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    28TH TIME LAO TZU

    2268. day
    18th March 2011

    One who possesses true virtue

    Is like a new-born infant.

    Lao Tzu in fifty fifth chapter

     

    One who knows does not speak. 

    One who speaks does not know. 

    Lao Tzu in fifty sixth chapter 

     

    I’m off to give Vesna the rent for the Nest

    ouch

     

    my soles Achilles’ tendons and loins are sore

    ouch

     

    last night I saw on the internet that Tom Gotovac couldn’t walk before he died

    ouch

     

    all I’m left with is gratitude and joy

     

    one of the saddest thing in my life I’ve heard couple of years ago from Tom Gotovac

     

    harmony guards harmony

     

    tree is tree

     

    God love-kisses God 

     

    poems of innocence are singing through God 

     

    poems of experience are singing of God 

     

    one more serve-response. when I’m reading MM in the evening I hope hard

    that your day was good. it’s somehow more probable that mine is going to be as well 

    I got text message from Vera

     

    and here’s the miracle You’ll read Your own words this evening in MM 

    I answered to Vera

     

    I skipped this blessing but I marked it

    with red so that I don’t forget to write it

     

    however the day goes every day is good

     

    dead or alive it’s all one and the same – what is important is that all is one

     

    what is

    eternity to time

    infinity to space

    energy to love

    it is all beings to life

     

    every being is infinite and eternal love to all beings

     

    all beings are Vera’s hope that my day was good

     

    all beings live in every being that is giving its life to the other life

     

    p

    o

    e

    p  o  e  m  e  o  p 

    e

    o

    p

     

    all beings live in anything and that’s why anything is beautiful

     

    beauty

    of

    poem

    loves

    to

    be

    within

    the

    poem

    of

    goodness

     

    t

    o

    m

    g

    o

    t

    a n t o n i o l a u  e  r

    v

    a

    c

     

    beauty

    of

    picture

    loves

    to

    be

    within

    the

    picture

    of

    goodness

     

    a

    n

    t

    n

    i

    t  o  m g o t o v a c

    l

    a

    u

    e

    r

     

    I love to love

     

    Miroslav Milomir Mandic

    love-kisses

    Vera Velizar Varady

     

    18:18 (6:18pm)

    eighteen and eighteen I love-kiss You

     

    alive is one

     

    w

    e

    a

    r

    e

    o

    n

    e

     

    o

    u

    o  u  c  h

    c

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    EVERYTHING TO YOU MY LOVE – NOTHING TO YOU MY LOVE

    2269. day
    19th March 2011

    I’m waving

    to You

     

    I’m not explaining

     

    I’m not answering

     

    I’m winking

     

    I’m crackling with my fingers

     

    I’m mingling

     

    with my hips

     

    my lips

     

    my mind

     

    heart-like

     

    god-like

     

    with humour

     

    our

     

    hum

     

    ohm-ohm

     

    b

    o

    g

    o

    b  o  g  o  m  o  g  o  b

    o

    g

    o

    b

    (with God, prim. prev.)

     

    j

    e

    d

    n

    j   e  d   n   i  m  s  m  o

    m

    s

    m

    o

    (we are one, prim. prev.)

     

    I changed sweaty t-shirt

     

    I put the shirt inside out

    fuck-it-humour

     

    takeaway humour

    Tija Tijana

     

    hundred grams with no authority

    I hug You Bela

     

    three hundred grams without terminology

    I love-kiss Hamvas

     

    magnolias will start soon

     

    swallows will come soon

     

    loyalty is the most sexual

     

    g

    i

    v

    r e c e i v i n g

    n

    g

     

    I adore You – You divinise me

     

    You adore me – I divinise You

     

    this morning I took out around thirty dates of birth of those I

    adored – the ones that divinised me because I adores them

     

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    b o m b i  n  g  o h a s b e g u n

    e

    m

     

    today I bought two bananas and I said to the polite sales woman that I’ve

    heard yesterday and that I put last night banana skins on my painful soles and heels

    and she told me I know of that with cabbage. well that’s even better since it’s cheaper

    I answered her

     

    all of us that are bombing we are killed in the bombing same as

    those that we have bombed from the day they were born through bombing

    and that’s how it all will be until the bombing stops procreating

    by bananas

     

    miroslavmandic

    to the fire-fighters who are sacrificing their life to extinguish the fire of knowledge and save the fire of love for all beings

     

    I AM I-AM-YOU-ARE-I

    2271. day
    21st March 2011

    I got up before the alarm clock went off. toilet. put the water for tee to boil. dressed

    up. turned the computer on. put the soaked beans on the hot ring. set at the desk

     

    I’m waiting for the spring

     

    04.27am

    spring has came. I smiled at it

     

    I got up earlier in order to greet the spring

    and write first poem in the book I am You are I

     

    I wrote it

     

    I am God

    first words

     

    all other 365 poems will begin the same – I am God

    God

     

    last three words in the book I am You are Him are I am bud

     

    after thirty years I am bud has transformed into I am God

    poem

     

    I typed in the poem onto the Bud’s screen

     

    I rewrote it in the Red Notebook

    I am Penelope

     

    I wrote it down in the first rectangle in the Desk Picture

     

    that will be small poems

     

    buds

     

    God

    to You

     

    God

    to me

     

    God

    to all beings

     

    God

    to God

     

    then happy like Tom Sawyer I went again to bed again

     

    I got up at quarter to eight. and same again. toilet. water for tea. dressing up

    beans again on the hot ring. turning on the Bud. but also eye exercises...

     

    I was emptied and I lacked sleep

     

    I went for a short and slow walking

     

    today tomorrow and day after tomorrow I’ll walk just six kilometres a day

     

    if somebody wants to walk the rest seven kilometres tomorrow or day after tomorrow

    let me know that you have walked and how much so that I can walk on Wednesday or

    Thursday 5000 kilometres of the Bud of Walking. if not it will be on Saturday

     

    and

     

    12pm

    midday bells are ringing – I love-kiss You midday love

     

    I’m drinking wonderful cheep weak white Riesling

     

    alone – joy to the joy – itself

     

    in Saturday Biljana Roncevic came for a visit to give me

    the support for the beginning of writing of I am You are I. when

    thirty years ago I wrote I am You are Him Biljana wasn’t even born

     

    Petar Miloradovi’s father died yesterday. old elk has fallen – wrote Petar

     

    beans

     

    birth of a poem

     

    God

    love

     

    ONE IS THE SPRING – SOMEBODY IS ALWAYS HERE

    2272. day
    22nd March 2011

    like a first grader I’m learning how to write poems I am You are I

     

    today as well I was enjoying in slow and nonbinding walking

     

    emptied

     

    thirty year old poem has drained me

     

    sometimes I’ll write in Miroslav Mandic about I am You are I

     

    I would love in couple of years to bind all four books

    I am You are Him

    Kaja

    Milomir

    I am You are I

    into the one book – because all of them are just

    one poem – with comments and refinements

     

    until then I’m not turning back

     

    during last thirty years sometimes I would think how wonderful it will be that –

    once in 2011-2012 – I will be writing fourth part of the book I am You are Him

     

    here is that wonderful

     

    wonderful but ordinary

     

    same

     

    new green grass

     

    little white flowers in the grass

     

    February’s March and March of April

     

    streaming of love

     

    alone

     

    alone child

     

    a

    l

    o

    n

    a   l   o   n   e   n   o   l   a

    n

    o

    l

    a

     

    moment by moment

     

    day by day

     

    years by year

     

    centuries by centuries

     

    stream is streaming

     

    love-kissing love-kisses

     

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    o   b   i   č   n   o  n  s  e  d  u  č

    n

    č

    i

    b

    o

    (čudesno = wonderful; obično = ordinary, prim. prev.)

     

    sun

     

    shines

     

    I-am-You-are-I has leaned on the chair rest and watches what he wrote

     

    peaceful

     

    he is

     

    he writes with his eyes over the emptiness

     

    indescribable happiness is rolling within him

     

    even

    though

    nobody

    is

    around

    he

    feels

    somebody

    is

    here

     

    IF YOU WANT ME TO TELL YOU AS WELL

    2273. day
    23rd March 2011

    when yesterday in the end of the book twelve year old Tom Sawyer

    suggested to twelve year old Huckleberry Finn to form a gang

    It’s to swear to stand by one another, and never tell

    the gang’s secrets, even if you’re chopped all to flinders,

    and kill anybody and all his family that hurts one of the gang

    Huckleberry Finn answered

    That’s gay — that’s mighty gay, Tom, I tell you.

     

    Jelena and Violeta have walked for me the day before yesterday so today

    on the 10714th step will be 5000 kilometres of the Bud of Walking. well that is a poem

     

    my soles heels and Achilles’ tendons are sore. well that is a poem

     

    poems that is a poem

     

    poem those are the poems

     

    86400

    seconds

    of

    a

    day

    are

    86400

    poems

    within

    a

    day

     

    turn-about

     

    doo bee doo bee doo

     

    whoa whoa who

     

    dray

     

    searchers

     

    mud around the wheels

     

    horizon is surrounding me

     

    picturesque words are shaping my blessing

     

    through the middle

     

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    n

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    r

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    t

    h

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    m

    i

    d

    d

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    the bells of midday love are ringing

     

    I will go on the walking around half three in order to meet up around half five with Ana

    Zgonjanin who is bringing me blue crayons for the Blue Roses from Branka Zgonjanin

    gratitude to Mina Novcic who is buying me the blue crayons

     

    blue crayons

     

    blue crayons well that is a poem

     

    blue poem

     

    it’s wonderful sitting at the desk in front of the Bud and waiting for the blessings

     

    waiting for them to fly away like a flock of sparrows

     

    to rocket like a robin

     

    to flash like swallows

     

    dazzle

     

    tranquillity

     

    a personality becomes through the amenity

     

    words are counting me

     

    numbers are writing me

     

    pictures are walking me

     

    well

    that

    is

    a

    poem

     

     

    ANSWER

    2274. day
    24th March 2011

    roe-deer is singing

     

    I am a roe-deer

     

    I is singing

     

    I am

     

    butterfly

     

    another butterfly

     

    a bee on the blue flower

     

    little bugs have came out. flies started to fly

     

    patience I love-kiss You

     

    patience please help me

     

    I close my eyes

     

    I’m snoozing

     

    wind carries me to the side

     

    warm soil smells

     

    good child is giving me strength

     

    poem conceives a being

     

    a poem being

     

    singing being

     

    master Srki is locking up his cobbler store Srki

     

    poor man is looking at the bill for what he’s carrying in to plastic bags

     

    goodness attracts all beings

     

    a granny with placid smile is carrying asleep grandson on her shoulder

     

    two hairdressers are sitting embraced in the sunny shop window

    and waiting for a new customer

     

    poor girl is walking in sneakers that are few numbers bugger than hers

     

    poverty

     

    exemplar

     

    self-sacrificing

     

    the dawn of the exemplar

     

    one and only is the answer

     

    it’s name is so beautiful

     

    answer

     

    is

     

    responsibility

     

    THE ART OF CLEARNESS – A SMILE OF A GIRL WHO IS DRAWING WITH CHALK

    2275. day
    25th March 2011

    while kissing in the morning houseleeks and cactus for few days now I hear turtledoves

     

    ten year old boy wanted to run across the street on the red light but the car started

    moving and luckily he stopped on time. he got scared but even more so ashamed

     

    only idiots are being cocky when drunk – a fourteen year old boy says to a girl

     

    you’re drawing well – I said to the seven year old girl who was drawing

    with chalk on the asphalt. she smiled. she rejoiced me a lot

     

    if somebody offered me in my youth several basic roads

    which I could take I would like the most this one that I took. but I would

    have given it up because it would seem impossible even if it’s the most just

     

    the wind is waving my unbuttoned red velvet shirt – that’s that road

     

    with all difficulties that I’ve lived through and that I live I’m repeating

    Nikola Tesla’s sentence whole my long life I’ve spent in

    verve. that was the source of my happiness

     

    you shouldn’t be tolerating that foolery – says older gypsy to the younger one

     

    I’m walking slowly

     

    I don’t have time for not having time

     

    clearness

     

    publicness

     

    clear words of publicness

     

    walking thirteen kilometres every day is not hard but it sure isn’t easy

     

    writing every day 33 blessings is not hard at all but it’s sure almost impossible

     

    I’m thinking of monks in deserts – I feel ashamed

     

    I’m thinking of kids in mines – I feel ashamed

     

    I’m thinking of horses – I feel ashamed

     

    a man is sitting on the bench and writing. he hooked the paper to the carton

    with blue clothes peg. before he writes something he waves his hands

    in the passage I see small handwriting written in even rows

     

    I already wrote how I’m more and more ashamed but since then I’m even more ashamed

     

    why water isn’t for drinking – a young girl started whining when she saw

    the sign on the faucet saying water isn’t for drinking

     

    I saw one pebble on the road and I felt that I feel good because of it

     

    stones – flowers on the road

     

    everything that is actually is just a sort of stones

     

    while walking over this soil with traces of caterpillar tracks of a

    small trencher I feel I’m here as if I’m anywhere in the world

     

    whole world is where I am and over there are borders money and passports

     

    without borders money and passports I would have been everywhere

    in this way everywhere is here

     

    my heels are tensed from fatigue

     

    painful

     

    heels

    holly

    whole-heels

    fifth

    heels

    tensed

     

    while I’m kissing remains with the remaining strength

    I hear turtledoves again in the late afternoon

     

    next summer will be seven hungry years that have passed

     

    and

    until then

    and

    after that

    KAJA GIRL AND MADONNA

    2276. day
    26th March 2011

    nineteen years since Kaja is gone

     

    Kaja

    Mother

    of God

     

    sixth day since the buds of the book I am You are I started to bloom

     

    when the midday bells of love begin to ring I’m writing the bud-poem

     

    midday love – midday poems

     

    poems of love giving

     

    sore loins

     

    sore Achilles’ tendons

     

    sore heels

     

    I’m thinking of a girl with radiant face that was staring at people on the lake

     

    radiance of the contrite ones

     

    enchanting beauty of the abandoned ones

     

    lips on the loins

     

    I’m writing for the spine

     

    meandering

     

    spine-like

     

    through spinal health to all beings

     

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    s   p   i   n   e   n   i   p   s

    n

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    s

     

    self-encouragement

     

    self-healing

     

    self-like–to–all-like

     

    mysterious stranger is entering the city

     

    wanted

    poem

    is

    actually

    me

     

    I

    is

    the

    most

    beautiful

    poem

     

    I

    is

    the

    most

    poetic

    poem

     

    16:16 (4:16pm)

    one to the other is everything

     

    wise sayings are said by themselves

     

    sings

    love-kisses poem love-kisses

    sings

     

    Kaja my mother is not the most beautiful mom

     

    Kaja my mother is not my mom

     

    Kaja my mother is mother to all beings

    Your Kaja

     

    dandelion

     

    girl Madonna

    Kajadonna

    EVERY MOMENT NEW BOSOMS BUD SOMEWHERE

    2278. day
    28th March 2011

    this 64246th blessing is 555th blessing till the middle of the book

     

    wedding of small and big

     

    harmony of obvious and incomprehensible

     

    agreement between privileged and rejected ones

     

    revolution of innocence

     

    terrible need to call somebody but I don’t have anybody who I can call

     

    nobody are mountains

     

    nobody are clear creeks

     

    nobody is cosmic dust

     

    nobody is all is nobody

     

    nobody of words

     

    nobody of light

     

    nobody the source of everything

     

    nobody the one of disunited

     

    nobody everything to somebody

     

    somebody

     

    I

     

    somebody

    nobody    I   somebody

    nobody

     

    nobody of beauty

     

    somebody of goodness

     

    roe deer

     

    robin

     

    all villages

     

    all villages of all cities

     

    all villages of all minds

     

    village of oceans and winds

     

    village of light and Universe

     

    village of one and only heart

     

    city of one and only mind

     

    see come to have a swim together

     

    autonomy

     

    autobiography

     

    auto-loyalty can somebody be loyal to You even for one second


     

    EVERYTHING AGREES ON ITS OWN THROUGH LOVE

    2279. day
    29th March 2011

    while I was taking a photo of magnolia one

    turtledove flew in to the wire to see what was it all about

     

    be everything to me – I am Your love

     

    misery – no. poverty – yes yes yes

     

    inferiority – ne. calmness – yes yes yes

     

    superiority – no. verve – yes yes yes

     

    I’m waiting

     

    I’ve leaned the fingers of both hands against the desk

     

    I’m watching the screen

     

    I was thinking of things that I’ve heard on television

     

    of a girl that was licking ice cream being leaned on the exit door of the supermarket

     

    of the shop for poor people

     

    of the rarest courage – courage in peace

     

    of the rarest compassion – compassion in happiness

     

    of solidarity in catastrophes

     

    of blue beggar

     

    of the smell of rye bread

     

    I’ll add béchamel to the cooked vegetables even though I don’t know what béchamel is

     

    this morning I was tenderly thinking of holly nescience

     

    I have never felt before more beautiful knowledge than the holly nescience

     

    I remembered how I resented my age when I was twenty six

    and how I came to the decision to go towards the new innocence

     

    wow how sanative that was

     

    I’ll go now to make that béchamel

     

    while I was making béchamel – if it is béchamel at all – I remembered my

    thoughts from this morning about beautiful human experience

    owing nothing guarantees long lasting love

     

    you want long lasting love – then don’t owe anything

     

    people are much more cheating with love than with money

     

    when love is gone then only money remains

     

    that’s why money is so brutally precise

     

    one third of money is love

     

    blue beggar begs blue money

     

    blue money is bowing of love-money

     

    name of the blue beggar is I-am-You-are-I

     

    I’m more and more excited by old people because I see girls and boys in their weakness

    just awakened sexuality

     

    greatness and beauty of old trees

    already eternity of all beings

     

    HARMLESSNESS I LOVE-KISS YOU

    2280. day
    30th March 2011

    I’m happy because today I will write about my envy

     

    I’m thinking about that from last night

     

    these words moved me

     

    people are slandering each other either out of envy or because they

    are themselves like the ones they are slandering. in first case, those who

    we are slandering are simply more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better

    that the slanderer; in second case, of typical projection, we slander people because

    of those individual characteristics which we ourselves posses in our hidden being,

    and which are bothering us, which we are even ashamed of, being either

    not at all or not sufficiently aware of them

    Vladeta Jerotic in his book Teachings of St. Isaac the Syrian and Our Times

     

    slandering gives birth to slandering. blessing gives birth to blessing

    Isaac the Syrian

     

    I’m going to the lake and I’m thinking of my envy

     

    I’m happy to write about it so that envy would get out of me but not enter anybody else

     

    I empathise with You and Your envy

     

    before I went outside I wrote on a piece paper the words of

    Vladeta Jerotic that I will leave to a random passerby on the lake

    I didn’t do it because of what happened

     

    I’m envious whenever I am not

     

    when I am then I just am

     

    I Am God

     

    I Am isn’t envious of anybody

     

    envy is shit

     

    shit is not bad. that is its nature. but if I leave it

    where I shouldn’t or if I process it then it feeds the life itself

     

    problem is when I start eating my own shit

     

    even bigger problem is if I start feeding somebody else with my shit

     

    envy of mine transform into I-Am

     

    I-Am feed yourself and drink from I am every being

     

    when I am not only that I easily accept the fact that somebody else

    is more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better but I rejoice it as well

     

    I envy when I’m too passive

     

    I envy when I’m lazy and when I’m loosing the faith in my work

     

    I envy when I forget who and what I have given my life to

     

    I envy when I get scared of death

     

    I envy when I don’t sympathise with the more claver, beautiful, rich

    or all together better ones and with sacrifice they are bearing in order to be that

     

    I envy when I get scared of my verves

     

    I envy when I forget that I’m the best

     

    I envy when I forget that only God is the best and that I am God

     

    I’m dedicating today’s blessings to the political

    prisoners and all those who are innocently convicted

     

    I’m dedicating today’s blessings to the more claver, beautiful, rich or all together better

    ones because they bear other people’s envy and also because

    I’m compassionate with their envy

     

    I still can’t calm down... when I was finishing with taking the photo of my face at the end

    of the lake one young woman approached me and took a photo of me. I thought it was

    somebody who knows me. when she came to me she said in fury you took a photo of

    us now I will take a photo of you. that’s for police. I was completely caught by her

    and frightened. I told her to look what is in my camera. she looked at it but there

    was not a single photo with her. I told her that I can imagine that she was

    upset by my photo taking but that she also upset me and that it would

    be nice to apologise when she saw I didn’t take a photo of her

    to apologise. that’s horrible what you are doing – she said

    God

     

    I went through all the photos at the desk and she really wasn’t there

    she and older woman who she was pushing the prom with had

    an impression that I was taking a photo of them while I was

    taking a photo of the paper with Vladeta Jerotic’s words

    innocence of the Bud of Art

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    moo

    silence

    muse

    agony

    music

    agony

    muse

    silence

    moo

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    THE SMELL OF WILD PLUMS

    2281. day
    31st March 2011

    budded fruit trees are really breath taking

     

    people are really annoying me – says famous Joe the dredger to the man

    who stopped him. last summer I drove out three dredges to Slavija Square

    and not even this much people was there. people love to suffer. silly people

     

    I thought of telling You please God don’t ever leave

    me. but then I felt that You neither want nor You can leave any

    being. beings are leaving You and they think that You have left them

     

    people are afraid of God because if they feel him they presage that God will be God

     

    God within themselves

     

    the smell of wild plums in the beginning of Visoka Street opens up my brain

     

    ... and in youth – asks young woman one very old toothless

    skinny man. in youth we were defying each other...

     

    a drawing of the Good Walker became damp from the sweat

    so the drawing paper curled up

     

    I am very tired

     

    hungry

     

    Achilles’ tendons and heels are over flown with strain

     

    I’m stretching my loins

     

    I’m clenching my jaws

     

    I’m thirsty

     

    I’ll open a water bottle

     

    water was so pleasant

     

    one cooked beetroot one potato one onion

    one carrot and a bit of cabbage are waiting for me

     

    Lightnin Hopkins is helping me. I’m enjoying his voice a lot

     

    I’m circling with shoulders

     

    I’m stretching the spine

     

    vertebras are cracking

     

    I’m tenderly thinking of nerves

     

    I will massage my heels and Achilles’ tendons after the lunch

     

    I will lie down and read Jack London’s White Fang

     

    after my eyes start closing I will close the book

     

    I will fall asleep like a child in armful of tiredness

     

    I will get up after an hour. I’ll make myself a tea for prostate

    I’ll massage my heels again and I’ll get out for a short walk

     

    I will turn the Bud on. I will listen to some music. I’ll download

    my blessings edited by Violeta and Ivana’s translation to English

     

    I will put the blessings and photos on the web site

     

    I will turn the Bud off. I will turn the TV on and I’ll draw the Numbers

     

    I will go to bed around eleven-twelve and I’ll read again

     

    I will turn the lights off

     

    I’ll go

     

    AND YOU WILL HAVE THE RYE ONE

    2282. day
    1st April 2011

    babies people. younglings of animals. buds of plants. grains of sand stones

     

    ideas of spiritual world

     

    sex of the sensual and metaphysical

     

    love of the sensual and metaphysical gives birth to the immortal beings

     

    I adore oversensitive people

    my phone is ringing – Petar Miloradovic is calling

     

    here are the first nudists on the lake

     

    buzz of the ladybirds around my head reminds me of summer

     

    and you will have the rye one

    a baker woman that was cold until now told me kindly yesterday

     

    I’m walking for the baker woman

     

    today begins census of the population

     

    I didn’t take part in the previous census or in the one before it

     

    ever since – in 1991 – I went on the

    Rose of Wandering my being and my status have changed

     

    address In Your heart

     

    nationality Life

     

    state Universe

     

    religion God

     

    membership Alone for all

     

    attribute God’s Child

     

    I am a poet not a citizen

     

    I am an artist not a member of an association

     

    I am a walker – constant creating and singing to all beings

     

    I am God not counting of the alive and the dead people

     

    a job of an enumerator is to enumerate and mine is to create yet nonexistent

     

    these blessings are my census

     

    everything I think feel speak do create sing is my census

     

    I hope that the enumerator will be understandable

    and that they won’t make problems for me

     

    I live and work for joy and in benefit of all beings

    and that is not done under the human laws

     

    humans are tiny portion of all beings

     

    check in freedom

     

    check in solidarity

     

    check in immortality

     

    check me into Your heart

     

    THERE YOU GO

    2283. day
    2nd April 2011

    Miroslav

    asked me an unknown woman near the Synodal Church. she reached out

    with her hand and said Isak’s wife. she rejoiced me very much

     

    you are more beautiful Svetlana. that’s why I couldn’t recognize you

     

    beauty is goodness

     

    while I was drawing Good Walker and thinking how many people lived on

    planet Earth until my birth so that I could know which number in that row

    am I exactly I could have plunged down the staircases on the Sava jetty

    I is God’s glory for myriad of times in a row

     

    I ask freely only when I’m happy because

    that’s when I transmit freedom and happiness on you

     

    I sexually love-kiss everybody’s sexuality

     

    bricks bricks

     

    thorn thorn

     

    baby baby

     

    God God

     

    obeying liberates

     

    liberation creates

     

    creation sings

     

    singing

    god

     

    god

    of

    singing

     

    I went after this old man on the crossroads

    out of respect even though red lights were on

     

    at this moment

    I have changed

    poems

    I am God

    in the book

    I am You are I

    into

    i am god

     

    I

    sing

    everything

    in

    small

    letters

    in

    glory

    of

    one

    and

    only

    great

    letter

    letter

    god

     

    the name all walkers who are walking into hundred thousand years is Miroslav Mandic

     

    the name of all artists who are creating in now is Miroslav Mandic

     

    the name of all poets who are singing in eternity is Miroslav Mandic

     

    every word is beauty and goodness

     

    there you are I can’t remember Greek word for goodness and beauty

     

    that is the way in which there you go is constantly present

     

    there you go

    I love-kiss

    you

     

    there you go

    eternal

    summer

     

    bathing of a soul

     

    sunbathing of a mind

     

    never say never

     

    always say now

     

    God I call you by my name

     

    you celebrate me through your name

    God

     

    god

    bud

     

    SING MIROSLAV MANDIC SING

    2285. day
    4th April 2011

    ruth

     

    compassion

     

    synergy

     

    harmony

     

    I am a donkey of beauty

     

    donkey of beauty love-kisses a mare

     

     

    mare

    of

    god

    is

    god

     

     

    there is no conversation without love

     

    there is no thinking without God

     

    I love-kiss

    conversation is dragging relativisation and hiding of guilt

     

    whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent

    Wittgenstein

     

    whereof one cannot speak, thereof I sing

    God

     

     

    every

    word

    is

    god’s

    name

    and

    poem

     

     

    i am god confirms God

     

    I was passing by the bus for blood donation

    I’m sorry I cannot donate blood because of jaundice that I had

    if I carried on donating blood after twenty fifth time until today I would

    have donate blood for hundred and forty times and around forty litres of blood

     

    instead of three of them there would be eight of them

     

     

    poem

    of

    life

    you

    are

    my

    life

    poem

     

     

    while I was writing the word bud I was passing by the cars from which

    one woman gave me a worried look. I approached the opened window and told her

    I’m writing something for myself and people get scared. just you do your job – she said

     

    when my seeing takes place of me watching I can see everything is love-kissing

     

    Clear

    scared woman is running after her dog and calling it

     

    only when I’m not myself – I am I

     

    only when I’m not a man – I am God

     

    God is love

     

    love transforms

     

    God becomes God

     

    it really makes me feel good when somebody is kind to me

    dedicated to a kind woman who I bought lettuce from

     

    ...I hurt you once long time ago...

    I got this text message from one child-woman

     

    a lot of people hurt me. mainly for no reason

    all those traumas shocked me and insulted me

     

    I love-kiss You my innocence

     

    I tried to transform all the traumas into poem art and love

     

    I love-kiss everyone who hurt me

    I never wanted to hurt anybody on purpose even though I’m aware that this hurts somebody as well

     

     

    and

    this

    goodness

    even

    more

    so

     

     

    and

    this

    beauty

    as

    well

     

    SHOWERING AND WIPING

    2286. day
    5th April 2011

     

       

    God is love



    love transforms

     

    God becomes God

     

    I wrote yesterday but this is today

     

    when I went out I decided to walk just three-four kilometres and come back

    as soon as possible to drink wine and write poem-exhibition-prayer This to You

     

    I took off my clothes in order to take a shower and all of a sudden

    I got a desire to wipe off the floor

     

    now I’m clean and I’ll write about what I was thinking while I was taking a shower

    and then about what I was thinking while wiping myself and drying my hair

     

    first the shower

     

    everything that I was that I am and that I will be is one God

     

    everything that I have lived that I live and that I will live is one Miroslav Mandic

     

    everything that I have love-kissed that I love-kiss and that I will love-kiss is one love

     

    everything that I have created that I create and that I will create is one bud

     

    everything that I have sung that I sing and that I will sing is one poem

     

    everything that I have drawn that I draw and that I will draw is one drawing

     

    everything that I have walked that I walk and that I will walk is one walk

     

    now the wiping and drying my hair

     

    everything that are to You Your Parents Your Kids Your Family

    that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your Country Your Nation Your State

    that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your Church Your Club that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your Patriarch Your Pope Your President

    Your Prime Minister Your Best Man that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your ancestry Your profession Your CV

    Your awards Your reputation that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your Employer Your Association Your Union

    Your Friends from the Neighbourhood that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your Nongovernmental Organisation

    Your Secret Society that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your property Your money Your bank

    that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    everything that are to You Your Judaism Your Zen Your Buddhism

    Your Orthodoxy Your Catholicism Your Islam Your Anthroposophy

    Your Gurdjieff Your Great-Christians Your Knowledge Book

    Your Singularity Your Lora Your Order of Love

    Your Transpersonalism Your Activism Your Anarchism

    Your Fascism Your Socialism Your Liberalism Your Humanism

    Your Holism Your Numerology Your Astrology Your Enlightenment

    Your History Your Feminism Your Facebook

    Your Secret Knowledge Your Secret Police...

    that is Miroslav Mandic to me

     

    You have

    Your Parents Your Kids Your Family

    Your Country Your Nation Your State Your Church Your Club

    Your Patriarch Your Pope Your President Your Prime Minister

    Your Best Man Your Ancestry Your Profession Your CV Your Awards

    Your Reputation Your Employer Your Association Your Union

    Your Friends from the Neighbourhood Your Nongovernmental Organisation

    Your Secret Society Your Property Your Money Your Bank

    Your Judaism Your Zen Your Buddhism

    Your Orthodoxy Your Catholicism Your Islam

    Your Anthroposophy Your Gurdjieff Your Great-Christians

    Your Knowledge Book Your Singularity Your Lora Your Order of Love

    Your Transpersonalism Your Activism Your Anarchism

    Your Fascism Your Socialism Your Liberalism Your Humanism

    Your Holism Your Numerology Your Astrology Your Enlightenment

    Your History Your Feminism Your Facebook

    Your Secret Knowledge Your Secret Police

    I only have Miroslav Mandic

     

    Miroslav Mandic God 

     

    Miroslav Mandic All Beings

     

    Miroslav Mandic Love

     

    Miroslav Mandic Bud

     

    Miroslav Mandic Poem

     

    Miroslav Mandic Drawing

     

    Miroslav Mandic Walk

     

     

     

     

    SHY SINGING

    2287. day
    6th April 2011

    God is love

     

    love transforms

     

    God becomes God

     

    I wrote yesterday and day before yesterday but this is today

     

    while weeding being bent down a worker of Parks and Gardens

    is talking over the mobile phone

     

    misusing is a tool of profit and interest

     

    good-using is shyness of singing and fragility

     

    everything is yellow with dandelion

     

    it will be red with poppies

     

    blue with swallows

     

    I haven’t seen a single poppy

     

    nor a first swallow

     

    a man screened his face from sun with the hat

    he took off and he’s watching the airplane above his head

     

    when I do something with permission of a dice

    I’m calmer even if I experience some unpleasantness

     

    I enjoy lettuce more and more

     

    it will be like that until the first tomatoes come

     

    really sometimes I write very well the word really

     

    I’m smiling to my failures

     

    they are liberating me from illusions

     

    leading me over the limits of success

     

    fool helps me a lot

     

    I would go crazy without fool

     

    fool easily takes what I can’t

     

    I should help fool as well

     

    fool

    let’s

    dance

     

    you dance so good

     

    I’m guarding You I love-kiss You my fool

     

    the angles of loneliness are guarding people from loneliness

     

    y

    o

    u

    a

    r

    e

    f

    o

    o

    l

    s

    I am fool

     

    fool’s children

     

    younglings of all beings

     

    God’s children

     

    words

    my fools

     

    M RUNS TOWARDS M

    2288. day
    7th April 2011

    God is love

     

    love transforms

     

    God becomes God

     

    I wrote yesterday the day before yesterday and three days ago but this is today

     

    Miroslav Mandic who writes the name of Miroslav Mandic

     

    I enjoy Miroslav Mandic who writes the name of Miroslav Mandic

     

    while writing the letters that are making the name Miroslav Mandic

    feels as if he’s writing over the rocky mountain wreaths

     

    everything trembles within that Miroslav Mandic writing

     

    dust that flies in the air sparkles with Miroslav Mandic

     

    flowery meadows are full of rhythmical jerks

     

    Miroslav Mandic is constant contractions and releases

     

    surrendering

     

    spine’s nerves

     

    Miroslav Mandic adjustment of all Miroslav Mandics

     

    Miroslav Mandic horse’s neck

     

    Miroslav Mandic thighs of love

     

    Miroslav Mandic cimcum

     

    M spermia

     

    M is Miroslav Mandic Miroslav Mandic is M

     

    one and only spermia of all beings

     

    Miroslav Mandic is what you wish for yourself

     

    Miroslav Mandic is what you are to others

     

    Miroslav Mandic wheat of an animal

     

    Miroslav Mandic supernatural bread

     

    Miroslav Mandic daily rose

     

    M runs towards M

     

    Miroslav Mandic modesty that protects every being from loneliness

     

    Miroslav Mandic boys which are running through water

     

    Miroslav Mandic before I create Miroslav Mandic

     

    Miroslav Mandic while I’m singing Miroslav Mandic

     

    Miroslav Mandic after the walking of Miroslav Mandic

     

    Miroslav Mandic helps me being Miroslav Mandic

     

    indivisible sameness

     

    CRYING IS A SORT OF FUCKING WITH WORLD’S PAIN

    2289. day
    8th April 2011

    God is love

     

    love transforms

     

    God becomes God

     

    I wrote yesterday the day before yesterday three four and five days ago but this is today

     

    forty years ago in summer 1971 I wrote a text

    Poem about Film because of which I was convicted. yesterday

    I thought that it would be nice to write the Poem about Poem this summer

     

    wow

     

    it could be the famous summer 2011

     

    richness destroys could be the first sentence of the Poem about Poem

     

    at this moment I’ve decided that I will be writing the Poem about Poem

     

    I will open a file Poem about Poem

     

    I opened it and I wrote down

    Richness destroys. Poem about Poem is immortal poem about immortality.

     

    I am a happy man

     

    I share the happiness with all beings

     

    fucking delivers beings

     

    singing creates all beings

     

    fucking love-kisses singing

     

    singing bows to fucking

     

    I hug the loyal ones

     

    I love-kiss the brave ones

     

     

    s

    p

    i

    n

    e

     

    o

    f

     

    m

    i

    n

    e

     

    I

     

    l

    o

    v

    e

    -

    k

    i

    s

    s

     

    y

    o

    u

     

     

    my heels and Achilles’ tendons are sore from 10th January. I saw this

    editing this years’ blessings. my spine is bothering me for more than a month

     

    everything is connected in the heart of an abused dog

     

    will

    into

    the

    heart

     

    mind

    into

    the

    heart

     

    heart

    into

    the

    pussy

    and

    cock

     

    pussy

    and

    cock

    into

    the

    poem

     

    poem

    into

    the

    resurrection

     

    wow what a joy while I’m writing this blessing in which end resurrects the same wow

     

    your

    heart

    pulsates

    within

    my

    chest

     

    s

    p

    s   p   i   n   e

    n

    e

     

    I love to love

     

    female artists love-kiss male singers of creativity

     

    male singers of creativity are fucking with inconsolable ones

     

    I DON’T SAY FUCK OFF TO ANYBODY. I SAY FUCK AND GET FUCKED TO EVERYBODY

    2290. day
    9th April 2011

    God is love

     

    love transforms

     

    God becomes God

     

    I wrote yesterday the day before yesterday three four and five days ago but this is today

     

    yesterday was Cioran’s birthday. in one text about him I’ve read

    for a bad news he will be awarded with Rivarol prize, the only prize that

    Cioran has ever accepted. And when Albert Camus told him: “Now you have to

    get involved with the flux of ideas”, he thought: “Fuck off!” “You will understand, he will

    give me lectures with his culture of a teacher”, he was confiding with Liiceanu; “he has

    read some writers, but he doesn’t have a bit of philosophical culture and he is telling me:

    now... as if he was addressing the pupil. I left. It was a great humiliation for me”.

     

    the culture of teachers is poisoning everything in front of it

     

    teacher is death for poetry

     

    teacher is lethal for art

     

    sadness

     

    world of bodies

     

    light

     

    holiness

     

    sanctum

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    heart

    god

     

    perfection

     

    everything turned into a dot

     

    everything comes out of a dot

     

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

    poem

     

    God

     

    truth

     

    beauty

     

    goodness

     

    beautiful

    within

    a

    poem

    of

    good

    and

    beautiful

     

    for

    one

    t

    o

    g

    e

    t

    h

    e

    r

     

     

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