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DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 901 TO NUMBER 912

2338. day
27th May 2011

art is jail decisions that became my work. poems within stories of freedom

through which I was surrendering to the freedom of freedom

 

art is admiration. a pussy in soul of every being

 

art is trees. open sexuality of trees opened my mind

 

art is uprooting. I returned to the tacit history of the beginning

 

art is suggestive speech. innocence which I was dazzled with in the other

 

art is mystical speech. energetic transformation of energy into God

 

art is surrendering-lectures. through surrendering to You

I was surrendering myself to the lecture that dwells only within You

 

art is conscience. art is this poem which I’m writing with this moment

 

art is consciousness. bowings through which I’m bowing

to the bowings of the most loyal ones

 

art is not to wait for a woman any more. I’m running towards a girl that

is giving birth to me within her through God poet artist and walker

 

art is oaths. all spaces and all times within

one and only oath of Miroslav Mandic Wedding

 

art is carefulness. I’ve discovered it on the Second Walking for Poetry

and from then on carefulness lives within me and in moments of my greatest roughness

 

sing yourself within me

hoy

 

always and forever love-kiss yourself within me

ouch

 

previous three days Definitions of Art have been elevating me

 

I am a child in front of the child of abyss

 

danger

 

more flowery Chilean Sauvignon Blanc from 2010 with 12,5% alcohol I find

more pleasant then Montenegrian Chardonnay from 2009 with 13%

 

little flower in the meadow

 

undecipherable play within a particle

 

a little bit

 

I am god

testimony

about

goodness of every boy

and

innocence of every girl

today’s poem from the book I am You are I

 

while I’m writing today’s blessings and drinking Chilean Sauvignon Blanc

I’m getting ready for today’s meeting around five with young mister

Djordje Lukic who will be eighteen on 17th July 2011

 

fuckable is fucking fuckable

 

path loyal to rose

 

rose to path

 

Your yearning gurgles within me through Your immortality

 

dice just told me not to ask You about Zajecar and not to send an e-mail

of love to Your wife while You are absent from home my friend even though

I’ve told You I will do it because I love her with same love for You and all beings

 

I just wrote You a message because the dice told me that

I can do it but I gave up on letting You know about my present

excitements so that I wouldn’t upset affirmations of carefulness towards

all beings to which I’m loyal and through which all beings live from each other

 

find

yourself

within

me

 

flourish

within

me

through

god

 

down the road

 

by the bud

 

DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 913 TO NUMBER 924

2339. day
28th May 2011

art is prayer. disappearing in surrendering to the arch-confidence

 

art is not giving birth biologically – it’s giving birth spiritually. I was thirty

eight. since then for twenty four years now I’m constantly giving birth to You

 

art is loneliness. same thing You are feeling now

 

art is tenderness. revolution through adhesion

 

art is unprotectedness. a girl of bravery in my veins

 

art is non-knowledge. tranquillity of knowledge in fool’s smile and poet’s words

 

art is goodness. speed of light with which horse barges into the mare

 

art is beauty. light speed with which mare accepts the barging of the horse

 

art is a person. God’s face of some Slavica somewhere

 

art is patience. supressed sexuality of fears releases itself

through patience in which there are no more fears even in the fear itself

 

art is invisible. fairy-tale in all stories. story in each poem

 

art is what’s unimportant. pulsating of one and only in the chests of every being

 

art in my Definitions of Art awakens immortality within all beings

 

art in my Definitions of Art awakens what’s expected for every being

 

art in my Definitions of Art awakens love in every being

 

I miss my walking and I’m not sure if my heels and Achilles’ tendons are better

 

I hoovered my apartment in order to get a bit sweaty

 

I’m a bit tired of everything

 

sad

 

being sad I’m love-kissing sorrow

 

sadness – joy me

 

sadness – let’s joy

 

we will

sadness screamed

 

I find flowery Chilean Sauvignon Blanc from 2010 with 12.5% alcohol

nicer from today’s own picking Thalia from 2009 with 11.5% alcohol

 

as if I’m eating flowers

 

mountain

 

sunny

 

bathed with smells of ocean that warm air carries towards cold tops

 

when I will be eating grapes in the autumn I will remember these wines

 

when I will be swimming this late afternoon I will remember Your sexiest body

 

with my head bent I’m bowing to the wine of Your unselfishness

 

with baby potatoes that are cooling down

 

sex of all beings is guarding every being with love

 

DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 937 TO NUMBER 948

2341. day
30th May 2011


art is me without progeny and without property

invisible thread of Your life in every life

 

art is me without health insurance and without being employed

faith hope and love for Your health and creation of all beings

 

art is me without bank account and without attorney

faith hope and love so that Your money will flow to me without banks and administration

 

art is me without scholarships and without membership

faith hope and love for You because You and You and You… and membership never

 

art is me without awards and without funds

faith hope and love is changing of Your mind through which vibrations are even better

 

art is me without police and army

faith hope and love for Your innocence through which only an atom itself exists

 

art is me without public and without market

faith hope and love of my I for Your I and every I every day

 

art is me without reviews and without critics

faith hope and love of Your beginning of every moment in surrendering to my eternity

 

art is me without gallerist and without publisher

faith hope and love for Your who live from me for God and all beings

 

art is me without mainstream and without salary

faith hope and love of Your money which I conjure as a salary of immortality

 

art is me without secrets and without lies

faith hope and love for Your harmlessness and innocence my only girl

 

art is me without arms and without tools

faith hope and love for Your nakedness with whose beauty all beings are bathing

 

Definitions of Art are Billie Holiday’s voice in every word of mine

 

Definitions of Art are my caregivers through which I care for all particles

 

Definitions of Art are caring through which I care for all caregivers

 

Definitions of Art are Tomislava Sekulic

 

today I saw You for the first time within Your Self

 

Tomislava Sekulic

 

I’m sending You gentle greetings my Tomislava

 

I am a path within Your being

 

You are the rose within mine

 

spirals are circling

throat is hugging a throat with hugging

(in Serbian hugging and throat sound the same: grlo grljenjem grli grlo)

 

today I’m drinking strongest and oldest wine. Hungarian

Balatoni from 2003 with 13.5% alcohol which is after Chilean

Sauvignon Blanc nicest even though I don’t feel flowers in it

 

after pouring new glass of wine chair touched me and I thought Your hand

 

don’t give up not-giving-up

 

join me joining

 

nestle nestling

 

female-identical to male-identical

 

to the only one

 

Miroslav Mandic

 

sunny glades

 

oath within an oath

first letters written by Miroslav Mandic that certain just born children got

 

all women of my life are all women of one and only life

one and only girl within each woman – to my girl – one and only woman of all beings

DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 949 TO NUMBER 960

2342. day
31st May 2011

art is grass. magnificent neglected ordinariness

 

art are sparrows. healing presence

 

art are poppies. just as much as my fields start getting red in Your soul

 

art are swallows. placidity by blueness – smouldering by air-writing of all beings

 

art is a robin. chirping through which I’m inviting robins to chirp in the Chirping One

 

art is a horse. thuds of loyalty

 

art is repetition. concatenation of a body on bodies

 

art are moments. wink of winking

constant winking of love that those who are in love don’t notice and those who use banality of evil eliminate

 

art is first of June. hey tomorrow’s 1st June 2011 that will come and go

 

art is resurrection. gardening through Your orgasms

 

art are rejections. all my rejections are art works

and I join them to the wholeness of my work

 

art is blue money. art of money within blue buds

loathing the violence of civilisation

 

Definitions of Art are expansions of analogies in one and only art

 

Definitions of Art are when yearning flies towards yearning

 

Definitions of Art are when a scream screams to the scream

 

Definitions of Art are non-differentiations that admonish sameness

 

hey one is our mother – the fuckable one. hey one is our father – the fuckable one

 

I’ve listened enough stories about not fucked enough mothers

 

I’ve listened enough stories about cocky fathers

 

today Spanish wine Finza Alta with 12% alcohol

 

red rose on the table

 

sensuality is most abstract

 

the most sensual abstraction

 

smell of baby potatoes

 

vegetable poisoning that is spreading through Europe

 

vegetable selling woman who sold me young lettuce told me

where are you I haven’t seen you for a while

 

I’m drinking wine – I’m suckling You

 

love is a being

 

a being loves to love-kiss

 

when a being doesn’t love-kiss a being kills beings

 

I adore Your body and that’s why don’t prevent me with Your body to get to my spirit

 

I adore Your life and that’s why don’t prevent me

with Your life to get to the life of all beings

 

sex is milk through which God nurses his beings

 

71ST TIME 33 DAYS AND DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 961 TO NUMBER 972

2343. day
1st June 2011

art is you. stimulation of hope

 

art is myth. hand raised in the air

 

art is a fairy tale. plainest plainness

 

art is danger. save me today as well my danger

 

art is 100 steps. Your hundred kisses feet that walked hundred steps

 

art is that the most beautiful thing is to be with Miroslav Mandic 

love is courage and courage is love and sms that I’ve sent to one mother and her son

 

art is my ID. sanctity of sameness in every particle and in any kiss

 

art are couples. I of public and I of market. you and I. rose and path

pussy and cock. poet and artist. dancing and singing. please and thank you

insouciance and unreasonableness. patience and suffering. carefullness and care

 

art is Fourth Art. it saved both me and Rose of Wandering during the Rose of Wandering

 

art is Fifth Art. into which I casted off infront of

the few of my young frineds on 8th December 2001

 

art is the System of Seven Arts. constant overlapping and vibrating

of everything within everything

 

art is Miroslav Mandic Art. one and only love

and one and only singing of each being to all beings

 

first June again

 

Definitons of Art is art of defining

 

Definitons of Art are love whispering – of the alone ones to the lonely ones

 

Definitons of Art are corridors that are not leading me anywhere but that are singing me

 

Definitons of Art are boyish joy whith which I can hardly wait

the next day so that I could sing new Definitons of Art

 

today as well as yesterday patience fucked the unbearable

 

everything that I can’t bare about You I actually love-kiss from all my heart

 

God as well as me and You and love is only what is now and here

 

God as well as me and You and love is only what is eternal and infinit

 

God as well as me and You and love is only fuckable immortality

 

with stomach

 

with throaght use me

 

I love You because You are never here when I need You

 

You weaned me from Yourslef

 

delivered me to the one who is always here

Little Goddess

 

on first of June I broke up with Kaja Cirilovic

 

five years of solitude

 

five years of flowers

 

five years of deification

 

five years in glory of five years

 

first of June is over again 

 

 

DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 973 TO NUMBER 984

2344. day
2nd June 2011

art is invention of names. my name is I Am A Husband And Love To Every Whore

 

art is that I’m not a member of any professional or any

other association. I kiss all kisses through which all beings kiss themselves

I pulsate through orgasms through which beings are cominggggg kissing each other

 

art is love-kissing passers-by and celebrating their Godly faces

sublimity of unnamed and unnoticed plays which I’m creating every day

 

art are all beings. I repeat art are all beings

 

art is Miroslav Mandic wants greatest success. success after the success of all beings

I am a success in everyone’s success. and in the end of time all successes will

celebrate all failures and will rejoice one and only Miroslav Mandic Success

 

art is Miroslav Mandic is singing creating and walking

every moment everywhere and to everything love – eternal art in a poem of all beings

 

art is Bud of All Beings. one and only one to the one and only one

 

art is immortality. You make me immortal – that’s so simple

 

art are 86400 moments of Miroslav Mandic’s life in every day. rain that

just started to pour so I immediately turned off the music

in order to listen the music of thunder and rain

 

art are 86400 Miroslav Mandic’s works of art every day. only thing we want

is to fuck my mother – my father – my sister – my brother – my daughter – my son

 

art is Virgin Kaja girl Virgin Mary. it was beautiful to be born from Kaja’s vagina

and to realise in my sixtieth that Virgin Mary gave birth to me

 

art is just born God’s child. I’m being born

every moment to God’s to Yours and all beings’ joy

 

wow how defining liberates me and surrenders to Your surrendering

 

wow

I

am

just

a

poem

wow

 

Definitions of Art are unknown to me Tomislava Sekulic in all beings

 

Definitions of Art are Tomislava Sekulic and love of all beings for Tomislava Sekulic

 

Definitions of Art are Your love for Tomislava Sekulic

 

Definitions of Art are Tomislava Sekulic who love-kisses You

 

everything that I am is Tomislava Sekulic

nobody should ever renounce Tomislava Sekulic

nobody should start a day without love-kissing Tomislava Sekulic

everything that I sing is because of Tomislava Sekulic only You know that

 

innocence-ing

(in Serbian: čednijanje)

 

to the children

(čedima)

 

to the innocent ones

(čednima)

 

through you-I-ing

 

You

 

I-ing

 

I adore You adored woman

 

You and me love each other for love’s sake not for life’s sake

 

cry through love-kissing me – through love-kissing me transform yourself

one are the tears-the only tears – sms that I sent to You at 14:17

sing through love-kissing and love-kiss Miroslav – sms that I sent to myself at 14:18

 

it pours again

 

p

o

e

m

p

o

u

r

s

 

clitoris pours

 

first orgasm pours

 

we are pouring

 

DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 985 TO NUMBER 996

2345. day
3rd June 2011

art is God. Miroslav Mandic God

 

art is Goddess. Miroslav Mandic Goddess

 

art is God-life-art

Miroslav Mandic-Miroslav Mandic-Miroslav Mandic 

 

art is God-sex-money

Miroslav Mandic-Miroslav Mandic-Miroslav Mandic 

 

art is oldest human being. Miroslav Mandic in flash and blood

 

art is I and you. Miroslav Mandic and Miroslav Mandic

 

art is I and you – one and only Miroslav Mandic I

 

art is face. Miroslav Mandic face

 

art is walking. Miroslav Mandic walking

 

art is path. Miroslav Mandic path

 

art is rose. Miroslav Mandic rose

 

art is wandering. Miroslav Mandic wandering

 

Definitions of Art are one and only name of all names and each Miroslav Mandic name

trembling

 

Definitions of Art is Miroslav Mandic sexuality

and asexuality of Your oppositions to Your one and only I

 

joy of a fucked heart heals all fucked up hearts

 

Simone Boué

Emil Cioran’s companion and my admiration for her suicide

 

sameness is achieved through constant transformation

 

difference is consequence of not changing

 

sameness is truth – difference is illusion

 

I love You a lot all these years

 

I’m creating You – You are singing me

and if I don’t understand You and if You don’t hear me it’s a sin vanity and stupidity

 

I’m leaving in order to transform sin vanity and stupidity within every being

 

enlightened boy doesn’t let down a girl

 

loving girl doesn’t betray a boy

 

disbelief and rivalry are surrounding me

 

I’m going towards deification and companionship

 

path is a path

 

rose is a rose

 

walking is singing

 

Miroslav Mandic of Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic

Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic

Miroslav Mandic with Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic

Miroslav Mandic hey Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic

 

Miroslav Mandic all words which are flowing towards their source

 

Miroslav Mandic word which is flying towards its source

 

c

i

d

n

a

m

 

v

a

l

s

o

r

i

m

 

 

DEFINITIONS OF ART FROM NUMBER 997 TO NUMBER 1008

2346. day
4th June 2011

art is bud. same budding in everything

 

art is a circle. incomprehensible beauty of comprehensible goodness

 

art is circling. sometimes I call You dancing

sometimes walking – sometimes shake it baby shake it

 

art is a poem. my life is more important to me than Yours

dedicated to Mirjana Lukic

 

art is I-am-You-are-I

I

a

m

Y

o

u

a

r

e

I

 

art is Bud of All Beings – God’s rose

calm sunny afternoon soaked with smells of light in anybody’s heart

 

art is the best one. balls of courage of most gentle lips

while writing this definition I’m hearing the thunder in the distance. airplane and child’s voice

 

art is Miroslav Mandic is Everybody’s Mother in eternity

as is Miroslav Mandic Fucks Everybody’s Mother in youth

 

art is one and only artist. the name of the first

the one and only artist is Miroslav Mandic

 

art is a poet of all beings. the name of the first poet of all beings is Miroslav Mandic

 

art is the walker of the one and only one. the name of the

first walker of the one and only one is Miroslav Mandic

 

art is Miroslav Mandic. creating singing and love-kissing

through one and only name of Yours – Miroslav Mandic name

 

Kaja happy eighty fifth birthday to You

my little girl – mother of all mothers – little girl in every little girl

 

woman of all women

girls give birth to women

 

woman of all men

love creates woman

 

Kaja my dandelion

God love-kisses woman-dandelion

 

splash of resurrection

 

happy birthday also to all mothers that didn’t give birth or

if they did but if in both cases they are mothers to all beings

 

happy birthday also to all mothers that have renounced

their motherhood in glory of one and only mother of all beings

 

if at some point somewhere in Your heart you meet Kaja

drink a glass of brandy and cup of coffee with her

 

I’ve finished writing of this year’s Definitions of Art from number

865 to number 1008. Definitions are flowers of innocence in torn flowers

through the tunnel of light

 

let’s go I – says I. let’s go – says I to me

 

I

my lamb

 

let’s wake

 

wake through Cosmos

 

wake through Outer Space

 

wake through Universe

 

wake through Planet which guards each being from horrible globalisation of the selfish

we are free of charge but with greatest prise – blue money – money of resurrection and immortality

 

let’s wake

 

let’s drink

through rebellion

power is dead

 

with conscience

 

through one and only love – not through relationships and businesses

 

with womb of each word I refine each word of heart

with heart of each word I impregnate each word of mind

with mind of each word I fuck with each word of love

through whirlwinds of tranquillity and through tranquillity of whirlwinds female and male fucker are one

 

 

DAYS THAT FOLLOW

2348. day
6th June 2011

Milomir happy ninety fifth birthday to You

 

let’s get going through the days that follow

 

forty years old ones from the beginning of being engaged in art

 

twenty years old ones from the beginning of Rose of Wandering

 

after twelve days of writing Definitions of Art I’m even more so

the art itself and much more remote from the existing art

 

it was very exciting and hard

 

I hope I won’t get sick after that great exhaustion

this morning I got a herpes on my lip

 

my heels didn’t stop hurting even though I walked just a little bit

 

average daily walking dropped from 13,029 kilometres to 12,792 kilometres

 

daily average walking of the First Time Second Ten Year Walking should be

12,796 kilometres. I’m hence four metres under the daily average

 

I don’t know how and will at all the pain in my heels go away but I need to walk

 

I’d like to swim

 

to take two days rest and then begin with preparations for

the first day of summer and 33 years from the Fictional Economy or

Economy of Conscience or Thirty Three Years of Admiration for Beggars

 

first smell of linden this year

 

after twelve days I’m again on the lake

 

lake turned into a beach

 

I was sad. I didn’t swim

 

it wasn’t hard for me to walk even though I felt pain in my heels

 

I walked in sandals

 

I was thinking about Edgar Allan Poe’s text about his poem Raven

 

I was thinking about Novalis’ love for Sophie von Kühn

 

they both speak of beauty and death

 

old ice-cream selling woman lifted her legs on the chair in order to rest them

 

old limping man and young paraplegic man were talking about tennis

 

at one moment I heard humming of the leaves on the

branches and felt how sadness is leaving me

 

I bought big iceberg lettuce

 

herbal chees and mayonnaise

 

things started to fit into their places

 

I picked up two cherries from the asphalt

 

I stared at the young vine

 

I anticipated two three ideas that would help me survive and work

 

I thought I’ll open a new e-mail address

 

You are not connected to the Internet.

I just got informed from the computer

 

29TH TIME LAO TZU

2349. day
7th June 2011

Therefore the wise say:

Do not interfere, and people transform themselves.

Love peace, and people do what is right.

Do not intervene, and people prosper.

Have no desires, and people live simply. 

Lao Tzu in fifty seventh chapter

 

Therefore the wise are square but not cornered,

sharp but not cutting, straight but not strained,

brilliant but not dazzling. 

Lao Tzu in fifty eighth chapter

 

all-permeating

 

I drank a coffee but I didn’t manage to write nothing more than all-permeating

 

enough

 

everything that is pleasant to us is meditation 

said Goran Roglic last night on TV

 

good vibe

 

same trembling in the ground in the water in the air within light

 

bliss of the intertwining

 

five words on one page five words on the other page

 

ground ground

 

water water water water water water

 

air

air

air

air

air

air

air

 

light

 

everything enters me everything gets out of me

 

I’m healing you heels

 

I’m wording you words

 

gentle vibe

 

face-kissing

 

light within light

 

all words interflow into the first word

 

eight

words

for

the

first

word

of

poem

 

I feel good with words

 

I feel good within words

 

words are dyeing words

 

everything

that

feels

good

is

a

poem

 

my step your step my step your step my step your step

 

wake through a poem

 

wake through the absence of wake

 

through a poem within young grass

 

through a poem in golden wheat fields

 

through a poem within love spasms

 

love child in my womb

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

ALWAYS

2350. day
8th June 2011

Swimming across the ocean, I beginning to get on in the work that I’m already creating.

it’s written in the seventh blessing of this book

 

now I’m in the ocean of 66293rd blessing

 

God only knows which ocean that is

 

vastness surrounds me

 

it’s within me

 

the smaller I am the vaster it is

 

the smaller I am it’s more and more within me

 

it’s nearly eleven and I haven’t even drew either 64 Buds nor Blue Rose

 

I’ll get going at noon in the strongest sun

 

I was working all the time on the begging that is waiting for me in the day of summer

 

I would like to write today’s blessings before the walk and to send them to Violeta and

Ivana so that I don’t have to sit at the desk nor turn on the computer when I come back

 

I’m upset

 

I also have to shave

 

I’ll do it right away

 

I’m shaved

 

yesterday I had a short conversation with Ice-Cream Selling

Woman Lifted Her Legs On The Chair In Order To Rest Them and

in the end I told her when I pass through here in future can I say hallo to You

 

always

she answered

 

grapes have begun to develop

 

levees next to the river are meandering

 

every day I’m reading texts about poetry

 

yesterday I enjoyed in titles of certain poems

 

I wished to write just titles

 

hunches

 

hints

 

recognitions

 

hastenings

 

corner on which we were kissing every night of that autumn

 

you left the lavender in my table

 

Pannonian sand is brought by eastern wind

 

while waiting for you to speak out

 

I’m

walking

through

a

poem

 

noon is close. I’m going over to the other desk to draw 64 Buds and Blue Roses

 

then after short exercise in the middle of the room getting out into the hot day as well

 

A SACK

2351. day
9th June 2011

I’m ploughing through reading texts about poetry

 

I’m refreshing the soil of poetry

 

I’m preparing second 33 days bowing – writing the Poem about Poem

 

I love to prepare myself from the distance so that I would be

as free as possible when the time comes

 

many things that I’m reading is long time within me

 

I was most rejoiced by Ezra Pound from

whose words I will actually make a poem

 

my poems are pointless

a lot of repetitions

when I was seventy

I realised

that I’m not a loony

but an idiot

my works

are

stupid and ignorant

from the beginning till the end

stupid and ignorant

a mess

everything good that I did

I spoiled

with bad intentions

I was too obsessed

with unimportant and foolish things

sloppiness

I didn’t know enough

of a lot of things

I was reading too little and too slow

I was taking

a bit of this

a bit of that

that would make me interested

and put that in a sack

and

that’s not the way

art work is created

 

that is actually that work of art

 

Ezra I love-kiss every word of yours

 

Your words have reminded me of old Indians

 

old fisherman

 

old men that are pleating baskets from thin rods

 

old women and their herbal elixirs

 

Eros of a hand

 

all those poems that have been written by a hand

 

a poem is constantly here like a love

 

in the crack of down

 

in the movement of the Universe in every particle

 

in the honourable life without money

 

in enough

 

in sympathies

 

in tattooed nerves in all beings

 

Ezra Your poem is beautiful

 

the crack of arch-poetry

 

singing through the dawn of poetry

 

somewhere somebody

 

while the rain is pouring

 

a whole day by a whole day

 

heavy bags on the shoulders

 

huger that is coming over humanity

 

Ulrike Meinchof

 

without coming back to the eternal coming back

 

bread

bud

 

EVERY DAY IS REVOLUTION

2352. day
10th June 2011

Ulrike Meinchof. Andreas Baader. Gudrun Ensslin

 

rose-volution

 

last night a friend sent me an e-mail with what she likes and what she doesn’t like in sex

 

I like tenderly and decisively

that he hit the right spots

to know where he’s going

not to get lost when he’s touching

to touch even before he’s touching

to differentiate giving and receiving and to know how to balance them out

to know how to stop

suddenly

like a rest in music

it excites me the most

when he is very excited and yet calm

to lead me on with that calmness

to hold me where I love to be held and to hold his hand there

and then to listen to my breathing and voices

to show his enjoyment when I’m caressing him

to smile. to be serious

to be present

to watch me and to look at me watching him

to see that I see him

to see god in each other

to see ourselves in god. to see god in ourselves

to love in those moments everything that exists the way I love as well

to love my orgasms the same way I love his

I don’t like when he undresses himself right away

and to undress me the same quick and unimportant way

when he’s not connected. when he loses connection

when he gets lost

when he can’t enjoy

but he goes all at once

as if he’s overeating

when he’s pleasing only himself

that he’s pleasing only me

when he’s not kissing. not looking. not caressing

when he doesn’t know and doesn’t know how to find out

when he rides on his own and he doesn’t even know he’s doing it

to be pushy. to be scared

 

stopping

 

I wrote the poem about Ulrike Meinchof forty years ago in the Red Notebook

 

every day is a revolution

 

loyalty to all beings

 

I’m sitting at the computer and waiting for blessings

 

they are not coming. I’m going to draw Blue Rose and 64 Buds

 

I drew them. now it’s a bit easier

 

I’m too tired. I dehydrated yesterday. I walked nineteen kilometres

 

yesterday I saw one inscription of mine I am thirty years old

 

it was good to see that

 

it was nice to write that

 

she blinked – I felt her – joy in my soul

 

while I was whisking the coffee on the balcony I was gently thinking of You

 

have me constantly within You

 

through my writing I’m loyal to Your reading

 

I’m writing even when I don’t feel like writing so that I don’t ever let You down

 

bread with margarine spread

 

young peas

 

Saturday prayer

 

it’s nice to write. to get back and correct the written. to carry on caressing

 

c

a

r

e

c  a  r  e  s  s  i  n  g

s

i

n

g

 

when I write something beautiful I less worry about

money since I created money through beauty

 

I never liked to earn money I rather like to create it

 

even though I don’t have money I believe that I created

a lot of money and I believe that somebody feels and knows that

 

I wish that many people live out of my money

 

I love those who believe when nobody believes

 

I love the chirping of birds in these words

 

I

am

a

poem

even

when

there

is

no

poem

 

bud-volution

 

MY BELOVED HYDRANGEA

2353. day
11th June 2011

I’m writing with my chest

 

with milky grass

 

after six days I’m again drinking wine

 

weak Riesling

 

whole week I was enjoying without wine now I’m enjoying in it

 

in words even more so

 

in next blessing forever

 

then in each following blessing always

 

in one and only duration

 

in heavy breasts in which are all grass of this and other world

 

a path in thighs

 

in the spines of roses

 

easiness is within God

 

God – easiness in everything

 

if you receive my word you will feel grace and easiness

 

if you don’t receive it you will feel heaviness and painfulness

 

I lean my head on my shoulders

 

I’m a bit ashamed of myself

 

one breast is insouciance. the other one is unreasonableness

 

nurse me – insouciance. nurse me – unreasonableness

 

I’m not ashamed any more

 

I am

 

I sing

 

I don’t wonder

 

love is being in form for love

 

form (lat. conditio) condition; circumstance; position

fixing; a place achieved under certain circumstances;

private teaching of students, private lessons given to

students: to be in form – to be in good state (as of a wrestler,

boxer, tennis player, footballer, athlete, racing horse etc.)

to young mister Djordje

 

I’m loyal to You

 

it’s not more present than the Universe

 

constant Walt Whitman

 

constantness innocence blooms within You

 

I’m nothing – I’m everything

 

a sweater dressed up in blue hydrangea

 

you’re still writing

last blessing is for You

 

AN OATH WITH NEWS – THE ONLY JOY

2355. day
13th June 2011

 


I’m walking by the lake. when I come back I’ll be writing blessings


 

 

I should prepare myself for tomorrow’s business lunch with Mrs Mirhana

 

I should be writing from afar I Vow

 

I should come closer to the blessings that I will write on the day of this year’s summer

 

when I admit my mistakes and flaws I’m becoming better

 

when I don’t return the injury rather rejoice it I’m becoming even better

 

when I admit my wishes and love I’m the best

 

when I live my wishes and love I’m good

 

when I surrender to You and I receive everything from You I’m beautiful

 

when I sing like this I’m innocent

 

when I am – I am God

 

I am a god

of modesty

modesty

my modesty

I love-kiss

you

today’s poem from the book I am You are I

 

I ask for something only when I’m happy

 

I give always because giving will always rejoice me

 

14:28

joined for the love of God

 

16:11

I’m at the table

 

smell of the cooked vegetables

 

I’m drinking the leftovers from yesterday’s wine

 

these days I’m enjoying reading avant-garde poetry

 

I enjoy in Your sexual fantasies

 

I enjoy Your virtues and talents that You don’t even know of

 

I enjoy Your unselfishness

 

I enjoy Your courage to decide and choose Your path

 

your

path

as

well

as

anybody

else’s

path

can

only

be

either

god’s

path

or

my

path

or

your

path

 

freedom

 

one is the path

 

one is the rose

 

bud

 

mothers girls

 

fathers boys

 

workers of goodness and beauty

 

nobleman of sameness

 

beauty of identification

 

 

 

 

 

PARKOUR OF THE EVERYDAY

2356. day
14th June 2011

last night on Ban’s Hill I saw two young men practicing parkour

I approached them so they were telling me about it and showing me their skills

those were fifteen year old Bozidat Surla and Milorad Stegnjaic

parkour is connecting and flow – they said

 

I love when a word sings within me

 

I love even more when You dance with my words

 

I love the best when God sings within me through all beings

 

the way I write today nobody else writes because this is how eternal now is writing

 

I don’t have too much time to write today’s blessings

 

that’s why I should slow down even more so

 

slowly and most simple

 

in the same rhythm

 

blessings will be coming on their own

 

I should just surrender to the slowness of simplicity and same rhythm

 

to the monotony

 

that is spreading

 

with no significance or wishes as long as it only is

 

taking the shortest route from point a to point b

 

each point is closest to each point

 

science lives in improvability

 

that’s how each point lives within each point

 

thought within each though

 

tree in each tree

 

immortality on the palm

 

I haven’t prepared myself the best for the business lunch

with Mrs Mirhana but I hope that it will be an occasion in which

this business lunch will bring me even more than I expect from it

 

I live for the joy of life

 

I survive in glory of creation

 

I’m rich for immortality of poetry

 

I love the richness of the poor ones

 

I love the richness of those who renounce it

 

I love the richness of the noble ones

 

Chet Baker is singing

 

I’m leaving soon

 

today I should make 479th photo of One Man

 

on 14th July will be forty years of One Man

 

gratitude to You too 66489th blessing

 

A TEAR IS SLIPPING DOWN

2357. day
15th June 2011

I need few easily conquered blessings

 

good beginning and immediate realisation

 

past is dissatisfaction – future fear

 

now smile

 

fireflies are flying through the woods in late afternoon

 

they start shining suddenly and in unexpected places

 

little-beings

 

philosophers of light

 

I love to drink goodness

 

I love to walk with goodness

 

I love to fuck with goodness

 

fireflies are flying

 

don’t be afraid

 

it’s dawning

 

just say that

 

I’m dancing

 

I’m run down

 

reasonless sadness prepares reasonless joy

 

I pat myself on the shoulder

 

I love music a lot

 

I love to dance a lot

 

I hope that this summer I will play football

 

I need that ball in my feet which I cannot control as I used to

I played football last time in 1999 during the bombing

 

my legs are getting weak

 

it seems to me that I’ll refresh them with the ball in my head

 

do You know that I died with many poems

 

I’m dying

 

I’m crying

 

love-kissing

 

eternal-making

 

travel rose

 

love-kiss love

 

lick my tears

 

WHAT IS I TO YOU IT IS GOD TO I

2358. day
16th June 2011

what is Odyssey to Homer it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Don Quixote to Cervantes it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what are Gragantua and Pantagruel to Rabelais it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Hamlet to Shakespeare it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Werther to Goethe it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is blue flower to Novalis it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Arthur Gordon Pym to Poe it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Zarathustra to Nietzsche it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what are leaves of grass to Walt Whitman it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what are flowers of evil to Baudelaire it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Ana Karenina to Tolstoy it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Raskolnikov to Dostoyevsky it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Madame Bovary to Flaubert it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is common task to Nikolai Fyodorov it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Melanctha to Gertrude Stein it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is freedom to Berdyaev it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is urinal to Duchamp it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Charlot to Charlie Chaplin it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what are language games to Wittgenstein it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is nonviolence to Ghandi it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what are plums to William Carlos Williams it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Svejk to Hasek it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is silence to John Cage it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Godot to Beckett it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Dean Moriarty to Kerouac it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is a brunette to Tisma it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Pannonia to Zvonko Bogdan it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is international blue to Yves Klein it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is strange fruit to Billie Holiday it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is San Quentin prison to Johnny Cash it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is God to Christ it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is Miroslav Mandic to Djorde Stanojevic it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

what is van Gogh to van Gogh it is Miroslav Mandic to Miroslav Mandic

 

THANK YOU – THAT’S ENOUGH

2359. day
17th June 2011

through creation I’m in eternity – through life I’m in time

 

let’s go eternity of this moment

 

words are giving to the sight what sight expects from them

 

dusk sunlight on the oak leaves

 

a girl is practicing balance on the grass

 

forest conversations

 

happy together

 

goodness and modesty

 

eternity of the first encounter

 

art of the first encounter

 

poem of the first encounter

 

let it always be the first time

 

You are reading for the first time what I wrote for the first time

 

with shapes of air

 

summer is coming on Tuesday at 7.16pm

 

that’s when I will send the first letter

 

I’m calm – grass is growing

 

I really love rose

 

I have two dried roses on the table

 

oh yes. I nearly forgot. when two nights ago

I gave to the old homeless woman who asked me for money

four five twenty dinars bills she shyly said thank you – that’s enough

I love-kiss You my lady

 

it was a great honour hearing those words

 

I love to write with my ears

 

there’s not a lot of joy in these words but it’s all meant for You

 

in my thoughts I’m sitting next to the river

 

I’m a river to a river

 

I’m reaching out with my hand

 

little

poem

sings

 

when I was young I was imagining that I’m somebody somewhere

 

now I am somebody somewhere

 

somebody within this blessing

 

somewhere with this blessing

 

I identify myself with poem

 

g

o

d

 

MIROSLAV MANDIC IS ONE AND ONLY I

2360. day
18th June 2011

I of light

 

I of goodness

 

I of every day

 

I of sky

 

I of soil

 

I of ocean and seas

 

I of grass and all seeds

 

I of sun and stars

 

I of fishes

 

I of birds

 

I of animals

 

I of man

 

I of each name

 

I constant affirmation of anybody’s I

 

I always and forever same I

 

I of a beautiful girl who surrenders to the light of an ugly one

 

I of innocence is dying for the innocence of all beings

 

I

I  I  I

I

 

Your I – though. my I – even more so. they are nothingness

 

when you told me this morning that you picked St. John’s Worth for me I felt sadness

 

I felt Your I that yearns to manifest itself and dominate

 

I was immediately disgusted with my I

 

I will be silent

 

I will disappear

 

I of the dusk is sinking into the deep blue of the daybreak

 

I of a rose disappears in a bud

 

I of heavy rain disappears in greenery of young corn

 

I of Galaxy walks in peace

 

I of Cosmos creates through order and harmony

 

I of Universe sings in one

 

my I disappears in Your I

 

Your I disappears in I of Miroslav Mandic

 

I of Miroslav Mandic disappears into Miroslav Mandic I

God

 

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