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    ONLY EVERYTHING AND THAT BY ITSELF AND IN ITSELF

    2502. day
    7th November 2011

    two women have told me that they have also revolted against women

     

    five people have supported me in revolt against women – therefore

    I announce the revolt finished so that it wouldn’t end up winning and being triumphant

    I’m guarding sanctity through the sanctity of humour

     

    only

    fragility

     

    everything

    only everything is everything the rest is pain

     

    all or nothing

    because of the trepidation of light and fear from nothingness one chooses mediocrity

     

    mediocrity or nothing

    because of the unbearable mediocrity and fear from nothingness one gets into misery

     

    misery or nothing

    because of the fear from nothingness one remains in misery

     

    by rejecting everything human progress ended up in misery

     

    You don’t have a problem with others You have a problem with me

     

    You don’t have a problem with me You have a problem yourself

     

    with me You have splendours that You don’t foster nor live and

    hence the problems that You have with me and with yourself and with others

     

    my beloved-man nothing in this world is mine because all of it is me

     

    my beloved-female when I address somebody with my I’m talking

    about the quality and sameness and not about taking hold of and affiliation

     

    my particles you are my pigeons

     

    my cells you are my doves

     

    my vibrations you are my lullabies

     

    my light You are my lamb

     

    my walkings you are my swallows

     

    my faces you are my grasses

     

    my pussies you are my snails

     

    my cocks you are my sparrows

     

    my theories you are my clouds

     

    my tiny one You are my big one

     

    my big one You are my tiny one

     

    my soft-speaking You are my cognition

     

    my cognition You are my arch-confidence

     

    my arch-confidence You are my resurrection

     

    I’m happy when the beauty of a poem makes me cry

     

    all poems are hymns

     

    the climax of walking are silence and dancing – this is what I would go on for days

     

    the climax of creativity are love-kissings and fuckings

    – this is what I would go on for years

     

    the climax of singing is becoming the same

    – this is what I would go on for days

     

    one two three – let’s go again

    fragile

     


     

    TEN YEARS AGO

    2503. day
    8th November 2011

    ten years ago on this day of 8th November 2001 I finished the Rose of Wandering

     

    I was walking for ten years

     

    I was drawing for ten years

     

    I was writing for ten years

     

    I was building the bridge between millenniums for ten years

     

    I was creating the Blue Rose in the Universe for ten years

     

    I walked around the planet Earth and carried on walking through the Universe

     

    Universe became the measure of my steps

     

    love became the quality of my breath ins

     

    creation is transformation

     

    singing is identifying with

     

    by now all of that was finished. I felt as if I have taken

    off a great mountain of my shoulders that I was carrying all the time

     

    Nada Petronijevic-Covic was forty four at the time

    Nada was the only one who was at the beginning and at the end of the Rose of Wandering

     

    imagine pleasure in my chest

     

    that is you Miroslav in my chest

    you say

     

    light is bending down

     

    I enjoy immensely in Your cleverness that nobody notices

     

    I enjoy immensely in Your defeats which are only affirming You

     

    have ever been thinking the way the female elephant does

     

    have you ever come like a Universe

     

    have you ever fucked with coming winter

     

    have you ever been opening a book as you were opening your heart

     

    have you ever doubting yourself exchanged for the faith in the other

     

    have you ever in the tail of your spine felt heaven

     

    have you ever experienced that You are William Blake

     

    have you ever followed me in heights

     

    have you ever supported me in taking off

     

    have you ever asked me everything that You cannot even ask at all or Yourself

     

    I have finished the Rose of Wandering with 82.025.168 steps or 62.339 kilometres

     

    today I’m on the 7522nd kilometre of the Bud of Walking. one completely different walking

    on the Rose right Achilles tendon was hurting me. on the Bud left as well as the left heel

     

    I took the photo of the first and last Grass on the Rose and

    I will put them on the site. I also took the photo of my face on the

    first and the last day of the Rose of Wandering and I will put them on the site

    for few months now the programme for the site has been making problems and that exhausts me and makes me powerless

     

    ten years ago it was also sunny and warm day like this one

     

    I can’t put the photo of my face ten years ago on the link Face on which

    through everyday photos of my face I’m singing the walking of the Bud of Walking

    it’s Your glory God

     

     

     

    TWENTY YEARS AGO

    2504. day
    9th November 2011

    twenty years ago on this day of 9th November 1991 I started the Rose of Wandering

     

    Nada Petronijevic-Covic was thirty four

     

    everything was scary possible

     

    Atlantic Ocean in front of me

     

    nobody was preventing me from swimming it across

    and I flew over it

     

    never until then was I so small in front of something so big

    that’s now in my bones

     

    nothing ever depended so much from me and I was the only possible answer to that

     

    becoming a path on the road

     

    becoming a rose through wandering

     

    blue rose of the Universe

     

    after the first step which took me to the ten year long wandering I burst into tears

     

    a flock of geese flew over me

     

    there was no return

     

    during the preparations for the ten year long walking I was

    calling the Rose of Wandering by the name Wandering Through Europe

     

    the idea for the Wandering Through Europe was born on 10th October 1988 in Tubingen

     

    one year later on 9th November 1989 Berlin Wall came down

     

    I don’t remember if I already knew it and then forgot about it or I found out

    today that the Berlin Wall came down also on 9th November nonetheless I set out

    from London on 9th November 1991 on ten year long walking as I went to jail for a year

    in Sremska Mitrovica on 9th November 1972. that day as well thirty nine years ago

    was same sunny day like it was twenty years ago when I set out on ten year

    walking. sunny like today as well when I’m writing about all of that

     

    I wanted to begin the ten year walking before January 1992 when the

    European Union was supposed to start forming and I wanted to create a

    sanctuary over Europe with my steps. I wanted to affirm boundlessness of space and

    timelessness of time. I decided that the first step of the ten year long walking

    will be on 9th November 1991. latter on the forming of European Union was

    postponed since not all the conditions were created and I set out

    without any conditions

    in Days of My Life I proclaimed 9th November the Day of All Beings

     

    lights and joys of wandering

    for Rose of Wandering in 200… 2000… 20000 years…

     

    sun wanders to this very day

    for every moment. every point. every being

     

    Bud of Sameness

    finished book of Rose of Wandering for the book Miroslav Mandic which I’m currently writing

     

    Bud God

    Bud of All Beings

    Bud of Art Every Day

    Bud God-Sex-Money

    Bud Nest

    Bud Universe

    Bud Walking

    finished walking of the Rose of Wandering for the walking of the Bud of Walking which I’m currently walking

     

    today new Berlin Walls are being torn down

     

    light buds through love

     

    alone for everything

    You-I and I-You

     

    singing-You

    creating-You

    walking-You

     

    love-kissing-You

    making-You-immortal

    making-You-God-like

     

    love is alive

     

    life is immortal

     

    singing is creating is walking

     

    sing me creation

     

    create me walking

     

    walk me budding

     


     

    THIRTY YEARS AGO

    2505. day
    10th November 2011

    thirty years ago on this day on 10th November 1981 I was thirty two

     

    in the book I am You are Him which was still in manuscript at the time I wrote

     

    I am a glass of vine, a book page, a child’s kiss, a gram of heroin,

    municipality authorities, vestibule of vagina, foundation of a new house. Reasons

     

    it was two hundred and thirty fifth day since I started writing I am…

     

    I lived within the discovery of I and I was singing

    it is beauty that I was discovering in everything

     

    I of spring

     

    I of cold night air

     

    I of the swallows in the air

     

    I of the morning shadows

     

    everybody’s I was setting me free from my I and was filling me with beauty of

    any I. identifications with anybody’s I was making me both being sung or poet of I

     

    I was singing

     

    me the spoon in the compote of quince

     

    I embarrassment in writing

     

    I the iris

     

    I yearn for fucking

     

    I bud

     

    I didn’t know anything nor I could have nor I should have known about

     

    the Rose of Wandering

     

    Bud of Walking

     

    Miroslav Mandic

     

    Vera Varady who just sent me these words

    from that how somebody who you just briefly looked at

    while passing by them beholds the world, from his or her blessing or

    benevolence everything depends on. you see their look and you are in the other place.

    I didn’t know yet. I will meet her a year later and she will be during these almost thirty

    years my most steady friend

     

    on the last Leave for 10th November 1981 from the

    painting Leaves – Tree of Life I wrote black on white like day and night

     

    I loved more and more the very simplicity

     

    simplicity in everything and simplicity

     

    after the jaundice that I had in April that year fears from death

    began that were in some moments driving me insane and annul me

     

    living sometimes isn’t anything else but just surviving. celebrating the life

    itself. but let me go back to the I and art of I that I discovered and that opened up to me

     

    that mathematical ecstasy through writing

     

    through which I lived thirty years ago and which was happening parallel

    to the fears of death through which my I was dying and God’s I was getting born

     

    one and only I through which I’m singing and to which I’m singing for thirty years now

     

    through everyday repetition and with the repetition of the everyday

     

    singing through writing

     

    Miroslav Mandic Writing

     

    may it never stop with singing

    we’ll carry on – all beings are singing to me

     


     

    FORTY YEARS AGO

    2506. day
    11th November 2011

    forty years ago on this day on 11th November 1971 I was twenty two

     

    I was disgusted with army since I was sixteen. now I was in it

     

    today I’m sixty two and I can just confirm that everything connected to army is evil

     

    it’s sad how human males are engaged in such miserable ideals like killing

    I admire anyone who transforms and from war within him or herself makes paradise in the other

     

    killing slows down the development of brain

    of the male who are fertilizing their females like killers

    males transform yourselves and create a world without killings and enemies with your courage

     

    army enslaves and rules the man

    army or shopping it’s the same

     

    I experienced paranoia for the first time

     

    it was in the air

     

    I could touch it

     

    I was in the cage

     

    I was a bullet that kills

     

    a target for shooting

     

    I didn’t know anything at the time nor I could nor should have known about

     

    the jail I went to in a year and a half

     

    ten year works that were waiting for me to obey them

     

    obedience as the peak of creativity

     

    the book I am You are Him which was waiting for me ten years later

     

    pussy love You were nowhere around

     

    I was exposed

     

    youth has ended

     

    it was killed

     

    I was left only with life

     

    in couple of months the power of life in February kisses has regenerated me

     

    that’s when I started loving buds

     

    my brain has budded in my heart

    let’s dance forever

     

    a boy within me has survived and saved my Godly sex that they were killing

    we are singing

     

    tonight as well I am bowing to that boy

     

    tonight as well I am praying with that very same sex

     

    with the sex of innocence I have survived

     

    through the innocence of sex I am eternal

     

    tonight me the twenty two year old am walking

     

    towards the tomorrow’s twelve year old one

     

    towards

    you

    wife

    sister

    daughter

    mother

    whore

    female-friend

    of

    mine

    always

    and

    forever

     

    FIFTY YEARS AGO

    2507. day
    12th November 2011

    fifty years ago on this day on 12th November 1961 I was twelve

     

    I didn’t know back then that in two years I will have my

    first kiss with Oljenka and that eight years later Ljubica will die

     

    I knew we are poor but I felt free

     

    I’m coming to You world – that’s how I was growing up

     

    child people

     

    little boy of goodness

     

    boy of life joys

     

    I was becoming more and more myself

     

    all sorrows and joys were in my glands and sperm

    that was accumulating and getting ready to rush out of me

    like the blood of girls that was at that time beginning to flow out of them

     

    I was surviving for three years Milomir’s death

    because of which I thought I was going to die as well

     

    I survived – sex won over death – the sex of wonder of life itself

     

    sex towards older women

    I am twelve this afternoon as well and You are thirty three my beloved

     

    physical ecstasy of the surge of life was unstoppable

     

    running running running

     

    football football football

     

    standing long jump

     

    listening the radio. cinema. reading books

     

    I don’t remember what happened on 12th November 1961

    but I know that in twenty days our saint day was coming

     

    new fustian shirt

     

    indescribable celebration of light

     

    with each cell within me I was rejoicing every cell in the Universe

    I’m loyal to every being through sex

     

    there is no fucking with childhood and boyhood

     

    everything that exists was me

     

    That Is Me Love Is My Name

     

    all-cinema

     

    while I’m writing about that twelve year old boy

    as if I’m writing about this sixty two year old one

    come

     

    same

     

    my selfishness throughout all these years was complete surrendering to You

    the one who knows me will know what I am talking about

     

    my song throughout all these years is singing for You every moment my friend

    who love-kisses me knows who am I singing about

     

    ouch

    I enjoy writing innocence

     

    innocence love-kisses moment

     

    moment sings innocence

     

    eternity

    You say

     


     

    EVERYTHING IS ALWAYS FOR THE FIRST TIME

    2509. day
    14th November 2011

    I spoke a lot of words on Saturday and Sunday

     

    I believe good words

     

    my speech has opened up

     

    it was speaking me

     

    God

     

    through God

     

    it made me tired

     

    and now my web-site is not working

     

    Iran

     

    Romania

     

    lead me my words

     

    to Ethiopia

     

    everything in each heart

     

    to achieve

     

    friendship

     

    companionship of love

     

    of one

     

    and only

     

    love

     

    when the seed of chestnut flies

     

    when You don’t understand anything but You believe me more and more

     

    when You don’t understand even that

    You don’t understand a thing but You love me forever

     

    if my grandpa would sing now I would be listening

    to him with my mouth open but when I was a kid I would giggle

    these are Your words but don’t think that it is You and that this is about You

     

    speeded up will while celebrating makes people love each other

     

    the renunciation does not take. the renunciation gives

    it gives the inexhaustible power of the Simple

    Heidegger

     

    and tonight I need to the most important – to testify the modesty – modesty

     

    get into it a bit

     

    through sieving

     

    sieve me light

     

    only shyness liberates from false shyness

     

    only innocence liberates from shyness

     

    my heart hurts a little bit

     

    I jolted myself

    potatoes carrot sunflower oil ajvar and brad in two

     


     

    TOMORROW

    2510. day
    15th November 2011

    when I love You I love You as well

     

    when I love anybody I love You as well

     

    wen I love everything I love You as well

     

    only when I love You I love You as well

     

    only when I love everything I love You as well

     

    only when I love You I love everything as well

     

    only when I love I write that I love

     

    writing is love

     

    everyday love everyday writing

     

    with my writing You can

     

    wash Your face

     

    kiss

     

    fuck

     

    earn

     

    be compassionate

     

    be a violet

     

    be a fellowship of love

     

    swim in confidence

     

    start loving the rivalry

     

    confess

     

    redeem

     

    bow down to an enemy

     

    tattoo Miroslav Mandic name on Your body

    I did – You say

     

    lead Yourself towards Yourself

     

    repeat

     

    bud

     

    quiver

     

    come

     

    identify with

     

    adore

     

    be-God-like

     

    sleep

     

    in the morning wash Your face and all over again

     


     

    31ST TIME LAO TZU

    2511. day
    16th November 2011

    the female always overcomes the male by tranquility

    Lao Tzu in 61st Chapter

     

    why did the ancients highly value this Tao?

    did they not say – those who seek shall have it and those who sin shall be freed?

    Lao Tzu in 62nd Chapter

     

    just to write today as well something simple and easy

     

    morning-like

     

    with-washed-face

     

    through music

     

    just like that

     

    just simple as that

     

    through the spine

     

    in the belly

     

    through harmony

     

    through doodling

     

    through the house in my knees

     

    through being silent

     

    through refinement

     

    through the sand carried by the river

     

    through the walked sea shore

     

    through Charles Mingus

     

    through the theory of theories

     

    through contemplation

     

    through great whales

     

    through ocean depths in the heart

     

    through the law of all-love

     

    everything is the husband to everybody

     

    everybody is the wife of everything

     

    through long walking

     

    through the beans after walking

     

    through nails over the skin of music

     

    through musical fucking

     

    through the smell of tranquillity

     

    through agreeing in serenity

     

    through enjoying the happiness of all beings

     

    through satisfaction in every being

    plainest immortality of all beings now

     


    WINKS

    2512. day
    17th November 2011

    thanks to Mirjana Lukic I was yesterday at the doctor’s

    Vera Uzelac on braking up the calcaneus with sound waves

     

    therapy was done by nurse Ljiljana. when she would reach

    the thorn in the heel it would hurt but nurse’s care and carefulness were pleasant

     

    doctor advised five therapies

     

    during those two weeks I shouldn’t be walking

     

    I will surrender to the life in the Nest

     

    It would be wonderful if both thorn and pain in the heel would disappear

     

    almost a year now I’m walking with the pain

     

    I’m thinking of the children who are not talking of but suffering the pain

     

    I’m thinking of the animals with pains

     

    of plants in pain

     

    I will be taking a photo of the face of the walking in the Nest during the therapy

     

    on the Bud link I will be putting the photo of the Blue Rose for that day

     

    patience is heroism

     

    grace is refinement

     

    I love You God

     

    I went just to the market

     

    I bought bread potatoes carrot celery cayenne pepper

     

    I’m thinking of tender skin of grandmas

    who are kneading the sourdough for big airy donuts

     

    their skin is just so soft

     

    a being just yearns to satisfy the other being

     

    trees just grow high

     

    cold air and decomposing autumn leaves just smell so good

     

    although trees are not growing to the sky they are heavenly

     

    the one who loves is not alone

     

    who knows too much doesn’t love

     

    the one who winks will feel exactly what he or she yearns for

     

    the one who rings a bell in his or her heart will experience the sameness of all beings

     

    the one who imagines how all over his or her brain gyri curves the whisper

    I love-kiss I love-kiss You he or she will know that they became the home to all beings

     

    the one who touches his or her knees they will feel the knees

    hey what an experience

     

    I fell in love

     

    I fell in love with You my sunflower seed oil because I cannot

    stop being astonished by the beauty of sunflower from which You originate

     

    this is the reminder of the idea about the three lunches

     

    these are the words of today’s last blessing

     


     

     

    THE MONEY OF THEORY – TRANSFORMATION THROUGH GRATITUDETHE MONEY OF THEORY – TRANSFORMATION THROUGH GRATITUDE

    2513. day
    18th November 2011

    the one who loves is not alone

     

    the one who is alone loves the most

     

    nakedness of beauty surrenders to the goodness of nakedness

     

    whoever saw me naked knows how much I surrender to the theory

     

    to the medium of theory – to the mental observation

     

    to the body of theory – to tranquillity

     

    to the gaze of theory – to leniency

     

    to the technology of theory – to barefootedness

     

    to the biology of theory – to immortality

     

    to the politics of theory – to the free of charge

     

    to the event of theory – to the efflux

     

    to the architecture of theory – to the small poem

     

    to the textuality of theory – to the leap into the text

     

    to the screen of theory – to the ethical surrendering

     

    nakedness of goodness is loyal to the beauty of nakedness

     

    whoever saw me naked knows how much I love the theory of surrendering

     

    obedience

     

    get up – I get up

     

    shave. wash your hair. take a shower… 

     

    …I shaved. I washed my hair. I took a shower

     

    I drew the Blue Rose

     

    recorded the Blue Film

     

    took a photo of the Face of the Walking

     

    took a photo of the drawing of the Blue Rose

     

    in one hour I will go to the second therapy of the painful heel

     

    Violeta will be walking instead of me all of these days during the therapy

     

    the theory of walking I’m applying while walking

     

    the walking of the theory I’m applying in the theory

     

    the theory of theory I live through the life

     

    I live life observing the theory

     

    theory – experience of being silent

     

    theory – love through acceptance

     

    silence of the experience – accepting the love

     


     

     

    BRIGHT SILENCE

    2514. day
    19th November 2011

    few days ago I thought that the notion of

    energy should be exchanged for the notion goodness

     

    not the energy of the wind but the goodness of the wind

     

    not electric energy but the electric goodness

     

    not sexual energy but sexual goodness

     

    not used energy but used goodness

     

    silent brightness

     

    tender vehemence

     

    every moment is God’s glory

     

    grated beetroot mayonnaise bread and margarine

     

    I love little pictures of Virgin Mary which I’m getting from the beggars

     

    I’ve never met a single whore but I deeply respect them

     

    I am a husband to each one of them

     

    the being of goodness lives behind the horror

     

    being of beauty lives behind the atrocity

     

    every moment is a mystery

     

    every event is a miracle

     

    every being goodness of love

     

    my eye sight focus has shifted so everything is trebling in front of my eyes

     

    whole day today I’m gently thinking of a friend

     

    my name is

    Beloved Friend Lean Your Head On My Chest

     

    if you touch my legs You will feel the singing and dancing

     

    I am a good woman to myself

     

    sometimes I’m nothing else but what You want me to be to You

     

    I’m always what all beings expect from me

     

    goodness of the poem which is singing within me

     

    we are walking next to each other as if we are lying skin-tight

     

    I’m thinking of the snowstorm from thirty years ago which started all of a sudden

    in the woods and scared a friend and me that we will remain forever sweep covered with

    snow just like the woman found dead in the snow in the same woods around that time

     

    this goodness that I feel now You can spread over the bread

     

    my focus is back

     

    I’m lifting my hand in order to write the word slope

     

    and here is the song that is mobilising my whole body

     

    not the technology of high energies but the conscience of high goodness

     

    I Am One And Only Body Of All Beings

     


     

    GOD’S GLORY

    2516. day
    21st November 2011

    it’s glory it’s family saint

     

    it’s God’s glory

     

    St. Archangel Michael

     

    children’s joy

     

    my family saint is the saint of beggars and travellers

     

    of God’s chests

     

    a barer of the small turn of the moment

    my Vera Varady would say

     

    my glory Your volcano

     

    I’m only sorry for being stupid. I should have enjoyed more

    this evening as well my granny’s words spoken out before her death are warning

     

    candle

     

    bread

     

    wine

     

    wheat

     

    white chrysanthemums

     

    hey white chrysanthemums

     

    the smell of cold air and soil before the coming winter in those white petals of theirs

     

    Greg Brown

     

    sometimes I think that I would enjoy immensely

    writing about things describing them with a lot of details

     

    oh my simplicity I’m loyal to You forever

     

    the only detail is wholeness

     

    the only yearning is the only yearning

     

    I am God’s success

     

    smile within Your stomach

     

    pancreas of joy

     

    Kaja

     

    You’re nothing if You’re not Johnny Cash

     

    one is the only one

     

    we have been celebrating it. God’s glory. snow was up to the knees

     

    it seemed as if the life was immortal

    coming back from school. guests. cookies. white wafers. table full of food. children’s screaming. singing of the adults

     

    tonight being sixty two I know that life is mortal

     

    mortality is God’s glory

     

    resurrection

     

    shoulder movements – the very goodness

     


     

    FAIR GAME

    2517. day
    22nd November 2011

    I love fair game

     

    the day before yesterday I saw for the first time breasts of one woman over the Skype

     

    I couldn’t touch them but I was watching them

     

    it was exciting because it was for the first time

     

    virtual is natural

     

    God’s

     

    fair

     

    not communication – but nakedness

     

    not squaring a deal – but fucking

     

    not getting along– but agreeing

     

    not the law – but singing

     

    my baby

    baby is “beba” the best translation of the English baby. I like a lot when

    I hear that baby. it looks to me as if it refers to all that wants to be just like any baby

     

    my love You are my baby

     

    how beautiful are the white chrysanthemums

     

    I miss walking

     

    the pain in my heel is not receding

     

    I’m too much in the Nest

     

    I’m drinking a bit of rakia and watching the screen in order to see the blessing I’m writing

     

    I am a brother to the big trees

     

    our juices are the same

     

    I wouldn’t have survived if I lived according to the human rules

     

    birds have saved me

     

    roses

     

    path

     

    notions

     

    patience with which the life circles the Universe

     

    I’m thinking of the particle that wanders through

    the Universe and tears are rolling down my face from joy

     

    I think of everyone who has lost the sense and I say You are my sister

     

    I cannot stop wondering to the wonder of words

     

    just as I write any given word it already sings

     

    every word is a hymn to God in every being

     

    what would the two of us be if we were not meeting each other in these words

     

    my baby You and I are together always and forever

     


     

    ENTHUSIASMS WITH GRANNY’S FONDLING

    2518. day
    23rd November 2011

    how sexual is the granny’s touch

     

    yesterday I experienced it

     

    through touching her

     

    through being

     

    to the end

     

    tenuous

     

    surrendering

     

    renewing

     

    forgiving

     

    redeeming

     

    innocent through suppleness

     

    grassy

     

    meandering

     

    radiating

     

    soft like a goodness of just born girls

     

    like any other a miracle of nature is a testimony of God’s love

     

    of sugar canes in the wind

     

    of eternal granny

     

    tenderness that is rolling over all vibration

     

    implying immortality

     

    immortality is neither hope nor consolation

     

    immortality is the only certainty in the world without certainty

     

    how

     

    I don’t know

     

    but I wrote it

     

    I believe You my writing

     

    today I’m going on the fourth heel therapy

     

    I feel a bit guilty because the pain didn’t disappear

     

    I’m thinking of the birds’ wings

     

    I’m thinking of the feathers of which I was never thinking

     

    granny’s hands are soft like feathers

     

    through granny’s fondling soul is flying

     

    it delights the landscapes

     


     

    WE ARE WHITE CHRYSANTHEMUMS ON WHITE BICYCLES

    2519. day
    24th November 2011

    I’m off

     

    wrinkling yes. ironing no

     

    wrinkling is sophisticating. disappearing. emptiness filled with God

     

    ironing is avoidance of responsibility. hiding. emptiness filled with ego

     

    I like a name yes. I like a pronoun no

     

    I

    name

    god

     

    if you know me then you know how much it all hurts me and how

    only through even greater loneliness and constantly loyal to all beings

    and constantly together with You I can carry on my redemption

     

    my redemption are my singing creating walking

     

    singing of songs

     

    creating of blessings

     

    walking the buds

     

    poem is blessing. blessing is a story

     

    I am a good story

     

    just remember Yours and mine story

     

    I’m constantly telling it

     

    just remember the beginning of the story and how we have met

     

    remember all these years

     

    eternity that lives in our conversations

     

    each moment of ours is one novel

    while we were getting wet in the rain. going in the water. drinking wine. watching each other. vowing to each other

     

    nobody can destroy our story not even You

     

    nor our relationship can be destroyed because it’s always alive in this blessing

     

    nor

    can

    I

    destroy

    our

    story

    since

    it’s

    a

    poem

     

    all

    my

    words

    are

    a

    poem

    and

    all

    my

    poems

    are

    love-ones

     

    hey when we were on the hill

     

    we were picking up the apricots all over Titel

     

    we were the blue plums in the poem about cold plums

     

    we were driving bicycles on which was written in blue letters one and only road

     

    we were one heartbeat and one hoof in motion

     

    all

    my

    poems

    are

    the

    horse’s

    nostrils

     

    we loved Robert Walser with same love

     

    with the same bowing we belonged to the wonderful Simone Weil

     

    with one lips we were kissing bending of the knees

     

    with white chrysanthemums we were caressed

     


     

    ONE YEAR OF THE MIDDAY OF LOVE

    2520. day
    25th November 2011

    I’m coming

     

    for a whole year now lasts the Midday Concert of Love in the Universe

     

    that’s how another year has gone by

     

    through the Midday Concert of Love in the Universe

     

    through the midday of love

     

    every day when the midday bells start ringing I say

    I love-kiss You and I kiss the mobile phone while turning them off

     

    I often think when they start ringing that somebody is calling me

     

    then I remember

     

    that’s the midday of love

     

    that is the Midday Concert of Love in the Universe

     

    those are all beings on the concert of love

     

    wherever I am midday love love-kisses

     

    rings

     

    comes passes by goes away

     

    day by day

     

    week by week

     

    month by month

     

    year by year

     

    millennium by millennium

     

    snow by snow

     

    I love when it snows for the first time

     

    when the chrysanthemums are white like snow

     

    when all colours are white like snow

     

    when all younglings are being born white like snow

     

    younglings are yearning for the resurrection of the dead

     

    dead are resurrecting with the help of love of just born younglings

     

    love waits for all beings to resurrect in one being

     

    You’re waiting

     

    I’m coming

     

    to all beings

     

    midday bells of love ring to all beings

     

    they are waking love with love

     

    love love-kisses the midday of love

    let’s be realistic – love is resurrection

     


     

    I AM A GIRL-FRIEND

    2521. day
    26th November 2011

    alone

    together

     

    alone

    all beings

     

    alone

    one

     

    alone

    for all

     

    alone

    sex

     

    alone

    God

     

    joy of courage and courageousness of singing

     

    Big Bill Broonzy

    while listening to Big Bill Broonzy I’m remembering how I was listening to him al lot

    twenty five years ago while writing No, I Don’t Believe That This Sentence Cannot Be Heard

     

    Universe cannot fit into my heart because it’s too big

     

    God is in my heart because it’s a lot bigger than the Universe

     

    Universe is my measure for walking

     

    Universe is my good friend

     

    it’s cloudy so at my desk the dusk is already setting in

     

    I’m wiping the sweat from my chest

     

    sexuality is the first letter of tenderness

     

    violence and power are asexual

     

    domination is asexual and it’s directed against sexuality

     

    entertainment and comfort are the biggest killers of sexuality

     

    my sexuality is careful towards every being

     

    innocence of innocence

     

    sex of all particles

     

    sex of all vibrations

     

    sex of all paths

     

    sex of the one and only rose

     

    I sing You my friend

    the most horrific things that are happening on the planet Earth are weapons and

    politics of indifference with which the consciousness and conscience of the Earthlings is being killed

    so that they wouldn’t rebel against the evils done by those who make weapons and spread the politics of indifference

     

    I poured béchamel sauce over the grated celery

     

    I’m surrendering to the brave ones

     

    I’m clinging to the heart of big turtles

     

    modesty is agreeing with the fact that the life of all beings depends on my tenderness

     

    I miss all of you whenever died ones – I miss you

    yet unborn but already love-kissed ones

     

    have a look now at this with exactly this I love-kiss You

     

    sexcosmos

     

    once more all together

    alone

     


     

    WORKER OF TENDERNESS

    2523. day
    28th November 2011

    I went very far

     

    to the end of the Universe in Your heart

     

    closeness is indescribably far

     

    only the workers of tenderness are getting to the furthest point of closeness

     

    closeness is tenderness of the sameness

     

    one skin of all beings

     

    I’m mining the tenderness

     

    I’m digging it in the hearts of all beings

     

    I’m opening new mines in the hearts of the miners of tenderness

     

    worker of tenderness is a miner of carefulness

     

    ore of tenderness is I miss You

     

    tenderness of ugly words

     

    tenderness of pussy

     

    power of dick

     

    tenderness of pussy is the power of dick

     

    courage of tender dick is tender to the powerful pussy

     

    tenderness of Vlasta Delimar’s pussy

    I’m happy in this blessing

     

    power of Tom Gotovac’s dick

    I’m serene with this blessing

     

    I’m singing – tenderness permeates all beings

     

    I’m creating – tenderness renews tenderness

     

    I’m walking – tenderness is the name of the Universe

     

    singing creating walking are tender fucking

     

    tender fucking is my constant fucking through admiration

     

    musical fucking is my constant tender fucking through music

     

    tenderly fucking

     

    tender is fucking

     

    economy will be tender or it won’t exist

     

    philosophy will be tender or it won’t exist

     

    art will be tender or it won’t exist

     

    religion will be tender or it won’t exist

     

    today I walked for the first time after ten days. after five therapies pain

    in my heel didn’t disappear. the doctor advises five more therapies. therapies

    are expensive. I don’t know what should I do. I’m rejoicing the walking

     

    I get humble for the health of all beings

     

    humble ones I love-kiss you tenderly

    rejoice joy rejoice

     


     

    GOODBYE AMERICA

    2524. day
    29th November 2011

    wife of mine

     

    God’s beauty

     

    calmness

    and

    contrite

     

    path

    and

    rose

     

    good

    and

    beautiful

     

    rocking

    and

    rolling

     

    please

    and

    thank you

     

    dancing

    and

    singing

     

    care

    and

    carefulness

     

    unreasonableness

    and

    insouciance

     

    You

    and

    me

     

    zaista

     

    I used to love America

     

    cowboys. Indians. jazz. blues. rock’n’roll. anti-racist movement. New York

     

    Chief Seattle. Thoreau. Emerson. Whitman. Poe. Louis Armstrong

    Billie Holiday. Gertrude Stein. William Carlos Williams. Charlie Chaplin

    Lee Marvin. John Cassavetes. Unknown Number of Blues Musicians. Fats Domino

    Cage. Cash. Ad Reinhardt. Martin Luther King. Abbie Hoffman. Peace Pilgrim

     

    it’s all me

     

    but now as the hegemony of America is stopping you can see it’s flip-side

     

    America of crimes

     

    crimes over the crimes

     

    disclosure of American crimes leads to the cleaning the Europe’s crimes

     

    disclosure of liberalism crimes leads to the cleaning

    of the fascism crimes communist crimes of the liberalism crimes

     

    disclosure of the white man’s crimes

     

    goodbye America

     

    confession leads to confession

     

    I admit I didn’t love enough – I admit I would love if I would love even much more

     

    I admit I didn’t want You enough – I admit

    I’m trying to keep on wanting You ever moment

     

    I admit I love You through singing – I admit You love me through singing

     

    I admit I fuck You through singing – I admit You love-kiss me through my fucking

     

    I admit fucking is the church of life

    God

     

    I admit God You are the only God

     

    I admit I rejoice You through singing

     

    one gets to the top of the world in three steps

     

    with one to God

    I made a step

     


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