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28TH TIME LAO TZU
Is like a new-born infant.
Lao Tzu in fifty fifth chapter
One who knows does not speak.
One who speaks does not know.
Lao Tzu in fifty sixth chapter
I’m off to give Vesna the rent for the Nest
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my soles Achilles’ tendons and loins are sore
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last night I saw on the internet that Tom Gotovac couldn’t walk before he died
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all I’m left with is gratitude and joy
one of the saddest thing in my life I’ve heard couple of years ago from Tom Gotovac
harmony guards harmony
tree is tree
God love-kisses God
poems of innocence are singing through God
poems of experience are singing of God
one more serve-response. when I’m reading MM in the evening I hope hard
that your day was good. it’s somehow more probable that mine is going to be as well
I got text message from Vera
and here’s the miracle You’ll read Your own words this evening in MM
I answered to Vera
I skipped this blessing but I marked it
with red so that I don’t forget to write it
however the day goes every day is good
dead or alive it’s all one and the same – what is important is that all is one
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eternity to time
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energy to love
it is all beings to life
every being is infinite and eternal love to all beings
all beings are Vera’s hope that my day was good
all beings live in every being that is giving its life to the other life
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EVERYTHING TO YOU MY LOVE – NOTHING TO YOU MY LOVE
I’m waving to You I’m not explaining I’m not answering I’m winking I’m crackling with my fingers I’m mingling with my hips my lips my mind heart-like god-like with humour our hum ohm-ohm b o g o b o g o m o g o b o g o b (with God, prim. prev.) j e d n j e d n i m s m o m s m o (we are one, prim. prev.) I changed sweaty t-shirt I put the shirt inside out fuck-it-humour takeaway humour Tija Tijana hundred grams with no authority I hug You Bela three hundred grams without terminology I love-kiss Hamvas magnolias will start soon swallows will come soon loyalty is the most sexual g i v r e c e i v i n g n g I adore You – You divinise me You adore me – I divinise You this morning I took out around thirty dates of birth of those I adored – the ones that divinised me because I adores them p b o m b i n g o h a s b e g u n e m today I bought two bananas and I said to the polite sales woman that I’ve heard yesterday and that I put last night banana skins on my painful soles and heels and she told me I know of that with cabbage. well that’s even better since it’s cheaper – I answered her all of us that are bombing we are killed in the bombing same as those that we have bombed from the day they were born through bombing and that’s how it all will be until the bombing stops procreating by bananas miroslavmandic to the fire-fighters who are sacrificing their life to extinguish the fire of knowledge and save the fire of love for all beings
I AM I-AM-YOU-ARE-I
I got up before the alarm clock went off. toilet. put the water for tee to boil. dressed up. turned the computer on. put the soaked beans on the hot ring. set at the desk I’m waiting for the spring 04.27am spring has came. I smiled at it I got up earlier in order to greet the spring and write first poem in the book I am You are I I wrote it I am God first words all other 365 poems will begin the same – I am God God last three words in the book I am You are Him are I am bud after thirty years I am bud has transformed into I am God poem I typed in the poem onto the Bud’s screen I rewrote it in the Red Notebook I am Penelope I wrote it down in the first rectangle in the Desk Picture that will be small poems buds God to You God to me God to all beings God to God then happy like Tom Sawyer I went again to bed again I got up at quarter to eight. and same again. toilet. water for tea. dressing up beans again on the hot ring. turning on the Bud. but also eye exercises... I was emptied and I lacked sleep I went for a short and slow walking today tomorrow and day after tomorrow I’ll walk just six kilometres a day if somebody wants to walk the rest seven kilometres tomorrow or day after tomorrow let me know that you have walked and how much so that I can walk on Wednesday or Thursday 5000 kilometres of the Bud of Walking. if not it will be on Saturday and 12pm midday bells are ringing – I love-kiss You midday love I’m drinking wonderful cheep weak white Riesling alone – joy to the joy – itself in Saturday Biljana Roncevic came for a visit to give me the support for the beginning of writing of I am You are I. when thirty years ago I wrote I am You are Him Biljana wasn’t even born Petar Miloradovi’s father died yesterday. old elk has fallen – wrote Petar beans birth of a poem God love
ONE IS THE SPRING – SOMEBODY IS ALWAYS HERE
like a first grader I’m learning how to write poems I am You are I today as well I was enjoying in slow and nonbinding walking emptied thirty year old poem has drained me sometimes I’ll write in Miroslav Mandic about I am You are I I would love in couple of years to bind all four books I am You are Him Kaja Milomir I am You are I into the one book – because all of them are just one poem – with comments and refinements until then I’m not turning back during last thirty years sometimes I would think how wonderful it will be that – once in 2011-2012 – I will be writing fourth part of the book I am You are Him here is that wonderful wonderful but ordinary same new green grass little white flowers in the grass February’s March and March of April streaming of love alone alone child a l o n a l o n e n o l a n o l a moment by moment day by day years by year centuries by centuries stream is streaming love-kissing love-kisses č u d e s n o b i č n o n s e d u č n č i b o (čudesno = wonderful; obično = ordinary, prim. prev.) sun shines I-am-You-are-I has leaned on the chair rest and watches what he wrote peaceful he is he writes with his eyes over the emptiness indescribable happiness is rolling within him even though nobody is around he feels somebody is here
IF YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU AS WELL
when yesterday in the end of the book twelve year old Tom Sawyer suggested to twelve year old Huckleberry Finn to form a gang It’s to swear to stand by one another, and never tell the gang’s secrets, even if you’re chopped all to flinders, and kill anybody and all his family that hurts one of the gang Huckleberry Finn answered That’s gay — that’s mighty gay, Tom, I tell you. Jelena and Violeta have walked for me the day before yesterday so today on the 10714th step will be 5000 kilometres of the Bud of Walking. well that is a poem my soles heels and Achilles’ tendons are sore. well that is a poem 86400 seconds of a day are 86400 poems within a day turn-about doo bee doo bee doo whoa whoa who dray searchers mud around the wheels horizon is surrounding me picturesque words are shaping my blessing through the middle a n d o n l y t h r o u g h t h e m i d d l e the bells of midday love are ringing I will go on the walking around half three in order to meet up around half five with Ana Zgonjanin who is bringing me blue crayons for the Blue Roses from Branka Zgonjanin gratitude to Mina Novcic who is buying me the blue crayons blue crayons blue crayons well that is a poem blue poem it’s wonderful sitting at the desk in front of the Bud and waiting for the blessings waiting for them to fly away like a flock of sparrows to rocket like a robin to flash like swallows dazzle tranquillity a personality becomes through the amenity words are counting me numbers are writing me pictures are walking me well that is a poem
ANSWER
roe-deer is singing I am a roe-deer I is singing I am butterfly another butterfly a bee on the blue flower little bugs have came out. flies started to fly patience I love-kiss You patience please help me I close my eyes I’m snoozing wind carries me to the side warm soil smells good child is giving me strength poem conceives a being a poem being singing being master Srki is locking up his cobbler store Srki poor man is looking at the bill for what he’s carrying in to plastic bags goodness attracts all beings a granny with placid smile is carrying asleep grandson on her shoulder two hairdressers are sitting embraced in the sunny shop window and waiting for a new customer poor girl is walking in sneakers that are few numbers bugger than hers poverty exemplar self-sacrificing the dawn of the exemplar one and only is the answer it’s name is so beautiful answer is responsibility
THE ART OF CLEARNESS – A SMILE OF A GIRL WHO IS DRAWING WITH CHALK
while kissing in the morning houseleeks and cactus for few days now I hear turtledoves ten year old boy wanted to run across the street on the red light but the car started moving and luckily he stopped on time. he got scared but even more so ashamed only idiots are being cocky when drunk – a fourteen year old boy says to a girl you’re drawing well – I said to the seven year old girl who was drawing with chalk on the asphalt. she smiled. she rejoiced me a lot if somebody offered me in my youth several basic roads which I could take I would like the most this one that I took. but I would have given it up because it would seem impossible even if it’s the most just the wind is waving my unbuttoned red velvet shirt – that’s that road with all difficulties that I’ve lived through and that I live I’m repeating Nikola Tesla’s sentence whole my long life I’ve spent in verve. that was the source of my happiness you shouldn’t be tolerating that foolery – says older gypsy to the younger one I’m walking slowly I don’t have time for not having time clearness publicness clear words of publicness walking thirteen kilometres every day is not hard but it sure isn’t easy writing every day 33 blessings is not hard at all but it’s sure almost impossible I’m thinking of monks in deserts – I feel ashamed I’m thinking of kids in mines – I feel ashamed I’m thinking of horses – I feel ashamed a man is sitting on the bench and writing. he hooked the paper to the carton with blue clothes peg. before he writes something he waves his hands in the passage I see small handwriting written in even rows I already wrote how I’m more and more ashamed but since then I’m even more ashamed why water isn’t for drinking – a young girl started whining when she saw the sign on the faucet saying water isn’t for drinking I saw one pebble on the road and I felt that I feel good because of it stones – flowers on the road everything that is actually is just a sort of stones while walking over this soil with traces of caterpillar tracks of a small trencher I feel I’m here as if I’m anywhere in the world whole world is where I am and over there are borders money and passports without borders money and passports I would have been everywhere in this way everywhere is here my heels are tensed from fatigue painful heels holly whole-heels fifth heels tensed while I’m kissing remains with the remaining strength I hear turtledoves again in the late afternoon next summer will be seven hungry years that have passed and until then and after that
KAJA GIRL AND MADONNA
nineteen years since Kaja is gone Kaja Mother of God sixth day since the buds of the book I am You are I started to bloom when the midday bells of love begin to ring I’m writing the bud-poem midday love – midday poems poems of love giving sore loins sore Achilles’ tendons sore heels I’m thinking of a girl with radiant face that was staring at people on the lake radiance of the contrite ones enchanting beauty of the abandoned ones lips on the loins I’m writing for the spine meandering spine-like through spinal health to all beings s p i n s p i n e n i p s n i p s self-encouragement self-healing self-like–to–all-like mysterious stranger is entering the city wanted poem is actually me I is the most beautiful poem I is the most poetic poem 16:16 (4:16pm) one to the other is everything wise sayings are said by themselves sings love-kisses poem love-kisses sings Kaja my mother is not the most beautiful mom Kaja my mother is not my mom Kaja my mother is mother to all beings Your Kaja dandelion girl Madonna Kajadonna
EVERY MOMENT NEW BOSOMS BUD SOMEWHERE
this 64246th blessing is 555th blessing till the middle of the book wedding of small and big harmony of obvious and incomprehensible agreement between privileged and rejected ones revolution of innocence terrible need to call somebody but I don’t have anybody who I can call nobody are mountains nobody are clear creeks nobody is cosmic dust nobody is all is nobody nobody of words nobody of light nobody the source of everything nobody the one of disunited nobody everything to somebody somebody I somebody nobody I somebody nobody nobody of beauty somebody of goodness roe deer robin all villages all villages of all cities all villages of all minds village of oceans and winds village of light and Universe village of one and only heart city of one and only mind see come to have a swim together autonomy autobiography auto-loyalty can somebody be loyal to You even for one second
EVERYTHING AGREES ON ITS OWN THROUGH LOVE
while I was taking a photo of magnolia one turtledove flew in to the wire to see what was it all about be everything to me – I am Your love misery – no. poverty – yes yes yes inferiority – ne. calmness – yes yes yes superiority – no. verve – yes yes yes I’m waiting I’ve leaned the fingers of both hands against the desk I’m watching the screen I was thinking of things that I’ve heard on television of a girl that was licking ice cream being leaned on the exit door of the supermarket of the shop for poor people of the rarest courage – courage in peace of the rarest compassion – compassion in happiness of solidarity in catastrophes of blue beggar of the smell of rye bread I’ll add béchamel to the cooked vegetables even though I don’t know what béchamel is this morning I was tenderly thinking of holly nescience I have never felt before more beautiful knowledge than the holly nescience I remembered how I resented my age when I was twenty six and how I came to the decision to go towards the new innocence wow how sanative that was I’ll go now to make that béchamel while I was making béchamel – if it is béchamel at all – I remembered my thoughts from this morning about beautiful human experience owing nothing guarantees long lasting love you want long lasting love – then don’t owe anything people are much more cheating with love than with money when love is gone then only money remains that’s why money is so brutally precise one third of money is love blue beggar begs blue money blue money is bowing of love-money name of the blue beggar is I-am-You-are-I I’m more and more excited by old people because I see girls and boys in their weakness just awakened sexuality greatness and beauty of old trees already eternity of all beings
HARMLESSNESS I LOVE-KISS YOU
I’m happy because today I will write about my envy I’m thinking about that from last night these words moved me people are slandering each other either out of envy or because they are themselves like the ones they are slandering. in first case, those who we are slandering are simply more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better that the slanderer; in second case, of typical projection, we slander people because of those individual characteristics which we ourselves posses in our hidden being, and which are bothering us, which we are even ashamed of, being either not at all or not sufficiently aware of them Vladeta Jerotic in his book Teachings of St. Isaac the Syrian and Our Times slandering gives birth to slandering. blessing gives birth to blessing Isaac the Syrian I’m going to the lake and I’m thinking of my envy I’m happy to write about it so that envy would get out of me but not enter anybody else I empathise with You and Your envy before I went outside I wrote on a piece paper the words of Vladeta Jerotic that I will leave to a random passerby on the lake I didn’t do it because of what happened I’m envious whenever I am not when I am then I just am I Am God I Am isn’t envious of anybody envy is shit shit is not bad. that is its nature. but if I leave it where I shouldn’t or if I process it then it feeds the life itself problem is when I start eating my own shit even bigger problem is if I start feeding somebody else with my shit envy of mine transform into I-Am I-Am feed yourself and drink from I am every being when I am not only that I easily accept the fact that somebody else is more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better but I rejoice it as well I envy when I’m too passive I envy when I’m lazy and when I’m loosing the faith in my work I envy when I forget who and what I have given my life to I envy when I get scared of death I envy when I don’t sympathise with the more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better ones and with sacrifice they are bearing in order to be that I envy when I get scared of my verves I envy when I forget that I’m the best I envy when I forget that only God is the best and that I am God I’m dedicating today’s blessings to the political prisoners and all those who are innocently convicted I’m dedicating today’s blessings to the more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better ones because they bear other people’s envy and also because I’m compassionate with their envy I still can’t calm down... when I was finishing with taking the photo of my face at the end of the lake one young woman approached me and took a photo of me. I thought it was somebody who knows me. when she came to me she said in fury you took a photo of us now I will take a photo of you. that’s for police. I was completely caught by her and frightened. I told her to look what is in my camera. she looked at it but there was not a single photo with her. I told her that I can imagine that she was upset by my photo taking but that she also upset me and that it would be nice to apologise when she saw I didn’t take a photo of her to apologise. that’s horrible what you are doing – she said God I went through all the photos at the desk and she really wasn’t there she and older woman who she was pushing the prom with had an impression that I was taking a photo of them while I was taking a photo of the paper with Vladeta Jerotic’s words innocence of the Bud of Art m mu muk muza muka muzika muka muza muk mu m (m moo silence muse agony music agony muse silence moo m)
THE SMELL OF WILD PLUMS
budded fruit trees are really breath taking people are really annoying me – says famous Joe the dredger to the man who stopped him. last summer I drove out three dredges to Slavija Square and not even this much people was there. people love to suffer. silly people I thought of telling You please God don’t ever leave me. but then I felt that You neither want nor You can leave any being. beings are leaving You and they think that You have left them people are afraid of God because if they feel him they presage that God will be God God within themselves the smell of wild plums in the beginning of Visoka Street opens up my brain ... and in youth – asks young woman one very old toothless skinny man. in youth we were defying each other... a drawing of the Good Walker became damp from the sweat so the drawing paper curled up I am very tired hungry Achilles’ tendons and heels are over flown with strain I’m stretching my loins I’m clenching my jaws I’m thirsty I’ll open a water bottle water was so pleasant one cooked beetroot one potato one onion one carrot and a bit of cabbage are waiting for me Lightnin Hopkins is helping me. I’m enjoying his voice a lot I’m circling with shoulders I’m stretching the spine vertebras are cracking I’m tenderly thinking of nerves I will massage my heels and Achilles’ tendons after the lunch I will lie down and read Jack London’s White Fang after my eyes start closing I will close the book I will fall asleep like a child in armful of tiredness I will get up after an hour. I’ll make myself a tea for prostate I’ll massage my heels again and I’ll get out for a short walk I will turn the Bud on. I will listen to some music. I’ll download my blessings edited by Violeta and Ivana’s translation to English I will put the blessings and photos on the web site I will turn the Bud off. I will turn the TV on and I’ll draw the Numbers I will go to bed around eleven-twelve and I’ll read again I will turn the lights off I’ll go
AND YOU WILL HAVE THE RYE ONE
babies people. younglings of animals. buds of plants. grains of sand stones ideas of spiritual world sex of the sensual and metaphysical love of the sensual and metaphysical gives birth to the immortal beings I adore oversensitive people my phone is ringing – Petar Miloradovic is calling here are the first nudists on the lake buzz of the ladybirds around my head reminds me of summer and you will have the rye one a baker woman that was cold until now told me kindly yesterday I’m walking for the baker woman today begins census of the population I didn’t take part in the previous census or in the one before it ever since – in 1991 – I went on the Rose of Wandering my being and my status have changed address In Your heart nationality Life state Universe religion God membership Alone for all attribute God’s Child I am a poet not a citizen I am an artist not a member of an association I am a walker – constant creating and singing to all beings I am God not counting of the alive and the dead people a job of an enumerator is to enumerate and mine is to create yet nonexistent these blessings are my census everything I think feel speak do create sing is my census I hope that the enumerator will be understandable and that they won’t make problems for me I live and work for joy and in benefit of all beings and that is not done under the human laws humans are tiny portion of all beings check in freedom check in solidarity check in immortality check me into Your heart
THERE YOU GO
Miroslav asked me an unknown woman near the Synodal Church. she reached out with her hand and said Isak’s wife. she rejoiced me very much you are more beautiful Svetlana. that’s why I couldn’t recognize you beauty is goodness while I was drawing Good Walker and thinking how many people lived on planet Earth until my birth so that I could know which number in that row am I exactly I could have plunged down the staircases on the Sava jetty I is God’s glory for myriad of times in a row I ask freely only when I’m happy because that’s when I transmit freedom and happiness on you I sexually love-kiss everybody’s sexuality bricks bricks thorn thorn baby baby God God obeying liberates liberation creates creation sings singing god god of singing I went after this old man on the crossroads out of respect even though red lights were on at this moment I have changed poems I am God in the book I am You are I into i am god I sing everything in small letters in glory of one and only great letter letter god the name all walkers who are walking into hundred thousand years is Miroslav Mandic the name of all artists who are creating in now is Miroslav Mandic the name of all poets who are singing in eternity is Miroslav Mandic every word is beauty and goodness there you are I can’t remember Greek word for goodness and beauty that is the way in which there you go is constantly present there you go I love-kiss you there you go eternal summer bathing of a soul sunbathing of a mind never say never always say now God I call you by my name you celebrate me through your name God god bud
SING MIROSLAV MANDIC SING
ruth compassion synergy harmony I am a donkey of beauty donkey of beauty love-kisses a mare mare of god is god there is no conversation without love there is no thinking without God I love-kiss conversation is dragging relativisation and hiding of guilt whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent Wittgenstein whereof one cannot speak, thereof I sing God every word is god’s name and poem i am god confirms God I was passing by the bus for blood donation I’m sorry I cannot donate blood because of jaundice that I had if I carried on donating blood after twenty fifth time until today I would have donate blood for hundred and forty times and around forty litres of blood instead of three of them there would be eight of them poem of life you are my life poem while I was writing the word bud I was passing by the cars from which one woman gave me a worried look. I approached the opened window and told her I’m writing something for myself and people get scared. just you do your job – she said when my seeing takes place of me watching I can see everything is love-kissing Clear scared woman is running after her dog and calling it only when I’m not myself – I am I only when I’m not a man – I am God God is love love transforms God becomes God it really makes me feel good when somebody is kind to me dedicated to a kind woman who I bought lettuce from ...I hurt you once long time ago... I got this text message from one child-woman a lot of people hurt me. mainly for no reason all those traumas shocked me and insulted me I love-kiss You my innocence I tried to transform all the traumas into poem art and love I love-kiss everyone who hurt me I never wanted to hurt anybody on purpose even though I’m aware that this hurts somebody as well and this goodness even more so and this beauty as well
SHOWERING AND WIPING
God is love love transforms God becomes God I wrote yesterday but this is today when I went out I decided to walk just three-four kilometres and come back as soon as possible to drink wine and write poem-exhibition-prayer This to You I took off my clothes in order to take a shower and all of a sudden I got a desire to wipe off the floor now I’m clean and I’ll write about what I was thinking while I was taking a shower and then about what I was thinking while wiping myself and drying my hair first the shower everything that I was that I am and that I will be is one God everything that I have lived that I live and that I will live is one Miroslav Mandic everything that I have love-kissed that I love-kiss and that I will love-kiss is one love everything that I have created that I create and that I will create is one bud everything that I have sung that I sing and that I will sing is one poem everything that I have drawn that I draw and that I will draw is one drawing everything that I have walked that I walk and that I will walk is one walk now the wiping and drying my hair everything that are to You Your Parents Your Kids Your Family that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your Country Your Nation Your State that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your Church Your Club that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your Patriarch Your Pope Your President Your Prime Minister Your Best Man that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your ancestry Your profession Your CV Your awards Your reputation that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your Employer Your Association Your Union Your Friends from the Neighbourhood that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your Nongovernmental Organisation Your Secret Society that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your property Your money Your bank that is Miroslav Mandic to me everything that are to You Your Judaism Your Zen Your Buddhism Your Orthodoxy Your Catholicism Your Islam Your Anthroposophy Your Gurdjieff Your Great-Christians Your Knowledge Book Your Singularity Your Lora Your Order of Love Your Transpersonalism Your Activism Your Anarchism Your Fascism Your Socialism Your Liberalism Your Humanism Your Holism Your Numerology Your Astrology Your Enlightenment Your History Your Feminism Your Facebook Your Secret Knowledge Your Secret Police... that is Miroslav Mandic to me You have Your Parents Your Kids Your Family Your Country Your Nation Your State Your Church Your Club Your Patriarch Your Pope Your President Your Prime Minister Your Best Man Your Ancestry Your Profession Your CV Your Awards Your Reputation Your Employer Your Association Your Union Your Friends from the Neighbourhood Your Nongovernmental Organisation Your Secret Society Your Property Your Money Your Bank Your Judaism Your Zen Your Buddhism Your Orthodoxy Your Catholicism Your Islam Your Anthroposophy Your Gurdjieff Your Great-Christians Your Knowledge Book Your Singularity Your Lora Your Order of Love Your Transpersonalism Your Activism Your Anarchism Your Fascism Your Socialism Your Liberalism Your Humanism Your Holism Your Numerology Your Astrology Your Enlightenment Your History Your Feminism Your Facebook Your Secret Knowledge Your Secret Police I only have Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic God Miroslav Mandic All Beings Miroslav Mandic Love Miroslav Mandic Bud Miroslav Mandic Poem Miroslav Mandic Drawing Miroslav Mandic Walk
SHY SINGING
God is love love transforms God becomes God I wrote yesterday and day before yesterday but this is today while weeding being bent down a worker of Parks and Gardens is talking over the mobile phone misusing is a tool of profit and interest good-using is shyness of singing and fragility everything is yellow with dandelion it will be red with poppies blue with swallows I haven’t seen a single poppy nor a first swallow a man screened his face from sun with the hat he took off and he’s watching the airplane above his head when I do something with permission of a dice I’m calmer even if I experience some unpleasantness I enjoy lettuce more and more it will be like that until the first tomatoes come really sometimes I write very well the word really I’m smiling to my failures they are liberating me from illusions leading me over the limits of success fool helps me a lot I would go crazy without fool fool easily takes what I can’t I should help fool as well fool let’s dance you dance so good I’m guarding You I love-kiss You my fool the angles of loneliness are guarding people from loneliness y o u a r e f o o l s I am fool fool’s children younglings of all beings God’s children words my fools
M RUNS TOWARDS M
God is love love transforms God becomes God I wrote yesterday the day before yesterday and three days ago but this is today Miroslav Mandic who writes the name of Miroslav Mandic I enjoy Miroslav Mandic who writes the name of Miroslav Mandic while writing the letters that are making the name Miroslav Mandic feels as if he’s writing over the rocky mountain wreaths everything trembles within that Miroslav Mandic writing dust that flies in the air sparkles with Miroslav Mandic flowery meadows are full of rhythmical jerks Miroslav Mandic is constant contractions and releases surrendering spine’s nerves Miroslav Mandic adjustment of all Miroslav Mandics Miroslav Mandic horse’s neck Miroslav Mandic thighs of love Miroslav Mandic cimcum M spermia M is Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic is M one and only spermia of all beings Miroslav Mandic is what you wish for yourself Miroslav Mandic is what you are to others Miroslav Mandic wheat of an animal Miroslav Mandic supernatural bread Miroslav Mandic daily rose M runs towards M Miroslav Mandic modesty that protects every being from loneliness Miroslav Mandic boys which are running through water Miroslav Mandic before I create Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic while I’m singing Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic after the walking of Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic helps me being Miroslav Mandic indivisible sameness
CRYING IS A SORT OF FUCKING WITH WORLD’S PAIN
God is love love transforms God becomes God I wrote yesterday the day before yesterday three four and five days ago but this is today forty years ago in summer 1971 I wrote a text Poem about Film because of which I was convicted. yesterday I thought that it would be nice to write the Poem about Poem this summer wow it could be the famous summer 2011 richness destroys could be the first sentence of the Poem about Poem at this moment I’ve decided that I will be writing the Poem about Poem I will open a file Poem about Poem I opened it and I wrote down Richness destroys. Poem about Poem is immortal poem about immortality. I am a happy man I share the happiness with all beings fucking delivers beings singing creates all beings fucking love-kisses singing singing bows to fucking I hug the loyal ones I love-kiss the brave ones s p i n e o f m i n e I l o v e - k i s s y o u my heels and Achilles’ tendons are sore from 10th January. I saw this editing this years’ blessings. my spine is bothering me for more than a month everything is connected in the heart of an abused dog will into the heart mind into the heart heart into the pussy and cock pussy and cock into the poem poem into the resurrection wow what a joy while I’m writing this blessing in which end resurrects the same wow your heart pulsates within my chest s p s p i n e n e female artists love-kiss male singers of creativity male singers of creativity are fucking with inconsolable ones
I DON’T SAY FUCK OFF TO ANYBODY. I SAY FUCK AND GET FUCKED TO EVERYBODY
God is love love transforms God becomes God I wrote yesterday the day before yesterday three four and five days ago but this is today yesterday was Cioran’s birthday. in one text about him I’ve read for a bad news he will be awarded with Rivarol prize, the only prize that Cioran has ever accepted. And when Albert Camus told him: “Now you have to get involved with the flux of ideas”, he thought: “Fuck off!” “You will understand, he will give me lectures with his culture of a teacher”, he was confiding with Liiceanu; “he has read some writers, but he doesn’t have a bit of philosophical culture and he is telling me: now... as if he was addressing the pupil. I left. It was a great humiliation for me”. the culture of teachers is poisoning everything in front of it teacher is lethal for art sadness world of bodies light holiness sanctum heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god heart god perfection everything turned into a dot everything comes out of a dot poem poem poem poem poem poem poem poem poem poem poem God truth beauty goodness beautiful within a poem of good and beautiful for one t o g e t h e r