong to God and all beings
my work will be taken care of the best by those who
will be dedicate to it with God’s heart
my work is not a subject nor it belongs
to the existing human customs and laws
especially not blood related
I’m writing to You with joy because I know that You understand this and agree with me
when I die my Sun I would like You to feel joy
as well You as everyone I knew
because I live work and create in glory of all beings
I’m immortal
mortality confirms my immortality
one life
one joy
one love
in Lyon – Belgrade 21st December 2009
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I would like to leave this world with a smile
if by that moment You are not around then I’m asking You
that my organs are donated to who needs them
that my body is cremated
and sent off as modest as possible
without church or any other rituals or speeches
only with joy and God’s glory
that my ashes are scattered
from the Titel Hill where I have walked around the planet Earth
and started walking the Universe
in the Danube from the railway bridge in Novi Sad
in the Sava from Branko’s Bridge
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I
Miroslav Mandic
address IN YOUR HEART
nationality LIFE OF ALL BEINGS
state UNIVERSE
marital status HUSBAND TO ALL BEINGS
children ALL YOUNGLINGS
religion GOD
membership ALONE FOR ALL
attribute GOD’S CHILD
profession POET ARTIST WALKER
born from the blood of Katica Oprin and Milomir Mandic
Miroslav Mandic who has transformed into Miroslav Mandic
Miroslav Mandic First Poet
Miroslav Mandic One And Only Artist
Miroslav Mandic Greatest Walker
Miroslav Mandic Of All Beings
Miroslav Mandic I
Miroslav Mandic God
Your Miroslav Mandic
at
this
moment
I’m leaving
the Bud
to You
if I didn’t name it the Bud I would have called it a
pebble
roe
baby
chip
bit
Lordy
Bud
poem
work
walking
Bud
God
You
All Beings
Bud
material
immaterial
spiritual
one
Bud
independence from the existing system
the system of one and only system
constant creation
transformation
renovation
Bud
is supporting You to be
the first
the one and only
the best
Bud
is encouraging You to help
the first one
the one and only
the best one
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BUD – MATERIAL WORK
1969-1979
works with the group Code – ideas and concepts
Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother – a sentence
One Man – photographs
Red Notebook – notebook
Poem About Film – text
texts for nothing – texts
Leaves – Tree of Live – drawings
Absolute Drawing – drawings
1979-1989
I am the Asphalt and the Grass – text
Poems on Poems – work with poems
I Drew Three Lines Never Drown Before – tree lines
A Line Every Day – drawings
12 Mountains – pictures
12 Trees – pictures
I Am You Are Him – a book
Dripping – performance and paintings
A Trip to America – performance
Commending-Lectures – commending-lectures
Warsaw – a book
First Walking for Poetry – walking
12 Rewritten Novels – pictures
My Name is Miroslav Mandic – poems
Music Stack – performance
No, I Don’t Believe This Sentence Cannot Be Heard – a book
Subotica’s Poem – performance
Second Walking for Poetry – walking
A Man Who is Writing – performance and texts
Third Walking for Poetry – walking
Letter to Friends – a letter
Public Toilet Cleaning in Banjaluka – performance
diaries
1989-1999
Punishment and Freedom – video
Fourth Walking for Poetry – walking
Kaja – a book
Rose of Wandering – ten year project
Rose of Wandering – ten year walking
Rose of Wandering 1-10 – ten year book
Grass – ten year picture
All Villages – a book
A Moment – photographs
36 Days in Portugal – Three Bridges – a concept
1999-2009
Gerda, Thank You for Your Tenderness – a work on new money
Blue Roses – a picture of the blue rose in the Universe
I Name – a book
Cosmic Rose Garden – drawings
Miroslav Mandic – reflecting upon myself
Monastery of Time – one year performance
Blue Web – a website
Consider the Lilies of the Field – commending-lectures
Poem About Eternal Art – theory
Meetings with My Own Beauty – sculpture
Miroslav Mandic – a book
Blue Roses – third ten year picture
Blue Film – ten year film
Crumpled Because of Love – a work
On the Bridge at Dusk – three year performance
miroslavmandic.name – a website
Solemn Sunday Lunches – video
Autobiography – short autobiography for the website miroslavmandic.name
Bud – my complete work
2009-
Bud of Walking – first time second ten year walking
Second First Step – a step
Good Walker – drawings
The Face of Walking – photographs
Bud of a Day – photographs
64 Buds are Singing to the Bud of All Beings – drawings
Numbers – drawings
86400 – two pictures
miroslavmandic.name – new website
I am You are I am God – a book
God By God To God God – a book
I am God – poems
Coffees of Courage – a work on new money
tattoos
I have saved everything
this list also contains hundred or so little works
all my works are one work
my work is confirming that there is only
one work
one love
one poem
all my works should stay together forever
idea
concept
sentence
photograph
text
picture
performance
work
book
commending-lecture
walking
letter
diary
video
project
money
reflecting upon myself
website
theory
sculpture
film
piece
tattoo
autobiography
are
the
same
neighing of a horse in the landscape
theory of everything
God’s smile
constantly amending and carrying on this list
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BUD – IMMATERIAL WORK
1964-1969
breakaway from male society and army – decision
breakaway from social status – decision
effort in taste – process
decision for art – decision
art has flown into me – experience
1969-1979
radiance by art – discovery
systems – work
sensibility – sophistication
idea – idea
invisible – revelation
tautology – theory
rebellions through art – undertakings
rebellions within art – transformations
proclamation – poetics
self-proclamation – poem
discovery of I – revelation
I of the art – sophistication
I within the art – sophistication
breakaway from art – sacrifice
fallouts – sacrifice
I headed after my genius – obedience
Great Work of Art from Nothing – vision
Miraculous Work – vision
Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother – revelation
now – sophistication
face – undertaking
buds – lecture
poetry in everything – sophistication
renditions – punishment
withstandings – punishment
Lifted Hand in Prison – sophistication
decisions I made in prison – decision
vegetarianism – solidarity
non-violence – transformation
not getting a job – decision
shortening the step – decision
being quiet – decision
not talking in language of educated people – decision
not possessing – decision
giving books away – decision
homelessness – decision
poverty – decision
modesty – decision
being patient – decision
not attending cultural manifestations – decision
being disobedient towards police and secret societies – decision
being on the side of the rejected and being compassionate towards them – decision
not watching myself in the mirror – decision
Sky – revelation
work on decisions – persistence
jail decisions have become a work – transformation
admirations – sophistication
trees – sophistication
desert years – persistence
yearning for creation – sacrifice
unrecorded films – sacrifice
relinquishments – sacrifice
rooting out – sophistication
suggestive talk – enthusiasm
mystical talk – enthusiasm
conscience – appeasement
consciousness – appeasement
vows – vow
1979-1989
art again – revelation
work with Zelimir Zilnik – experience
decision about walking – being
path – sameness
not giving biological birth – giving spiritual birth – decision
carefulness – experience
loneliness – experience
tenderness – sophistication
unprotectedness – sophistication
not-knowing – cognition
goodness – sameness
personality – poem
beauty – sameness
unimportant – sophistication
rhythm – experience
slowness – experience
non-human – cognition
courage – obedience
renunciation of tenancy rights – decision
1989-1999
no offspring
no property
no health insurance
no work experience
no bank account
no advocates
no membership
no awards
no public
no police
no army
no market
no funds
no reviews
no critics
no gallerist
no publisher
no mainstream
no weapons
no tools
no salary
no secrets
no lies
poet
artist
fool
wanderer
monk
philosopher
beggar
gardener
walker
lover
mystic
miner
shepherd
hero
dancer
musician
mathematician
rebel
pacifist-activist
anarchist-economist
runaway child-good child-boy child
rose – sameness
wandering – sameness
circling – sameness
Monuments to Anonymous Forces of Love – monuments
you – experience
myth – experience
fairy-tale – experience
performances during the Rose of Wandering – sophistications
breakaway from the public – decision
rejections – decision
One Man is More Than All People Together – revelation
100 Steps – revelation
God – God
1999-2009
failures and the list of failures – loneliness
Fifth Art – loneliness
tears – loneliness
The Most Beautiful Thing in This World is Being With Miroslav Mandic – experience
I wasn’t working for family – every man works for family – solidarity
I wasn’t working for nation – every other man works for nation – solidarity
I wasn’t working for the police – every third man works for the police – solidarity
I wasn’t a member of any organization society or
party – every fourth man is a member of something – solidarity
I am proud I never had a house and family – solidarity
identity card – sameness
I of the public – work
I of the market – work
Miroslav Mandic – love
Virgin Kaja-Virgin Mary – love
just born God’s child – love
God-life-art – one
names of other people – companionships
making names – performances
All Beings – revelation
Bud of All Beings – non-material creation
poem – love
circle – love
bud – love
Eternal Art – one
love-kissing the passers-by and celebration of their faces – experience
Miroslav Mandic is Everybody’s Mother – revelation
I want the greatest success – success after the success of each and All Beings – revelation
You and I
SameShe and SameHe
Everything and Everyone
You-I and I-You
Whirlwind and Whirlpool
Rose and Path
ShamedShe and ShameHe
I’ll-Go and I’m-Gone
Good and Beautiful
Life and Thought
Pussy and Cock
Eternal-He and Eternal-She
Please and Thank-You
Hey-Ho and Let’s-Go
Heroine and Hero
Clitoris and Glans
Tramp and Wanderer
Nearness and Farness
Music and Mystic
Strong and Tender
Being and Fucking
Freckled-She and Runaway-He
Tranquillity and Appeasement
Poet and Artist
Mote-She and Moment-He
Doing and Being
Dancing and Singing
Innocence and Loyalty
Thoughtfulness and Care
To Love and To Be Loved
Shamed-She and Frostbitten-He
Creation and Singing
Kiss and Bud
Serving and Kissing
Patience and Endurance
No-Beginning and No-End
Innocent-Hearing and Golden-Spoken
Considering and Acting
Approval and Concurrence
Snuggling and Nuzzling
Runaway Child and Good Child
Insouciance and Unreasonableness
Same-Thinking and Same-Fucking
first poet – experience
one and only artist – experience
the best walker – experience
the oldest human being – experience
Goddess – experience
2009-
The Bud is Miroslav Mandic Dancing-Walking Singing Creating Every Moment
Everywhere and to Everything Love Eternal Art in the Poem of All Beings – principle
86400 Moments of Art in Each Day – poetics
Bud of All Beings – revelation
immortality – experience
Little Brotherhood of Andre Williams – companionships
The Monument of Love to Etela Merk – a monument
I-Am-You-Are-Him – process
I-Am-You-Are-I – process
I-Am-You-Are-I-Am-Gog – process
Gigolo’s Rates – passings
non-teaming – gesture
grass – I
poppies – I
trees – I
swallows – I
robin – I
horse – I
repetition – I
first of June – I
resurrection – I
anything – I
I love-kiss You love-kiss You – tattoo
The Art That Arises on Its Own – poetics
The Art of Broken Heart – poetics
The Art of Testament – poetics
how I was becoming and become God – process
with the poetics of the other
with the poetics of living
with the poetics of nakedness
with the poetics of I exist
with the poetics of I
with the poetics of I am
with the poetics of ordinariness
with the poetics of a miracle without a miracle
with the poetics of a secret without a secret
with the poetics of notoriety without notoriety
all these works have been creating me
I love-kiss you I love-kiss you
changing me
changed I would do new works
new works would change me so that changed I would discover sameness in everything
sameness in all my works
sameness would lead me to loyalty
loyalty to innocence
innocence to love-kissing
love-kissing to fucking
fucking to singing
singing to poem
poem to You
You to God
God to God
I’m contemplating whether my work should be kept and shown at all
whether what man creates should be kept and preserved. and what should it be
I would love to be engaged in this especially while I’m alive
many of my works I haven’t marked down
this list should be constantly amended and continued
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BUD – SPIRITUAL SINGING
Bud is consisted of
about 69% of spiritual singing
about 23% nonmaterial creation
about 8% of material creation
Poem
spiritual singing and systems which I’m creating and singing
which are singing and creating me and All Beings
I always loved to be engaged in them
they are my solace
my childhood
my world
fairy-tale
paradise
I’m doing them ever since I can remember
they are independent from each other
each confirms the whole
together they are the very wholeness
they are not connected to space or time
they are not defined by genre by style formally or in any other way
I’m not writing down either moment or place of their occurrence
*
Miroslav Mandic
God’s name
man’s name
name of all names
*
I was born in present system
I was raised in the system of subaudition
through art I have rebelled against the system
I got out of the system
I have lived and created outside of the system
I have created a lot bigger system
one and only system
system of All Beings
I call it a fairy-tale
I live fairy-tale
*
I love-kiss – I am the first poet of All Beings
I create – I am the one and only artist of the one and only art
I walk – I am the best walker of the one and only God
*
everything that only one man can
my poem
everything that everyone can
my art
everything that can be done anyways
my walking
*
poetics yes
politics no
*
by living I have the experience of God
by walking I am touching God
by creating I live God
by singing I am God
*
Life
1950-1960
Transformation
1960-1970
Breakaway
1970-1980
Art
1980-1990
Rose of Wandering
1990-2000
Eternal Art
2000-2010
Miroslav Mandic
2010-2020
Bud
2020-2030
God
2030-2040
*
I want to be God
I want You and me to be one
I want that this poem becomes the poem of All Beings
*
Miroslav whenever you’re walking you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever you’re swimming you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever you’re listening to music you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever you’re praying you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever you’re stretching out you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever you’re crying you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever you’re fucking you’re doing good
Miroslav whenever…
*
1
miroslav mandic art
2
eternal art
3
anonymous art
4
ingenious art
5
talented art
6
academic art
2
national art
*
anyone who is for state is fascist
anyone who is for city is communist
anyone who is for roads is liberal
mothers are communists
fathers fascists
children liberals
root is communism
trunk is liberalism
treetop is fascism
*
joy of being
*
art of living
*
godliness of creation
*
lips of constant love-kissing
*
mind of constant self-appeasement
*
slow outflow of day which celebrates God
*
rebirth in exhaustion
*
unstoppableness and carefulness
*
Your Life is More Important to Me than Mine
*
crumpling because of love
*
rhythm of sudden change
*
tautology and analogy
*
humbleness and touchedness
*
exhilaration and admiration
*
rhythm of repetition
*
duty to love-kiss
*
belly of coalescence
*
tenderness of skin
*
throat of a poem
*
eros of grannies
*
planet of enjoyment and enjoyment in the Planet
*
love for Fyodorov’s common world and regulation of the Universe and its museum
*
Levinas’s love for the other which is above love for oneself
*
experience of God’s love
*
everyone who shares God with others is God
*
everything and everything can be said only with words
*
everything I got from God
*
Kosovac Ljubica
*
Wittgenstein
Jean-Luc Godard
Jeanne Moreau
Stephane Audran
Jean Seberg
Lee Marvin
Ulrike Meinhof
Gudrun Ensslin
Billie Holiday
Diogenes
Mani
Zarathustra
…
and all those who I admired and who the book Days of My Life will consist of
*
brave ones
*
guarding the other from oneself
*
moments of waiting the desired person
*
desired person
*
impertinence to be humble and humbleness to be impertinent
*
miracle of rejectedness
*
pleasure that is the only left goodness of this world
*
looking at any word is like looking at God’s face
*
number one with which God can be called any given moment
*
the institution of the best friend – Slobodan Tisma
*
the institution of reasonlessly happiest man in the world – Miroslav Mandic
*
every moment
*
every inch
*
every letter
*
winking
*
beauty of my handwriting
*
love through which I was love-kissing
*
dancing through which I’ve experienced infinity
*
fucking through which I’ve been celebrating love of every being
*
greatest quantity of love which ever existed
which exists and which will ever exist in one being
*
all words in one word
*
all colours in all colours
*
all touches in each touch
*
all thoughts in every thought
*
all sacrifices in each sacrifice
*
all anythings in each anything
*
alone
*
alone for everything
*
I’m leaving everything and everything to everyone
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Poem from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Art from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Walking from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Sex from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Money from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic I from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic You from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Path from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Rose from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Freedom from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic Of All Beings from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic The First One from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic One And Only from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic The Best One from Miroslav Mandic
who will be constantly creating Miroslav Mandic God from Miroslav Mandic
I’m leaving You Kaja and Milomir
Kaja’s grave on the New Cemetery in Novi Sad. Milomir’s on the Alasko Cemetery in Novi Sad
wow how much of the unwritten there is
it excites me to write all that down
to sing it
this list should be constantly amended and continued
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I don’t own anything except for the Bud which I created
I don’t have any property or money
whole my life I’ve been living and working from the money my friends were giving me
presently I live and work in the rented apartment in which the Bud is situated
the Bud is packed in large and small folders
large folders are on the floor and small ones are placed on three metal shelves
I would love if You
who are reading these words
would take the Bud and hand it over to All Beings
no matter that You are not around I live with You every moment
You are my work. You are my poem
You are someone who shares same thoughts. You are the sameness
You are everyone who has helped me in my life
You are the one who the Bud and all my undertakings belong to
in case I die before we meet
I beg You to keep the Bud two-three months in the apartment I lived in
i order to find during that time according to my Testament one of the three solutions
Opening
Waiting
Destroying
Opening – affirmation and nurturing of the Bud for God You and All Beings
Waiting – packing of the Bud for ten hundred or thousand years until You appear
Destroying – destroying my work in glory of Miroslav Mandic of the Bud and God
yet
I want You to know that I loved You all my life
that I lived that I live and that I will forever live for You
I want You to know that You are immortal
I want You to know that I have tried every day to stop the war
I want You to know that each smile was more powerful than any horror
that God was more present than anyone or anything
and
that for me the most important in the Testament is
that
Miroslav Mandic
and
the Bud
belong to
earth
water
air
light
minerals
plants
animals
spirits of nature
people
higher intelligence
eternal art
one and only language of All Beings
All Beings
You
God
non-plundering
non-teaming
non-violence
and
that
they
don’t
belong to
blood
family
nation
state
humankind
civilisation
professions
culture
laws
knowledge
languages
ravishment
teaming
violence
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poem
is
god
i
poet
artist
walker
sing
all
beings
you
universe
god
poem
is
the
only
law
i
trust
and
belong
to
poem
is
the
only
state
poem
is
the
only
nation
poem
is
the
only
family
poem
of
all-love
to
each
being
poem
of
freedom
of
all
beings
I would love to live and work for a long time to come
I would love to work joyfully every day
I would love to work with enthusiasm to my last moment in life
I would love to be ready to die every day
help me in all of that
that is the zero wish of my Testament
creation of my work depends on God and me
everything else depends on You
my
immortality
is
in
the
eyes
of
Yours
in the Cukarica’s Hillside in the Universe on January 19th 2014